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01-03-2005, 07:58 AM
Well, here's a perfect opportunity to give ourselves a fresh new start. Forget the hassles of 2004, it's a whole New Year!!

What we want to do this year is start again. We had some very turbulent times last year, so we want to take this year and shake it by the boot straps!!

Our main challenge is just to focus on living a healthy lifestyle. As a part of that, there will be the ongoing weight loss (we hope!), regular exercise, and continued education about a better way of living. Oh, and of course, the best support a person could need!!! :grouphug:

I think that we should try and get back to what we used to do, where we have a monthly challenge, which can either be a certain amount of weight to lose, or increasing exercise, etc. I think it's really important that we try and push ourselves a little further than before, without putting ourselves off the long term committment to weight loss.

I know that for me, you can be all gung-ho about losing weight when you start, but as the weeks and months pass by, it gets harder and harder to stick with it. So if we can try and keep this fresh and motivating, then hopefully, when we get to the end of this year, we can all feel really good about what we've achieved.

I have come to terms with the fact that the weight I have gained will not come off quickly. Realistically, it could take up to 2 years to lose. BUT, it is better to lose slowly, learning how to adjust my lifestyle to suit my metabolism, so that once I reach my goal weight I have a program that I can follow forever. If I were to "crash diet" it wouldn't serve any purpose but to make me feel crappy, and inevitably fail, and probably make me gain more than before! So I MUST BE PATIENT, and know that if I hang in there long enough, EVENTUALLY I WILL GET WHAT I WANT!

So guys, let's get this ball rolling, downhill and into a size 12!!!!! (or whatever your equivalent size is over there!) :D

01-03-2005, 08:24 AM
Hi Jo, Kermie and Chris, I hope you've found this ok!

I have to really honest with myself this year. I've spent the last 2 years coming to rather huge realisations about my weight, the emotional issues, food choices, etc. Now I've just gotta put it all together and show some serious results.

Considering I've had a weight problem now for about 14 years, it wasn't until about 2 or 3 years ago that I finally allowed myself to stop feeling guilty for having a slow metabolism. Certainly from self-esteem point of view, it helped me feel less like a failure and more like a person who just happened to be born with slow metabolism. That then enabled me to look at my lifestyle and accept that I will never be one of those people who can eat what they want, when they want, with no consequences. I have reconciled myself to the fact that I will have to be careful of what I eat, and that I maintain regular exercise, for the rest of my life IF I want to change my body.

Of course, I have since been battling with the problem about whether I care about being fat or not. Of course I do! But there are times when I feel so tired and fed up with caring, I get so sick of counting points, forcing myself to exercise when I'm tired, missing out on all the foods I love.... But I know that at the end of the day, I hate being fat. And that I am going to have to sacrifice the "I wish" for "I will".

Over the last few months, I have renewed my love of the gym, and reaquainted myself with my muscles. I have also discovered a whole new world of organic food and healthy living. Admittedly, it didn't last long in the face of my first christmas without my husband, but I am still trying. I don't eat white bread. I buy organic food. I try and cook healthy meals more often than I buy takeaway......

But it can be a whole lot better, and I have to face the fact that I am going through yet another summer hiding under big clothes and suffering the heat, because I haven't been committed enough.

So now I have the chance to make a difference. With you all along for the ride, I'm hoping that us wanting this badly enough will help keep us going long enough to see some seriously amazing results.

I would like to issue the first challenge. This one is only for the coming week, see what you think:

If you and I want to really get this going, walk to your fridges, freezers, cupboards and pantrys, and THROW OUT ANYTHING THAT IS BAD FOR US!!!! Don't hang on to it "for the kids" - the kids can do without for a while. (or replace with something you don't crave that they like - I'm not a big fan of biscuits, so that's my kids' treats). Don't hang on to it to pass on to a friend - be honest, would it last that long? :lol:

Then, I want you to make a shopping list and go and buy lots of healthy food, including snacks that can be available anytime - I'm finding nuts, meusli bars, yoghurt, WW fruit salad etc really good little snacks that you can take with you to work, have in the car, etc.

TRY TO AVOID DINING OUT OR EATING AT OTHER PEOPLE'S HOUSES, unless you feel strong enough to make the right choices - low fat sauces, fresh salads without dressings, nothing fried, etc etc.

AND DRINK LOTS OF WATER - I've got 600ml bottles of water that I've bought from the shops that I just keep refilling and putting in the fridge at night. I then just drink those during the day, aiming for about 4 or 5 a day. It's a really good way to keep track of how much you're drinking.

Obviously the next thing is the exercise, but I want to focus on getting the environment back under control. Get past the xmas and new year celebrations, dusk off the cobwebs, and regain the focus to lose weight.

Wadda ya reckon? If you feel you don't need to do this, that's cool, but that's my week. I need to get things back under control, so that I can then start to make some serious plans about how I'm gonna lose this weight.

Next week I'd like to talk about goals, and if anyone's got anything coming up that they want to "trim down" for. Then maybe we can talk about how we can help each other work towards "mini goals" as well as that big GRAND FINALE = the GOAL WEIGHT!!! I've been aiming for that for such a long time it's moving into the realms of mythology! HA HA HA

I'm going to go and get my beauty sleep, so I'm all ready for a brand new start tomorrow. I hope you guys think what I've said and done is ok - I won't be offended if you want to change anything! We're in this together!!!!!

Kermie and Chris PLEASE drop a line soon!

See you tomorrow!

01-05-2005, 07:26 PM
Lynne- new thread looks great--thanks for starting it--now I need to save it so I remember where we are ;) Having an ok week--lots of medical issues going on again--really getting sick of it. Today I started with the cold crap my hubby had last week--I really didn't need it! Early to bed for me tonight in hopes of nipping it in the bud. Seeing the doctor again on the 17th--really ready for a hystorectomy. Tired of feeling so crappy and can't get my hemo back up. As soon as it goes up a little the bleeding comes back and I'm back to square one :mad: Haven't been able to do any exercise this week--just not feeling up to it. I have been eating healthy though--so maybe the scales won't be unkind on Sat. In a real cold snap here right now--wish it would warm up a little.
My goal for this week is to get better so I can get back with the program. My long range goal is to look better in June than I do now(short season you know :devil:
I'll try to reach Kermie and Chris and let them know we've moved. Talk tomorrow. Keep up the positive attitude!!!

01-07-2005, 11:01 AM
Lynne--I heard from Kermie today--she was having trouble finding us again. Hope she makes the connection. I'm home from work --sick again. Came home from work on Wed. coming down with the "cold" crap hubby has had. Went to bed early and thought I had it beat. Went to work yesterday and by late morning felt like I was dying again....Came home and slept until this morning. Still feeling pretty rough so I'm taking it easy. Almost 9 am and I'm not even dressed yet---It is VERY unusual for me to be sick--I know it's because my blood is still so low.
Weigh in tomorrow. Hope for a small loss--but we'll see. Haven't done any exercise this week but haven't done much eating either--no appitite. WOW--NEVER THOUGHT I'D SAY THOSE WORDS--NO APPETITE!!!!!!!
How is your new "life style changes" going??? Still hitting the gym???and the bike??? The organic eating is also good--just a little pricey. I try to eat "Fresh" when I can--then frozen and my last choice is canned--just too many persevatives etc. in canned. As long as I can't exercise right now--how about you doing a few extra minutes in my name each day:LOL:
Gonna run--or in my case walk very slowly! I really am going to get out of my pj's and at least load the dishwasher before my next nap--
Keep in touch--

01-08-2005, 07:08 AM
I have to admit that all my good plans have gone down the creek without a paddle! I'm in a real slump emotionally, making it hard to go to bed at night because I don't want to think. So I'm tired, trying to get back into working again this week, and just struggling to get back on track.

So I have totally failed to live up to my goal, but I have gone shopping today, and bought lots of healthy fresh food, including my organic fruit and veg, and have turfed out everything that's old or junky. I had a WW meal for dinner too, which was good.

Jo, glad to hear that Kermie is still about, hopefully she'll manage to sort it out soon! Wonder how Chris is going with her little man?

Organics aren't actually too bad if you know where to shop here. I bought a whole pile of stuff - lettuce, tomatoes, cucumber, carrots, potatoes, onions, peaches - and it came to about $37. Which is not much more than how much it would cost at the supermarket. It also makes me feel a lot better mentally to know that we are buying something that is healthy and nutritious for the kids and me.

Did I tell you I bought us a dog for christmas? We got an 8 week old puppy, Maltese cross with a toy poodle, with a light caramel coat. He's SO cute, and we've called him Benny, after a dog I had when I was growing up. He's a handful, and is weeing everywhere, but we're getting there! It's great for the kids - they're loving him as their playmate.

My God! Australia is putting on a huge concert tonight to raise money for the tsunami victims, and within 3 hours they've raised OVER $15 MILLION DOLLARS from people calling in to donate!!!!! How amazing is that! I've donated some money, and wish I could do more. I've got a whole stack of clothes that I can't fit into, and I'm going to hand them in. All these little kids are ringing in donating their pocketmoney and stuff. Amazing!!

Jo, I'm sorry to hear you're feeling so bad. I'm not fully up to par with what's wrong, but I'm gathering it's "women's problems"? It must be awful to be feeling so tired and sick all the time - I've had that and I know how hard it is to maintain a normal life when all you want to do is sleep. But you hang in there, and hopefully it will get sorted out soon. I think you're doing an amazing job considering! So KOUDOS to you girlfriend! :D

By the way, are you familiar with "Outdoor Jack"? He's this guy who was on a show with american girls vying for his attention in the remote bush of Australia. It's still going here, but I read an article in a magazine that he's now happily living in Los Angeles with the one he picked, and I'm curious as to who he picked. Yes, I'm cheating and not waiting for that nail-biting finale! :lol: It's such a bad show, but so hilarious watching these american beauty queens trying to deal with the spiders, snakes and camping without their hairdryers and manicures! :lol:

I'd better get going, I've got the movie "Housesitter" with Steve Martin and Goldie Hawn about to come on, and it's good for a laugh.

Catch you tomorrow - Promise!


01-08-2005, 02:36 PM
Lynne--happy to hear from you today. I'm out of bed=--barely. Forced myself to go grocery shopping today....thought the fresh air might be a pick-me-upper but it wasn't. Came home exhausted. Temp. back up again. I'm dealing with an upper resportory thing and the female stuff at the same time and it has really knocked me for a loop. Was supposed to go up north this morning with hubby for some ice fishing--but couldn;t muster the strength to go. Nose seems to be drying up some but the cough is still tummy muscles are so sore from coughing that I'm thinking maybe I could market it on video---FAB-ABS IN 50 short coughing spells a day!!!--what do you think???? :lol: I did have a treat on the scale this morning--down 3 1/2 pounds!!!! I know part of it is from being so sick but just maybe some of it will stay off :devil: Thats a total of 13 pounds. I'm getting close to 200 again!!!!
Heard from Kermie again--hope to see a post soon from her. Nothing from Chris.
Organic is a great way to go with children....we have entirely too many additives in our foods. Are you still making it to the gym---it will help with your sleeping problems---not a lecture--just the facts--I always sleep like a baby when I've worked out. Don't be too hard on yourself. The holidays were a real trial for you--I know it brought up lots of memories of Marc and happier times---but remember--there are a lot more happy times in your future--we don't forget the past and we shouldn't--but we need to live in the present and look forward to the future. Start out the morning thinking of yourself Lynne and what YOU want for yourself--everything will fall back in place if you want it bad enough and I think you do......
Haven't seen the show you were talking about--must only be on in Australia. Is it a reality show? I dont watch to many of them--usually only Survivor and then I'm not addicted to it--I can watch it or miss it for a few weeks. I have been watching "Big Fat Loser" this season--have you seen it? Final episode is this week--it is about a weight loss challenge. People have been living together, working out and dieting for the past several months to see who can lose the largest percentage of weight. In the begining the weight loses each week were giant--but now their a more realistic pound or two a week.
We have all kinds of fund raisers going on here too for the Indo, Taiwan etc. disaster. It is heartbreaking to see all the distruction--the children are the hardest to see--you can just see the fear and confusion in their eyes. Fortunately we aren't seeing the disease outbreaks they had predicted--maybe help did arrive in time to ward off that---
Gonna head up for a nap. Still dragging from my grocery store trip---hope to be feeling better soon--it's getting old and I'm not one for laying around--I can see the dust bunnies coming to life in every corner as I neglect my housework :lol:
Stay in touch and get back on track---today is a new day-----

01-08-2005, 02:41 PM
Lynne--forgot to congratulate you on your new addition. My daughter used to have a Maltese--they are great dogs and VERY loveable. Hard to potty train though, especially with children in the house. Sammy was pretty jealous of the kids and would only wet in their rooms:lol: never at my house! You'll love him to death---now you need to get out walking--puppy's need lots of exercise (just another hidden message to you--keep moving!!) I can see you now struggling down the road with 2 children and a a puppy on a leash---it WILL be a workout!

01-09-2005, 05:57 AM
:lol: That's so true! I'm really looking forward to taking him for a walk - he'll go crazy with excitement, and the kids'll love it too. I love walking and have missed it. Unfortunately Benny can't go on footpaths or into parks until the end of February when he has his next vaccination. So it's the front or back garden only at the moment.

I miss going to the gym. I'm planning on getting in there this week, and the kids can go into the creche while I do. The sleeping issue is more of a mental emotional thing, rather than physical. Once I'm in bed and allow myself to go to sleep I pass right out! It's bad right now, but I know it'll settle cos I had the same problem a few months ago. It's just that because I don't talk much about my feelings about Marc, it kind of builds up, and I have a bit of a meltdown for a little while until my brain sorts it out.

I took the kids to the park this arvo for a picnic with my parents and sister and her partner and kids. I've never been a huge fan of picnics in the park, especially when the kids are little, because I end up running around trying to keep them under control and never get to relax and talk to those I'm supposed to be socialising with. Tonight was no exception, and my parents are hopeless. They're quite happy to sit there and sip their wine and don't offer to help me when I'm trying to eat my dinner and Becky's running off again. Or help my sister who's trying to juggle dinner, and 2 1/2 year old and a baby, because her partner is too hung over from partying all last night. I told my dad as I was leaving that I won't be doing that again for a while, until Becky's old enough to be a little less of a handful. Doing it on my own gets too hard sometimes...

I know I sound like I'm complaining a lot. I guess I'm just fed up with trying to pretend that I'm happy with the fact that I'm 34 and widowed, I have 2 young kids to raise on my own, and parents who don't give a toss. I just get so irritated that they KNOW how hard it is for me, yet never offer to help. I love my kids and of course wouldn't swap them for the world, but I hate being so tired and depressed all the time that I lose that ME time that I need to unwind and refocus on MY goals and aims.

Jo, your weight losses are terrific! It's tricky isn't it - it's great that the losses are there, and have probably been aided by your being sick, but would you take the loss over being sick? :lol: I think you'd rather be well and the weight just drop off miraculously? hee hee Wouldn't we all!

That Fat Losers program is starting here in Feb I think. Looks interesting. I'd love to enter a show like that. Yes the Outback Jack one is a reality one. I think Aust is getting a bit sick of the reality shows. The prediction is that this year we'll see a lot of "who dunnits" such as Law & Order, Without a Trace, etc. I love those shows. I love CSI, but can't stand CSI Miami - don't like the main actor. I'm still pouting over the loss of Friends and Sex and the City. And this should be a laugh - Aust is about to start it's own Queer Eye - I don't think it will be as good as the original boys!

Speaking of which, I'm going to go and lie on the couch and watch tv.

I've decided I'm going to use my posts as a food diary as well - boring for you, so just ignore it, but it saves me having to double up and might help keep me honest! :nono:

I'll speak to you tomorrow, and I hope you feel better once you've had a good night's sleep.

Chow for now!

Sunday 9th Jan Food Diary:

Breakfast - 3 pancakes with low fat butter and maple syrup
Lunch - 1 sandwich with 2 slices of seed wholemeal bread, low fat butter, leg ham, avocado, tomato, basil, low fat cheese
Afternoon - plain chips, chocolate
Dinner - Small piece of quiche, some grapes, tomato basil bread

Exercise - chasing children!

01-09-2005, 02:07 PM
Hey--chasing children counts as exercise in my book!! So does playing with children, reading to children, cooking with children--and it has great healthy mental attributes as well!!! Wish I could give you a few words of wisdom to help you with your slump--but I can't. The death of a spouse is a very hard blow to deal with--and the children are just an added problem. One one hand they help us deal with so much pain--with their quick smiles and innocents but on the other they add stress too--your the "sole" provider now--you have to be tough yada, yada yada. Doesn't leave much time to heal ourselves--does it??? The only words I can offer are that it will get easier, the pain will lessen--in time. Try not to over annalize those around you--they really aren't being insensitive--they simple have their own very busy lives and haven't given as much thought to your pain and loss as they should have. Their human Lynne--forgive and forget--your in a different place than your family right now and worrying yourself sick or spending sleepless nights fretting over their shortcomings isn't helping you any. Take care of yourself, work your program, exercise, eat right and enjoy what you have right now----the happier you are with yourself--the happier your life will be.
I am feeling a little better today--I think I have the cold crap licked. My appetite is better--darn it!! and I have a little more energy. Still taking it very easy though--work will be enough of a challenge tomorrow without still dragging. Not going to walk again this week. I know my blood levels are still way down and the bleeding hasn't stopped so until that happens I'm staying off my feet as much as posible. I have the rest of my life to work out:lol: If I have surgery anytime soon I'll have 6 weeks after to get going with the exercise before going back to work.
Gonna run--hubby will be home from the lake soon and I need to get some dinner going. Cloudy gloomy day here but the good news is there are a few snow flakes coming down. We need the moisture very badly--hope it keeps up! Take care of yourself--

01-09-2005, 10:52 PM
Jo, I hope I'm not coming across as a total ***** who doesn't appreciate what I have around me. Trust me, after what happened to Marc, I appreciate life a lot more. And I don't sit up at nights stressing about THEM, just myself and the kids! LOL Seriously though, I try not to let it get to me too much, and what I have done is just try to step back from the situation - for example, not go to picnics for a while! So I am trying to just take my life for what it is right now. It's just that these last few weeks have been hard in general.

I had a couple of revelations in the car that I want to share with you. This is probably nothing new to you, but I'm still learning.

I made some new year's resolutions this year, and one of them was to forgive myself for not being who I used to be, and move on with who I am now. I know that sounds so basic and simple, but for me, letting go of who I was and what I had has been hard, because everything kind of went down hill from there: Basically in my teens I was slim, gorgeous, and very flirty. I had lots of attention and boyfriends and LOVED it. It was a lot of fun to go out and "play" with the boys. So when I started putting on weight around 19/20, it was really hard to see the attraction start to go, and the attention drop. And because I didn't really understand why I was gaining weight, I didn't know how to control it or stop it. Combined with my mental and emotional issues, the weight piled on and I got more and more depressed. By my early 20's I was a mess. Although I had to have Josh on my own, he was my saving grace. Without him to live for, I don't think I would be here today. But it meant a huge change in lifestyle, which I found hard to adjust to. And although we are talking 8 years on, I still feel regret that I am not that cute young thing that all the men wanted. I have found it hard to join that image up to the middle-aged, overweight mum that I am now. But I was watching Oprah the other week, and they were talking about forgiving people who have treated them badly in the past. About forgiving the person for what happened because you can't change the past, it is done and gone. All you can do is let the past become the past and move on to focus on your life as it is now. That really struck me in regard to myself. I have hated myself for not being who I was in the past, and for letting myself down by not being able to control my weight, and therefore, haven't been able to move forward and sort out who I am now. I need to say, I will never be that young person again, and am not even sure if I would want to if I could. I'm a mature, self-assured (well mostly), caring mother, and if I am not happy with my body image, now is the time to look at what I can do to improve it throughout this new year. The young slim person was a long time ago, a school girl for goodness sake, who made a lot of silly mistakes in her teens, but I know better and am a better person for it. I KNOW why I gain weight, I KNOW that I can do something about it, I KNOW that I don't need to be skinny to be happy and attractive to others, I KNOW that I wouldn't change being a mum for anything, I KNOW I can lead a full and happy life.

The other revelation was that I need to start viewing food for what it represents as it goes into my body. For example, the cheeseburger that I ate on the way to work represents and whole bunch of FAT that will leave a nice line of fat on my arteries as it works it's way towards the fatty cells on my but! :lol: Whereas the nice healthy meusli that I had this morning represents strong carbs that clean out my system leaving it glistening like a newly mopped floor, as it pumps energy into my body to help me have a productive and satisfactory day. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God I sound so full of it sometimes! ha ha

Anyway, I must go, I'm at work, but I just wanted to share. Jo, thankyou so much for your thoughts, I totally appreciate them and understand what you are saying. I certainly don't take offence - I just don't want you thinking badly of me!

Have a good day and I'm glad to hear you're feeling better - take it easy and don't stress about the exercise - as you say, you've got plenty of time to catch up! Hope your hubby had a nice trip.

Take care all.

01-10-2005, 12:00 AM
Hi Lynne and Jo,
I hope you don't mind if I join you. I've been reading your posts and you both sound like great ladies. I hope that I am not butting in. Lynne, I hope you find peace in your heart for your loss. My sister lost her love a few years ago when she was preg with thier first child. I have been the recipient of many mad, sad, furious, insightful conversations with her over the last few years! It takes time, but just look in those beautiful eyes of your children and remember the happiness you would not have had if you had never met your love.
Jo, I hope you are feeling better. That cold crud has been making it's way through my house one child at a time(6 of them), but it seems to just stick with me! Hubby doesn't want to kiss me!
A little about me-35(36 in April) mom of 6-2 years up to almost 19. Live in COLD Idaho. Stay at home, homeschool mom. Highest weight was in July-272, weight last Monday was 243.5 Hopefully that will be down tomorrow for weigh in. I am not following any particular program, just cut out the junk, cut down on portion size and I'm doing the Leslie Sansone Walk away the Pounds 3 Miles for Abs tape. I've done 12 miles so far this month and I'm aiming for 50!
Well gotta run.

01-11-2005, 08:12 AM
Good evening all!

Hi, welcome Kathy. You are more than welcome to join us - we're not exclusive, just been pottering along in our own quiet way over the last couple of years. So, glad to hear from you and would love for you to join us on our weight loss "journey" - don't you love that word! :lol: I can't believe you're my age and have 6 kids - you must have the patience of a saint! I struggle with 2!!! Thanks for your thoughts and comments. I just keep going and hope for the best! I can see you have already achieved a really good loss, and by the sounds of it you shouldn't have any problems reaching your goal. Can I ask if you gaining/losing weight is a recent endeavour? What made you start your weight loss plan? How much walking do you do and how often?

I'm attempting to get myself back on track. I'm not following any particular plan, but have done Jenny Craig and Weight Watchers in my past. Also was going to the gym and had a trainer just before christmas, which was great... I must get in touch with her! Admittedly, it's been harder to steer away from the junk food and exercise more frequently than I thought. Maybe having you and Jo to spur me on will be the kick up the pants I need!

You wouldn't believe the kind of luck I have. And I'm being sarcastic here. I'm really trying to be positive, make new goals for the new year, make plans and be optomistic about my future. HOWEVER. I got a phone call from my crabby landlord's secretary today, and apparently he wants to sell up so I have to move in the next 2 months!!!!! I was so upset I cried in her ear, which was really embarassing! I can't believe, after all the time and money I've spent doing this house up and getting settled, that I'm now going to have to pick up and start again. I'm SO pissed off!

So now, on top of everything else I'm trying to deal with, now I have to house hunt and relocate myself and 2 kids! And I've moved often enough to know how hard and exhausting it is. I'm very tempted to have a HUGE garage sale and sell off as much as possible, so that I don't have too much to move. Maybe this will be a good opportunity to off load lots of rubbish and start again. All I can say is that I look up at the stars and think "for god's sake, will you leave me alone!!!!" It would be SO nice if FOR ONCE I could make a change in my life BY CHOICE, not because it has been forced upon me!!!! And this house is my last link to Marc, which will make it doubly hard.

Anyway, today's food choices were AWFUL - I'm not even going to record them. I'll whisper the words "pie" and "pizza" and I'm sure you'll get the idea!

Josh has got a couple of friends over for a sleep over tonight - they're watching Harry Potter. Don't you love slumber parties and movie nights? My fave!

I'm going to go to bed and read a book and try not to think about all the things I'm going to have to do over the next couple of months.....

Kathy, we look forward to you being a part of our group. Maybe you would like to suggest the next challenge? Is there anything that you have a weakness for that we could help with?

Jo, hope you're ok and up and moving about again.

Kermie and Chris PLEASE drop a line!


01-12-2005, 01:12 AM
Just popping in to say thanks for the welcome. I don't have much time, kids want the computer!
My weight gain started 17 1/2 years ago when I was preg with my first son, I started at 135 and ended at 200! Slowly went up from there. 6 weeks after having my last baby I was at 239, I went up to 272, now after 2 years I am back at 239! I didn't start to lose weight until my oldest daughter graduated in May and I realized she could get married and have children! My motivations to lose weight are-
#3-I don't want to be the "fat" mom in wedding pictures!
#2-I have a 2 year old son and I want to be around for his children!
#1-Feel good about myself, lower my blood pressure and get healthy.

Lynne-Sorry to hear about your housing problem. I hope you find something perfect, quickly! Don't stress(I know, easier said than done) Please remember, also that the memories of your husband are in your heart and in your children, not in the walls of a house.

Well, I'm being chased away!!!!


01-12-2005, 09:53 PM
Hey Lynne and welcome Kathy. Sorry I've been AWOL for a few days. Lots of things going on. A good friend of hubbys passed away on Sat--very young, very sad but not totally unexpected. Has had a serious drinking and drug problem for years and it finally caught up with him. Very hard on hubby--he has really been trying for years to get him help--along with a lot of other people. I've also been doctoring again. Hemo still way low and bleeding still going on. Decision was made tonight for a full hystorectomy. Scheduling it tomorrow. I'm hoping to put it off until Feb. 8th.--we'll see. Sounds silly but I'm trying to work it out so I can have 3 weeks recovery before we leave for a few weeks in warmer climates. Then I can save all of my vacation time for summer and another 3 or 4 weeks off:devil: Better get serious with this diet stuff before I'm laid up right????? Feeling heavy tonight but I'm not stepping on the scale until Sat. Ate out today so supper was light. I am going to start walking again on Friday--starting out slow and not overdoing it.
Sounds like your doing a lot of soul searching Lynne--good for you!! Bummer about the move. I know how hard you've been working on the house. Nice of the landlord to take advantage of your hard work to make more money off you---what a :nono: But it may be a positive for you---is there a chance you can buy this time??? At least your not having to move in the winter. When is Josh done with school?? Start looking now--maybe you can find something quickly and stick the landlord with no rent until he can sell:devil: He sure has pulled some crap on you the last few years--you have to move, you don't, you have too-----
Kathy--sounds like your really working your program right now. That's great!!!! Sorry your joining us when I'm such a mess health wise, but I am still here to support you guys with your program. I'm not supposed to be dieting or exercising right now--except in moderation because of the female stuff but once I'm thru this surgery--I'll give you and Lynne a run for your money--challenge wise--I need to lose 30-40 pounds and would like to do it by May----pretty lofty goal but do-able, However I'm setting a one-two pound a week goal once I'm able to get going. In the meantime--it's lots of protein and cream of wheat twice a day----and if I can lose a little before the surgery that will be a bonus---
Boy this is sure a rambling mess tonight--sorry--too much going on all at once. I'll post tomorrow. Keep up the good work ladies!

01-13-2005, 10:43 PM
Hi guys!

Sorry I haven't been in for a couple of days. I've just been too darn tired! By the time you get the kids to bed, clean up the house, do the dishes, etc etc, it's getting late - and this doesn't include watching tv or reading or any "me" time! :lol: I'm taking advantage of my lunch break at work - I think sometimes it's the only time I get to relax and be uninterrupted!

Kathy, thanks for sharing your history - I know it's hard, when you are juggling kids etc. I never had a weight problem until I was at art college and out partying and enjoying myself. It was a bit of shock I can tell you! But it certainly became a "bigger" problem after I had Josh - I was a single mum, coping with a newborn and being on my own, so a lot of the time I opted for quick meals, takeaways and stuff, and it was hard to get out to exercise. I lost quite a bit of weight a few years ago, but when Marc and I met, I piled it on again. They say that having a partner with a healthy appetite can make you gain weight because you tend to match your portions to theirs. It totally sucked having a partner who was as lean as a bean and could eat anything!

It sounds like you weigh about the same as me - do you have a specific goal in mind for your final weight? Do you have any short term goals or events coming up?

Jo, don't stress if you can't post all the time - I understand! It was sad to hear your hubby's friend died. It's hard trying to help someone who's so low, but then having to lose them after such a battle must be awful. That explains why you are so compassionate and upbeat to me! What a scary decision you have had to make - you are very brave, and I wish you luck. I fully understand why you want to recover before you go away - then you'll be able to relax and enjoy yourself without feeling so low all the time. And then you'll be able to come back all refreshed, and by golly then we'll be in trouble! ha ha

Unfortunately I can't afford to buy a house, so YET AGAIN I'm going to have to move into a rental property. It's so ANNOYING - the last house we moved into we said would be our last rental property before buying. And then we were kicked out of that. And we said the same about this one, and now this! grrrrrr The only possible advantage is that I might be able to find something closer to Josh's school. Relatively we aren't that far - it takes me about 20 minutes to get there in the morning. But most of the kids live close, which means that Josh doesn't get to hang out with them after school as much as he could if we were neighbours. And doing 20 mins there, 20 mins back, twice a day, is annoying! I tried to convince him to go to a school around the corner, but he's too settled. And after everything, I'm reluctant to change anymore than I have to. Anyway, I won't do anything until I'm advised in writing, and knowing my landlord, that could take months! Trust me, as soon as I find out, I'm going to stop paying rent, because a) he can't kick me out!, and b) I've got photos that PROVE how much money I've spent on the place. And if I do that, the money will cover the bond I would have to pay on a new place, rather than having to take it out of savings.

My eating has been AWFUL. I really need to snap out of this slump, but it's so hard when I feel so tired. I have tried getting to bed early, but end up lying there crying or thinking about stuff, and it's still after 11pm before I drop off. And last night I was woken about 3 times, so I feel crappy today. It's so frustrating, because it affects my mood with the kids, and makes it hard for me to feel motivated and clear minded at work and personally. I know this a phase, but I'm just not quite sure how to get out of it. I know it won't last, and maybe the whole project of moving will help keep my mind off things.. who knows?

Anyway, enough of me complaining - it's all I seem to do at the moment!

I'm going to make a promise - I WILL GO FOR A REALLY GOOD WALK TOMORROW. You can hold me to that ok? I'll force mum to take the kids and run off before she can complain! :lol:

What can I use as a coping tool to stop me eating all this rubbish - chewing gum can be quite effective. What else? What do you guys reckon? I need to plan, so that tomorrow, so while I'm dodging mum and the kids and being a good girl exercising, I can avoid bad food too..... Do you have the same problem? Do you find the call of chips and chocolate more alluring that apples and carrots? :lol:

Have a good night ladies, and speak to you tomorrow.

01-14-2005, 07:01 PM
Hey Lynne and Kathy--well surgery is set--Feb. 8th. I'll be out of work until March 24. Hubby and I are hoping to go to Florida the last 3 weeks of my recovery. But we aren't making reservations yet--we're going to play it by ear and see how I'm feeling.
Lynne--get your butt out the door and walk--I"d LOVE to be able to go for a walk--but we're in a VERY DEEP FREEZE--way below zero. So when you start procrastinating remind yourself that their are many people like me around who would gladly take your place if they could--WALK, WALK, WALK GIRL!!! Glad to hear you don't sound as bummed about the move--it would be nice to get closer to Josh's school--now if we could solve your sleeping problems---
Gonna run--I've got a million things to do. I walked in from work and started answering my E-mails etc. Haven't even talked to Hubby--and he's sounding a little perturbed:devil:
We are going out of town--in spite of the cold so I won't touch base for a few days. Stay focused--your worth it!!

01-16-2005, 04:38 PM
Hey ladies--back from the lake. It was pretty cozy in the fish house--but bitter cold outside. Fish weren't biting so we came home early..Well I had 1/2 pound gain for the week. I knew last weeks 3 1/2 had something to do with being sick but I'm happy with the 3. Back to the basics this week. Light exercise and watching what I'm eating.
Did you get out for a walk Lynne?? Hope so.
Kathy--have you left us???
Guess Kermie still hasn't found the thread. I'll try e-mailing her again.
Talk tomorrow. Let me know how your all doing?

01-17-2005, 10:43 PM
Sorry I haven't been around. I put my two school age girls into public school this week. We have been having a very trying time with the 9 yr old wanting to go back and the 11 yr old decided she wanted to go back also. It's better to let them go back than end up hating me and school. Although when they are teenagers, I'm sure they'll hate me for something!!
For all the stress of the last week, I managed to lose 1 pound and that being with TOM starting yesterday!
I do the Leslie Sansone Walk Away The Pounds 3 Miles for Abs video. I impressed myself by doing the video 6 days in a row(18 miles!!!), but then I took 3 days off :( They say if you are walking to lose weight you shouldn't take more than 1 or 2 days off. I know why-you don't want to start again! But I will get my behind up every morning and get going! I would like to see more than -1 a week.

Jo, I'm glad they finally scheduled your surgery. Won't it be nice to be done with it all? Will you take HRT or go with natural alternatives? We call my MIL the "witchdoctor" of the family with all the herbs she takes and passes out to everyone, but she has never had a hotflash! I don't know if it's the herbs or if she's just lucky, but I plan on taking the herbs!

Lynne, I hope you're having good luck finding a house. Don't forget to take care of yourself!

Talk with you all later!

01-19-2005, 03:03 PM
Kathy-glad to hear from you again. I know it was a hard decision to stop home schooling but sometimes we have to let go for a while. In a year or two they may decide it wasn't such a bad deal staying home--
Good for you losing weight this week. It's very hard not to stress eat--I'm proud of you!! A pound is a pound!! I'm down this morning--weight wise but probably because I'm sick again. It has really been hard on me not feeling well for such an extended time. I'm NEVER sick and I admit I don't have the patience to be sick---bronchitis, ear infection and sinus infection this time. Started on antibiotics last night. Stayed home from work today to give myself a little extra rest. I have to get well before surgery--sure don't want to postpone it. Not sure if I'm going with HRT or not. I have an excellent doctor (female) who has guided me thru this whole mess for the last 12 years so I'll go with her recommendations. We had talked about a low dose patch --but there are a whole slew of new creams etc out there that I may try. You have to go to a compounding pharmacy and they mix them specifically for you. Be careful with the herbs etc. They are not very well regulated and can be dangerous. If you do use them--only use the same brand all the time. Anything manufactured in Germany is safe--they have very strict regulation there that no other country has. I do soy products to relieve some symptons but find that healthy diet and exercise help as well as anything. Limit my caffine and drink very limited amounts of pop. Also I drink green tea--but not nearly in the amounts they suggest. 1-2 cups a day. Can't wait to be able to start walking again--I sure miss all the benefits from it. I sleep like a baby when I get in a good walk--also don't get integestion , heartburn etc. when I walk a lot--not sure why but I do feel better all around. have been doing short walks when I have the energy--10-15 minutes. Shoveled my sidewalk this morning--wore me out but the fresh--COLD air felt good!
Lynne--how are you couping? Any thing new from the landlord??? How are you doing on your bike riding and exercise??
Gonna go ladies. Have been up for a few hours, just doing light stuff around the house and I'm still "pooped" out. Guess the sidewalk shoveling was a little too heavy for me today:devil:
Once again--great hearing from you Kathy--stay in touch and keep up the good work--without the kids around all day you may be able to step up your program at home--even a few extra minutes a day adds up at the end of the week :)

01-20-2005, 10:58 PM
Hi guys

I'm sorry it's been a few days since my last post. I'm trying to juggle too many things at once at the moment, and as usual, getting on the pc comes last!

I'm not quite sure what's happening about the move, but I'm having a garage sale on the weekend, and I'm going to start packing things we don't use much, and hopefully that will help make things happen quickly if I find another house. I've made an offer to the landlord to get out quickly, as long as he's prepared to compensate me, ie free rent, to help cover the costs.

Every day I plan to exercise, and every day stuff comes up, I end up rushed off my feet, and STILL feel like I haven't done much! I'm going to have to start making schedules and lists to help look at why I can't seem to keep up. I know that running a house, looking after 2 kids, working part time and cooking for mum is a full-on job, but I get so frustrated that I can't seem to manage better. I am trying to get better sleeps though - I got the parents to take the kids on Sunday night, and I had a big lie in the next day, which made a huge difference. I was feeling quite perky that day! :D

Jo, I'm sending out posititive vibes for your surgery, and I hope that it will mean you feeling more like your normal self. It's hard to function when you're feeling so run down. I know! Hopefully you'll have a speedy recovery and then can go and have a nice relaxing holiday! Don't worry about the little gain. I think you can ignore your weight to a large degree until you have had your surgery, because your lifestyle isn't "normal" and so any weight fluctation is just a part of what's going on in your life right now. I have to say that considering you have been unwell, and haven't exercised much, you are doing really well to lose!!! BRAVO!! I KNOW I should get out there, but something always gets in the way. Marc used to tell me off, and my trainer did too. I get so caught up in trying to keep the house tidy, and look after the kids etc, that I leave myself till last - and then it doesn't happen. Which is why I need to have a close look at what I'm doing and work out how to maximise my time and improve my quality of life and health!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kathy, WOO HOO on the weight loss! I think you're doing so well! Don't worry if you didn't exercise for a few days. The experts actually recommend about 4 days of exercise a week, where you do approx. 30 minutes of aerobic activity. And then on the other days, do more if you can manage, or incidental exercise, such as shopping, washing the car, housecleaning, etc.

I'm amazed that I haven't gained weight. I think all the incidental exercise of chasing after the kids, puppy, cleaning, etc has helped! :lol:

Ok, I'm going to ring my trainer right now......

Kathy, you said you've sent your girls to school - do they just go somewhere local? I'm sure they will enjoy being with other kids their age. Josh has really missed hanging out with his friends and having that social and mental stimulation every day. I'VE missed him being at school - ha ha It's so draining looking after both of them everyday. I find that I don't get as much done.

Trainer is out, but I've left a message. I WILL get back into my gym!!!!!!

I'd better go. Lunch break is up.

I know I've said it before, but I'm sorry I'm being such a sour puss. I hate being like this. I don't like feeling out of control. I've just got to find that motivation and BELIEF that I had before.
Thanks for your support and friendship.

Bye for now!

01-21-2005, 08:44 PM
Lynne--don't be too hard on yourself. Your doing pretty darn good for all the stressors you have going on right now. You DO have have a pretty good attitude about the move and all. Things will get settled down sooner or later--in the meantime keep doing the best you can--just for tomorrow--let some of the housework go and help yourself! You may find you actually accomplish more each day when you do take the time to exercise. I know I'm more productive when I've had a good workout in the morning. Try getting up 15 minutes earlier and get on your bike--you can do your day planning as you peddle away--and not feel like you should be doing something else instead of exercising because your doing it before you should even be out of bed!
Kathy--hope it's going well for you. I finally saw the tape you work out with advertised in an Avon book--I had never heard of it. It does look like a good one.
My week has been ok.--I'm feeling a little better. The antibiotics have kicked in. I'm pretty sure I've lost a little again. I don't have much of an appetite--but I have been really concentrating on eating healthy. I really need lots of protein. Weigh in in the morning--THE SCALE WILL TELL:devil:
1/2 pound or so a week is ok with me for now--certainly better than gains all the time--and the fact that I lost during the holidays is a REAL moral booster. I haven't had an appetite is most of the reason--but I am going to pat myself on the back because I have made the healthy choices I have--I have made a conseincious effort to avoid sweets--and other empty calories.
Gonna run--we're having a real snow storm today--and I'm going to enjoy watching the snowflakes fall!!! It is BEAUTIFUL!!!
I'll touch base when I can this weekend. We're going to the lake in the morning...

01-23-2005, 05:57 PM
Lynne & Kathy--just a quick post. Just got back from the lake and lots of stuff to get done before work tomorrow. Did have a 1 pound loss this week--of course 1/2 of it was the gain from last week--so I'm down 1/2 pound--I"LL TAKE IT!!!!

Hope your both having a good weekend.

01-25-2005, 09:12 PM

Guess what?? I FINALLY got on my bike yesterday! YYYYAAAAAAAYYYYYY!!!!! :lol:

I had a GREAT day yesterday. I woke up feeling very energised and full of plans for the day. We got lots done, looking at houses, shopping, etc. And Josh and I tidied up the back garden from the garage sale - it's been so hot here that things were melting! And we had a bit of a splash in our little paddling pool that I bought the kids - it's really cute. It's wide enough that I can lie down in it, and it has a colourful gazebo over it to give shade. After that I made the kids a lovely chicken salad dinner and then I hopped on my bike while they ate! And then I had the same..... :strong:

I'm not quite sure why, but it feels like I've turned a corner, and I'm going to enjoy it while it lasts! I think that recognising that I've got too much on my plate, and working out how to get things sorted so that I don't feel so overwhelmed, has helped. Also I think all the nights of trying to get to bed at a decent time are starting to pay off. I even slept solidly last night without dreaming or waking.

Jo, well DONE on the loss this week! I definitely agree that you deserve a pat on the back - when I'm sick I eat WORSE than normal, so the fact that you are trying really hard to eat well is VERY commendable! :dance: :dance: Glad you're feeling better too. Must be helping heaps!

Gosh, I've just realised the time. I've got to go and make our lunch - we're having ham and cheese toasties. Do you have those? I like putting tomato and basil in mine. It's a really nice alternative to the normal sandwich, and I have it with salad and soup. I butter the bread on one side, and then put the toppings on the unbuttered side, and then put the sandwich in a heated frying pan - no oil or anything - on low, with the butter on the outside. It's so yummy and a long time favourite!!!!

*drool* :lol: Can you tell I love my food??!! :lol: I think I'd better sign off and go and feed myself! ha ha

Kathy, hope all's well.

Chris and Kermie, we really hope to hear from you soon.


PS Happy Australia Day!

PPS I hate this heat - all you want to do is sit in the shower all day!

01-27-2005, 07:42 PM
Lynne--was happy to hear from you yesterday. Good for you getting on the bike--did you sleep better after the exercise? I didn't have a very good night. My daughter is out of the country and her oldest son had to have emergency surgery--on his 15th birthday no less. I spent most of the night on the phone with foriegn speaking people trying to get a message to her--what a nightmare. She had left a phone number but the phone service in the Dominican Republic is so sporadic I couldn't get thru--she did finally return my calls--not sure if she got it from her cell phone, computer or the hotel. I get so angry with her for traveling so much and leaving her children with their Au Pair. wish she would concentrate on raising the kids now and travel when their grown---but you can't tell her anything:mad:
Health wise I'm feeling pretty good. Still have a cough hanging on but the spells are getting further apart--usually during the night or after I've been in the cold air. Surgery date is getting closer and I'm looking forward to it--not really the surgery but the finalization of putting these particular health problems behind me. It will be so good to get up every morning and be able to tell myself that I'll feel better than the day before and have it be the TRUTH!! It will also be nice to start exercising again without worrying about getting the great "flood" started up again. Seems like the least thing on the semi-intense side gets the flow going heavier--carrying a basket of laundry up the stairs or carrying in a bag of grocery's and I'm in the bathroom immediately---UGHHHHHH!!!
Have you and Josh found any house that looks promising?? How did your garage sale go??? I never have garage sales--I usually donate to a charity. I don't have the patience to price everything and set it all out--it's a lot of work! When my children were little I did have a sale every year or two--usually just before school started to have a little extra money to spend on new school clothes for them--and I had them to help me with the set up and CLEAN_UP after!
Enough for tonight. Hubby is up north so I'm going to put my feet up for a change--and be in control of the remote----what a treat!
Kathie--how are things going for you???
Talk tomorrow.

01-31-2005, 11:55 PM
I feel like the real me is slowly starting to emerge from a cocoon... does that sound loony?? I'm really trying to get back on track with everything. I'm focussing on my healthy eating again, and got back into the gym today. I always forget how much I miss it until I get in and do it. I'm feeling very energised and motivated. It's so good to be that way again! I'm in the process of packing, which is giving me the chance to do a bit more spring cleaning. Had quite a good chat with my sister today about trying to be more organised in my day-to-day life. Trying to have a good routine that I can work with that helps get everything done. Sounds a little bit over the top, but certainly might help me feel that I have more control. I don't think I can ever be one of those people who runs to a set time schedule, but I certainly think it would help if I nominate certain days for certain activities and make sure I stick to them. One things for sure = I really need to schedule in the exercise again - getting up in the morning and getting on my bike was a great way to get it done - I agree with you Jo, it certainly helps kick start the day....

I hope your grandson is ok. It's wierd talking about au pairs. We don't have them here. We have babysitters and nannies, but not many people use them to such an extent. There's such a push for mum's to stay home with the kids here. Mind you, you then get criticised for bludging off the government if you're a single parent. But if you try to work you're criticised for neglecting your kids!

I'd better go, I've gotta get some spag bol cooking.....

Talk again soon....

Bye! :wave:

02-03-2005, 11:04 PM
Hi pals ol' buddies ol' friends of mine!

Hee hee ... I'm at work, enjoying a chicken, lettuce and sweet chili sauce sandwich with a cup of soup and fruit.....

Yes, it's safe to say that I am FINALLY back in the world of weight loss! :yay:

All that crazy talking to myself has finally paid off! I'm really determined to look after myself more. As you would know, when you've been trying to lose weight for such a long time, the whole issue about body image, emotional eating, other people's influences, self-doubt, etc etc all become an awful cycle that is hard to break out of. I think that by me looking at who I was 10 years ago, and saying goodbye to that person, and just looking at who I am TODAY and what I want to do for myself NOW has made a big difference. Instead of focussing on how much I've failed by gaining all this weight, and how I wish I could look like I used to, I'm looking at who I am now, saying "hey I'm a great chick, but I think I need to lose a bit" and then working on doing it! I guess that's the joy of a new year!!!!!!

So I have been eating well, have managed to get through 5 days without any junk food, and only ate one chocolate donut when I was out shopping with the kids yesterday. I've got a busy weekend coming up so am determined to stay away from the alcohol - I'm still trying to get my mind off the weekend drinking sessions that I've done for so long.

I haven't been able to exercise the last couple of days cos I've done something to my back, and am really fretting. I'm going to try to get on my bike tonight if my back's settled down.

How's everyone else? I hope you're having a positive healthy week... and if not.. come in here and I'll share some of mine! :lol:

By the way, I read my last post, and I have to apologise if it sounded really rambling! When I was talking about being organised, what I meant is that by schedulling my time MORE EFFICIENTLY I might be able to then make time for myself, and feel less rushed and stressed. I manage to get things done now - just - but it's always chaotic, and I always feel like I'm only just managing to keep up. Part of that is feeling so tired and depressed, but I think that's changing - I even did all my ironing the other night, for the first time in AGES!

I'd better go, got things to do!

Take care.

02-06-2005, 08:15 PM
Hi Lynne--happy to see two posts from you. I'm feeling pretty good today. Still some adominal swelling and soreness but a little better each day. When I went into the hospital I was down another 2 pounds and feeling great! Then 2 days after surgery I got on the scale and had gained 13.5 pounds. Of course I knew it was water weight but it was still a bit of a shock. Finally most of it is gone today. Won't weigh until next weekend--by then I should get a more accurate weight. I'll be back to a more normal eating schedule and exercise. Still sleeping a lot now-which is normal I'm told.
Still don't have my appointments set for seeing the cancer specialists but it will be in about 2 weeks. Their waiting for all of the biopsies to get back before setting me up with him. Sure hope I'm not facing another surgery too quickly--I'd like some time to recoup but I'll go with what they recommend.
Good for you getting back with a schedule Lynne--It is the only way I get it done--first thing in the morning. Make it your priority for a while--then it becomes habit. Also after eating healthy for a while the un-healthy stuff doesn't even taste good. I plan on walking a little tomorrow--5-10 minutes at a time. I've been up most of today--but I did sleep in late and napped for about 30 minutes after the grandchildren went home. Other than that I've kept moving--much to my hubby's disapproval. He thinks I should vegitate for a while--but I just can't do that. I know from my own past experience that the more I move the quicker I recover.
Gonna run....superbowl Sunday here and the games coming from my hometown--Jacksonville, Fl. I like watching for all the great commercials that come on:D:
Stay in touch--I plan on posting every day now that I'm off work for 7 weeks--until I leave for vacation in 3 weeks. Stay motivated Lynne--YOUR WORTH IT!! Life is too short to waste it not feeling good about ourselves.

02-08-2005, 03:50 PM
Well--so much for posting every day. Hubby was home yesterday and kept fussing at me to rest so I didn't get to the puter for long. Had a ton of e-mails from family that had to be answered. Today he's at work and I'm doing what I want----a little LIGHT cleaning---can't do much with a 15 pound lift restriction--everything weighs more than that!!! A little walking--but not far--too cold out. and a lot of reading. Did some laundry--stuff you don't get to do often--scatter rugs etc. That way I don't have to carry a laundry basket--just a small armload at a time. Straightened a spare room closet and loaded the dishwasher. Going on another short walk in a bit--then I'll read away the afternoon. I could get to like this staying home fulltime!!!! I have an appointemnt with the cancer experts on the 24th. Probalby won't hear anything else before then. It's driving hubby crazy not knowing but I'm not thinking about it much. Figured I'm in the Lords hands now so why should I spend my time worrying--that won't change anything and the stress will only delay my recovery from the surgery I already went thru. Still planning on going to Virginia and Florida in a few weeks to finish my recovery. The scale is looking pretty good these days--but my tummy is still so swollen I don't see it in the mirror. Once everything gets back to normal I hope to be under 200---it's been a while since I've seen those numbers---how is your loss going Lynne? Sorry to hear you've tweaked your back again. Try doing some slow stretches etc before jumping on the bike--if that doesn';t help--then go for a short walk instead of the ride. The important thing is to keep moving and keep the routine going. Remember--first thing in the morning is the best--before you get busy with the kids and running a household! I can't wait to get out for a good long walk--hoping by the end of the week. I'm 1 week out of surgery and ahead of schedule now so I think I can do it--if the darn weather cooperates! Until then I'm up and down the stairs at least once an hour and moving around in between. Not near the levels my body is used too but I problably don't need as much to still lose. I know it takes a tremendous amount of energy to heal your body--and I still don't have much of an appetite--not complaining about that though---it's a blessing!
Let me know how your doing--talk about a rambling post;) talk tomorrow--
PS--Kathy where are you????

02-08-2005, 10:48 PM
Hi all

Jo, I'm glad to hear you're recovering well. I have to agree with your hubby - don't try to push it, you might not realise you're exhausting yourself until it's too late! But you are allowing yourself good quality reading time - that's a definite plus! I have to admit, you're a lot like me: can't keep still! I remember when I was seeing a counsellor when I was stressed a couple of years ago, and he and Marc were both telling me I needed to slow down and have quiet "me" time. I said, "how is that possible when there's so much to do and you can SEE it!?"
I'm sure you've told us, but what's with the cancer checkup? What a worry! I hope it comes back clear. It's the last thing you need on top of everything else!!!

I wonder what's happened to the others? We're a little bunch these days aren't we?

As you can imagine, my days are rather hectic at the moment. We found a house, and amazingly it's only about 3 blocks from where we are now!!! I can practically WALK the furniture around there! :lol: It's a very pretty looking house, and the bedrooms are nice and big for the kids, but there are a few things I'm not too crazy about. However, beggers can't be choosers, and it was becoming quite obvious that there isn't a lot of good quality housing at low prices on the rental market at the moment. Fortunately this one's only $10 a week more than the one we're in now - $220 I can cope with. A lot of what I was looking at was easily $250 +, and that's starting to stretch the budget. The other good bit of news is that the Government Housing Trust approved giving me the bond (4 week's rent) and first 2 week's rent, so that made everything a lot easier.
Because I've found a house so quickly, and we're moving in 1 1/2 weeks, and the Housing Trust helped with the money, it means that we can still go to New Zealand in March, which is great. I'm partly looking forward to it, and partly dreading it, because the last time I went it was with Marc on our honeymoon. I think it's going to be very emotionally draining. Thank goodness mum and dad are going as well!

My eating has been pretty good. I am really trying to remind myself that I want to look after myself and improve my body this year, so overall my choices are definitely better. The odd naughty thing creeps in, but certainly not as bad as it was a couple of weeks ago! And I'm certainly getting lots of exercise with all the packing, and carrying boxes and household items out to the car, and into the new house!

The kids are very excited about the new house. We've been going around there almost every day since I signed on Saturday. We take stuff there, for example a toy of Becky's, and I'll say, "let's put it in Becky's room!", so it's giving them heaps of time to get used to the idea of being there. Josh is stoked at having such a big bedroom - I've hated how small their rooms have been, and the fact that it was so hard for him to have anything out.

I'm hoping to be up and running fairly quickly, but if not, I'll just keep in touch when I come into work, which is Monday, Wed and Friday. So I will still be around, but maybe not as often for a little while.

Oh, and I think I've lost a little weight, but I thought I'd give it a month before I start officially weighing again - I didn't want to get discouraged if I had put on too much weight. I haven't been hopping on and off the scales lately, which is a good thing. I really must get rid of them - I just get panicky if I can't see what I weigh at least every 2nd day! I know it's a bad habit. Ideally I should only weigh in once a week when I go to the gym - maybe I'll make that my next challenge!

I am proud of the fact that this whole move bizzo has not made me binge more. I like the fact that I'm looking at this optomistically and reminding myself that my weight and life goals are more important than caving everytime something bad happens. It's a rather significant step, considering I have been an emotional eater for years! (**patting myself on the back!**)

Bye for now, and take care!

02-09-2005, 01:30 PM
Lynne--so happy you've found a new home--and so close. That will sure help make the move easier. It's nice when you can move a little at a time then when it all has to go in a few hours! Easier on the children as well. Glad to hear you made it thru your latest life crisis so well and didn't succomb to the stress eating :bravo: New Zealand sounds wonderful. Did Marc's parents come for the funeral or is this the first time you've seen them??? I hope they can give you some of the emotional support your own family hasn't. They will probably feel the need to "talk" about Marc and share happy memories with you.
I guess you missed the e-mail I sent to you when I first got home from the hospital. I have been diagnoised with cancer. It is in the ovarian cancer family but it is a far rarer form of it. Very little is known about it other than it typically is a slower growing and less aggessive form then regular ovarian cancer. It wasn't in my female organs , it was attached to my omentum(fatty abdominal lining), bladder and colon. I am seeing a specialist in St. Paul. Their are very few doctors that have worked with this type of cancer. The treatment varies depending on how far advanced it is so I won't know until after the 24th what they are going to do with me. In most cases they do not do Chemo, they treat it with aggressive debuking (surgical removal of tumors) and medicaltion. Then they follow up with regular cat scans and Ca125 testing. I have a lot of people praying for me so I am at peace. Like I said--the Lord has me in his hands so I'm not going to stress out about it. I have been weighing myself everyday--doctors orders. They want to make sure I'm not building up fluids. Down another pound today :jig: That makes a total of 17.5. YAHOOOOOOOO!!!! I would be more comfortable weighing once a week=--but until my recheck I'll weigh everyday. I know that the pound a day I have been losing is from the fluid buildup and once it's gone the weightloss will return to my usual 1-2 pounds a week. I can hardly wait until I see the scale under 200----
Gonna run--keep up the packing and moving--it is good exercise, but try to keep up the formal exercise too--it helps give you more energy and releives the stress. You'll feel a lot more like packing after a long day at the office if you've exercised in the AM--this is the voice of experience talking to you now girl---

02-10-2005, 01:29 PM
Lynne--just a quick post for this morning. I am down another pound. I know it's water weight and weight loss from the organs they removed but it's still a pretty good moral booster.. don't ever remember a time when I lost a pound a day!!! Put on jeans this morning instead of my usual stretchy pants I've been wearing since the hospital stay and their BAGGY in the seat and waist--time to dig out a few smaller sized pairs from the closet:D: I have plenty of them----I probably have 10's, 12,s, 14's and 16's to choose from. Think I need a 14 or 16 now YAHOOOOOO!!!! I never want to see my 18 or 20's again!! Gonna run--hubby is home and we're going to make a grocery store run. He went over the weekend. He does pretty well but doesn't think about things like fresh vegis and meat. I do finally have him trained to pick up a few fresh fruits if I tell him specifically what to buy. He also never thinks of cleaning products other than TP and papertowels. God bless him he does try!!! And since his retirement he has greatly improved--now if he could learn to iron:devil:Hope all is well for you--when do you have to be out of your current house???? I know you probably won't be posting until tomorrow again but I'll try to send something later today when I have a little more time...a little warmer today--I did get out for two short walks yesterday. I can go pretty far but not very fast. Tummy is still very sore and the jolt from a faster pace is still pretty painful so I'm keeping it slow and steady--thought about wearing an old girdle or something when I'm out to hold everything in place but haven't tried it yet--think I should wait until a little more healing takes place--don't want any setbacks---have a great day and keep up the good program---EXERCISE AND EATING HEALTHY----the results will come!!!

02-11-2005, 04:24 PM
Hey Lynne--thanks for the note of support. Having a pretty good day. Was going to go to work for a bit to see everyone but decided against it--not ready emotionally for it yet. I will stop by next Wed on my way too or from the doctor--have to drive almost right by. I am going for a walk this afternoon. It is beautiful out. Almost 40 and very sunny--no excuses. And if I'm by myself I can go at my own pace. Hubby just left for a fishing trip with a friend--he needs to get out more--well the scale let me down this morning--no loss--oh well--can't expect one everyday--it wouldn't be healthy. And the smaller jeans were a disappointment also. My 16 full cuts are ok but I tried a 16 regular and their still tight--of course I do still have a lot of swelling--so maybe by next week:devil: or in 5 pounds when ever that is;)
How goes the move????Bet the children are getting excited. You'll still be close to your mum and dad right??? Is it closer or a little further? Can Josh walk to your parents or is it too far? Wish my grandchildren were in walking distance. My daughter did look at the house across from us in Ham Lake a few years ago but decided against it--much to my disappointment. Don't think we could ever get her to move to the town where we are now--but maybe someday. Have you been getting your exercise??? When you decide to brush it off--think of me and the fact that even though I'm sick I'm still getting in as much as I can--talk about a guilt trip--I just layed a big one on you :yes: Is Becca big enough to walk with you or do you still have to push her in the buggy?? I just read in todays paper that they were starting a walking group for young moms in my area--where they incorporate pushing the stroller for a better, more intense work out--what next??? When my children were little I used to pile all three of them in a wagon and take off for a few hours--talk about a workout!!!! No wonder I was slim then. We would walk 1 1/2 miles to the closest store for popsicles then walk home again. I took them almost everyday in the summer. My arms looked terrific----oh for the good old days! Flat tummy, tight buns, scultped shoulders ;)
Gonna run---the outdoors are calling and I can't waste a beautiful day!!
Hope your taking care of yourself. I did write Kermie yesterday to see if I could get her back on line--we'll see. Have a great weekend--try to post if you get the chance--I know this is a busy time for YOU and your family. Let me know the details of your trip too--you said March??? Thats when I'll be gone too--unless I need more treatments before then.
Jo :strong:

02-14-2005, 11:19 PM
Hi Jo and all!

It's been very busy over the last few days. We did a few trailer loads on Saturday to try and move some of the smaller stuff. I've been carting heaps of boxes and stuff over the last week so the house is starting to look really bare. The main move is this Saturday, and it's nice and close, so it won't be as back breaking as past moves have been. The kids are fairly excited. I've been taking them around there as often as possible. Becky doesn't quite get what's going on, but she enjoys going to the house. Distance-wise, it's a little further to mum and dad's from the new house, but definitely still within walking distance - 5 minutes or so..... Josh loves all the footpaths he can ride on - there's a bit more flexibility because we're on a corner, and one of the roads is a no-through road. Also there's a park at the end of it, and a laneway nearby, so he can do lots of zooming!

I don't have the pram anymore, but I bought a push-along bike for Becky to ride in - it's really cool. It's a "trike" at first, with a little bar that goes around her tummy, and a handle up the back that I push that controls the steering. As she gets older, the foot tray, and bar can be removed so she can peddle, and then the handle can come off so she can steer. She loves it, so we go for walks with her in that, and Josh riding. We haven't gone for a little while, but the weather has settled down a bit, so we can pick it up again.

Food's been a bit up and down. Mainly up. I'm chewing on a carrot right now, after enjoying a tuna sandwich! I'm trying to get out of the habit of wanting to eat all the time while I'm at work. It's such a trap to just nibble all day long. And if I do want to nibble, I've got to make sure I take healthy snacks with me to work, such as nuts, fruit salad etc. I've got to break the food obsession cycle! I'm getting there.....

Jo, I think it sucks you having this cancer after all your recent troubles! Hopefully they'll be able to remove it all quickly and cleanly, and that will be the end of it! Thank goodness you don't have to do chemo. I've heard it makes you very sick.

You're right, you are a huge inspiration - if you can still exercise when recovering from a major operation, what excuse do I have?? You're allowed to push the guilt trip - I'd do the same for you! :lol: I think you're doing an amazing job, and fully deserve the exciting losses you're seeing - how cool that you're in smaller clothes - that's the best part of weight loss I reckon!

I feel that I'm almost there with the weight loss. It's so hard to remain focussed, but I am trying!

Have you heard back from Kermie? It would be nice to hear how the others are going, like Chris and motherhood. I know that it's demanding!

Becky had her second birthday yesterday. She doesn't look big enough to be 2. I must get a photo of the kids and email them to you.

I'd better get back to it.

Talk to you all tomorrow :)

02-15-2005, 02:21 PM
Lynne--wow moving day is almost here!!! Glad the children are so accepting. Sounds like a good move for all of you--more room, better play area etc.
I did hear from Kermie tody--she said she had tried to find us but couldn't. I'm going to go back to the home site this afternoon and see if I can find the path in--I have it bookmarked so I don't even know what we're listed under now. She had a new grand daughter born this week--so happy times for her!! She started Oprahs Bootcamp yesterday. I watched most of the show but hubby came home at the end and I had to get dinner going so he could make his diabetes class in the evening :?: So I don't know what you have to do to join the camp. It looked pretty easy from what I saw and the staff she had that had gone thru it since Novemeber looked terrific. SHE looks great! I know it's a twelve week committment. Maybe we should both look into it. I know it involves not eating "white" foods--refined sugars, white flour etc. You also have to commit to 8 workouts a week---and no alcohol. The program and book were written by her trainer--I think his name was Bob Green--but I'd have to look it up. I know she said all the details were in this months "O" magazine so I'll pick up a copy when I'm out today. I am finally at the 20 pound mark. 208 this morning.. That's another 1/2 pound. It is coming off slower now--but still at a 2 1/2 pound a week pace which is healthy. I walked 1 mile on Sunday, Monday and today!!!! Still a pretty slow pace but I don't want to jar any stitches lose--and I still have lots of them to jar---I do need to get my water intake up again. I think I'm drinking close to 5 or 6 glasses a day--but I don't know. I need to start keeping tract. Also staying away from junk food and between meal snacking. My tummy is still pretty shrunk up from the liquid diet after surgery and I sure don't want to stretch it out again. It's a lot easier when you dont have the appetite or room for a heavy meal.
Gonna run--I'm going to do a little shopping today--haven't been to the mall since before my surgery--egads--thats over two weeks--I wonder if they've had to declare bankrupcy yet without my dollars:devil:
Stay in touch--I'll try to find Kermie the magic connection. Sounds like she's missing us a little and with her new program starting she could use the encoragement from us--

02-15-2005, 05:12 PM
Lynne--couldn't find the "O" magazine I was looking for. IT's the one with Oprah wearing all pink--maybe it's not out yet:( I'll keep watching. I did write Kermie and gave her the directions in--I hope anyhow. Talk tomorrow.

02-19-2005, 03:04 PM
Hey Lynne--I know it's moving day--hope all goes well for you. Don't expect to hear from you for a while--I know you'll be busy getting settled. I'm doing ok--still reeling from my last dr. appt. but I'm ok with it--I can take the chemo--I hope without too many problems. And vacation will help improve my mental state. Talk next week--stay with your program as well as you can and write when things settle down.

02-21-2005, 11:32 PM
Hi Jo!

I'm at work and taking the quick opportunity to post, as my computer won't be up for a while yet at home! It didn't help that I got a rotten cold as well, so the last week has been very stressful and tiring! The move went ok, but I hate not being able to move around and find things easily. I know with time it will sort out, but it's such a lot of work and I miss having someone to help! There will be a huge adjustment, but the kids are coping ok (well apart from Josh getting a tummy bug and Becky whingeing all day!!!!!!!) and the puppy is very excited at having such a big garden to plan in. I've set up an area outside that is his when it's night or we're out, which means he's got a bit of garden to dig in and stuff.

I haven't paid any attention to my food or exercise. I think lugging all that furniture around and stuff has definitely helped - I'm constantly moving at the moment, which doesn't leave a lot of time to be snacking on naughty food. I haven't gained, haven't lost. I'm giving myself this week to settle, and then I'm really going to put my foot down... well, both actually, as I pound the pavement!!! :lol:

That Oprah thing sounds interesting - I'll be curious to hear what you've found out. I wonder if there is info about it on her website? Certainly worth checking out. Maybe if Kermie can find us, we can join her in the quest and all support each other!

I'm glad to hear you're doing well - are you going to have to do chemo!!?? That sucks! When would all that happen?

I go to NZ on March 22nd. We'll be away for about 2 weeks.

I'd better get back into it. Talk soon!

Lynne (ps don't you love these new scales?!)

02-21-2005, 11:53 PM
Jo, I've had a quick look and at the website there's a whole thing about it - looks really good. Definitely interested!


02-22-2005, 02:47 PM
Lynne--glad to hear the move is over--you have lots of time to get settled--but I remember well the feeling of disorganization that goes with a move. I'm still looking for things from our move. Of course we were moving things to two different locations--the lake and here so i guess it was easier to misplace things! I'm feeling well--lots of running to appointments these days but I have been faithful to my exercise. I'm going to the U of Mn on Thursday for a second opionion. We weren't impressed with the first doctor. He is a REALLY GOOD doctor--came highly recommended but we weren't comfortable with his personality. He didn't explain anything--just said this is the type of cancer you have and this is the tretment course. I cancelled the chemo he had scheduled for this week. I'm waiting until after I meet with this other doctor to see what she says.
I have been in contact with Kermie everyday--sometimes twice a day. She is very supportive--and has a lot of experience with what Im going thru after her Dave went thru it. Don't know if she'll come back to the thread but maybe. She is doing well and her life is peaceful. Enjoying her two new grandchildren and all the fun that goes with them!
I did check out Oprahs bootcamp. I can't join right now--because of the chemo and stuff but maybe when I'm done--Mid-July. It does look like a pretty big committment--but not too tough.
Walked for 35 minutes today--I'm going to try the stationary bike this afternoon. Maybe a mile or so--I need to take it slow---weight wise I'm up 1 1/2 pounds this week--I know I'm eating more but I think maybe part of it is just my body returning to normal. It's not under as much stress healing now and my appetite has returned full force--DARN IT!!! I had hoped to lose a few more pounds before that happened--
Take care of yourself---I'll keep in contact--and I'll keep working on Kermie--

02-23-2005, 12:37 AM
Hi Jo

Tell Kermie not to stress - if she's finding it hard to get in here, I'd be just as happy to hear from her via email. I'm at I know that it does take more time to come and find your thread etc. I'm glad to hear she's happy - it gives us faith that we can get through the tough times and be happy again.

I think you getting a second opinion is a good idea - it's always best to "shop around" with anything you do, so you can make a valid assessment and be comfortable with the options you choose and the people who provide it. I was like that with my counsellor - I had to feel "just right" about the person before benefitting from their advice.

I'm not at all surprised that you've gained weight. You've been on a liquid diet, and then not much else, so your body is probably "starving" for some solid food. What you've gotta do is let yourself start enjoying full meals again, but if you keep it healthy, the weight will steady, and then continue to drop as you keep up the fantastic effort of exercise!!

I must keep this short, but will be back in on Friday and will catch up then.

Take care.

02-23-2005, 08:38 PM
Lynne--good to hear from you again. Well the weight will be back off again next week. Liquid diet on Monday for some Tuesday tests. I'm not stressing at all on the gain--I know I will be losing weight once my chemo starts--I just hope it isnt more than I need to lose. Kermie told me to keep as much weight on now so I'll have the reserves for later--the voice of experience. I know her Dave lost a lot of weight--very quickly when he started chemo. Most people do. Lots of appointments set for tomorrow--so I won't be posting--I look forward to hearing from you on Friday--hope I can make it back on then. In the mean time--keep faithful to yourself and your program.

02-24-2005, 10:40 PM
Jo, I'm thinking of you! :goodvibes: I hope your tests go ok. It certainly makes sense what Kermie says - I remember my grandad wasting away with his cancer. We want you slim, not disappearing!!!

You would be so proud of me - I woke up with a whole new determination that I haven't felt in a long time. I had gastro yesterday, and didn't eat all day. I was thinking to myself, "well, you promised you'd get back on track once you settled into the new house, I guess now is a good time as any!" So as I lay in bed last night I made a promise to myself to make ME a priority at the beginning of the day by starting my morning bike again, and I've promised myself at least 1/2 hour exercise everyday and possibly 1/2 hour weights (you know, situps, pushups, etc). And then I also promised myself to eat better again. For myself and the kids. I really want to make this year MY year. So I want to get the house looking good, and have us all feeling settled and well. I want to look back on this year with pride and happiness.

So at 6.45am this morning I got up and did 10 minutes on the bike - after yesterday I didn't want to push it (excuse the pun! ha ha) but I did promise myself I'd do another 20 minutes tonight. I'll also do the situps etc. I've brought a healthy lunch and snacks to work, and will STAY AWAY FROM CHOCOLATE!!!!!!!

I probably won't get in again until Tuesday, which is when I next work, as my computer isn't set up at home, and probably won't be for another couple of weeks, considering the state of my spare room!!! But I promise that by the time I log on again, I will have lots of good eating and exercise to report!

I'm going to weigh once a week, starting next Saturday. I also promised I'd hide the scales during the week, so I can be pleasantly surprised when I weigh in next week!

:dance: :dance: :dance: :dance: :dance: :dance:

I hope you stay well and it's not all bad news.
Take care!

02-25-2005, 12:17 AM
Lynne--pretty much a repeat of the news we got last week. Ovarian cancer--stage 3. It is however Grade 1 which means it is a slower growing cancer. I start Chemo ASAP--no getting out of it :( They told me to wig shop now--my hair will be gone 2 1/2 weeks after chemo starts----that will save time in the mornings getting ready for work:devil: Still planning on going on vacation--but it may be delayed a few days--the first treatment is supposed to be the worse--they told me I won't feel like traveling for at least 4-5 days. After that the side effects should lessen a little--hope so.
Gotta run--it's late. I went to church tonight for my craft group. It was nice to get out for something fun for a change. Some walking today--but not as much as I would have liked--most of the day was spent in the doctors office.
Glad to hear the renewed enthusiasiam!!! You'll see the rewards before you know it--don't try to change everything at once though--you'll get discouraged. Set samller goals. First the exercise--then in a week or so get strick on the food. In the meantime make it your goal to just think about what your eating and start telling yourself how much better the healthy stuff tastes!

02-28-2005, 12:56 PM
Lynne- how was your weekend--lots of unpacking accomplished??? I did a little vacation packing--but not much. We are leaving on Wed. evening if I'm recovered from tomorrows tests--should be---
Another beautiful but cold day here. I shoveled a dusting of snow. Going shopping in a bit. I don't need much for vacation but I need to keep busy to keep my mind off the lack of food today--just LOVE these liquid diets! I probably won't be posting while we're gone--unless I get computer access--maybe at one of my sisters. I will be thinking of you--and I will be getting in lots of walking in the warm sunshine--so let that be a motivator for you--get on the bike every morning and stay moving thru out the day--if I can do it--so can YOU!!
Catch you tomorrow. Be true to yourself--each day your closer to a healthier lifesyle and happier you!

02-28-2005, 10:48 PM
Hi Jo,

Looks like it's just you and me these days!

I really really hope your first treatment isn't too bad. I'll be thinking of you lots! :groupghug:

I hope you have a nice trip away. I think it's what you and your hubby need by the sounds of it! How's he coping with all this? What's Stage 3 and Level 1 mean? I don't know a lot about cancer.

I have been busy at it with everything. The house is starting to take shape, and I'm actually starting to feel good about it. There are actually some benefits that I didn't even know of before. Amazingly enough I started my period on the weekend, and have managed to get through the days without bingeing out. Even now, I'm feeling very sad and moody, and the impulse is to reach for the chocolate. Luckily I don't have any here, and I was able to over-ride and talk myself through it. I think it helped noticing that my pants are a little looser! I've kept up the exercise, but I'm not overdoing anything. I figure a bit of my bike combined with lots of moving furniture and unpacking and walking the kids to the local park and running after the dog should do it! :lol: I've even managed to keep myself off the scales!!!!

Well, I'll keep coming in and posting, and I hope you have a nice relaxing holiday. I'm sure you told me, but where are you going? I'm sorry, but I'm very vague and forgetful these days. Enjoy the sun and walks, and we'll compare miles when you get back! ha ha

Take care!

03-01-2005, 12:45 PM
Lynne--I should be keeping track of my miles--something I have never done. It would be fun at the end of the year to see how far I walked--maybe half way to Australia! Glad to hear your finally getting settled--and no bingeing! Good for you. I', still on my liquid diet--tests ths afternoon-
Grade 1 means it's a relatively slow growing cancer. Stage 3 means it's spread to other organs. Cancer has 4 stages--so I'm not at the worse--just close. It hasn't spread to the lymph nodes--as far as we know--which is a big PLUS! Test today will determine if it's in my colon--the tumors they removed from the outside of the colon were malignant but noninvasive--which means they were only on the outside of the colon. That doesn't however mean there aren't more inside--we hope not--the test will show.
Gonna run--I'm still moving slow today and I have to leave soon for the hospital. Keep up with the program, I'll write tomorrow--then you won't hear from me for a few weeks--then soon after you'll be on your trip!

03-01-2005, 08:33 PM
Lynne--just a quick note to let you know the tests went well today--no cancer found in my colon--one less organ to worry about:)
Talk when I get computer access--maybe a few weeks. Stay healthy and motivated.

03-01-2005, 08:55 PM
Good news Jo! Let's hope the treatment and future visits have such good results!

I'll keep you posted on how I'm going, and will look forward to catching up with you at the end of March.

I did lots of sorting and tidying last night. Laundry and kitchen now done. I've got my study to go (including computer access!) and then most of the main stuff is done. Then I've just gotta tackle the bedrooms!

Fortunately, it keeps me busy enough not to be snacking on rubbish, and I've been feeling less inclined to eat much anyway. I definitely feel like this week's weigh in will be a positive one. It's been a long time since I've focussed on my weigh in and weekly program like this. It's a good feeling! I'm quite excited about weighing, and am very proud of myself for steering clear of the scales.

Have a lovely holiday, and hopefully at the end of March we'll both have more of an opportunity to catch up and get fit! Hopefully your treatments won't stop you from keeping up the challenge!

Take care

03-07-2005, 10:30 PM
Good afternoon!

Jo, I hope you're having a good break....

Well, I can officially record my first loss - a whopping 1.1kg! (which is 2.4 pounds) :lol: I was hoping for more, but I ended up having pizza with the kids on Friday night... :o I'm feeling better already. I didn't exercise as much as I'd hoped, but now that most of the unpacking is done, I'll have more time to do "normal" stuff!

However, I'm thrilled to be under 110, and have lost weight at all, so here it goes....

:dance: :dance: :dance: :dance: :dance: hee hee

If I continue this type of weight loss, I'll be into the 90's in about 2 months!! How exciting is that!

I'd better get back to work - I'm on lunch break at the moment...


03-08-2005, 09:55 AM
Hello all, I am Niki. I am a 25 yr old Mom to 2 boys and I am currently trying to lose about 70lbs. I have always been overweight and my family has history of various health conditions and I want to be able to overcome those and not have to worry about getting them later on in life. My main problem is when I get bored or upset I turn to food to get of the boredom or to just cover up me being upset. I am tired of living like this. I am a SAHM and both of my children are under 5. I have a 3 yr old boy(be 4 in Oct) and a soon to be 7 month old boy. I would love th get some support from other women who are trying to achieve the same goal as me. My hubby is very support but he is stick thin and can't eat whatever he wants and not gain weight.

I look forward to getting to know you all.

ST 200.CW200.GW130

03-08-2005, 08:04 PM
Hi Niki, welcome to our little group! We don't have many in here at the moment, but we'd be happy to give and receive support!

My husband was the same - 6' 4" and thin as a rail - he could eat anything, not do any exercise, and all he'd do is get a little tummy! I only have to LOOK at food sideways and I gain! :lol:

I'm at home with an 8 year old and 2 year old, and I'm working part time 3 full days a week. I know what it's like to juggle a young family, and try to look after yourself as well - a lot of the time it doesn't happen!

I have the same issues with food - having a food addiction is hard, because it's like being addicted to smoking or drinking, where generally there are certain triggers that make it hard to avoid. The big difference with a food addiction is that you can't NOT eat, you are surrounded by it! And everywhere you go, you are offered so many choices, and it's hard to have to miss out when everyone else around you can enjoy. It's like going to a party but not being allowed to drink!

I have found that boredom is a big problem, and have been taking steps over the last few months to battle the temptation to eat when I'm bored. If I'm in the car going to pick my son up from school, I either take a healthy snack or ring someone on my mobile. At home, I try to keep busy, and in the evening, it boils down to sheer will power, which some days I have, and other days not! I find that if I'm on the phone, doing dishes or folding laundry I'm ok. It's when it's about 9.30pm and I'm watching tv that I can get caught. So these days I might make myself a low fat hot chocolate and have that with a couple of nice biscuits. Then my sweet tooth has been satisfied without me totally bingeing.

Emotional eating is a killer. Especially when my period is coming. All I can do is try and recognise why I'm feeling the way I am, and see if I can talk myself out of pigging out! These days I'm trying to say to myself "come on Lynne, I really want to lose the weight, and this won't be the last time I feel crappy, but I've got to be able to deal with it in other ways besides ruining my diet! I know I can cope with life's stresses without eating junk food!" Again, sometimes it works... :lol: I did actually cope quite well recently when I had to move house 8 months after losing my husband. I kept saying to myself that I can't be weak and pig out just cos I'm stressed. Other people manage, and I want to be like them! MOST of the time, I have managed to avoid it. A couple of days I have, but I console myself with the fact that I'm MUCH better at managing my binges than I used to - four years ago, I would think nothing of going to the supermarket, and buying 2 packets of chips, and 2 or 3 different types of chocolates. :o These days, I'm happy with a chocolate frog! :lol:

What are you planning on doing to lose weight? I did WW a couple of years ago, and have found the information incredibly useful. I'm not following the program specifically, but apply the knowledge with the foods I choose, and the level of exercise I do. (not that I'm doing enough at the moment!)

I look forward to hearing more about you. The other active member, Jo, is away on holiday and will be back in a couple of weeks. We've got a couple of other ladies, but they find it hard to get in anymore.

Bye for now!

03-09-2005, 11:12 PM
Hi all!

Howís this for a good way to diet Ė go to the dentist and get root canal treatment!!! :mad:

I went in to get a filling on one tooth, but another one has been killing me the last couple of days, and it was one that I had a filling on about 2 months ago. Well, he assessed the damage, and said, sorry, itís either gotta come out, or itís root canal! Far out man, $500 later!!! He had to give me 3 local anaesthetics in the end, so he could get the filling out. I was so tempted to say, well seeing as how the filling didnít work, can I have my money back!!!??? Anyway, he suggested I donít eat on that side of my mouth for a couple of hours, and since I canít feel anything, itís best I donít at all! So I havenít had anything since breakfast, which I didnít have much of because of my sore tooth (my favourite Just Right Meusli too!), and now itís 1pm and Iím STARVING. Iíve just heated up a little quiche, and Iím nibbling on that.. CAREFULLY! :lol: Iím having that with a cup of low fat noodle soup, and then Iíll have my low fat banana yoghurtÖ.

I reckon Iíve lost some weight here Ė my 2 skirts that Iíve worn to work yesterday and today were DEFINITELY feeling looser around the waist. I LOVE it! :D

I didnít manage to get on my bike last night because I had such a bad headache cos of the toothache, but did do 15 minutes the night before, and will definitely get on again tonight. Iím trying to toughen up my butt so I can last longer!!! :lol: :o

See you tomorrow!

03-16-2005, 12:25 AM
Hi there.

Jo, I hope you're having a good break. A RESTFUL, HAPPY, JOYOUS, LIVELY, FUN-FILLED break!! :lol:

We're off to NZ soon. I'm really wishing I don't have to go. I'm not ready, to be honest. But my parents are all gung ho with Marc's parents, and I'm kinda being dragged along! I just don't feel RIGHT going there without him. :(

My weight loss is not happening as quickly as I'd hoped. I really need to increase my exercise, but it's so hard to find the time.
I'm hoping to get out for lots of walks over in NZ, seeing as how the parents will be there! On-the-spot babysitting! :lol:

If I don't get to post again before I leave, I'll be back on the 1st April.

Niki, hopefully we'll get to know you better once we come back from our hol's!

Take care.

03-19-2005, 10:08 PM
Lynne-just got back in town a few hours ago. Had a great time. The weather was almost perfect. It wasn't warm enoug for swimming but it was warm enough for capris and tee-shirts. I start my chemo this week. Two appointments on Monday and from there I don't know. I'm supposed to go back to work a week from Monday--I am looking forward to it--providing I'm feeling ok. I know the first treatment is supposed to be the worse--plus I need minor surgery to put in the port--but no use worrying about it--one day at a time. Haven't been on a scale since I left--3 weeks ago--I'll weigh in the morning. I know I'm up--but not much--all of my clothes are still fitting;)
I'll post later tomorrow. Welcome Niki--hope you come back to post again soon. We are all stress eaters here and might be able to share some ideas with you for overcoming it. Lynne--hope you haven't left yet--but I think maybe you have--You will enjoy your holiday--I just know it. The changes will be good for you--a new routine and all that--plus hopefully more time for exercise while your site-seeing.

03-22-2005, 05:53 PM
Lynne--haven't seen a post from you in a while so I'm guessing maybe your off on your holiday. If so--hope your enjoying it and not finding it too stressful. What is the weather like in NZ this time of year--I know it's summer but do they get real hot or is comfortable??
Got part of my appointemnts out of the way. Having my port put in tomorrow then Chemo on Thursday. I went wig shopping today. Found a few that I really liked. Taking hubby with me tomorrow to make the final decision. They are pricey but I know I'll be wearing it for close to a year--so I may as well make the investment. Most of them look better than my own hair!! And it will save time in the mornings--just pop it on and go:devil: Still keeping up with my walking--hope I can continue to do so. The weather today is beautiful--lots of melting going on. I kept it down to a mile--hope hubby will go for another mile or so with me after supper.
Niki--hope you come back to the thread soon--we would love to have you join us. Where are you from? I'm from Minnesota--and Lynne is from Australia. Shes enjoying summer now while we suffer thru winter here--but spring is coming soon. I really need to get the darn Christmas decorations out of the front yard---a few more warm days and they should be free from the frozen tundra--I hope anyhow. I really don't want to be looking at them on Easter Sunday! Keep in touch--we really would love to hear from you on a regualr basis. I'm thru vacationing for a while and Lynne will be back soon-

04-05-2005, 07:02 PM
Lynne--assumming your still not back from your holiday....or your still catching up from it. Let me know when your ready to start communicating again. My treatments are going well. I am back to work fulltime(almost) I take 2 days off every 21 for my chemo. so far so good. Still haven't lost my hair--but it should be any day now. Ready as I'll ever be for that part of the treatments. Eating healthy and walking as much as I can--some days I don't have the energy but most days I do. My weight has remained steady. I don't know if I should be attempting to diet at this point--so I'm not--just eating normal portions--something pretty foreign to me:devil:
talk later. Hope all is well.

04-06-2005, 12:47 AM
Hi Jo,

Yes I'm back. I did get in and post yesterday, but didn't have time to find our thread!

You sound like you're coping really well. Are the treatments totally awful? I know that losing your hair would suck, but I'd love to be able to NOT have to worry about me hair in the morning! I've been tempted to buy a number of wigs - different ones to suit different occasions and moods! :lol:

Seriously though, I hope you are ok and this will sort it all out. Have they given you any idea of how successful the treatment is? How long do you have to be on it?
I wouldn't worry about "dieting" per se, but I'm sure healthy eating and regular exercise can only help.... but don't stress about any of that at the moment - do what makes you happy and let the rest sort itself out!

NZ was ok. I loved driving around the countryside and touring, but could've done without it really. The kids loved it, and loved seeing Marc's parents, and that was the reason we went, so that was good. The weather was quite warm, but they are heading out of summer now. We were very lucky that we basically got no rain the whole time. NZ tends to have milder summers, but they have high humidity, so when it was 26 degrees, which is pretty mild here, their humidity made it feel more like the mid-30's.

I'm SO glad to be back, to get the house finished and then just concentrate on having a BORING, NORMAL year, and focus on my weight loss and painting. It would be SO nice to get to the end of the year, and if someone asks what I've been doing with myself over the last few months, I can say NOT MUCH! :D

I went and bought a new stroller for Becky - one of those 3 wheelers that are great when you want to exercise while pushing. I've taken Becky for a couple of walks in it already, which worked out really well. I can't do it on the 3 days I work, but I'm determined to go for a walk every other day unless it's raining so hard I can't get out the door!

Niki, if you're still interested, we're back now! :lol:

I'm going to finish my lunch now, so I'll catch up tomorrow.

Take care!

04-06-2005, 07:11 PM
UGGGHHH! I had an almost finished post when I got booted off---I hate when that happens. Glad to hear your back in town. My treatments are going well. Haven't had too much discomfort. I have 5-7 treatments left. After 6 they will reevaluate to see how well my body is tolerating them. Haven't lost my hair yet--but I do have a good number of strays in the sink and tub everyday--so I know it's coming. I think I'm ready but we'll see when it actually happens. They have made a BIG improvement of wigs and the one I bought looks better than my own hair most days:devil: I won't miss having to wash and curl everyday!

Glad to hear you bought the new stroller. Now if you can add in a Sat. or Sunday you'll be in great shape exercisewise. Wouldn't it be nice at the end of the year to be able to tell your freinds that you spent 2005 getting healthy and fit?? and to know that it really SHOWED????

Happy that NZ wasn't too stressful on you--I worried about how seeing Marcs family would effect you. HOw are they coping with his death? I'm sure they were thrilled to see the children. I would hate to have my grandchilren so far away.

Gonna run-rained this morning so I didn't get in a wlak--going for a short one now while dinner is in the oven.

Keep in touch and keep up walking with Becca--it's good for both of you!

04-12-2005, 01:46 AM
Hi all

After having such a crappy year last year, I promised myself that this year I would find "me" again, and be proud of my achievements when I get to the end of the year. I made some promises, such as to say "goodbye" to the old me, and focus on who I am today and what I need to do to make myself happier. I also promised to focus on my weight loss, and made some little but vital adjustments. And today the promises continue - I don't exercise enough. That's why I gain weight. (oh, and there's the food factor as well! ha ha) And I know that if I want to have a significant weight loss this year, I will have to maintain a high level of exercise, which is tricky with 2 kids, dog and part time job! But today I made a promise to myself that I will try and exercise EVERY DAY OF THIS YEAR! I know this sounds ambitious, and the reality is that I won't, but what it is forcing me to do is accept that I can't keep thinking, oh well, I didn't do it today, I'll do it tomorrow. It's making me realise that if I want to lose lots of weight, I HAVE to exercise regularly and keep it going consistently.

Over the last few days I've made the effort to go for a walk BEFORE I do anything else. (The new stroller has really paid off!) Today I even went for a walk at work BEFORE lunch! Took my walking clothes and shoes and all!!!!! I haven't done that in ages and am mentally patting myself on the back! :D

The other thing I'm doing is trying to eat better. I get so tired at the end of the day that I either don't eat when the kids do and cop out and get takeaway, or I make really basic stuff that isn't necessarily what I need to be eating. So I'm trying to focus on that, as well as steering away from junky snacks during the day. It's so bad that I can't get through one day without needing something like chocolate!

The way I see it is if I made a promise to a best friend I wouldn't break it, and I'm supposed to be my best friend, so I promise myself things like, "if I eat all my lunch and my fruit I can then eat that piece of chocolate" - of course, I'm then full and don't need the chocolate..... I'm really trying to get past the excuses and just DO IT!

Jo, NZ was horrible, to be honest. I'd rather not have gone, but I know that Marc's parents wanted to see the kids, and they had a great time. But being there without him, spending time with his parents, who don't really like me, and seeing his brother who looks so much like Marc it's scary, who totally avoided me when all I wanted to do was give him a big hug.... get the picture?! Suffice it to say I was glad to be home!!!

I think my post is long enough! :o I'll catch you all next time!

04-13-2005, 01:01 AM
Hi all

Me, myself and I had a couple of moments today that deserved a group hug - firstly I went into a deli and ONLY bought a 1.5litre bottle of water, side-stepping all the chips and choccies... and I almost didn't go for a walk today, but pushed myself out the door and did a really good 1/2 hour one around the hills - I think I'll be feeling that one! :eek:

I'm now munching on my healthy lunch. I realised this morning that I had a really good healthy day yesterday, which hasn't happened very much lately, and I actually got through the day without chocolate!

Gotta go!

04-13-2005, 07:14 PM
Lynne--good for you--a new resolve and sticking to the exercise. You do feel good at the end of a successful day--don't you??? I'm not dieting at the moment--just concentrating on eating healthy and exercising when I can. I do make it most days. Weight is remaining steady. I lose 2-4 then regain it when I'm back to eating. So far I haven't been sick to my stomach so I haven't lost much--which is ok. I'm still down the 20 I lost earlier in the year. I was worried when I returned to work--it's like the garden of Eden--temptation everywhere. ALways a table full of goodies--but so far I have avoided the majority of it! Round 2 of chemo tomrrow so I won't get in a walk unless I do it before my appointment. It will be an all day at the doctors day for me--then I've signed up for the cancer society's "look good feel better" class tomorrow night--if I'm not too tired from the chemo. Taking Friday off from work to re-coup. Last time around I felt fine on Fridy--but bad on Sat. We'll see how this round goes. Lost most of my hair this week--and cut the rest as short as I could. Tried to shave off the remainders but my scalp is too sore for a razor and I didn't have an electric. It can fall out on it's own. had lots of compliments on my new "hair" Many people haven't noticed that it's a wig--they think I just colored it a different shade--so thats good! My close friends know it's a wig---
Sorry NZ was so uncomfortable for you--next year it will be their time to travel. You may be more comfortable in your own home. You'll definately be stronger emotionally than you are now!
Exercising everyday is a pretty high expectation from yourself--but if that how you want to do it---GO FOR IT!!!! Just don't set yourself up for failure by telling yourself it has to be for a certain amount of time each day--just that you will "move" everyday. I'm thinking about challenging myself to try something different once a month--cycling, hiking, swimming, skiiing etc. along with my usual walking. I may strive for one Sat. a month incorporating a new exercise to see how I like it. Planning on walking in a 5k in Sept for Ovarian awareness. My sister from Ga. is planning on coming up and walking with me--haven't signed up yet--have to get thru the chemo first--
Spring has sprung for us here--60-70 each day. I LOVE it!! It's so nice to come home from work and open a few windows for a few hours and smell the earthy smells of spring. Trees are just starting to bud out. Too bad we don't have two seasons--spring and fall--
Gonna run--I have to start thinking about fixing some dinner for hubby. Talk in a day or two. Keep up the new resolve!!! Your doing great.

04-19-2005, 03:28 AM
Hi this is a really quick one cos I'm having a tea break in the arvo before I get back into it.

Up until Friday, I'd exercised 7 out of 9 days, which I was very happy with. But then I haven't done anything since then :o No, I stand corrected, I did HEAPS of housecleaning on Saturday and Sunday..... But I went on a bit of a bender with my best friend who'd flown in from Perth for a week, and am really feeling the after effects!

I know that the "exercise every day" promise is a stretch, but I know that, and all I want to do is make myself aware of how important it is to keep moving regularly - so if I can't walk, do my bike, or do some weights, or housecleaning, or taking the kids to the park. As long as I aim to be more active than INACTIVE then I'm heading in the right direction.

I'm really glad to hear how cheerful and optomistic you sound. You are a champ! Surely you don't need to worry about dieting, and if you're maintaining then that's all you need to do at the moment. I'm impressed you're sidestepping the work goodies - I'm so glad I don't have anything like that here! I can't believe your hair came out so quickly! Glad that the wig looks good so you can step out in confidence! I'm so tempted to cut all mine off and get one too! But my reasons are more vain - my hair's in bad condition because of colouring and a perm, and I can't do anything but wait for it to grow out! :mad:

I'd better go..... I'm catch up more tomorrow!

Take care and lots of hugs!

04-19-2005, 11:18 PM
Lynne--glad to hear from you. 7 out of 9 days is pretty impressive. I haven't gotten in much walking this week. The chemo took it's toll. I'm pretty fatigued and lots of body aches. Getting better as the week goes on. Appitite is back--only lose it for 4 or 5 days right after the treatments. I'll post more tomorrow. It's late and I came home tired! Keep up the moving!! Any exercise is great for your heart, lungs and the the weight loss efferts!

04-20-2005, 12:36 AM
Hi Jo

I'm not surprised you're so tired! Give yourself a break, you deserve it! :) I went for another walk today - went with a girl who works in the same building - it looks like I've picked myself up a couple of walking buddies for the first time in YEARS!!! - I'm very excited about it, but trying not to come off as an over-eager maniac! :lol: But it means I've got someone to keep me company during the week, which gives me that push out the door!

Are you still eating ok? I know you said your appetite is affected - make sure you keep up the intake, even if you don't feel like it - just so you can keep the energy levels up to help combat the experience. Mind you, what do I know?! At the end of the day, do whatever feels best for you to get you through this!

Take care, I'll post again tomorrow. :wave:

04-20-2005, 09:00 PM
Lynne--way to go!!!! It is more fun walking with someone--especially an adult! The time goes so quickly when you have someone to gab with. I'm feeling good again--glad it's over. Now I have a few weeks to regain and recoup. I am taking it easy. Learning to let someone else do the work when I'm not up to it. Appetite is back. I am concentrating on eating well--even when I'm not up to it. Making every calorie count. I can usually get some yogart or pudding down--if nothing else. Today I couldn't fill up--everything tasted good! Haven't gotten in a good walk for a week now--but I will this weekend. Have to take it one day at a time--not easy for me!
How has your eating been going? I know you've been exerciseing--feels good doesn't it???
Gonna run--hubby just got home and I need to feed him--I gobbled my chicken as soon as I brought it in from the Barbi! Cooked an extra breast for my lunch tomorrow. Yumm--and healthy too!

04-27-2005, 09:42 PM
Hi, it's been a week since my last confession......


Sorry I haven't been in for a while - it's been pretty hectic and yet slow at the same time. I had a pretty rotten weekend and am feeling quite depressed at the moment. It's almost a year since Marc died, and I've got a lot of bad memories to deal with. It's making it hard to feel enthusiastic, which certainly wasn't helped by my TOM on the weekend. Hormones combined with grief - NOT a good combination! I think this next month is going to be very rough and I'm trying to get myself through it without burning out.

Food on the weekend was pretty shocking, and I'm still dragging my heels. I eat really well at work, but at home, it's harder to avoid the temptations.

I haven't done any walks for a few days, but am hoping to get out tomorrow when I go and visit a girlfriend and her kids.

I did up a weight loss chart yesterday which I'm going to pin up in my kitchen. I'm hoping that seeing the chart and eventually seeing results will help keep up the motivation.

I'm glad you're feeling better and keeping up your strength.

I must go, I'm not on break right now! :o

Take care, speak to you soon. :)

04-30-2005, 09:12 PM
Lynne--don't beat yourself up about the bad weekend--but don't set yourself up for a month long binge either! Think about what Marc would want--you to be healthy and happy and able to keep up with two active children. Instead of a weight loss chart--why don't you pin up a picture of you at a healthier weight?? Then you'll have a visual to help you thru the rough times. I eat more on the weekends also--mainly because of no routine--but I am making a very big effort to think about it and make the best choices for the moments. Get going on the exercise again-- it doesn't take long to get out of the habit.
Just got back from the lake so I can't post any more right now--I'll write tomorrow. No excuses. Focus on the good in your life right now and be thankful for the time you had with Marc--not the lost time. Regret never accomplishes anything

05-03-2005, 12:36 AM
Hi Jo

Don't you get bored of my ups and downs??!! :lol: I'm more giddy than a yo-yo!

I certainly don't plan on bingeing all month! That's why I was saying it's important to recognise that this month is going to be hard, so I can prepare myself with the right tools - such as no bad food in the house, good meal planning, etc. I'm going to get back into walking tomorrow with the girl from work. She's said she's starting WW, so it'll be good to have someone around who has the same types of goals as myself. It even made me consider re-joining. I'm not sure whether I've got the time and money, but it's an option.

I'm also going to the dr's later to see if I can start taking something to help with the depression and weight gain. A happy pill that makes you lose weight - I know it's a myth, but right now I'm ready to try almost anything! I need to be able to maintain the motivation for more than 2 days at a time!!!!!

I find that when I've got work, I'm at work, I can't go anywhere, and all I've got to eat is what I take in, which is healthy snacks and a good lunch. I've just got to maintain that on the days I'm at home. During the day isn't so bad, but the evenings are the worst and I'm trying to find ways to overcome it. A lot of it is boredom and having no one looking over my shoulder. But there's also the comfort thing, and I'm trying to keep myself busy so I don't think about it.

Jo, do you think it's worthwhile still posting here? I think it's safe to say it's just you and me these days. Is is still convenient for you to come in here, or should we maybe keep in touch via email? Let me know what you think.

Take care and I'll catch up tomorrow.

05-03-2005, 07:23 PM
Lynne--it's up to you. I am e-mailing Kermie several times a week. the only advantage to staying on this site is that occassionaly we get someone new.
I have chemo on Thursday--Ill try to touch base with you on Friday. Glad to hear your starting to walk again. WW is a good option--but only if you can commit to it. If your going in without knowing you'll have the time, money and desire to stick with it--it probably isn't a good idea right now. If your doctor comes up with a magic pill--let me know--I'll be right behind you in line! Most anti-depressants cause weight gain.
Going for a quick walk before hubby gets home--it's cool but sunny out today--first nice day since last Wed.
Keep motivated--and if you do decide to drop from the thread--let me know--you have my address.

05-04-2005, 12:43 AM
Hi there

I agree that the thread is good if someone is interested in joining us, but it certainly would be easier for me just to keep in touch via email. I love coming in here, but I'm trying to make life as uncomplicated as possible, and I get worried if I haven't been able to come in and post in case someone is feeling neglected! (mainly me! ha ha)

Good luck with the chemo - I thought you didn't need it for a while? How often are you having to go? I've been thinking of you and how stressful it must all be. How's your husband coping?

I went for a walk today - well, HIKE would be a better term. The girl Andrea who's at reception goes for walks with a friend of hers, who's a LOT fitter than either of us, and she took us up into the Adelaide Hills - which, although I love the fact you can go bushwalking so close to the city and walk, was probably a bit too much for me in the middle of a work day. I suggested to Andrea that we do that once every couple of weeks, so as we get fitter we can start to see some improvement. I found out today that she has about the same amount of weight to lose as me, which is nice. It gets depressing being surrounded by friends and family who don't have a weight problem. I always feel like the odd one out.

I ended up going to the chemist and buying some weight loss supplements - they are natural herbs that just help suppress appetite and boost metabolism, but no miracle cures I'm afraid!

Back to my carrot, soup and sandwich, so I'll speak to you later.

If it's ok with you, we'll keep going via email, and you can either keep this going, or let it phase out. My email address is

Cheers and out.