I can't be satisfied, is the bottom line. When I'm overweight, I feel gross because I'm fat and my body doesn't look good because of all the fat. Now that I'm not overweight really anymore, my body has taken the opposite turn. The fat won't come off my arms and legs, but it LOVES coming off of my torso, and well, I kinda feel like I look gross but in the other way. Instead of fat, I'm now bony and saggy. And that's not pretty either.
I've started the C25K running program in hopes that it'll help some, and I'm hoping to get back in the gym once school starts back up and I have free access again. But part of me feels like that no matter what I do, I'll never be satsified and my body will never look like I want it to and I'm SO tired of being self-conscious! It's gotten to the point to where I almost don't even want to be naked while I'm having sex so I can spare my partner the sight of my body, even though I know he doesn't have a problem with it.
I don't know what to do. I wish weight would come off my body differently. I hate having such an awkward body. :/