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04-23-2005, 10:26 AM

What we really want in a weight loss support group, boils down to one concept; we are looking for a sanctuary.

Sanctuary means different things to different people. Sanctuary is a place of peace, rest, safety, and rejuvenation. It keeps our spirit and our sanity intact.

Many of us who have a long journey down the weight loss path find ourselves in need of a break. Sometimes our bodies crave it, and sometimes the choice isn't ours, but circumstances forces it upon us. Other times, we need the clamoring throng to cheer us along our way as we breeze past milestones and overcome obstacles.

Sanctuary can be all that as well. It is what you need and when you need it. Sanctuary can be found in good friends who aren’t afraid of your truths and in an open, honest atmosphere.

Sanctuary isn’t judgmental, neither does it discriminate or ask to be censured. It is open to anyone with a desire to share, and especially those in need of and willing to offer support

04-23-2005, 10:32 AM
I wanted to say Good morning before I start painting.

I got most of the taping off done last night so it shouldn't be too bad. Of course I also want to clean the carpet - we will see.

I need some coffee and Advil and then away I go.

How did everyone do with their last weeks hurdles?

Due to my new job I have to take a class, 4 days one week and two the next in Minneapolis. It's the same one people take to sell insurance. Leave it to the government to make us take a test to sell insurance when we do bonding????? :shrug:

I will need your prayers I pass my test the closer the time gets. :yes: I will let you know when to pray away.

Well, no more putting off this painting. - I know I will be happy when it is done.

Oh, Gloria, mine is smooth but it has beams so I had to tape all of those off!!!!!!

04-23-2005, 07:46 PM
Well, it's actually been a little over a month now since I started feeling kinda sick, I just didn't really talk about it until it got worse. This past four or five days have been the worst! At first I thought this whole thing was allergies, then the first time I saw a doctor for it (March 31st) the doctor said it was a respiratory infection, so he gave me Amoxicillen and cough syrup. Then nine days later when I was finished with the antibiotics and it still wasn't better, I went to the doc again. It was a different doctor than I saw the first time, and he said my illness turned into Asthma/Emphazema like symptoms, although he said he didn't know if that is what I had. So...he gave me Keflex (another antibiotic), an inhaler, and prednizone. Well, I'm done with all the pills and it's just getting worse. It must be a virus or something. Now what is really bothering me is that my ears are plugging up really bad and making me have such pain I can hardly tell you. I have been laying on a heating pad, putting this earache medicine that we still had in my ears, and it's only mildly helping. I have to get back to the doctor indeed. It's kind of hard because I don't have any insurance right now. Oh yeah, and I'm still coughing pretty bad. I was in such pain yesterday and soooooo frustrated with being sick that I just burst into tears! When my mom got home and saw how bad I was feeling, she kicked right into Mommy mode! :) She took such good care of me, I felt spoiled, but I really needed that tender loving care.
Anyway, sorry to carry on about this, but I know you guys wanted to know what was going on. Hopefully I'll be back to my old self soon!
Well, gotta go lay down. Talk to you guys soon!

04-23-2005, 11:40 PM
Chelsea I am glad your Mom took charge and is taking care of you. Now rest up so you can post!!!! :)

I just got done painting. Well, I also cleaned my carpets - why, I am not sure right now because I hurt everywhere.

Gloria numerous times today I thought of sending you an airline ticket so you could help me paint. I thought my head would get stuck looking up. :o

One of my nephews stopped by at 8:30 to see if I wanted help tomorrow!!! So it looks like another exhausting day.

I know Kat has tried the South Beach diet, have any of the rest of you?

Jeez it even hurts to type! :eek:

My sister is in a dither because a neighbor girl got kicked out of her Mom's house and is now at my sisters. The girl is 17, pregnant and getting a divorce. She told my sister her Mom and step-Dad married her off to ger rid of her and now after the guy turned out to be a bad egg won't let her come back home. I feel like crying just typing this. I can't imagine a Mom doing that to her daughter. I guess this girl is from another guy and then her Mom married the step-Dad when the girl was 10. From that point on he was mean to her and she was ignored even more when her Mom and him had their own kids. She has no where to go. My sister is going to try and help her find some place that helps someone in her position on Monday. My sister has 3 kids and two older step-kids that have given her grandchildren so she already has a full plate. She feels so bad - if she could she would let this girl live with her but she just doesn't have the room or money to do that right now.

My sister said the girl is so sweet but is so nieve (sp) it is scary.

I couldn't help but think - all my complaining about painting and here is this girl - her own Mother doesn't want her - how awful that must make you feel.

Okay, I rambled..must miss Tricia ;)

04-24-2005, 11:33 AM
OH, Lucky, your pictures of the Beatles made me smile! We must be on the same wave length, (again) I'm listening to them right now! Having my coffee and listening to the Beatles White Album...nice!

I wanted to apologize to all for not being around too much, I've gotten some bad news this week. My dad has had a recurrence of the cancer he had operated on a year ago. He started chemo this week, so my mind has been otherwise occupied.

I've been wanting to come in and post, but just haven't had either the time or the energy. We're going to take a ride down to Mom and Dad's today, (he's home) and just spend some time with them. The poor guy has been through so much, but never chemo, up to this point, I feel like this is the end of the line for him. I don't know if he has the strength to fight anymore. He's not old, only 72, but the last 5 or 6 years have been rough...

I have managed to NOT gain this week, a minor miracle in itself. When I got on the scale today and saw that, it gave me a renewed sense of purpose. Overeating isn't going to change a doesn't even make me feel better! That will be my biggest NOT eat in response to my feelings of sadness or despair. I will eat when I'm hungry, and it will be foods that will energize and nourish me, NOT sedate or traquilize me.

So, If I'm here, I'm here....if I'm not, know that I'm not far away and thinking of all of you. Hang in there, everyone!

5 dogs
04-24-2005, 01:04 PM
Kat, that is so sad about your dad. I wont say i know how you feel because i don't, i can only imagine what your feeling right now. If you ever need to yell, scream or just have a good cry, this is a good place to do it.

Lucky tells me your on the beach also. How do you like the S.B.D? I am on phase 2 and probably will be the rest of my life. Congrats on not gaining any weight this week. I know when Carl has lots of things on his mind, he tends to loose weight.

Lucky, what color are you painting your ceiling?

I am going to the movies with MIL in about half hour and i still have to get dressed and eat some lunch so will say so long for now.

Take care everyone,

04-24-2005, 09:49 PM
Gloria, so are you telling me you like the South Beach?

What movie did you see?

I painted the ceiling white. I have a gazillion trees around the house and it makes it dark inside so I hoped the white ceiling would help brighten it up - it seems to, but then it could be my wishful thinking.

I was so exhausted from yesterday and today I sat down at 3:30 - and JUST woke up at 7:15!!!! :yikes: I have a lot to do to get ready for tomorrow morning.

Starting this new job and having to go to school will test my exhaustion level for the next few weeks.

Do you think you have more energy on South Beach? I really NEED that!!! :lol:

Kat, how was your visit with your Dad? It's tough and you know you and your family are always in my prayers. :angel:

04-25-2005, 09:01 PM
Hey where is everyone?

I worked from 7AM to 6PM and raced home to see what was what here and - BLANK...

I know, Gloria, you must have some good story for me???????

Kat, how is your Dad?

I guess Tricia is vacationing.

Andria, Skitt, Tony, Chelsea, how are you feeling?

Okay, I guess I have to go and eat!!!!! :hun:

5 dogs
04-26-2005, 12:05 PM
Sorry i haven't been here much, Lucky. Sunday morning was a lot of running around doing errands then went to the movies with MIL. Went to see the aviator. The movie was okay, nothing to get excited about. Very dark.

Around 11 o'clock sunday night, my dog Sky started having seizures and finely at 2 A.M. monday morning she laid down and went to sleep till 6 A.M. when the seizures started again. I was exhausted from lack of sleep and cleaning up dog pee before the next wave of seizures started. The weather down here has been so cold at night i just couldn't put her outside, so we spent the night in the bathroom. Called my vet yesterday and he put her on phenobarbital which she started taking yesterday and last night there were no seizures. She's still acting strange, going from room to room looking for something but i don't know what. I just hope the med's help and we won't have to put her down. Carl and i are heading up to the mountains this coming saturday and i don't want to deal with not having Sky with us while we're up there.

So you want a story? Spring Hill Florida was this quite sleepy town 25 years ago, but now you cant walk two blocks without seeing at least 5 houses going up. With me on my bike, i can ride past all the building a lot slower then if i were in a car. Last week i was on my bike to the little produce stand on the corner and just as i was peddling my little/large legs off, there on the left of me was this man on top of a roof just hammering away. His shirt was off and he was wearing cut off jeans with a tool belt around his wast. His skin was so dark from being in the sun that he almost looked indian from the back. When i went zooming past this new house going up, i almost missed the man on the roof but then the glistening of his sweat caught my eye and i had to do a double take. Turned old blue around and back up the hill i go to catch another glimpse of this man. He looked to be in his thirties and had bleached blond hair probably from being out in the sun so much. His upper arms were very muscular and as i was riding VERY slowly to get a peak at this greek goddess working on this roof, he then spotted me and just smiled. At that point i was embarrassed that he caught me staring at him so i quickly started pedaling again. I did make it to the produce stand but had this man on my mind the rest of the day.
Cold shower anyone?
Have a great tuesday.

04-26-2005, 03:33 PM
Hey everyone :)

This morning started out as one of those "I'm fat and everything I do is wrong" days, but I'm proud to say that I've changed that mood around and am feeling a lot better about the world and myself. I have a good workout beneath my belt and have eaten very healthy meals so far. The crock pot is loaded with dinner, I've already done a bit of extra cleaning in the kitchen, and I even have a walking date set for this afternoon! It feels so good to be able to get out of one of those beating myself up moods and move on without wasting an entire day in the pity pot.

Kat, I was so sorry to hear about your father. He really has been through a lot, and from what you have told us in the past, he is a real trooper about it all. Your family will be in my prayers. I'm really proud of you for not gaining through all this. *HUGS*

Lucky, the story about the girl just tied my stomach up in knots! I have pretty strong views on young pregnancies, even if they were conceived in wedlock like hers. Poor thing needs a chance to grow up and learn to give and receive love before she has to try to teach all that to something small and tender. I hope they are able to convince her to get some counselling and maybe she will consider adoption as a choice so she can have a chance at a life of her own. On to another subject... Wow! Do you ever slow down except when you are deathbed ill? I think I need to hire you to come spend a month at my house so all those little projects I think about and never really finish get accomplished once and for all! You really are one of my heroes. When I'm feeling a little tired and don't want to finish a job I've started, I think about you and how hard you work, and it gets me right back into the thick of things.

Gloria, I love your bicycle stories! The Greek god one just made me laugh and laugh. I know I would have been watching him so hard I would have ended up crashing my bike into a tree or something! :lol: Sorry Sky is having trouble again. I'm glad the doctor came up with something to help so you could both get some rest. BTW, I was thinking about you last night as I was taking a walk around my neighborhood. I just stood there for a few moments and let my senses soak in the sights, smells and sounds around me. It was dizzying, and I think you would have approved of the temporary sensory overload. Slowing down and really being in touch with the world around us is such a good thing. :)

Chelsea, you sound miserable, hon! *HUGS* Respiratory infections can be so horrible, and when they begin to go beyond into asthma type symptoms... ugh! Been there, done that. Just one more thing to look forward to when you are better and able to start working your diet and exercise program again, is that your lungs get happier as you drop weight. I had so many problems with my lungs at my top weight, and the doc promised me that they would ease up dramatically if I began to lose. He wasn't kidding! My life has changed a lot from that time, and I don't miss my inhaler one bit!

I'd better get out of here. I started some great cleaning in the kitchen and really want to get back to it. Getting all this under control does so much for keeping my head and heart clear. :)


04-26-2005, 09:06 PM
Gloria, I am sorry about Sky- I will say a doggie prayer for her. The man story was GREAT!!!!! You are my kinda girl. Are you sure he wasn't older and looking for a Northern type gal?????

Andria I am going to call my sister after I post and see what has happened with this girl. I just can't imagine her own Mother turning her back on her. I can't imagine that - I mean I can see getting mad at your kid but to just abandon them. So sad.

I just got home - worked from 6:30AM to 6:00PM. I can't wait until I know this job and have it under control so my life can be normal again. Probably won't be for a month yet. :(

Gloria, who would have thought that old blue bike would bring so much joy into your life, and ours. :s:

5 dogs
04-27-2005, 10:37 AM
I am sooo sick and tired of people trying to sell me stuff. Just when i sat down here at my computer this morning, the phone rings and it was someone trying to sell me something. Years ago i was polite and would tell the person i was not interested and hang up. Now, because i get so many of these annoying calls i just lay the phone down next to its receiver and let the person talk away. After a couple of minutes, i hear "Mrs........ are you still there? I figure if there going to wast my time, then i have the same right in wasting there's. I'm even getting people knocking on my door wanting me to buy or try there product. Grrrrr. Enough already.

I have three more days and a wake up before we head for the mountains in upper Georgia. Still have packing and cleaning before then but don't know where to start. Man i hope we have good weather when were up there. Last night and this morning the sky is all dark and it looks like it might just rain all day. My tomato plant was all happy happy happy when i went out to check on it and, yippee skippy, there are three tomatoes almost red and ready for that B.L.T sandwich. I wonder why my plants grow better after the rain then when i just water them?

Have to get my hair cut today before our trip so better go.
Have a great wednesday everyone.
Hugs to all.

04-27-2005, 07:37 PM
Hey everyone :)

I just got back inside from planting flowers! Had my youngest out there with me, and we were having a blast. I wish I would have bought more, because we really were having that much fun. :) I was also checking over the tomato plants, and I have one turning red now as well! Wahoo! It is an Early Girl, which isn't my favorite, but I don't care because it is going to have flavor! :D I've had to cook all winter with these things they try to pass off as tomatoes at my work. You cut them open, and they are light pink inside and taste like nothing at all. Why bother? There can't be anything in the way of nutrition in there.

Gloria, you sound a bit frustrated with the telemarketers... :lol: It really does help out if you ask to be removed from their list. They are legally obliged to not call you again. It can take up to six weeks to remove your name from all their lists, but they have to do it. Also, when you apply for a credit card, start a new bank account or even get a new telephone line, be aware that all those companies sell your name unless you tell them not to. The new accounts are the worst, but even your old info can be of use for certain lists, so you might want to ask your bank and phone company about their policies next time you have a few free moments. You probably know all this already, but just in case. :) Oh! Don't forget the same goes for any charities you might help fund. Ask their policy on info first. Many charities share names with similar groups, and even if they don't, you can expect a call or two throughout the year from them. Most will respect a request for no calls.

Lucky, did I happen to mention that the cute cowboy (Bob) had a big belt buckle that said Minnesota on it the other day? I'm going to HAVE to ask him about it. :)

I promised to play a game with my eldest, so better get outta here! Take care, all. :)


04-27-2005, 07:52 PM
I can't imagine anyone wearing a Minnesota belt buckle unless he is from here.

We had SNOW today. It was just flying the air - but still. :mad:

Gloria, I just hang up - if I get caught - I usually watch my caller ID to avoid them.

Off to see my Dad.

Later, :lucky:

5 dogs
04-27-2005, 08:01 PM
Have any of you seen the show "Homes across America? In case you haven't seen the it, its all about these huge gigantic homes that people have remodeled. Well i was wondering what they would say if my house was on that show. Probably something like "And here's Gloria's tiny little living room with the huge overstuffed furniture that there's no room for. And how about that kitchen. Doesn't that pantry look nice crammed jammed full of stuff you cant find anything without having something fall on your head.

I just couldn't wait any longer for that dang tomato to get red red so i picked it and ate the darn thing all by myself. It was wonderful! Do any of you eat cottage cheese and tomatoes? Don't really care for cottage cheese, but with my own home grown tomatoes, yummy'o.

Should start thinking about supper so best scoot for now.
Have a good one.

04-27-2005, 11:08 PM
My nieces, nephews, brother and SIL - we all have as many 6PM meals when the tomatoes come in with cottage cheese!!!!! YMMMMMM sometimes we have corn on the cob too. Ahhhh makes me wish for the end of Summer :)

I love cottage cheese, tomatoes and garlic powder.

04-28-2005, 12:46 PM
Oh, now I'm drooling! We have a fairly long growing season here, so we get not one, but two round of sweet yellow corn. :) My SIL's dad has an amazing plot of land he farms that used to be river bottom. The soil is rich and black and he keeps everything organic. I can't even begin to tell you how good his produce tastes, but his sweet corn is to die for!

I love homegrown tomatoes about any way I can get them, but the thing I miss most right now is homemade salsa. I put in lots of garlic and lime, and it is sososo good!

It is really quiet around the house this morning. Part of me wants to take advantage and get a lot of cleaning done, but it is so quiet the rest of me wants to just go take a nap. :lol: We'll see which one wins out. :)

Take care, all!


04-28-2005, 06:54 PM
I'm Baaack! What a WONDERFUL vacation we had! I feel like a new person. But it sure was nice to have a warm welcome home from the kids. It is great to be loved!

Now, want to hear my good news? Remember me saying I was going to find a cheap pair of size 10 jeans and that would be my goal rather than the scale? Well, I found them and tried them on so that I could guage my progress and low and behold - they FIT and were even a tiny bit LOOSE! Well, as excited as I was my guess was that the brand ran big so I moved on to the next store - THEIR BRAND FIT TOO! I kept this up all day. Ladies, I wear a size 10! And pretty soon will be in an 8! The 10's fit just a tiny, tiny bit loose but the 8's are waaaay too small. I came home with a new wardrobe that you wouldn't believe. I've never liked to shop for clothes. It was just too depressing - nothing fits, by the time I got something I could button around my waist the legs were two feet too long, it all looked bad, eewww, yuck to the whole experience. Well, let me tell you. To be able to walk into a store, try on trendy clothes, have the fit and look nice - what an amazing thing. I even bought underwear that sits BELOW my bellybutton (what's left of it after carrying twins anyway :lol: ). I have to always remember this feeling because it is such a motivator.

I haven't caught up on all the posts so I'll be back later. Will has karate tonight - I'm right back into the swing of things.

Hope everyone had a great week. I missed all of you! Okay, be back soon.


5 dogs
04-29-2005, 10:16 AM
Welcome back Tricia. I'm just thrilled about your weight loss. This might sound a little mom'sh to say, but I'm soo proud of you.

I wish i had time to talk but still have some cleaning and packing to do before tomorrow when we head on up to our house in GA. Will talk when we get back.

Have a great weekend everyone.

04-29-2005, 10:58 PM
Oh Tricia, I am so happy and proud for you!!!! Shopping sure made this a "good" vacation for you!!!!

I am so tired my eyes hurt. I have worked 12 to 13 hours a day at my new job and I have tons of outdoor work to do tomorrow besides getting ready to leave Sunday for my week in the cities. UGH!!!

THEN I come home and all my plant arrived so now I have to plant them tomorrow AND try to bribe a nephew into watering them during the week while I am gone.

Now I am worried - Gloria will be gone the same time I am. Tricia, Andria, Kat you had better keep this thread going until we return.

I will check in tomorrow. Glad you are back Tricia.

04-30-2005, 08:17 AM
Don't worry, Lucky. You know me. I'll ramble on whether anybody is around to listen or not! LOL. Plus, there is always a lot of catch up work to be done after a vacation so I'll be here plenty to avoid digging into that. I know, I'm terrible, but I had to much fun to get right back into the swing of things.

My in-laws left this morning (the only reason I'm up at 5 am). I always hate it when they leave. I swear, I stress so much in the weeks before they come to the point that I almost dread them coming and then when it is time for them to pull out of the driveway I get all teary eyed. They really are good people and I am lucky to call them family. The stress of their visits is ALWAYS self-imposed. I don't know why I get so worked up.

So, this weight loss thing....

First of all, I'm getting back on the exercise bandwagon today. I missed working up a good sweat. I wasn't nearly as active as I had planned - laying by the pool with a good book and my MP3 player was too appealing. We took a couple of walks, and certainly shopping counted for something but other than that we were vegetables for a week.
As for food - this past week was very empowering. It gave me an opportunity to learn to trust myself around food. It was strange having to rely on whether or not I was hungry rather than how many calories I had left for the day. I still haven't gone back to fitday and I'm not sure I will. I figure that I'm close enough to my goal that it might be good to start weaning myself from it. So, rather than entering every bite I eat as I eat it I plan to just tally everything at the end of the day. If I find that I am getting off track then I'll go back to nitpicking every bite. For now though, I'm going to depend a little more on myself than fitday.

Okay, my ticker is a little decieving. My current weight is actually 159.8. That is what I have entered but the ticker program obviously doesn't round up or down. Nonetheless, what a thrill to be in the 50's. Honestly, I had no idea what a big deal it would be. But, let me tell you, it feels amazing. My in-laws brought down a lot of old home movies so that Greg could copy them. One was of our wedding. That was almost 10 years ago and I LOOKED a lot heavier than I FEEL now. I couldn't stop thinking about it because I didn't remember being that fat back then. Well, I couldn't stand it any longer. I got out of bed and pulled out my wedding dress (I didn't wear a big fluffly dress, just a suit type dress, so it wasn't any trouble). The thing swallowed me. On top of that, we watched the videos we'd taken this week while we transferred them to DVD and I actually stayed in the room while they played. Usually, I get so upset by how I look that I come up with some excuse to leave. Now, I'm not saying I looked skinny by any means. BUT, I didn't look atrociously fat either. I guess I looked "normal" - whatever that is. Anyway, it was helped me see the progress I've made AND helped me see the areas that need to be focused on from here on out.

I don't mean it to sound like I'm tooting my own horn, even though I am proud of myself. I think I'm just trying to talk myself through to the next stage. It seems the closer I get to my goal the more often my goal changes. On top of that it takes such a huge mental adjustment which I wasn't anticipating. There is this voice in my head that won't let me stop being fat, if that makes sense. It is hard to balance the need to mentally and emotionally accept my new and improved body while still judging it enough to lose these last 20-30 pounds. I'm making an effort not to over think it all but I do have keep a certain awareness or I'll be back where I started in no time.

See? Rambling - it is what I'm good at! Thanks to all of you for letting me come here to figure things out.

Gloria, have a safe trip. I can't wait to here all of your adventures.

Lucky, take a deep breath. You sure seem to have a lot on your plate these days.

Have a great day!


04-30-2005, 11:19 AM
Wow~Finally! I've been trying to get in here all week! Whenever I had a minute or two to spare, someone else would always be hogging the computer. Seeing as there's only three of us here at the moment...(once my daughter gets home from school, forget it!) it shouldn't be too hard to get some computer time, right? Wrong!

Anyway, he's sleeping, dh is at work, I have my coffee and I'm ready to catch up....

Dad is home, doing okay, all things considered. He's extremely weak, but feeling a wee bit stronger each day. Thanks to all for your prayers and concern, it means the world to me!

Diet is surprisingly going well. And by well I mean I'm not gaining! Actually lost a lb last week. Will be re-doubling efforts to get back on track...AGAIN!

To answer your question, Andria, I'm not on the 'beach' at this time, but I have been there, and Yes! I do believe you have more energy following that plan. I've actually made it through Phase 1 and somehow it all fell apart in Phase 2! Too much freedom? For me, anyway. I tend to always go back to Weight Watchers, it seems to work the best for me.

I haven't been to the gym all week. Been doing some yard work, so I do count that as exercise, but I need to get back into a regular gym routine if I want to step up this process!

We went to an awards dinner last night at my daughter's school. It was lovely, the food was quite elegant and I did NOT overeat! Not that you could, anyway, with the miniscule portions they served! She received the Association of Language Instructors of Staten Island Award. Her professors speak very highly of her, so please allow me my mother's right to brag for a moment! She's always been a great student, very motivated and eager to learn...has always loved to read. It just astonishes me that she can read just as voraciously in Spanish!

*Okay, I'm done bragging!* is the new job? Is this with a new company altogether, or a new postion at where you've been? Did I read there's school involved, too? How the heck are you going to get your raking/painting/you name it, done? I think you need a vacation in New Jersey!

Andria...You said a few things that had me nodding my head vigorously at my computer screen: Getting all this under control does so much for keeping my head and heart clear. Oh, how I relate to that! I've
s l o w l y been clearing stuff out of the house and it's amazing how clearing the clutter out of the house, clears the clutter out of the head!

It feels so good to be able to get out of one of those beating myself up moods and move on without wasting an entire day in the pity pot. Some more head nodding here! I've wasted entire WEEKS on the pity pot...It feels SO much better being productive, even if it's just keeping up with the laundry!

Gloria...I just LOVED your story about the hot carpenter! You described him so well! I could see myself riding my bike into a telephone pole as I gawked at his bod! I think it's cute that he caught you staring! I hope that Sky is doing much better.

Tricia! Woo, girl! A loose size 10? You go, girl! You are on FIRE! There's nothing like seeing yourself on video to get a new perspective...I love that you said you look 'normal.' That's what I want to look like...NORMAL!

Chelsea...I sure hope that you are feeling better by now! Could any of your symptoms be allery related? My dh has an awful time of it this time of year, what with the flowers blooming and pollen flying all over! Maybe a good antihistamine like Allegra or Claritin will help.

Skittles, are you still with us? Redballoon? BarbPA? BarbG? Hi to all, I hope this finds you doing's never too late to pop back in and say "hi!" (look at me)

I hope that everyone has a great weekend...the weather is looking a bit iffy here, but I am determined to get my flower beds ready for planting today! And mow the back yard before I need a machete to get through the tall grass!

Thanks again for your love and prayers....You guys are the best! It's good to be back!

04-30-2005, 07:16 PM
Just bringin' us back up to the top!

See? I post again and the thread sinks like a stone!

I'm sure everyone is off...busy busy busy on this last day of April. I can hardly believe it's MAY already...didn't we just have snow on the ground a few weeks ago? Sure seems like it.

Hey, I'm not complaining...everything is in bloom and the grass is so green. I did manage to cut my lawn today, sprinkles or HAD to be done. My son and I made quite a bit of headway in the back yard. We had torn down the old swing set and finally got the wood all hauled out of the's starting to look good back there! There's a ton more to do, but I'm happy to use yard work as my exercise!

Time for dinner, gotta run! Have a great night!

04-30-2005, 09:41 PM
Well, no planting today - it snowed. Not much but that also means it is COLD!!!

I just finished ironing all my clothes for the week.

In the morning I have to get ready, pack and head out.

I am visiting some friends for dinner at 5PM and then heading to the hotel.

After the hellish week at work I am looking forward to school and being alone in a hotel. NOT one rake in sight !!!!!

I will check in tomorrow.

04-30-2005, 11:10 PM
Lucky, one the very few things that I miss about working is the business trips. Thankfully, I did not have to travel a lot. But, once every couple of months I'd have a week long meeting to attend. I am here to tell you that those meetings saved my sanity more than once. A quiet hotel, drinks out with my counterparts from other states (who happened to also be good friends). It was more like being on vacation than it was being at work. More often than not we met in Atlanta because that is where our HQ were plus it was central for most of the SE states. So, we were never short on things to do or places to go. Sometimes we would rotate which market would host so I also had the pleasure of visiting various other states. Those were always great too because the person hosting always new the best restaruants, attractions, etc. - places that I'd probably never come across if I'd been another visiting tourist. Of course, sometimes I'd just head straight to the hotel and order room service, do my nails, and read a book. Truly rare pleasures with three children to tend to.

I hope your trip goes as well as mine always did, that you learn a lot, and make plenty of new friends.


04-30-2005, 11:40 PM
I'm just stopping by to let you know I'm still around. I just don't feel lime posting very often. My life has been so stressful this year, that when I come home I just want to sit in my chair and do nothing that involves any kind of concentration. I usually just play games or look at graphic sites and ohhh and ahh over the creativity of some of the graphic groups.

Say a few extra prayers for us. We finally paid off the property tax that was casuing us such a problem, now maybe we can get back to the actual "business as usual" mode. We are still operating at half staff, so that means that I still am doing all sorts of things I'd rather not be doing, and the fact that I have this stupid AI disease just makes thing doubly hard.

Unfortunatly I'm not being good at all with the food choices. Thursday I got caught having to run between out two facilities and didn't have money for lunch, so I bought a pint of ice cream and ate the whole thing. And cookies are not safe in my site. But with the stress, I think I'm burning calories more, cause I am holding my own as far as the scales go. I am still going to the health club every morning, and that is keeping me sane too.

Hope everyone else has a great weekend, and a good week next week, I'll stop back in when I get a chance.


05-01-2005, 12:09 PM
I usually don't weigh until Monday morning, "officially" anyway. But since my schedule is all off from vacation I decided to start weighing Sunday mornings instead. Imagine my disbelief when I stepped on the scale this morning and saw 157.6! That is 3.4 lbs this week. Now, I am assuming that some of this could be muscle loss from having not done weights this week. But, to be honest, I don't care. I didn't start this program to get muscular. And, I still have enough definition that I don't look flabby (well, under the fat that is left if that makes sense).

I have to say that seeing my ticker after having updated it was as surreal as it gets. 22 pounds to go? Just 22 pounds? I catch myself thinking that it is still a long way. It isn't. Sure, these last 22 may be harder to shed than the first 22 were but it isn't far to go. I just try to remember how I felt when one of my thinner friends would complain that she needed to lose 20 or so pounds. My exact thoughts, I believe, were "that's NOTHING". So, I am trying to stay focused so that I can ride out this last wave.

I fully expect to hit 135 and decide that 10 to 15 more pounds are in order. Fine. I'll cross that bridge when I come to it. It is absolutely amazing how much less pressure I feel now. I guess because I WANT to keep losing and I know that I WILL. In the meantime, though, I am happy enough with where I am not in such a hurry. Don't get me wrong - I'd drop it all in a day if I could. I just mean that I don't look in the mirror in disgust now, I feel comfortable in my own skin and that is very empowering. Of course the trick is going to be keeping this attitude once the pool opens later this month. Right now, I don't have a lot of other people to compare myself to. But, come swimsuit time it will be easy to fall back into one of those nasty, self-depreciating mindsets. Admittedly, most of my motivation isn't that I think I look GOOD but that I look soooooo much BETTER.

I am telling you girls, the pain and suffering along the way is worth it. You all seem to be doing really well on your plans lately and I hope you will find the determination to keep it up. Seriously, if I feel this great 30-40 pounds away from my ultimate goal then I just can't even fathom the joy of acutally BEING at goal. It is certainly better than any pill I've ever taken. LOL!

Just wanted to share my good news and happy feelings. Y'all have a terrific day!


05-01-2005, 12:13 PM
Aww, thanks Tricia. I do "sort of" like to stay in a hotel. This time is different in that I have to STUDY!!!!! I haven't studied in a l o n g time.

I am taking some books along too. Plus tonight I am having dinner with one of my closest friends so that will be fun.

BarbG: I was so happy to see your post. I am hoping you will help post this week here since Gloria and I will be gone. I am also glad that things are starting to look "up" for you. Just come here and talk - ya know we like to listen! ;)

Well, this is it until Friday - :( I already miss all of you.

Keep sending me learning thoughts that my brain can absorb all I am suppose to learn.


05-01-2005, 12:16 PM
I am telling you girls, the pain and suffering along the way is worth it. You all seem to be doing really well on your plans lately and I hope you will find the determination to keep it up. Seriously, if I feel this great 30-40 pounds away from my ultimate goal then I just can't even fathom the joy of acutally BEING at goal. It is certainly better than any pill I've ever taken. LOL!

Thank you, you always give me hope!!

P L E A S E don't ever quit posting!!!!!

I know it may not seem like it, but you are an inspiration to me.

05-02-2005, 02:39 PM
I had the most fun last night! Since I had done a good bit of shopping while on vacation I decided it was time to clean out my closet. All of those yucky old fat clothes are gone for good. I have to say it was very empowering. :strong: Sort of like an awards ceremony to declare I will never be that fat again.

It also makes me that more determined to stay on track. If I out grow my pants it means buying new ones because I don't have the bigger sizes to fall back on. I even packed up those comfy old warm ups, etc. It was hard at first but pretty soon it just felt good - like walking out into the sunshine after being stuck inside with days and days of rain. :sunny:

I think it is interesting that with past weight loss efforts I never even thought to get rid of too big clothes. It is almost as if I knew deep down that I wasn't going to keep the weight off. I don't know what has changed in me this time around but it is certainly a change for the better. As an added bonus, getting dressed is a breeze. I know that everything left fits well and looks nice. So, unless I get behind on laundry (that would NEVER happen ;) ) I can just grab what ever catches my eye and be on my way.

On another note, entering my food into fitday at the end of the day rather than as I eat has been ideal. It does what I had hoped in that I am more in tune with whether or not I am actually hungry. [B]Gloria was right! It didn't do me any good to obsess over every single bite I ate. :smug:

05-02-2005, 10:46 PM
Hey chicks- I found a way to check on you.

A friend of mine brought me a laptop to my hotel so I can "stay connected".

Eating is crappy - there are NO eating places around here and I was running around all day so all I had was a small bag of bugles - never had them before but it helped me to survive until we went out to dinner.

So, I have to study some now - :mad: but I shall return.

I really love this laptop. I might have to save up for one.

Tricia, you are so empowering. I just love your positive posts.

05-03-2005, 08:45 PM
Stop - do not post here but join us on Sanctuary #21