srjph! How I wish 3fc had been around 39 yrs ago when I gained 5o pds with my first baby. I never lost all the way back again. You are blessed to have so much support here. You can do this and take it from someone who has lived a life obesity after the 4th child-You really want to do it this time. Use me as a cautionary tale.
I'm over halfway to a 170 pound needed for health loss . You can do this.
Look around, find inspiration. Also find something You want more than anything-a joy-in life to work towards. Something that will require you being healthy. I have grandchildren I want to play with, be able to sit on floor with babies-be able to walk my dog. What does your weight prevent you from doing? And have fun with it. This can be a fun place.