08-19-2006, 06:52 AM
So my husband had a job interview yesterday in the heart of the "Big Apple" . I went with him for moral support and a day in NYC is always fun too. While he interviewed - I began to wander around some of my very favorite areas and realized what a food trigger place Manhatten is for me. My g-d, I have favorite food stops all over that town. You know, stuff that's the best, or you can only get it there. But you know what?!?! I had a lovely salad for lunch, about 5 points, and a latte with skim milk and that was that. I thought alot about all of you and your stories of success and strength. I realized I'm not alone, it's work and if I keep doing what I'm doing, in a year from now I WILL LOOK, but more importantly FEEL different. I'm proud of me! I realized I don't have to keep wishing for a healthy, thin body - I can contribe to that becoming my reality. I think I also realized that I have been telling myself some really negative messages like "you're just meant to be fat" and "you'll never be thin". I would never say such a thing to anyone else. I AM meant to be healthy and fit!!!