OK, it's off your chest. Now DO something about it. You're experiencing the sad reality that carrying excess weight can lead to health problems. What's next? Diabetes?
Get busy and make this your last time, instead of just one more time. It can be done, and there are lots of success stories wandering around 3FC that prove it. Do me a favor, though...When you make it, change your name to something a little more victorious sounding.