100 lb. Club - Another New-Oldbie, coming back




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Xan
07-09-2006, 05:56 PM
Hi! I found this site back in 1999. I weighed about 285 then, and it doesn't help one little bit to think that if I'd only lost ONE POUND A MONTH I'd be 72 pounds lighter instead of 13 pounds heavier. Since 1999, I've weighed as low as 269 (2000) and as high as 298 (two weeks ago). So I have more than 100 pounds to lose. (I'm taking them ten pounds at a time.)

I used to cook, but for about the past 15 years I've had such a horrendous schedule -- lots of deadlines, working from project to project, which means working 12 to 16 hour days and collapsing on the weeks in between -- that I've fallen into horrendous eating habits: grabbing snacks from the vending machine in the basement, living on cokes and candy bars, etc. Cooking to me is frying a steak, or making a tunafish sandwich. I also had gotten so used to the 1200 calorie a day diet (I lost weight on WW years ago and can do the old exchange program in my sleep) that I plan the old WW day, still have 12 points a day to play with, and I do. I live in a small apartment, and exercise is walking around in it or going down to the lobby to check the mail, or walk to the corner to get a bus.

I have a light, relatively predictable schedule until September, and I AM DETERMINED to stick to an eating plan. I'm doing WW because, among my many sins, I bounce back and forth among plans, and with WW, you can pretty much fit any combination of foods, as long as you stay within points.

I've been heavy since I was 13, although not nearly as heavy as I thought then. I weighed 160 when I graduated from high school; I'm 5'8". I weighed about 175 when I graduated from college, gained another 20 my first year of working, bounced back and forth within a 30-pound range for years, then achieved my current magnificent proportions by gaining 5 or 6 pounds a year for the past 15 years.

In 1999 when I first came to 3FC, and the half-dozen or so times I've come back, full of enthusiasm and good intentions, the one thing I lacked was commitment. I have that now. I have to do this. I know I will not lose five pounds a day, much less a week, and that's okay. I know that I will not lose at a steady, predictable rate; that I will have a bad day now and then, but that does not give me permission to look for a new, better plan to start the next Monday so that for the next five days I won't have to worry about dieting. I will have to change habits, I will have to plan; I will have to examine what I'm doing every week and see what works and what does not.

Sorry this is so long! I've been reading this forum for several weeks, and am looking forward to getting to know all of you.


famograham
07-09-2006, 06:30 PM
Welcome back! :welcome3:

You can do this :)

:hug:
Linda

teahoney
07-09-2006, 06:44 PM
Well, I am glad that you found your way back. Welcome back. Can't wait to get to know you.


jtammy
07-09-2006, 06:47 PM
Welcome back. Commitment is the one thing you can't fake when trying to lose weight. Enthusiasm and good intentions will come and go, but commitment is key. Good for you for recognizing you must have it. :)

I look forward to getting to know you.

babyfat10
07-09-2006, 07:01 PM
your letter reminded me of myself. I have lost and gained a couple of 150 pound people in my time. My 50th birthday is comming up soon and I scared I am going to die this way. I am having trouble with my feet and legs and knees. Exercise is not my thing. Like you I am going to try again. Like you This is Sunday and I have waited until Monday to start. 'I am runnning out of Mondays.
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amberzade
07-09-2006, 07:52 PM
Welcome back and good luck!!

Sandi
07-09-2006, 08:25 PM
Welcome to both of you!!! This is a great place for support!!

Misti in Seattle
07-09-2006, 09:52 PM
Welcome back to 3FC!!

beautifulone
07-09-2006, 10:11 PM
Oh welcome!!
I myself have lurked around occassionally for years - this place really is wonderful isn't it :) What you wrote reminds me of myself and it also comforted me as it reminded me that I'm not alone, none of us are - so thank you!

Good luck and hope to see you around!!

supernurse_mommie
07-09-2006, 10:15 PM
Welcome Welcome Welcome

shrinkingchica
07-09-2006, 10:36 PM
Welcome Back! :)

thistoo
07-10-2006, 08:49 AM
Change a few details and your story could be mine. I'm determined this time too, and I truly hope that we can see this thing through together. Welcome back from a new-newbie : )

Heather
07-10-2006, 09:19 AM
your story is mine too! Especially vending machine snacks and cooking is a tuna sandwich! Though I did get as far as cooking is hamburger helper!

You sound like you have a good plan AND a good attitude about this! That helps so much!

I committed this time and so far have achieved more success than ever before (knocking on the door to onederland!)

Good luck and post often!

DishyFishy
07-10-2006, 02:10 PM
Welcome back, Xan! :welcome2:

Sounds as though you have a plan. :yes: Stick around and share your journey.

roundRN
07-10-2006, 02:31 PM
HI and Welcome Back......it's great to have you here!!!! I'm a bit biased...but WW is an awesome plan!!!!!! I've lost "nearly" 100 pounds following WW online...it's a great program that gives you choices. Stick with it and I promise, you will see the results. It sounds like you are ready and have a great mind-set...that's awesome!!! Good luck to you and hope to see you around lots!!

Hugs,
LIv

judee18709
07-10-2006, 02:39 PM
welcome back!!!!
:welcome:

i just came back to this website myself, the last time i used this website I actually lose 80 pounds. But now I am my heaviest I have ever been, weighing in at 272.5 but that was a month ago. I lost 10 pounds in a month and two weeks, so i am trying but now i am kinda stuck. So welcome to this website, if you need a support buddy to get through the weight loss i'll help ya.


sw- 272.5
cw-262.0
gw- 175

ElaineR
07-10-2006, 02:47 PM
Xan,

I joined for the first time in 1999 also, and recently re-joined, 40 pounds heavier than I was then. I have beaten myself up the same way.. if I'd only gotten serious "then", I could be at goal by now. Here is one case where we really do have to let by-gones be by-gones. None of us can go back in time and do things differently, but we CAN commit to doing things differently now and tomorrow.

I am glad you came back.

Best,
Elaine

Xan
07-10-2006, 04:00 PM
Thanks to everyone for your warm welcomes! We do all have similar stories, don't we? I'm sure some of you, like me, have said, "I'm an intelligent woman. I know what to do. So why am I planning my diet while eating a Snickers bar? JUST STOP IT."

Liv, I agree on WW. It worked for me once in the past. I am doing WW -- online. I like being able to look up foods quickly, and I like that their plan is trying to force you to eat like a normal person -- i.e., eat lightly for two days before going out to dinner at a restaurant by giving you a range of points (really calories) for a week, for example.

wyllenn, I love your 5Cs. I'm glad others have found that "commitment" is key -- that's comforting. I have to say that I think I'm committed, but it's not the same fire I had on my first diet, when I lost 30 pounds in 30 days (NOT WW, just the kind of crazy fad diet you can only do when you're 23). I'm also using a book called "Small changes, big results," by Ellie Krieger, which is a "baby steps" approach, adding things week by week for 12 weeks. I'm not big on self help books, but a friend gave this to me, and it's sensible. (First week: journal everything, exercise 20 minutes a day three times a week, and some stress management tools.)

I'm really grateful for all the welcomes. If I replied to everybody individually, this post would be too long to read, but I appreciate every post, and look forward to getting to know all of you.

MelodyL
07-10-2006, 06:31 PM
Welcome back!! I think we've all probably tried and failed in diets before, but people do succeed in really changing their lifestyles for life and we can do it too!! I have never done weight watcher's before, but just joined this last week, I lost my first 27 pounds on my own but my Mom wanted to join WW's so I joined with her!! I am nervous that I'll have gained at the first weigh in because I feel like I'm eating a lot more than I was before, but I'm following the plan to the tee and will see what Thursday brings!! :) I look forward to getting to know you!

Heather
07-11-2006, 09:35 AM
I'm sure some of you, like me, have said, "I'm an intelligent woman. I know what to do. So why am I planning my diet while eating a Snickers bar? JUST STOP IT."




Oh my, yes, I have had this thought a million times!!

As for commitment -- I get the feeling that that 30 pounds in 30 days didn't end up being as much about commitment as about speed, huh?? :) Hopefully you can be committed now!

I really believe in the idea of baby steps. For me, making a lot of small changes was the way to go!

Keep posting and reading here!!

Xan
07-11-2006, 01:57 PM
As for commitment -- I get the feeling that that 30 pounds in 30 days didn't end up being as much about commitment as about speed, huh?? :) Hopefully you can be committed now!


In a way yes, in a way no. I weighed 220 then, and got down to 190 (which is huge for some people, but mildly overweight for me. I'm one of those who "carries it well" -- or at least did then. I stopped, I think now, because I was afraid to go lower. It was about speed -- nothing like losing a pound a day for motivation! -- but I kept that weight off for five years, not by new, healthy eating habits (I still ate double bacon cheeseburgers) but by avoiding junk. (New job, lots of stress, lots of Snickers, 30 pounds back nearly as quickly as they were lost.) But I was absolutely committed to the eating plan and never strayed from it.

I'm worried that I don't quite have that level of commitment now -- I could not do that diet again. BUT I'm hopeful that taking an attitude of: baby steps, even if you only lose one pound a week that's 52 pounds lighter a year from now, etc, will work. And I know I have to exercise, and for someone who takes about 200 baby steps a day, literally, that's a biggie.

Reading about people with the same struggles -- and their successes -- really does help, though. Thank you all for being here.

mezmerize
07-11-2006, 02:06 PM
Welcome back!