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11-19-2004, 11:00 PM
I just got back from the emergency room. As some of you know, I had been having shortness of breath and tightness for the last 5 days. well yesterday it got better but today it was a little worse so hubby made me go to the emergency room.

They did an EKG and chest X-rays. The first thing the doctor said when he came in the room was "You're heart is huge!"
So now i have to go to a cardiologist on monday (at the latest) and I dont know how we are going to pay for it or the emergency room visit tonight for that matter. I am terrified! I dont know if there is anything they can do to make me better at this point. Maybe it is too late to help me, i just dont know,.. right now I am a mess. I mean, I have been trying to eat better and exercise but it didnt do any good. I just dont know what to say right now, I am so scared.

11-19-2004, 11:22 PM
ok. first thing. stressing out is only going to make matters worse. i know that this could be serious but try to calm down. get your 2nd opinion from the cardiologist to be sure and just go from there. that's all you can really do. just take it easy and relax. i'm sure they will be able to help. my son was born with all kinds of things wrong with his heart and now you can't even tell there is anything wrong. you have a lot of people here supporting you. think positive and have an easy weekend. get to the cardi as soon as you can and then post an update as soon as you can.

11-19-2004, 11:26 PM
Thanks for the advice,..

Ill try, but like I said, I am a mess right now:-( im too young to be having to do this sort of thing. I dont even know what can be done, im not familiar with this sort of thing,..

I just dont know

11-19-2004, 11:31 PM
i completely understand. its really hard not to be stressed when its something like this.

i'm not really sure what all they will do either. i'm thinking probably put you on a very strict diet, stress and non stress heart tests etc. Jen might know... i think she's a nurse.

11-19-2004, 11:50 PM

Lots of {{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}} to you. I know it is hard not to be scared. I'm glad your husband made you go to the ER. I am thinking positive things here ~ they let you go home, so you've gotta be ok until you can go the cardiologist. Maybe you should not do to much exercising until you see that dr ~ then they will help you know how to take care of yourself. The bills will work out somehow. Right now you need to do what ever you need to to take care of you!!

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

11-19-2004, 11:54 PM
I know you must be scared but if they let you go home without seeing a cardiologist on call they must have figured you were ok for now. Just try to take it easy and relax as much as you can until you see the dr.

11-20-2004, 07:42 AM
*hugs* Heather.. I'll keep you in my prayers. Have faith, it will all be ok.


11-20-2004, 09:38 AM
Its so easy to say "try not to worry" but almost impossible to do, isn't it? It must be very scary for you right now, but as you said, you have only a tiny bit of information, and even though the mind tends to think the worse, all that stress and worry could be just wasted energy when the specialist tells you a prescribed pill is all you need to right the problem.

I googled "enlarged heart" and came up with this - as you can see, it could be something easily dealt with and hopefully that'll ease your mind a bit until you get an appointment with the cardiologist.

"Although enlarged heart does not always cause symptoms, it can be detected through a chest x-ray or an echocardiogram (ultrasound examination of the heart). Some x-ray views of the heart can distort its size and falsely suggest enlargement, but other tests such as echocardiograms will help to confirm the diagnosis.

Many patients with small degrees of heart enlargement should lead a normal life with normal activities. Severe degrees of heart enlargement may impose limitations on exercise. The family doctor is in the best position to give individual advice about heart enlargement and its treatment. They will also advise on how much exercise can be undertaken.

Whether or not you receive treatment will depend on the underlying causes of the enlarged heart. It will also depend on any symptoms. If the heart has become enlarged due to high blood pressure, specific medications may be prescribed. Lifestyle issues may also be looked into. Reducing your alcohol and salt intake, eating a balanced diet and taking regular physical exercise within your limits can all be of benefit."

You know you're in our thoughts and we're sending good vibes out to you - tell your husband to give you an extra big hug for us. :)

11-20-2004, 10:30 AM

11-20-2004, 01:02 PM

I am sending you lots of ((((hugs)))). Honey, I know it is hard to relax, and I am mad that they were so insensitive and didn't reassure you at the emergency room.:mad: I am sure you are o.k. or they wouldn't have sent you home. And I am sure you will be o.k......it is not too late for you to be healthy. No way! I hope you get an appointment really soon so you can get some reassurance. And I agree, try not to worry about the bills, you need to take care of you. Let us know how you are doing, o.k.? (Stress can definitely make you feel they way you are feeling, and who wouldn't feel stressed. I will be glad when you can get more information.) Take care. :grouphug:

11-20-2004, 01:40 PM
I'm so glad your DH made you go to the hospital!

You will get through this, Heather. Many {{{hugs}}} to you.

11-20-2004, 02:42 PM
Heather, first of all, {{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}} :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: I agree with the other wise responses, try -- hard as it might be -- to keep a level head. I know all kinds of scary things must be running through your head right now, but truly, if you were in imminent danger, they wouldn't have released you, much less let you go home without a cardiologist consult.

The brief information Jill provided indicates that having an enlarged heart doesn't equal a death sentence, so follow her lead and research your situation. Getting more information on it should really help you to feel like you have a little more control over the situation.

As for the financial piece, what about looking into governmental support? There's a system in place for you to have access to the care that you need -- whatever it is. Don't assume that because you don't have medical insurance you have no options. That's not the case. Here's (http://ask.hrsa.gov/pc/) a link to the Bureau of Primary Health Care at the Department of Health and Human Services. By going there and filling out the form, you're not signing up for anything -- you're just getting information. I strongly urge you to be proactive in managing your health. This is probably just a wake-up call -- not an indicator of impending doom.

Get lots of hugs from your wise and loving husband, and then take control of the situation. Respond with action, and I think your head will be in a much better place about it.

You're in my prayers and thoughts, Heather. :grouphug: :grouphug:

11-20-2004, 03:12 PM
Big bigs hugs Heather! :grouphug:
I know I've already sent you a message but I've just thought of something...
When you go on Monday take a list of questions you want answers to. They shouldn't have let you go home with all this anxiety and fear! Get your Husband to insist that they answer them if you are not feeling well enough.
Hang in there friend! :goodvibes
Lots and lots of love and I'm praying for you!

Amanda Panda
11-20-2004, 07:11 PM
(((((((((hugs Heather))))))))) - I can only imagine how scared you feel right now - my thoughts and prayers are with you.

I agree that they would NOT have sent you home if your condition was life threatening. Many people with heart problems can rectify them through diet and exercise - so you are never too late to try to improve your health.

Take care and good luck for Monday.

Love Amanda x

11-20-2004, 07:30 PM
Thanks for all the hugs and good thoughts guys! I am less of a mess right now. Last night I refused to go to sleep. I was dog tired but I kept saying I wasnt tired. At after 330 am, i eventually conked out! I was afraid if I went to sleep, I wouldnt wake up again. Tonight hubby has to go to work so I will be here alone and I am really scared about that.

I cant do anything. Every time i move, i get worsening shortness of breath and chest tightness. I even have it when i am just sitting here doing nothing!! I talked to an online pal who freaked me out. She said that her aunt had enlarged heart and it was because of weight, so they put her on a strict diet (NO sodium NO fat and NO something else i cant remember) to prepare her for gastric bypass. I DO NOT want to do gastric bypass, it scares the crap out of me. Cant they just restrict my diet more and give me meds???? I think my enlarged heart id caused by high BP but im not a doctor....

We are going to try to get Medicaid or something, or at least try to work out payment arrangement. We couldnt call the cardiologist today because his office was closed. I am even scared of going to the doctor,.. what kinds of weird and scary tests might they run? Will the doc be mean and condescending? Will I even make it to Monday!

Im sure you can tell my state of mind,.. very scary, but at least im not crying anymore,.. well not as much anyway;-P I dunno, maybe this is a good thing that they found it and I can live the rest of my life better and healthier. *shrug* I am trying really hard to stay positive and not freak out but it is really difficult.

Thanks everyone for all your support!

11-20-2004, 09:18 PM
It's easy to say don't be scared when you're not the one faced with the situation :sorry: so I'm going to say think positive thoughts. Say a prayer. Do something comforting for yourself. My experience with life is that things usually work out so don't worry so much about the money aspect. Do what you need to do to make sure you are okay.

It's only dark until you turn on the light. Research, research, research. That should alleviate some of the stress because you'll at least know what you're facing. Know always that we are here for ya! :)

Lots of love and hugs XXXOOO. My thoughts are with you.

11-21-2004, 11:47 AM
Wow, you are dealing with some heavy stuff, I honestly can't imagine what it's like, but I can definitely help you on that doctor front. I hate hate hate going to the doctor, no matter what I say, I always walk out of the door with a prescription for something.. which I hate. And they always make me feel guilty, no idea why. Anyways, when you go in there on Monday, be prepared, know what questions you have, bring a pen and paper and write the answers down, be informed on what you think the causes and solutions are, and if you really feel that strongly about not having gastric bypass surgery, make sure you tell them. The doctors are there to make you feel better, and you are paying them to do that.. if this doctor doesn't feel like the right one, and tells you that you have to do things you don't want to, it'll just make things worse for you. There is always another doctor. I hope that helps a little bit, try taking a cal/mag suppliment, it'll help you relax a bit, and maybe watch a funny movie.. take your mind off of it for a little while, you are probably very tense. Take care, and I hope things go well for you on Monday. :)


11-21-2004, 12:18 PM
Heather, I concure will Jillegal,and am adding my love with everyones. I know how scary this is. Before I started dieting I was haveing shortness of breath and it felt like fluttering in my chest sometimes.I went to the doctors and got checked out. Now that I,ve lost almost 50lbs the symtoms have gone away.

11-21-2004, 02:29 PM
aww, heather... big hugs. i hope everything is okay. i'll keep you in my thoughts.

11-21-2004, 11:49 PM
Awww Heather. I feel so bad for you right now. I just want you to know that I am here for you all the way. Sometimes we make our condition seem worse once we know what it is because we are scared. See the doctor ASAP you need to have more information to go on because fear of the unknown is a big enemy for you right now. As for the money issue, you will most certainly get through that one way or the other. You have plenty of options. It is so very important that you see the cardiologist. You are going to make it!! It is a very good thing that you went to the emergency room. You caught the condition before it worsens. *Big Hugs*, hang in there Heather.

Goddess Jessica
11-22-2004, 02:47 AM
Keep us posted sweetie. We always knew you had a big heart ;)

Right now, let's concentrate on the good things. You have a wonderful support system here and at home. Whatever it is, you're having it checked out and that's a step in the right direction.

As far as the doctors go, listen with open ears and an open mind. Just because you listen to what they're saying doesn't mean you're taking it as fact - it just means you're taking in all the information to make a decision about your body. This isn't invasion of the body snatchers - they won't wheel you off without talking to you. :) If they start to piss you off, excite you, make you feel guilty, whatever - makes sure you let them know, "Hey! I'm the scared frightened one here. Don't you think that schoolyard bully mentality is a bit unconstructive? Cut it out! I'm a real person." If you have trouble getting it all out - write it on a flashcard and just flash them periodically with a wake-up call. :)

11-22-2004, 12:18 PM
Heather I'm sorry you have to be dealing with this. You have some great advise above. I know lots of people with heart problems and it is just amazing how far they have come in technology with dealing with the heart. Keep up you spirts and try not to worry to much. Your in our prayers.

11-22-2004, 01:58 PM
(((((BIG HUG))))) I'm so sorry to hear you are going through this but glad to hear you got it checked out. Most places allow you to make payment arrangements to pay your bills so I wouldn't worry too much about that right now.

11-22-2004, 02:13 PM
Heather ~

(((HUGS))) I am sorry that you are having to go through this right now. Just know that you are not alone.

How are you feeling today? Did you get an appointment??

11-22-2004, 04:02 PM
I go through periods of time where i will feel good,. then there are times where my chest is all tight, or I am worried/crying. The doc office gave us a wednesday appointment, we are trying to get one sooner. I am freaking out right now because hubby went to the grocery store and the car died and wont start. It wont start with jumper cables either so now we have to pay money we dont have to get it towed and fix whatever is wrong,.. on top of everything else. I can feel my chest tightening, so I am trying not to freak out too much.

I have a corn pillow that I heat in the microwave and put on my chest and that seems to help.. i am also limiting sodium and taking aspirin just in case.

11-22-2004, 04:11 PM
Great to hear from you Heather!
You've really been in my thoughts and prayers today. Sorry to hear about your car.
Take lots of care xx

11-22-2004, 04:34 PM

I'm sorry you're having a rough time. Do some research on the net but don't let anything you find scare you. You may get to the dr. and find out the guy in the ER just doesn't read xrays very well. I have had problems with tightness in my chest before. I got myself all scared and stressed out and when I went to the dr. it turned out I had pulled muscles in my chest wall :dizzy:.

Don't borrow trouble. Worrying won't bring Wednesday here any faster.

Remember, we're all here sending good vibes your way. Give your DH a big hug when he comes home - he probably needs them just as much as you do right now.

Take care of yourself.

11-22-2004, 06:51 PM
Heather the others have given you wonderful advice. I want you to know I'm also here for you. Keep posting.

11-22-2004, 07:31 PM
We heard from the doc office. They want me to go for an echocardiogram Monday. He is going to look over the xrays and ekg from the ER and is supposed to call me before 9pm,.. the head nurse said that if he sees anything that warrants immediate attention, that we would get the tests done even sooner somehow. Talking to the nurse made both hubby and I feel better.

She said that more people than you think have enlarged heart and that I will prolly get some BP meds and the heart can eventually shrink back down to more normal size. She said that ER docs are not specialists, and they can overreact. That made me feel much better!

11-22-2004, 07:52 PM
Good I'm glad your feeling better. I hate it when medical people make you feel worse than they need to. They should have giving you all kinds of info at the ER so you would not be so scared.

11-22-2004, 08:08 PM
I am glad you are getting some support and comfort. I know things can seem so scarey when you don't know everything yet. Sounds like things will start to calm down. Keep us posted, o.k.? Have a restful evening.

11-23-2004, 10:29 AM
Dear Heather,
I came across your post today. I used to have an enlarged heart as well. Shortly after my youngest child was born I started having gallbladder problems. I went for surgery and when they put me to sleep my heart stopped! I woke in ICU, and was told that I had post partum cardiomyopathy. My heart was enlarged and only working half of what it should. Several different things can cause an enlarged heart. They say mine was a rare complication that occurs in pregnancy, but I know that sleep apnea can cause you to have an enlarged heart as well, which I have. Once everything was back to normal, I went for a check-up with my regular doctor and she had me run several different tests to see if anything else might have caused this as well. One of these tests was to do a sleep study to check for sleep apnea. Because you stop breathing for short periods throughout the night, your heart is constantly speeding up and slowing down. The heart is a muscle, and like any muscle when worked harder it will enlarge.
My first visit to the cardiologist was scary. I too kept thinking I am too young to be here and going through this!! (I was 28, I am not 30.) After I was released from ICU I was told not to be alone for about a week. I know the feeling of being scared to go to sleep, for fear that you will not wake up in the morning. For about a month I lived like that until I had to go back into the hospital because my white blood cell count was elevated due to my gallbladder. The doctor that was doing the surgery said she wanted another echo done the next day. That night when I was in the hospital my heart moniter alarm kept going off, because my heart was slowing down so much. The male nurse came running into the room, Saying Are you alright??!! I said yes.......... and he said that he was alerted by whoever moniters the heart moniters that my heart was barely beating. The next day they did another echocardiagram, and that is when I found out that my ejection refraction rate was back up to 60%, and I got the ok to proceed with the gallbladder surgery since it was unsuccessful the first time. It turned out that because my heart had returned to "normal" and I was still taking the same meds, they were causing my heart to slow down at night.

I was put on 6 different medications, and after a month I was taken off 2 of them. At my checkup with the cardiologist after my surgery I was taken off the rest.

During this time I was also put on a low sodium diet. I cannot remember the number now, but it was pretty low. I never realized how many things have sodium in them.

Keep your faith, and with so many well wishes and prayers for you I know you will get through this! I really believe prayer played a HUGE part in my speedy recovery. Just take it easy, no excessive exercising or housecleaning such as vacuuming (these were my restrictions), until you get word from your doctor.

Good Luck!!

11-23-2004, 02:10 PM
Teri - Thanks so much for sharing. That should make Heather feel much more informed.

11-23-2004, 11:50 PM
Ok,.. just an update.
Friday night at 830, the cardiologist called and told me that I needed to go to another hospital ER Right now because my heart was so large. He said they would need to run tests and that the Er i had went to friday wouldnt have the euipment they would need and they would probably admit me. Well, I hung up the phone and just about went hysterical. Brian coudlnt understand me and he tried to call the doctor back but they had left. He finally had to call an answering service to have him paged.
I went to the hospital and my Bp was something like 235/142. They freaked out and gave me an iv where they gave me bp medicine twice but it wouldnt go down. They gave me nitro patches that were releasing medicine through the skin. They gave me huge headaches! They did another EKg and more chest xrays. The doctor said everything looked great and that she couldnt understand why the other doc and made me rush over. They did admit me because of my BP. I had to wear a heart monitor and take bp meds. I couldnt fall aseep. I was hot and the notro was giving me headaches. I only got 45 mins of sleep. My stomach was hurting because i was so hungry but I was not allowed to have food or water.

In the morning I got more bp meds, they tried giving me Xanax so I would sleep (didnt work). Later I had to have an echocardiogram done, more ekg, an a chemical stress test. I hated these,.. laying so still for so long made my headaches worse, the nice nurse put a cool towel on my head but still,.. I hope I never have to do a stress test again,.. laying in this weird scanning thing for 12 mins totally still.. then going and having numerous things injected then going back to lay in the weird thing for 17 mins. The weirdest part was when we were doing the echocardiogram (its an unltrasound pretty much) they couldnt see all of the heart so they injected stuff into me. She said it would light up the heart. Even before the lady was done injecting me,.. sure enough it looked like someone turned a light on in my heart. Very weird experience seeing that on the screen. All the test came back great,. no blockage, heart pumping correctly,.. no diabetes. All enzymes good. So they eventually released me. I am on a low fat, low sodium diet (2000 mg or less a day) I have 2 prescriptions to fill tommorow. One is essentially a water pill and they said it would probably cause me to lose some weight initially. I can do movement as tolerated (whatever that means) and my BP is still in the 178/95 range though. My chest still tightens when i move around but at least I know my heart is pumping correctly. I am supposed to see the cardiologist in a week where they will check blood pressure, look at potassium levels (guess i better eat some bananas) and prolly another ekg too. Among other things,..
The doc said that overall my heart looked good, just big and that I just need to get the bp under control, but I have to wait to see what the other cardio doc says in a week.
When i got home,.. i was still picking electrodes off of me,.. i feel like a strange science experiment. I loves this hospital. Everyone was super nice and always doing small things,.. asking me if i needed a blanket, magazine,.. tv on etc,.. They even brought me a fan so i could try to go to sleep. After all the tests I even got to order room service from the heart menu.. it was good,.. grilled chicken sandwich, yogurt, apple juice and angel food cake:-)

I hope everything works out, it is looking like it is going to. Now, if I could get this place where they had an iv in my hand to stop hurting like the dickens...

11-24-2004, 12:32 AM
Woo wee, Heather -- what an evening! You sweetheart........ :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:

As much of an ordeal as it was, it sounds like you got some good news! The steps they're having you take now are very positive, and you'll learn a LOT about how much sodium they put in just about everything these days. I keep my sodium under 1900 grams as well, and it requires an initial period of adjustment, but you'll find that it really is true that we build up a tolerance to sodium, and that the more you use, the more you NEED to use to taste it. Before long, you'll find a lot of things virtually inedible because they'll taste so salty to you.

One of the ways to bring down your blood pressure is to lose weight -- I had really high blood pressure when I started, and started to come down when I reduced my sodium intake and lost my first 10% of body weight. I'm really hoping that you feel a little better about things now that you have some more answers and the beginnings of a plan.....but God, how terrifying it must have been to get that phone call. Big hugs to both of you.

You're on the right track, Heather.....reading that entry was a bit of an emotional rollercoaster :^: , but at the end I really felt a strong sense of hope and optimism. You're going to be ok, and I can't tell you how much I appreciate your coming back in after all of that and giving us that update.....you sweet pumpkinhead. :goodvibes :goodvibes

I send the biggest, warmest, most loving hugs your way, Heathergirl....... :grouphug: :grouphug: And if ever you're interested in sharing info and war stories on living the low-sodium life, I'm your girl!

11-24-2004, 12:46 AM
I'm so glad to here things are looking up Heather. You will do fine. Hey and you got the added benifit of a pill that might give you a jump start on losing weight. Keep up your spirts and the good habits you have started.

11-24-2004, 01:01 AM
Wow, you went through quite an ordeal, missy! :dizzy: As scary and uncomfortable as it all was, at least you now have piece of mind knowing exactly what you're dealing with and what you have to do to control the condition. You must have felt that you got a reprieve when you learned that reducing sodium and taking a couple of pills will avert any further alarming symptoms. :)

What a relief it was to read "All the tests came back great, no blockage, heart pumping correctly.. no diabetes. All enzymes good."

Take care and give your husband a big pat on the back from me for insisting you go to ER in the first place, okay? :D

11-24-2004, 04:11 AM
Phew - I'm glad your heart is working well.
You've already started on the changing lifestyle path which will help to reduce your blood pressure!!!
A big big hug is winging its way over to you from the U.K!
Love Annie x

11-24-2004, 01:05 PM

Bless your heart. What an ordeal! I am glad they were nice to you at the hospital. I know blood pressure definitely can come down with weight loss, so maybe you won't even need any medicine after awhile. I have been thinking of you often and am so glad you are alright. Take good care of yourself. :grouphug:

11-24-2004, 01:22 PM
Oh wow. As if you weren't stressed out enough to have a doc tell you to rush to the ER. I probably would've been doing the same things as you. I'm glad to hear you're getting some answers and treatment.

11-24-2004, 01:51 PM
Yes, thanks everyone! I am really feeling better knowing that my heart is pumping correctly.

The doc office called and wants to do another chest xray (grrr again???) and check potassium levels in a week. The medicaid lady from the hospital called and said I am ineligible because i dont have kids and I am not officially disabled, so I am stressing a bit over that,.. i mean i am sure I racked up AT LEAST 10k worth of hospital bills so far,...it wasnt as if the things i did were frivolous??? It seems like they are saying they dont care about my health if I dont have kids??? whatever!! I will talk to the local medicaid lady from family services next week. We were supposed to go today but its 30 mins away and the car is still broken plus it is snowing after raining all night, so the roads are a mess and I am not going to ask our neighbor to taxi us around in that!


11-24-2004, 02:29 PM
Hi Heather. I'm so glad to hear that your test results turned out so well. Please don't stress out over the financial stuff. Everything will take care of itself in due time. Concentrate on what's really important right now - your health.

I remember that you mentioned before that you were looking into the DASH diet. Have you done anymore research on that? I'm terrible at planning menus so I searched for some DASH ones on the internet. Didn't have much luck. The Oregon dairy assoc. has an online cookbook. I contacted the agency that developed the plan but they didn't have any additioanl resources they could pass along to me. Maybe the cardi can give you some info on it.

Take care of yourself and have a wonderful holiday.

11-24-2004, 02:51 PM
Ill have to find the Dash link I had, but the docs have me on a low sodium (2000mg or less per day) and low fat diet. I alot of sites for low fat and one realy nice one for low sodium if you would like any recipes like that.

Here is the low sodium site: http://www.lowsodiumcooking.com/free/index.htm

One of the DASH sites that I have on bookmark: http://www.mckinley.uiuc.edu/health-info/dis-cond/bloodpr/dash-1800.html

so, it seems like I will pretty much be following a dash plan,.. and the some of the meds I am taking have water pill qualities, so it seems ill lose weight either way,..lol

Oh, and just for the record, my weight at the hospital was 378 (eeeek) but at least their scale weighed me. It makes me wonder what the weight would have been back in august,.. yikes!

11-24-2004, 02:57 PM
Heather-I am glad the tests came back ok {{{HUGS}}} I know how hard it is not to stress, but try not too!!

Here is a DASH link I have:


11-24-2004, 03:49 PM
Hey Heather! Glad to hear you are okay, thats quite the night you had. Sounds like a very stressful experience, which I can definitely relate to. I just wanted to pass something along thats really helped me to live a normal life, meditation. At first I thought it was kinda flakey sounding, but I had to try it.. well I was desperate to try anything. When I am really stressed I try and sit still, close my eyes, and start from my head and relax my muscles, picturing the muscles relaxing, and going limp. By the time I am done my mind has stopped thinking, and my body is fully relaxed, and I feel like I am in touch with my body. Then I can isolate whats REALLY going on for me. I used to do this when I was seeing about 5-6 doctors and none of them could figure out why I was so sick, and in so much pain all the time. Thats how I learnt to deal with pain as well, I can almost breath thru any pain I get now. Not to mention it'll get you through any panic attack. It's a really powerful skill to have. I don't know if that helps you, but I thought I would pass it along anyways :) Take care of yourself!


11-24-2004, 07:04 PM
Heather I just know 2005 is going to be your year! You've been through **** the past few days and look at you... doing the positive, wise best thing for you. You are taking control. I am really proud of you. :queen: I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!! :bravo: I know its a difficult time but I was just looking at the photographs of you from Aug to Oct and I'm just imagining what your photo is going to be like this time next year. :goodvibes :goodvibes
Love Annie

P.S I'm sorry the snow is inconveniencing you but...I loved the picture and WELL I LOVE SNOW!

11-24-2004, 07:56 PM
hehehe... i love snow,.. i just dont like the havoc it places on travel.

Im going to post more pics of the snow in my blog, so if you want to see them, be sure to check it out.

I took my first set of meds today and the one slows your heart rate a bit and wow does it make me sleepy!

11-24-2004, 10:46 PM
The medicaid lady from the hospital called and said I am ineligible because i dont have kids and I am not officially disabled, so I am stressing a bit over that,.. i mean i am sure I racked up AT LEAST 10k worth of hospital bills so far,...it wasnt as if the things i did were frivolous??? It seems like they are saying they dont care about my health if I dont have kids??? whatever!! I will talk to the local medicaid lady from family services next week.
Heather, when you first started this thread, I checked out Medicare and Medicaid to see if you would be eligible, and it didn't seem that you would be, so that's why I provided that other link. Go here (http://www.thebeehive.org/health/getting_health_care/paying_for_care/medicaid.asp) to see Medicaid's rules of eligibility.

I would ask to speak to one of the hospital's social workers to see what they would advise.

11-24-2004, 11:10 PM
Im hoping that we will get it based on the "posessions under 2000" requirement. We dont actually own anything but the car and it is a 92 Olds, so I know that isnt worth 2 grand,.. I wonder what else they count as posessions? Im starting to worry about it, because if Medicaid doesnt pay it,.. i dont know what we are going to do..

11-26-2004, 09:17 AM
alot of hospitals have a medical assistence form that you can fill out and they will reduce your bill and make a payment arrangement for the rest. You should contact the hosptial about that.

11-28-2004, 10:19 PM

I'm so sorry I missed this post but I really haven't been around much lately.

You're in my thoughts and prayers, and I'm glad to hear that the test results came back much better than what you were thinking.

You are one strong lady and I know you will get through this. Try not to worry too much about the financial side of things right now, just stay focused on taking care of yourself.


We're all here for you!