Oh I know the feeling of losing and then gaining the same weight.... I have done it for 30+ years.... Got down to 198 and then up up up.. down to 230 then up up up down to 245 5 years ago then up to 310... Its just a "hard" thing... But I think when you decide that THIS IS IT and realize that you are just going to have to watch it for the rest of your life (I think not being perfect is aok as long as you watch it) then that is the decission!... Just gotta do it... We are only missing out on CR*P that masks as food anyway....
I know you can do it Sunny!! Don't go away again!!! We are here for you as you are for us!