hi Ohemma
Sorry your self esteem is being beaten down. I know all too well what that feels like. I think its a great idea to come here and get some support. One thing I want to suggest is to join in one of the forum threads here. The one I post on is a kind community. And many others are also. But the one I know and post in is
http://www.3fatchicks.com/forum/weig...elcome-15.html the link is right. But by the time you see this and click on it, the last page likely will no longer be pg 15. So just click on the link and then click on "last page". If you want to check it out.
I know this time is very difficult for you. Not wanting to be seen etc. I will tell you what I find. I find that I do not have to lose all the weight for me to feel better about myself and how I look in clothes etc. eg I am in maintenance. But I have gained some weight. I feel better today even having lost 2 of the pounds. Some people here also like the myfitnesspal community. And there is another one also that at least one person on the thread i mentioned above, likes. One that has to do with exercise and eating. So some here belong to more than one community. Also there is at least one person i know here at 3FC who has found that a hypnosis recording is helpful. She has a link for the free online version of it.
I can see what a kind heart centered person you are. And this is why I am taking the time to answer so much. Because you have a very good heart. Please know that this is much more important than anything else. BUT often sensitive hearts can be hurt more easily. Even though they are the purest gems of all.
Weight loss and support
I restarted my weight loss journey about a month ago and my goal is to lose 4o pounds and tone up more. In high school I was very active did track and field year round and my senior year I took up clean eating and lost a good 20 pounds, I was happy with my weight and maintained it for about two years. Last semester I managed to gain about 20 pounds due to stress, binge eating, drinking too much and working long hours a long with my college load 
Since I've been home People keep telling me I've gained weight but haven't been very supportive.They are killing my self esteem and my body image and I don't even want to see anyone anymore. Since this is not new to me eating healthy and exercising has not been a problem but I am so impatient, Ive never really changed my lifestyle to try to lose weight and I keep finding myself down and on the verge of a breakdown when I look in the mirror and don't see the body I love. I decided to join a forum to keep my spirits up and to talk to people who understand what it is like to lose weight and understand the process, I hope to get to know more of you on my journey and be able to spread and receive encouraging words. Much love
to the site, Ohemma! We're glad to have you here!
Sorry you are having to deal with stupid comments. I really think sometimes that the world would be transformed if everyone would count to 20 before speaking. We are glad to have to you here at 3FC!
