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Originally Posted by krampus
Size is just a number or a label yet it dictates so much! I haven't been shopping in the States since summer and I am DYING to know my American clothing size, but why does it even matter? Sizes vary by store and are even inconsistent within one store brand. It's about fit and how it looks, not size, but like a lot of other folks on this thread I'm not ready to let it go.
My next big exciting thrill will be when I go shopping in Germany and find I can wear a European 36-38 instead of the 40-42 I wore the last time I was there.  |
It's not about the fit for me, not one bit. I do buy clothes that fit, except when I'm in that unhealthy mindset in which case I do the opposite of most women and buy things too big.
For me it's the fact that there is no subjective measure of what we look like. Our eyes deceive us, our friends lie to us...the only true measure we have is clothing. When I lose that, I lose my sense of reality when it comes to my body image.
I've said in other threads I have this image of myself when I'm not looking in mirrors or pictures and that image of me is now 20 pounds heavier than I truly am. So I always think I am carrying around this extra weight when in reality I am not. I've come to like this heavier image of myself, having been a whole lot heavier, but I lose focus when I shop for clothes. I expect the clothing to set me straight and when it doesn't, I get angry.
Yes, Matt, I compare myself to others constantly and online I compare my measurements with other same height/weight. I'm constantly looking for reassurance that I am doing something right.
