Looking at pictures of my last week's end of semester party, I felt so bad and disgusted of myself, there I was a big blob among size 4 cutely dressed up friends.
Today I was trying on a dress to wear to my best friends' graduation party tomorrow and I decided to take pictures to see how I'll look, and as soon as I saw the pics I almost instantly decided that I wont go to the party.
But then it hit me that I'm being hard on myself, instead of rewarding myself for all the hard work, the exercise and the food watching, I'm just bringing myself down by comparing myself to others and disregarding the long way I've come. No one said losing weight was easy, so I better not make it any harder by being my own worst enemy!
I said to myself "you know what I'll go to the party, and I'll have fun, and I'll even take pics, loads of them too! I'm not gonna see my life pass me by just because I'm fat!"
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