Joan - WOW! You are going through a lot right now and still you've lost 51 POUNDS!!!!!
Obviously you are an amazing woman to accomplish so much during such an emotional and trying time. I can't attempt to imagine what you are going through, but I do know that 51 pounds is awesome! Stay strong during this time, treat yourself special because you're worth it!
One thought - no one can take YOUR self respect. No one knows you better than you do, therefore the only thing that affects YOUR self respect is the choices you make for yourself and hence, the way you see yourself. So, EMPOWERED WOMAN, you go girl!!! As everyone said, we're here for you and we'd love to get updates whenever you can post them.