South Beach Diet - How much longer...

do I think I can continue with my poor eating habits and continue with the cholesterol rising, blood pressure unstable, and the blood sugar unstable, and stay functional. :rollpin: :rollpin: :rollpin: My doctor called this a.m. and now I have to start cholesterol meds cuz they keep rising and I know why!!!
I had decided that I was going to do Phase I for the entire two weeks again beginning today and then I got his phone call.

Off to the grocery store to stock up for work and home on the things that "I" need around rather than what everyone else "has to have." My dil baked a cake that I managed to stay out of and she ate one piece and it just sat there staring at me for a week. They will be moving out in about two weeks so that will make home easier. Work is another story altogether but I have plenty of options that are on plan. I am also thinking I need to pack lunches and dinners for myself even though I am surrounded by food all day long.

Bunna, you are in my head! Can you tell I've been off program too? Both of us are old enough to know better too which is the sad part.

YES! You are more important than the rest of the crew and deserve to get what YOU want when you shop. Do you think your doc would give you a second chance on lowering your cholesterol without meds? Mine did - and it worked.

Hang in there and come here often for support - or just to whine.

(((Bunnababy)))

Bunna, I'm so proud of you for getting to this point! :grouphug: I know this is hard, but like your message says, if you work on it, you can make this happen. Nothing is too hard to bear when you know that you are doing this for you. You wouldn't believe the temptations I've been able to walk away from with no problems...because being healthy is more important to me right now. :grouphug: I'm definitely here :cheer: you on!!! :D

Geez! Now Laurie is inside my head too! :yikes:

I think something had helped me come to this decision before the phone call was being able to separate self-image and body-image. It is okay not to be happy with my body-image and still love myself. That is hard to get a grasp on but I have finally been able to do that and then comes the "What are you going to do about the body image?" and realizing it is completely my choice, no one elses, just mine.

Thanks for the support. That's what is so wonderful about this board is that you guys are here no matter how many times we fall on our faces in the sand and then crawl off to the boardwalk.

:lol: Or UNDER the boardwalk. It's pretty scary in there!

I don't like either place. :fr:

Oh yeah, I forgot to answer you Ruth, this was my second chance but he said he would evaluate my progress in eight weeks. If I have it down pretty good then he will reconsider. :o

I think something had helped me come to this decision before the phone call was being able to separate self-image and body-image.

Amen! That's funny, because I definitely got to that point before I was able to get to the point I'm at now. :yes: I learned to love who I was, so I could love who I am becoming...does that make sense? :?:

That's what is so wonderful about this board is that you guys are here no matter how many times we fall on our faces in the sand and then crawl off to the boardwalk.

Sweetie, that's because we've been there...and probably will be again! :o Right, girls? We're human...that means we mess up often, but we try to learn from our mistakes and pick up and keep on going.

One of the mods on here had a line in her sig that said something like (paraphrasing here): "Failure is not falling down. Failure is not getting up after you fall." I'm not saying it right because the original quote implied that you'd fallen down often and would again...but that you would keep getting up. You get the idea. ;)

:grouphug: to you wonderful ladies who make me feel much more human and less alone in my oddness! ;)

Geez, Laurie, you seem perfectly normal to me - for a MOD, that is! :rofl:

Oh Bunna I'm clawin my way out from under the boardwalk myself! I have let redoin our kitchen along with other things give me excuses to not eat OP but that is over now. Although I have very lil OP things in the house right now i am still eatin OP. I have got to get to the store. After I get a lil more cleanin done I'm gonna get a shower and get to the store. My grocery budget is gone for the month but I will spend my own to stay OP! (that means I am really serious! lol)

Ruth come on girl we are back on and gonna do this!

Laurie your doin great!

Bunna, something in one of your posts recently stuck in my head so I put it in my signature. Just change the word 'slim' to healthy and build your own fire within. Its for you, by you, and within your power. YOU CAN DO IT!

Wow, Abroad, do you do inspirational speaking or has your DH's military background worn off on you? ;) Good points!

Bunna, thanks! I'm finally losing again...but it took forever. And I could definitely be exercising more! :strong:

Ruth: :p :lol: Yup, I suppose I could be considered a normal MOD...whatever that is!!! :lol3:

Bamie, good for you! :cheer: You are really dedicated to this, and I think that's fantastic! Doesn't it feel empowering? :D

Oh, Bunna... big hugs for you, hon. :grouphug: I know exactly what you mean. Sometimes I lie in bed and think, "Is that a chest pain? Is it creeping down my arm?"
I just ate a burger and fries (STUPID!!), and everytime I do, I feel TERRIBLE afterwards. :yes:
It's like there's no connection between our brains (and taste buds) and our bodies. What the ****!? :mad:

Man oh man is it ever nice to know that I am normal (lazy as a stump sometimes) but normal.

I have been trying to get remotivated to get back on track too.

I KNOW what I have to do, I KNOW what I have to eat, I KNOW I feel better when I do it, I KNOW I am wasting time, I KNOW I can do it - AND I STILL JUST KEEP RIGHT ON EATING CRAP!

Come on - somebody smack me already!

I have acid relfux, a hiatis hernia and high blood pressure - is that enough to smarten me up? Apparently not.

I have so many gastric chest pains that I don't know if I would recognize a real chest pain if it happened.

I need Dr Phil or bootcamp or something (anyone live close to Toronto wanna come kick me?)

Someone send me motivation vibes please.

OK vent over (promise).

I have been so stressed - I interview for a new fulltime job on Wednesday - If I get it I think I will go out and buy myself a treadmill (whether I can afford it now or not (what is VISA for anyway?))

Ok I will try my best to get here more often - you guys keep me grounded.

Kim

:coach: Let's go, Kim!! And all of us! :drill: There is no excuse for killing ourselves with food. (remind me I said this in half an hour, please)

You know, for a group of smart chicks, we can be pretty stupid over food, can't we?

I sometimes wish I were more like my Mother who ate very little, hated cooking and claimed she was waiting for the day they would have a pill instead of food. (By the way, she died of cancer of the colon five years ago this week. I don't think I ever saw her eat a piece of fruit, a raw vegetable or brown bread! Coffee, white toast and a cigarette was her typical breakfast.)

On second thought, I'm glad I'm not like my Mother.

Oh man...so much pain in this thread, and I totally empathize...:( Why else would I have been in the kitchen at 12:00 eating stale, dry popcorn by the handful??? :tied: OY!

Ellis, yell some my way too, okay? ;)

I know that I want this, and most of the time I do fine, but those old eating habits are seriously hard to break. Do you think Dr. Phil is right...that we do this because we don't value ourselves enough? :?:

Ruth, you are a great writer...that was an awesome reflection! I'm so sorry about your mom. :grouphug:

I think that's the hardest thing for me to wrap my mind around--what does a healthy eater look like? Someone who is at a healthy weight, who is toned and taught and glows with vitality? What do they do? What are their eating habits like? How does their life work? Our wise maintainers probably have a lot to say about that... :chin:

I hate to be the BIG party pooper, but I am sitting here in tears. Please, ladies, think of a healthier life style and strive for it...no excuses, no detours and above all NO UNHEALTHY EATING.

DH and I are dealing with the death of our nephew last Sunday...age 39 and died from the effects of diabetes. We live across the country from him, but have been in contact over the past month and a half. He was hospitalized the past six weeks because of his blood sugar level and could not get it under control. His body finally gave out this past weekend and he died from cardiac arrest.

Don't let this happen to you. It is preventable and you are the only ones in control to prevent it. You can all do this. Please take a few moments and think of the consequences if you do not.

I'll be jumping off the soap box now...

Oh Peggy I am so sorry for your loss! Prayers to you and your family! I'm cleanin up my act now while I can before it becomes that I have to! Thanks for sharing.

Ruth I really liked the story you shared about your Mom.

What does it take to really wake us up and make us realize that we are playin Russian Roulette with our own lives! Not to mention the example we are setting for our children/grandchildren. Wether my kids choose to eat healthy or not when they grow up atleast I will know I lead by example! (for once!) lol I am seein things in a different light today! Thanks chicks!

My dear Peggy... I'm so very sorry about your nephew. :cry: I'll be keeping your family in my prayers. :grouphug:
I have to tell you, you wrote that post at the very worst time for me. I was just about to eat a very large, "fundraiser" chocolate bar, and while I was so saddened by your post, I knew that I couldn't eat that chocolate bar, and boy, was I TICKED OFF!!
And then my DD came in with a bag of chips, and I was ticked again!!
But that was ten minutes ago, and I've managed to change my mind-set. I'm no longer annoyed and craving that bad food, but am sitting here eating a lovely green apple.
Your message was powerful, Peggy. Don't ever apologize for "soaping us". :grouphug:

Oh, Peggy, I am so sorry for your loss! A dear friend of ours passed away several years ago from diabetes and morbid obesity (I believe he was around 500 pounds) and it bothers me so much to see my husband doing nothing about losing weight. He is probably about 275 right now (he won't tell me) and I really worry if he will survive to see our 7 year old son grow up. I know, though, that I am doing everything I can to provide healthy foods and to cook healthy meals while I am at home. He's 48 years old and needs to take some responsibility for his actions. I can't make him exercise and I can't police his food. I can only be responsible for making myself healthier.

Oh man, this group is powerful today! :goodvibes:

Peggy, I'm so very sorry. :cry: :grouphug: And scared! :stress: My mom has had Type II for years and she's not great about what she eats...no matter what we tell her. If it's okay with you, I'd like to forward your post to her. Sometimes that's what it takes to get you going. :(

Ellis, I'm with you...I think dealing with food is like dealing with grief... you definitely go through mourning and anger! (and denial! :lol: ) I was so angry that I had to diet to be thin that I ate anything I wanted for several years. I gained another 70 pounds! :yikes: If only I hadn't done that... :( You keep making healthy choices. You know that apple feels better to your stomach and your health than the other two choices, even if they would have felt better in your mouth. ;)

When it comes down to it, we know that food doesn't really help us feel better...and that's the major frustration. If food doesn't do it, what does?

Peggy I am so sorry for your family's loss. Thirty-nine is sooooo young. How very very sad.

What a thread this turned out to be. I felt funny about posting at first (only because this makes ???? how many restarts) but what an encouraging and informative thread.

Ruth, also sorry about your mom.

It truly is time for us all to see this as a way of life and quit worrying about what we think we are missing by making healthy good choices for our bodies. What is in our highest and greatest good should be our priority at all times in all choices we make.


"Turn desire to be slim into a fire within." Thanks for reminding that I said that Abroad.

((((to all))))

((Bunna)) You can do it!