I've had a crappy week
and it started out really good! I was exercising and eating better, but it just fell apart and the end of the week.
Seriously. I haven't exercised, haven't had the drive to, and have eaten so horribly, I'm sure I've gained a pound or two. Last night bf wanted some ice cream, and so I went up to the store to get it, and had I ONLY gotten ice cream I would have been ok - because I wouldn't have eaten it. But no, I bought the Golden Oreos too and had some of those, and then decided to buy some candy - like in the bulk section - gummy candy and sweet tart type candies are my weakness, so I proceed to buy a bunch of it, and eat it last night, and this morning.
Seriously, I have no idea why I did that. I knew I shouldn't have bought it, and shouldn't have eaten as much as I did. But I still did.
Our lease is up in a few weeks, and we cant find anywhere to live. And I really don't want to stay in this apartment, they are raising the rent too much - not worth the $$ they want, and I don't think I could afford it anyway.
But my co worker and I have a new challenge - she's been kind of off too for the last few weeks. Our boss gives us $ to go shopping with on December 2, so our goal is to loose 20 lbs by then. So hopefully I can get my act together and do this.
I'm tired of being fat and unhappy and I have done so much the past few months, but I'm just tired of it ya know? I hate that I have to work so hard, and count points, and stuff. ugh. It'd be nice if it was easy.
Ok, I feel better now that I've whined and *****ed a little.
~Liz
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