I've been having a very hard time as of late, well.. as of the last few months. Some of you may have noticed I haven't been around.
I haven't fallen
completely off program, but I'm not doing it the way I should. Which has resulted in me floating in between 168 and 175 lbs for a few months now.. and had I been completely on program, with exercise I'd be that much closer to my goal.
I'm working full time, overnights, as a dispatcher - meaning I can't leave my desk for more than a few minutes. I've never had a problem staying OP at work before, I'd chug my water, bring veggies and hummus, or stuff to toss in the microwave and I'd be golden.
Now I'm also working part time, on the ambulance AND going to school 3 nights a week before doing my overnight dispatching. While I work on the ambulance I don't have time to find other things to eat, except fast food (usually subway or a salad from another fast food place). Sleep is another issue that's screwing me up also. I don't have time to COOK the way I used to - I end up eating Phase II meals all day, just to give me the energy I need.
And exercise? I haven't time to breathe, nevermind go to the gym on a regular basis. I've only been going 1 day a week, which probably isn't benefiting me in the least.
I'm not trying to make excuses, but I'm really having a hard time. I think I just need some motivation. I keep saying that I'll be strictly on program tomorrow - and I start off that way, for a few days - then it's back to just eating on the run and not having time for 2 or 3 days after that. It's a vicious cycle. And each time I try to do Phase I as a "starting over" point, it's 10 times harder than the first time I did it almost a year ago..
Any advice? Motivation? A huge kick in the butt?