Exercise! - failed at being a runner before i've even begun




futuresurferchick
10-23-2006, 02:19 PM
Hi guys. I went to the track and field centre at my school today with the idea that I was gonna start the couch-to-5k running program. I went in there the other day to look around and thought I could convince myself I could handle it... but when I got in there today, I just couldn't do it. The place was full of athletes practicing, even more than last time. I felt like such a loser even standing in the same building with them. No way could I jog/walk around that track knowing that they were all watching me, thinking about how they're looking at that fat girl trying to run. I feel so let down because I really want to do this, but that's the only place around here that I could practice this winter and I don't think I can go back there. :(
Do any of you guys run outside in the winter? It's not something I really want to do but I don't know.. maybe I could.


3Beans
10-23-2006, 02:25 PM
Well, chances are, everyone's too busy with their own workout to stand around judging. But even if what you fear comes true, so what? Don't let the random idiots of the world stand between you and your goals. You have many reasons to be proud. You've come a long way already and are motivated to try something new.

Go for it, knowing you have a supportive group right there with you in spirit!:hug:

Optical Goddess
10-23-2006, 03:48 PM
Another idea is to ask one of the athletes for advice. Many people will give you a lot of credit for trying something new. Sure, there may be some jerks there, but I'm willing to bet that all of those athletes had to start sometime, and some place. If word gets out about what you're trying to accomplish, you could meet some interesting people, and get tips and support in addition. As for the jerks, once they realize that no matter what they say, you're not going to quit, and that they don't matter to you, then they won't be so entertained and will move on.


lilybelle
10-23-2006, 04:23 PM
Some of these "atheletes" may have been in the same place you are at a while back. I wouldn't let them bother me. When they see that you are there consistently all they will think is "she's really working hard to improve her health". Before long, you will just be part of the group. Don't let anyone else or anything hold you back from what you need to do for yourself.

futuresurferchick
10-23-2006, 04:47 PM
Thanks guys, I know what you're saying is true but it's different when I'm standing there. I'm still trying to think of an alternative. It's not really about them, I doubt they would say anything, it's about me and where my head is.

Lydia227
10-23-2006, 05:12 PM
Please go and give it another try. Really, you must do this. Plug in some music, ignore anyone around you who seems to be giving off unfriendly vibes and get the run you came for. ;)

Really though if they are serious runners, they will respect you for being there on a regular basis and maybe even offer support as you become an accomplished runner too. GO GO GO GO. :cheer:

Also, go get fitted for the best shoes for your gait and DO NOT push yourself too hard. Bad things happen when you do too much too soon, run too fast, too far, for too long. C25K is a good outline plan. Just make sure you listen to your body during each run for any signs of "bad pain." (If you are already savvy enough to know about C25K then you probably already know all of this so I'll stop.):soap:

Good luck! I hope you have a great first run!

midwife
10-23-2006, 08:09 PM
I know what you mean.

When I first started running, I went to the local h.s. track and the FOOTBALL team was practicing.

I chickened out.

I went back. I didn't chicken out. I ran the straights and walked the curves. Over and over again.

I just finished my first half-marathon. Ran the whole 13.1 mile distance.

If I can do it, ANYONE can do it.

futuresurferchick
10-24-2006, 01:58 AM
I don't know if I can go back at this point.... I feel stupid for insisting on this when you guys are obviously right, I should go back there.... but I don't want exercise to be this intimidating thing for me, it just sucks. I'm thinking about just using the treadmill at the gym instead for a while.. until I feel more comfortable about running maybe, I don't know. I know it's not the same as real running in some ways but it does train you aerobically. Would it be a total cop-out if I followed the C25K program using a treadmill?

YP1
10-24-2006, 04:35 AM
That's not a cop out at all - I started running on the treadmill, up to and past doing my first 10k.

I mainly run outside now that I have more confidence, and I've started to find the treadmill boring, but there's nothing wrong with starting there if it makes you feel more comfortable.

finn
10-24-2006, 06:39 AM
Gez I don't blame you for chickening out! Not too sure if would have continued as planned either! I'm on my last week on C25k all done on a gym treadmill...I've never ran outside. C25K is perfectly doable on a treadmill so my advice is do that if you feel more comfortable.

Lydia227
10-24-2006, 09:31 AM
Hi Futuresurferchick,

Using a treadmill is not a cop out at all. That's how I started too. In fact, with winter around the corner I think it's a great option. No black ice to deal with. If your interest is in running outdoors make it your plan to acclimate to outdoor running this spring. By then you will have a good foundation in place for the challenges of outdoor running.

Since you also have access to a gym, don't forget to do some strength training as well. Make sure that your quads, hamstrings and abs become well conditioned to help support the impact that running has on your bones/framework. :strong:

Best of luck and have fun!

softballmom
10-24-2006, 09:35 AM
futuresurferchick: I agree with everyone here depending first on what you feel comfortable to do. (But, don't let anyone sway you from your healthy choices!)

If you want to do the treadmill, many have done the C25K this way. This may work for you until you gain your confidence and will keep you out of the cold weather, as well.

If you want to try the track again now or at a later time, then I agree that most people out there are not paying attention, and if they are they're probably glad you're out there doing your thing. I graduated from the C25K just a couple of months ago and I have picked up encouragement from the more experienced runners then and even now. And like a circle, I now like to encourage those that I know are just beginning. I think the majority of people in this world are nice and thoughtful down deep, maybe just a little uncomfortable to "meet strangers". But you keep coming around and I'm sure they will open up with suggestions and encouragement.

If you want to try outside, then dress for conditions and go for it. Above all, I will restate what Lydia has said - make sure that you have a good pair of running shoes and be safe. You will probably experience discomfort, but NEVER pain!!

I have learned more about myself from running, and have found that running is a continual experience to learn from. Enjoy it!

softballmom
10-24-2006, 10:05 AM
You're right the treadmill will hold a different experience than track or road running. But, I have heard that an incline will help to closely resemble outside running. Also, the treadmill will be easier on your ankles as it will give some, where asphalt will not. So while it may be a different experience, it may not be a bad one.

LisaMarie71
10-24-2006, 12:17 PM
I completely understand where you're coming from. In the past, when I tried to run or jog a little, I'd always stop when I saw a car coming because I couldn't stand the thought of someone seeing me run. I'm just now getting to the point where I can jog through my neighborhood without caring what anyone thinks. I don't jog on the treadmill at the gym because I'm still concerned about what I look like there. I know it's stupid, but I always see my students and their parents there, and it's hard enough to have them talking to me about their grades while I'm sweating and panting!!

I'd also love to use the track at my school (my husband is even a track coach there, so it's not like I wouldn't always have access!) but I'm too embarrassed to run in front of my students. It may be silly, but it's the way I feel. So I feel your pain!! But if you feel comfortable running inside on a treadmill, you should definitely do that!

I plan on jogging through my neighborhood tonight and not caring at all what anyone thinks!! Eventually I'll be able to do that anywhere! :carrot:

Kreen
10-24-2006, 12:31 PM
I agree with everyone's advice. I think focus on you, strike up a conversation with one of them if you want, but just worry about you and try it out! Don't worry about anything else.

futuresurferchick
10-24-2006, 04:15 PM
I am really relieved to hear that treadmill running is an alright way to go about doing the C25K program. I don't know why but I feel so much more comfortable at the gym here than at the track. I think it's got something to do with the fact that no one can really tell how slow I am on a treadmill. And I'm glad to know I'm not the only one who has a complex about this. I think some of you are lot braver than me in terms of facing up to these issues... I'd rather just avoid the place.. lol.. I will definitely take your advice to heart, thank you all. I'm sure I'll have more questions too soon enough.

2frustrated
10-25-2006, 05:05 AM
Just wanted to add this, something I just remembered last night, when I started C25K I did one of my first week sessions running up and down the living room. :crazy: I wan't going to let the fact that it was dark outside stop me running!

Where there's a will there's a way - oh and what it says down there in my siggy ;)

Heather
10-25-2006, 07:26 PM
I'm another who was intimidated by a gym when I started at 295! We have a treadmill in the basement I made extensive use of. When I felt more comfortable I joined the Y (at 250!). You know, once I got past it, I didn't feel uncomfortable there! Easing into it is fine!

Now we joined a new gym and I KNOW I would not have been able to join it 100+ pounds ago.

So, we get it. Treadmill is a great way to start! When you start getting bored, you'll know it's time to try something new!

WindyCityChick
10-27-2006, 12:14 AM
I agree with the other posters that you can certainly do the program on the treadmill...after all, the most important thing is to build your strength and endurance, and I am sure that the treadmill can be used effectively to do so.

But, if you want to tackle the track again, here's a practical suggestion for you. I was intimidated by the idea of running on the running path near me too - I was sure everyone would know I had no clue what I was doing and would be aghast at how out of shape I am. But I don't like the gym and would rather be outdoors, so I decided that if I wore a baseball cap and sunglasses, I could hide behind them whenever another runner was near. I know it sounds silly, but having those barriers to limit eye contact worked for me in getting over that initial fear thing. Now (a whole week later!), I feel much more comfortable out there, having realized: (1) that no one is really looking at me, let alone laughing and pointing; and (2) that the runners out there come in all shapes, sizes and strides.

Bottom line - do what you are comfortable with, the most important thing is to get in the exercise....but if you really want to be outdoors, give it a try!

boarderchick
10-27-2006, 03:38 PM
When I first started losing all my weight, I was a bit intimidated by any new activity or sport. I became an expert at getting folks in my life to try things with me. As a result, I've learned to snowboard, mountain bike, surf (yes, futuresurferchick, SURF)...wouldn't trade all of that for the world. What I'm trying to say is, how about getting a friend or family member to share your discomfort with this? Drag someone off the couch along with you. Trust me, the more you try new things, the more confident you'll be, it's a positive cycle. My friends and family are now terrified of me--they know they'll be dragged into some adventure or another. : )) Good luck, I respect your efforts to try new things!

KnitALisa
10-27-2006, 04:18 PM
Futuresurferchick, I feel yah! I had the same problem going to my ex-college gym. It's so disheartening and I know it's all in my head, but it's hard to get past it. I've set up a little gym in a corner of my basement; TV/DVD, radio, treadmill, set of handweights, yoga mat, and stability ball. It lets me be private and focus all my energy on my workout rather than my insecurities.

On a side note, I had never heard of the C25k program, thanks for introducing it to me! My mom is a runner and had done a couple of marathons, it'd be nice to at least do a 5k with her!

futuresurferchick
10-29-2006, 10:34 PM
when I started C25K I did one of my first week sessions running up and down the living room. :crazy:

That's fantastic... I may have to try that on a cold winter day! :lol: My living room is very small so it would be very challenging!

Now we joined a new gym and I KNOW I would not have been able to join it 100+ pounds ago.

I know what you mean.. when I first started going to the gym I was too afraid to go to the one here on campus so I paid way too much to travel to a YMCA one instead. It was ultimately unsustainable and then I realized that the gym here wasn't so scary afterall. :dizzy: I'm sure the same would be true of the track, but for now I think I'll stick with the treadmill.

But, if you want to tackle the track again, here's a practical suggestion for you. I decided that if I wore a baseball cap and sunglasses, I could hide behind them whenever another runner was near. I know it sounds silly, but having those barriers to limit eye contact worked for me in getting over that initial fear thing.

That is a really creative idea! lol wow. Thanks for the tip. Maybe one day I'll try that out. Good for you for conquering your fear.

When I first started losing all my weight, I was a bit intimidated by any new activity or sport. I became an expert at getting folks in my life to try things with me. As a result, I've learned to snowboard, mountain bike, surf (yes, futuresurferchick, SURF)...wouldn't trade all of that for the world. What I'm trying to say is, how about getting a friend or family member to share your discomfort with this? Drag someone off the couch along with you.

I totally admire that you are out there trying all of these activities and sports--that is a huge part of why I am losing weight. I've recruited an athletic male friend to run with me in the spring so I have to be ready to take him on... I think that is motivation enough to keep me going. :)

I had never heard of the C25k program, thanks for introducing it to me! My mom is a runner and had done a couple of marathons, it'd be nice to at least do a 5k with her!

I found it through 3FC too.. it's a great program. I'm enjoying it so far, my 3rd workout is tomorrow. Good luck with it!