Hey Ruthie - my only comments are words of admiration for you!
CONGRATS on the 1 month of consistent exercising
and
HOORAY FOR YOU doing all of this for yourself in the midst of terrrible circumstances!
It sounds like you are more than on the right track and that you are setting yourself up to succeed.
I cannot imagine the pain and emotions involved in having a child assaulted by anyone - especially a family member. I think that if smoking is the only negative coping mechanism for dealing with the trial then you are indeed a very strong woman and I admire your strength!
I have been thru medical struggles with my oldest son, so I think I understand a very little of the emotions you might be dealing with concerning your child. I know it is probably nothing like dealing with abuse but I do know what it is like to hurt for your children!
Just want you to know that I admire your strength and that I will be praying for you and your family.
Keep talking and why not join us on the daily thread - it might help you stay on track also - you can either chat or if you want to be accountable to someone, you can do that there too.
hugs,
Cathy