I have a similar problem that I can follow a "diet plan" for a few days, but then find myself falling off the wagon and gaining back whatever I have lost. I am making some changes now in an effort to correct this. My diet tends to be low carb, but no food is completely eliminated. I don't eat sweets, but I do eat healthier carbs in small portions, such as bread, potatoes, rice, and I try to eat a lot of vegetables. I have a terrible snacking habit, so right now I am working toward only eating at meal time....nothing in between. That's a change that's difficult for me because I tend to pop things in my mouth mindlessly. If there's something I want, I'll save it to include with my next meal. The little bites here and there really do add up.
Try not to plan a diet. Eliminating foods just causes you to want them more. If you know you can have them in small quantities they lose their appeal. Just plan healthy meals and enjoy them. When you're eating, think of all the good things that healthy food is doing for your body.
Maybe being home is stressful for you, and you're stress eating. Possibly that same stressful situation caused your eating disorder in the first place. Or maybe being home makes you feel safe and secure, so you feel that it's OK to enjoy your favorite foods or makes you feel you are on vacation. It could make you feel that you are back to being a child, when you didn't have to worry about what you ate. There could be so many things causing this, and this is why therapy has helped some with BED.
There are a lot of posters on their forum who are or have been in the same situation. You can get a lot of good support from them. Good luck to you.
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