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Tammy32
04-13-2004, 12:02 PM
I am PMS'ing, and I know that every month without fail that during that time I am going to have a hard time with Carbs. I fought it all last night before bed. I resisted like there was no tomorrow. Then, I woke up in the middle of the night and raided my daughter's Easter candy!!!!!! :mad: I feel so guilty this morning. I could just kick myself!!!


Sandi
04-13-2004, 12:10 PM
I know it's hard not to beat ourselves up when we mess up. But it was just a moment and today is a new day.

How have you done so far today??

We will NEVER be prefect.

Br00klyn
04-13-2004, 12:11 PM
We all slip... Like Sandi said, none of us are perfect!

Just remember that today is a new day, and you are going to suceed at this!

Ciao Bella,


Tammy32
04-13-2004, 12:16 PM
I never have a problem during the day..It's the nights that really kill me. I'm going to put the baby in the stroller and go for a walk here pretty soon. I know that will make me feel better. I sometimes forget that I can't perfect all the time with this lifestyle change. It's going to take time after so many years of abusing myself with food. Thanks for the support you guys. I needed to hear that.

dowsx4
04-13-2004, 12:41 PM
We all have slip ups! Just forget about it and eat clean today!

Jillegal
04-13-2004, 01:05 PM
Well, since the thread is here, I guess it's time for me to fess up about what a bad girl I've been...

I haven't gone to Weight Watchers in 3 weeks and although I was well on my way to losing the 6lbs. I gained over Christmas, I've gone totally off-track over the past month and have gained another approx. 10lbs. There I've said it.

BUT, I'm not going into panic mode. I've spent the last few weeks blaming:

1. "HIM" - you know, that wonderfully sweet guy who keeps telling me he loves me no matter how much I weigh;

2. Mthrgoos - how dare she attend to living her own life when she knows I need her constant support and reassurance (kidding hon);

3. The weather - what a horrible winter it's been and here it's mid-April and still cold and rainy and miserable. Not only am I craving comfort foods, but I can't stomach going out hiking in this crap;

4. My job - I'm rarely getting home before 10pm these days and we sit around conference tables munching on snacks and ordering in Chinese all evening;

5. Menopause - can't wait for this to be over. It's making me cranky, hungry and lazy;

6. The "I've lost over a 100lbs. so I can afford to binge for awhile" syndrome. Very, very, very dangerous. The pants are getting tighter - I CANNOT afford to binge and anyway bingeing is a horrible habit from my past. I thought I'd left that behind;

7. I just love food. But I've been in this game long enough to know that "good" food can taste, and certainly feels, better than "bad" food.

Sooooo, enough with blaming everyone and everything. I'm ready to take full responsibility for my own foolish actions. I've done it before and I'll do it again. I know what I have to do and I'll just have to buckle down and do it. I'm not at all fond of this out of control feeling and in fact I feel like crap right now. Nothing I've eaten so far (okay, except maybe that half a cheesecake at Easter) tasted as good as I feel when I've just finished a 3 hour hike or fit into a new pair of pants or gotten a star or ribbon at Weight Watchers.

I've worked too hard for too long to slip back into a lifestyle of self-loathing (geez, I AM being tough on myself). Right now my motivation is Chicago. Originally I wanted to be at goal by Chicago, but now I'm shooting to be what I was pre-Christmas. At least I was feeling good, even if I still had approx. 20lbs. to lose.

Okay. Right then. Back on track. AS OF NOW!!

lessofsarahtolove
04-13-2004, 01:28 PM
Oh, Jillegal, you sweetie pie...... I send you :goodvibes: and a heartfelt :grouphug: --- you're ok....you've achieved so much already, and you're seeing where you've misstepped, and you're moving on. So you lost focus for a minute -- in the great scheme of things, that's all it is. You'll win again, and you'll be proud of yourself again........because you're awesome! You're back in the saddle again!

And really...darn that MthrGoose anyway; who does she think she is??!! ;)

Sandi
04-13-2004, 03:09 PM
jill - Hugs to you for laying it on the line. You've done it before, and I have no doubts you'll do it again. Maybe we can do it together. For, I too have a confession....

I am once again back on sweets. I was doing good, feeling strong, and all it took was for one person who usually is strong for me (although that's NOT their job) to tell me it was OK, and I was off....brownie...cookies...Dairy Queen cheesecake blizzard. **Sigh**. And if I am eating that crap, you can just imagine what my diet consists of.

I know it's wrong, but today is a wash for me. I have Bunko tonight where there is just more temptation.

But tomorrow screams a new chance...a new day. I have already committed to a 20 min workout. Now I'll committ to 2000 calories. And not a calorie more!!

AND I will face the scale that I have been so conviently avoiding.

Monkeybabies
04-13-2004, 03:20 PM
Well...what can I say, I think you ladies pretty much said it all !!!!!

I guess, when I started this journey for the last time, I said..."what is gonna make this the last time I sit here and ponder this? What did not work for me in the past? What am I the Queen of...?" I am Queen of Excuses...so...knowing this and being fully aware of this character flaw...I said that I MUST live in a a NO EXCUSE , NO FAIL Environment. And that means excatly what it says...I can not live by using excuses all of the time. (since I am so good at it) So far, it has been working....do I slip...hells yeah...but I have no excuse for it ;)

Goddess Jessica
04-13-2004, 03:34 PM
Tammy - I have the exact same problem in the evenings. I'm fine during the day but once that sun sets... I turn into a sweets vampire! Sucking the sugar out of anything I can get my hands on. I'm trying something new:

1) I make a low cal dessert of fruit and milk or SF hot cocoa around 8-9PM. This seems to satisfy a bit of my sweet thirst.

2) Put everything away in the kitchen, wipe down the counters, clean the sink.

3) Turn off the lights in the kitchen. Close it essentially.

4) Turn the TV off. (those late night commericals really do a number on me) Go brush my teeth and get into PJs. Read a book, surf the web, journal, whatevah!

The real test came for me last night when I was digging around the pantry for some spenda for my milk/strawberry "smoothie" and I happened upon some girl scout cookies. I looked away REALLY fast and started chanting, "It's not there! It's not there!" It was hysterical.

lessofsarahtolove
04-13-2004, 03:44 PM
I satisfy the nighttime sweets monster with an almost nightly treat of low-fat, low-carb flavored yogurt and 1/2 cup somewhere-between-thawed-and-frozen unsweetened berries........YUM!! Blackberries, raspberries, blueberries, strawberries....it's all good! It's factored into my daily calories, so I'm guilt-free and can loudly moan my pleasure! :p

Monkeybabies
04-13-2004, 03:58 PM
Oh yeah, how can I forget to suggest one of my Favs...

Sugar Free Fugicals...and sugar free fruit2O lemon Italian Ice....OOOOOOOHhhhhhh baby

lessofsarahtolove
04-13-2004, 04:11 PM
Ah, and if I'm really jonesing for chocolate, a Skinny Cow will do the trick....but at like 120 or so empty calories, it's a special treat, not for daily consumption.

lessofsarahtolove
04-13-2004, 04:13 PM
Oh yeah, how can I forget to suggest one of my Favs...

Sugar Free Fugicals...and sugar free fruit2O lemon Italian Ice....OOOOOOOHhhhhhh baby

Who makes those, Gina??? I LOVE LEMON ITALIAN ICE!!!! :love: I grew up in Manhattan, and we used to have the Italian Ice carts come around every afternoon in the summer!

Tammy32
04-13-2004, 05:11 PM
Well, I think I kind of redeemed myself today. This morning I took a good, fast walk about 4.0...for two miles. A couple hours later I was going to sit down and read and my friend knocks on the door. She wants to know if I want to go on a walk..lol..So, I went again for another 3 miles at about 3.5. Exercise so puts me in a good mood. I sometimes wonder why it is so hard to get motivated to do it when I feel so good afterwards. The mind sure works in mysterious ways.

Jessica, last night I was going to make some sugar and fat free jello pudding, and I was so tired that I did not do it. Had I done it, that would have calmed the craving considerably. I leave some open calories for the end of the evening, because I know I am going to need something. I just need to learn that I need to calm the craving before it gets totally out of control like it did last night. There are many low cal treats that I can think of to have. I just need to try to stick to them. so I don't have a repeat of this.

You all are just great!! :) :) I'm glad I stumbled onto this website. Thank you all!!

Sheila53
04-13-2004, 05:14 PM
Jill, you are my hero! Talk about courage--you just can't believe how much I admire you for sharing what you've been going through. Everyone has been there, although I know I don't like to admit it and I'm betting others don't either. Thank you so much for letting us know that we're not alone, that other people here are having the same sorts of problems and thoughts. And. . .that we can conquer this stuff--WE CAN!

missaprylj
04-13-2004, 08:16 PM
Good to hear you're back on track....

And some interesting confessions as well! (I'm not even going to *talk* about how I've been doing the last couple of weeks. :()

Maybe it would be better if we all just said "Let's start today; let's STOP MAKING THESE STUPID EXCUSES, and LET'S GET GOING."

Come on, girls. Let's finally just *do* this.

mistiel
04-13-2004, 08:19 PM
YOU DESERVE IT! DONT DEPRIVE YOURSELF! SLIP UPS DONT MATTER! ITS CONSISTANCY THAT WILL SEE YOU THROUGH THIS! DRINK LOTS OF WATER TODAY AND MOST IMPORTANTLY - FORGIVE YOURSELF! NO HARM DONE! ITS NOT A DIET! ITS A LIFESTYLE! YA GOTTA LIVE! DONT BE SO HARD ON YOURSELF!!!!!!

<Mistie

artist
04-14-2004, 03:43 AM
Tammy - I'm a night-eater too, so believe me, I too have been there! I guess, like the others have said, planning for it helps. Me, I am Queen of late-night snack of low-fat cheese, fruit (mango, plums, pineapple - all very sweet), low-fat/low sugar yogurt. And exercise, A-B-S-O-L-U-T-E-L-Y. However much I don't want to do it, I always feel great afterwards!

Jill - All I can say is I am totally totally in awe of what you have achieved so far. Losing so much is a fantastic achievement. And I'm sure, since you've acknowledged and recognised this current blip, that you'lle find your way through it, somehow.

(((Hugs))) to you both.

looosingit
04-14-2004, 10:24 AM
Jill - thanks for being so honest! I am totally struggling to keep my focus and get back to my pre-Christmas weight. Why is it so easy to put on and so difficult to take off???? You and I started at pretty much the same weight....and we both seem to be having similar struggles right now (fluctuating around the same weight). I completely identify with what you are going through....I use your success as inspiration for where I'll be 20-30 pounds from now! I know that you'll get back on track in no time!!

Jillegal
04-14-2004, 11:30 AM
Gulp, I'm getting a bit choked up here...thanks for all the kind words. I know some people come here asking for a swift kick in the butt for motivation to get back on track, but that's not me. I'm perfectly capable of reaching around and kicking myself (it's much easier since I've lost weight too ;)) In fact, I may be too hard on myself and I'll admit to severe feelings of disappointment in myself the last few weeks. Unburdening my "failure" on you and receiving your wonderful words of support and encouragement is doing more than you probably realize; it does let me see a different perspective - a binge blip on the radar screen indeed! Thanks a bunch!! Together we can do it! (sounds like an idea for an Oprah show :))

irishwings
04-14-2004, 04:13 PM
Wow, what an awesome thread! I am so glad to read that I am not the only one struggling with this! I, too, have been a bit off the wagon lately. . .I've been under a huge amount of stress in my work and in my personal life, and several times I have caught myself stress eating. . .I'm talking late night trips to McDonalds and Taco Bell, you name it.

I have felt so guilty. I have still made myself exercise, but foodwise, it will catch up with me in a big way if I don't cut it out. I'm afraid to weigh, those gains get me down.

I think I have been going at this weight loss for over a year now, and maybe I'm just weary and tired of this hard work. I'm jealous of those friends of mine who don't have to be careful like I do, who are thin and perky and can eat without guilt and worry. I've lost 85 pounds and there IS the danger of, "well now everybody's being so nice to me, telling me that I'm looking great, and I can eat more for a while and then stop again". Very dangerous, because my old habits that I thought were consumed in the fire of my so called "discipline" are still living in me, ready to come out in an instant if I let them.

Thanks for the support and chance to re-focus!!! blessings to all of you guys!

boiaby
04-14-2004, 05:22 PM
Hi guys, I just wanted to let everyone know that I know what you're going through, I've been there myself. I hit a real rough patch near the end of my weight loss. I was thinking, I've come so far, did those last 20 or 30 pounds really matter that much? Yes, they did! But I kept cheating here and there and skipping some of my workouts. And then I realized that I was feeling out of control again and that I had to put a stop to it and refocus on reaching my goal. Otherwise, what had all of this hard work been for? I made a promise to myself that I would reach my goal weight and in the words of Miss Chris, I will not break my self promises. So I buckled down and got my butt back on track. And I kept my self promise. Sometimes you just have to kick yourself in the *** and get the job done. And remember, you can do this! Good luck!

Beverly