Depression and Weight Issues - Ups & Downs Support Group: May 2014




IBelieveInMe2
05-01-2014, 02:37 AM
Hello and :welcome3: to the Ups & Downs Support Group May 2014 thread. Anyone is welcome to join the group if you are willing to give and receive advice in your weight loss journey. We named the group "Ups & Downs" to reflect the many ups and downs of life, the weight loss journey, and especially living life with depression and medication.

If you are a "regular," please post and let us know that you found the new thread. If you are a "newbie," please feel free to post and tell us a little bit about yourself. We are here to help one another in this journey through life and weight loss.

This month, I want to say a very special THANK YOU to the regular members of this group who have made the group as special and close-knit as it has become today. This is exactly what I had in mind when I first reached out for Support Buddies on 3FCs! Each and every one of you make it happen on a daily basis, so ~ from the bottom of my heart ~ :thanks: for all that you are and all that you do for the group! It is wonderful to have a place to come and share my Ups & Downs! :grouphug:


Fiona W
05-01-2014, 02:49 AM
I'm here. I thought I was going to have the all-night kind of insomnia, but now that it's pushing 1:45 AM, I'm fading fast. I did my usual 600 leg lifts tonight. I ate only a quarter-cup of muesli, instead of a half-cup like last night. That's a good sign: keeping the carbos to as little as humanly possible.

I have nothing else to report. Greetings, everyone! We're the Ups & Downs Support Group: May 2014. Greetings and good night. =zzzzzzzz=

VermontMom
05-01-2014, 09:02 AM
Good morning, thanks Kathleen for establishing the May thread :)

Fiona I hope you got to sleep soon after posting that!

Another day of dreary light rain and low thick cloud cover, at least it's supposed to get to 60 as opposed to barely 50 yesterday.

I saw Coffeeshopgirl posted yesterday, it is good to see your name again here! :)

Hope everyone has as good a day as you can :cool:

*edit to add my workout for today, 40 min. of cardio/lower body torture :D

http://www.fitnessblender.com/v/workout-detail/SweatFest-Butt-and-Thigh-Cardio-Workout-Calorie-Blasting-Interval-Cardio-for-Lower-Body/hf/


MonteCristo
05-01-2014, 11:06 AM
Wow, it is May already. Seems like this year is just flying past!

Had a lazy afternoon yesterday. Meant to work in the yard, but for some bizare reason is is 45 degrees here right now. Was 80 three days ago, and will be 80 again by Sunday, but it is a little chilly for yardwork right now. I probably should have exercised, but oh well. After I finish the 30 days of sugar free (at 14 now!) my next goal is to get back into yoga and walking.

seabiscuit
05-01-2014, 01:31 PM
Hi there,

I hope everyone is doing well, I can't believe that it's May.

I started logging calories on my fitness pal, I was under my calorie limit yesterday! Now, I have to do today.

Hi to everyone especially Holly and Coffeeshopgirl.

Take care!

Amy

lilturtle
05-01-2014, 02:05 PM
I made it here! Almost posted in April's thread though lol.

For the past few days it has been rainy and cold. Today it is sunny and 70 degrees. Spring is back. I am going to make sure I get outside today to go for a short walk.

I have checked out the airport's website. It has helped a little. The airline I am flying on is not listed on the map. I'm not sure what gate I'm to go to either. How do I find out what gate? It is not on my intinerary. In a few days the airport thing will be over with and I will be with my mom in FL.

IBelieveInMe2
05-01-2014, 02:42 PM
Trish: Check in at your airline desk when you get to the airport, and they will give you your gate # there. Focus on being with your mom in Florida and try not to sweat the airport too much! Hope you get outside for that walk today! Sunny and 70 sounds good to me. :sunny: It is overcast, rainy, and a high of 57 degrees here today.

Fi: Hope you got some sleep last night! :hug:

Holly: Dreary and rainy here today, too, as it has been all week. :( Come on Spring!!! Where did you go?!?

MonteCristo: CONGRATULATIONS on 14 days sugar free!!! That is awesome! :D :broc: Keep up the good work!

Amy: Good luck logging your calories into MFP! It is a helpful tool.


I weighed myself on April 28th and it showed I was DOWN 3 pounds. Then, after working out every day since then and eating pretty healthy, I am back UP those 3 pounds today (3 days later). :?: I hate daily scale fluctuations!!! I just want and need to LOSE weight ~ once and for all!!!

seabiscuit
05-01-2014, 06:27 PM
Hi again,

Thanks Believe, I have to log some more calories. It's quite an eye opening tool.

I find weighing myself every week is better than every day. I haven't been weighing myself lately but I'm still debating about getting a scale.

Take care!

Amy

FleurDeLis
05-01-2014, 11:35 PM
Hey everybody!!! It's May,YAY!

Vermont- I do miss my bike a lot. :/ Your helmet sounds cool! Love the bullet holes!

Ibelieveinme2- When I think about it, it really is a short time. It also feels like it's been a long time. Hard to believe that six weeks ago I was with my daughter, holding her, and being as much of a doting mom as I possibly could... I get sad when I think about it too much, but happy to know where she is.:angel:

My appointment went well. I was completely cleared for all physical activity. Yay!:lifter::running::strong: I also had a general physical today and got a clean bill of health. :D

We got our pictures in the mail today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:carrot::goodvibe s:cb::angel: SHE IS GORGEOUS in them!!!!!!! They were done in black and white and edited very well. It diminished a lot of the discoloration she had in her face. She truly looks like an angel.:cloud9:

I weighed in this morning at 185lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!:carrot: Oh yeah!!! :D I couldn't be more happy! Got an awesome weight session in at the gym as well.

Tomorrow is Friday. I have to pack for our trip home to visit our parents as well as go grocery shopping, finish some laundry and hit the gym one last time before the weekend. Won't get any workouts in this weekend so I will have to watch my food intake closely. Then Monday I'm back to the 7am-3pm grind. :( This means waking up at 5:45am.... So not looking forward to that...:(

So I'll probably get a post in tomorrow, but most likely won't get back to posting until sometime Sunday night. Just wanted to let everyone know why I'll be MIA! :D

worththeeffort2
05-02-2014, 07:36 AM
Good morning, everyone. Happy May. Lots of showers, no flowers (yet). I'm hoping to see sunshine again.

Had a good appointment with the doctor yesterday. :D She was pleased that I've lost 10 pounds of pure fat since my last monthly visit. I have to say, I'm pretty pleased about that, too. I'm to continue with the program, as is, for another month.

I am continuing to up my workouts gradually. I'm up to 60 minutes a day. I couldn't deal with going to the gym in gray, dank weather yesterday after work, though, so came home and used the elliptical and my husband's Bowflex. I have a hard time figuring out how to exercise effectively on the Bowflex, so usually I avoid it in favor of the circuit machines at the gym.

Amy: I have been using MyFitnessPal to log my calorie intake, water, and exercise. I like that the site syncs with my Fitbit, so my steps and activity level are automatically recorded and I get immediate feedback on the impact of my workouts in the little message that says, "You have earned 'x' calories today from working out.' It really keeps me informed and helps me stay on track. I also like the feature, when you finish tracking for the day, it tells you what you'll weigh in 5 weeks if you continue on the same track. It is totally the kind of feedback I need. :)

Sabrina: I'm so glad you're happy with the photos of the baby. Congrats on the clean bill of health and registering weight loss. Stay focused on the positive. Enjoy your visit and don't think about Monday until the alarm goes off Monday morning. :hug:

I'm still struggling with feeling down. Had a couple of experiences at work yesterday where I was treated very disrespectfully by co-workers. One was a woman who opened the window behind my desk when I was not there. When I returned, I closed the window. She snapped at me, "You have something against fresh air?" I told her, "No, I have something against damp, cold air blowing on my back all day, making me feel stiff and sore." She harumphed and when she did condone to speak to me, was very snarky the remainder of the day.

The other incident was in a meeting with a woman who treated me with contempt and open disdain, as if my opinion (which was solicited, mind you), was utterly insignificant. It wasn't pleasant. She's an extremely negative and unhappy woman who believes in stomping on anyone and everyone just to spread her toxicity. Honestly, I don't know how her domestic partner puts up with her.

So, I'm trying to not focus on those episodes, though I do anticipate repeated bad behavior from the first woman today. It is Friday. It is payday.

coffeeshopgirl
05-02-2014, 01:54 PM
Hi everyone :coffee2: VTMom - Thanks for thinking of me & mentioning me in your post :)

I'm honestly feeling very weak right now with the stress that is going on. I can't talk about it in detail, just that I can only handle so much anxiety. I'm trying to work it out, but there's only so much I can do.

Looking back at my hierarchy of weight loss, I know I need to be in a decent (non-anxiety ridden) frame of mind before I can get back on track. I hope this stress will be over with soon so that I can get back to feeling safe emotionally and physically.

Glad this thread is still here - I think this is a really helpful community and want to thank you for your support :)

:hug: :coffee:

IBelieveInMe2
05-02-2014, 03:35 PM
Sabrina: So happy that you received the photos and really love them!!! I know you will treasure them always. I keep my photos and other momentos from Sean in a pretty box with angels on it. It has been way too long since I've pulled it out. Will do that soon! Have to be able to shed tears without looking like a bullfrog if I have to go somewhere afterward! :lol: Even after all these years, my heart aches when I smell the little clothes he so briefly wore and hold them close to my heart..... missing him. :cry: I ask him to pray for us often and ask God to hold him close and give him a hug from his Mommy. It is unbelievable how much I miss someone who I knew for such a short time. But he will always be my baby and I know that I will hold him again one day! :angel: That is a comfort.

worththeeffort2: Sorry that you are still struggling with feeling down. Those women at work sound like CRABS!!! Do your best to ignore them and don't let them steal your joy!!! :hug: YAY for a good appointment with the doc and being down 10 pounds since last visit!

Amy: I agree that weekly (or less) weigh-ins are better than daily. The daily fluctuations drive me crazy, as I mentioned in yesterday's post.

coffeeshopgirl: Sending you a big hug for all of the stress you are dealing with right now! :hug: Remember that this will pass eventually and all will be well. Prayers for you. Hang in there! :hug:

I have worked out the past 4 out of 5 days. :carrot: Want to keep the trend going. Will get in a walk with the dogs later. Food has been good. I am trying to work on leaving food on my plate at the end of meals. I am so used to being a clean plater, which isn't good when trying to lose weight. I think we are going to our lake house this weekend, so not sure when I'll check in next. Thinking of all of you and wishing you well! :wave:

lilturtle
05-02-2014, 04:47 PM
In about 72 hours I will be in the air. And soon my fearful part will be over.

Over the last two days I ate less then 800 calories a day. I'm getting Indian food tonight as a treat and it will last me through the weekend.

Happy weekend everyone!

VermontMom
05-02-2014, 05:36 PM
a quick check in to say HI and I will address all later this evening :D
http://www.fitnessblender.com/v/workout-detail/HIIT-Cardio-and-Abs-Workout-Insane-At-Home-Fat-Burner-Interval-Cardio-Training-and-Core/hv/my workout today was 40 minutes of HIIT cardio and core work and the rest of the day was; cleaning out a linen closet (kind of :devil:) trying to find a caterer for a fundraiser this August; returning a garden rake that snapped in my hands :mad: but got a free replacement :) mailing defective Sharpies back for replacement :dizzy: bought 3 pairs thrift shop capris in 3 DIFFERENT SIZES (a 12, a 10, and an 8!) :?: raking IN THE RAIN with new rake because today's weather is truly "if you don't like the weather, wait 2 seconds and it will change" .

projectjudi
05-02-2014, 07:31 PM
Sorry I havent popped in for a bit. I have been having severe stomach pain (the type that makes you buckle over its so bad)
Had an ultrasound Monday and today my dr told me I have a ventral hernia the size of a football. He said that they don't usually operate on hernias so large but that I for sure need surgery as the hernia is wrapped around all my vital organs especially my bowels (which would answer why I am severely constipated and only go about once a week and thats with help) sorry tmi I know. He was going on about all the complications this hernia could cause. Needless to say I had a bit of a breakdown. I am scared to death. How I never knew I had this is beyond me.
My eating is bad too. I am in starvation mode trying to make up for my week long binge a couple of weeks ago. I know this is totally destructive behavior and will try to start eating healthy again tomorrow. Mentally I am spent.
Sorry to be such a downer. I am trying my best to think positive to no avail.
I read what some of you are going through and I feel so petty.
Again sorry to be so negative. I will survive.
Hope you all have a great weekend.
hugs
Judi

worththeeffort2
05-03-2014, 09:57 AM
:coffee: Good morning, everyone. I am having my coffee and computer time before getting on with the weekly "Paying of the Bills" routine. Thank God in the last round, we had more money come in than went out. What a nice change that was!

I am happy as all get out that we are finally in the weekend. I plan some meditative exercise this weekend that will help me get back into the zone of ignoring my co-workers so they don't make the same kind of emotional they did on me this week. Yesterday, my rights to opening or closing the window directly behind my desk where taken away. Believe it.

For the good of the greater group, who say they are hot, I cannot close the window if I am cold and have a damp breeze blowing on my back. It's stupid. I know. I'm not upset about it any longer, since I'm working to be Zen about the whole situation. I'm going to dig through my closets this weekend for a couple sweaters that I can take in to layer, if needed, from now on. Yesterday, I was able to relocate to another workspace in the building to work on a specific project. I may also issue a request for my workspace to be swapped with one of the women who wants the windows open wide, so she can enjoy the damp breeze and I can be away from the draft.

Interestingly, I felt a strong drive yesterday to head to the gym and workout hard in order to vent my frustration. I view this as a success since my old habit was to binge on sugar to kill my emotions. So, I kicked it on the rowing machine, in circuit training, and finally for a mile of walk/jog intervals on the track.

VermontMom
05-03-2014, 10:46 AM
good morning!

Sabrina - enjoy your weekend away! So glad that you received your treasured pictures of your angel daughter :angel: and CONGRATS on such a good doctor's report! :cb:

worththeeffort2 - I am MAD :mad: at the co-worker who was so dismissive to you, and at the one who is such a crybaby that she had to have your rights to your window taken away! But I think it is great that you felt the need to hit the gym and work out like a boss :D and SUPER YAY for more money IN than OUT!

Hi Amy (Seabiscuit) - way to go on being UNDER calories!! that is fan-tastic :D

coffeeshopgirl - really sorry about your current anxiety..and yeah we don't need that when we are trying so hard to make good changes for ourselves. we are here for you :hug:

Kathleen - congrats on working out, 4 of 5 days! sorry to hear the scale is being rude to you (down 3, up 3, what the heck!) If you go to the lake house this weekend, I hope you have a wonderful time :)

lilturtle eating less than 800 calories is not much!! hope the Indian food was good :) and your trip is so soon now!

projectjudi - oh my gosh that does sound scary about the hernia!! how soon do you have to deal with this?? :( :hug:

Monte Cristo - - congrats on your sugar free days!! that is a huge accomplishment. Besides obvious sugar, do you have to search for hidden sugar like in ketchup or wheat english muffins? Sorry about your abrupt change in weather temperature, our REGULAR temperature lately has been about 49 and no sun :(

Lisa (Ohiofreespirit) :wave: Hi and how are you doing :)

Fi - - Hi Fi, you must still be working away with the BERP :D Have you been sleeping alright?

Hi Hope I'll still say HI in case you are reading :)

I am almost beyond discouraged about our stupid weather, spring just is NOT coming this year I guess. Day after day of heavy cloud cover, sporadic rain, temperatures barely reaching 52 as a high..I've had almost 3 weeks off and have been out on my motorcycle TWICE. I've just done some raking outside but half the lawn still looks like crap :( back to work fulltime next week and THAT is when it will start to warm up! what...the...heck...:devil:

Also WAY overate last night, just because the chicken thighs I made for dinner were so darn good :devil: and becase I just wasn't feeling any will power at all. I was discouraged at the wide range of sizes of capris I ended up buying, the 12's were nicely loose but I wish the only size that fit were 8, and there was a 10 in there too. I know that truly the only thing that matters is inches/size, but I do so love seeing a size 8 fit instead of 12.

Have a charity fundraiser calcutta/raffle to go to this afternoon evening, it's a motorcycle crowd :cool: so that's always fun. Don't know what I'm gonna wear..and have to deal with my hair, just got it cut/highlighed on Thursday and I still don't know how to deal with it (blow dry straight down with straight down bangs as the stylist did, and I feel like a weirdo? or fluff it a bit, as I still try to re-live the 80's? :rofl: )

oh this was my exercise from yesterday, 40 minutes of HIIT cardio and core

http://www.fitnessblender.com/v/workout-detail/HIIT-Cardio-and-Abs-Workout-Insane-At-Home-Fat-Burner-Interval-Cardio-Training-and-Core/hv/

Hey if I started an exercise thread, would anyone else post in it?

seabiscuit
05-03-2014, 11:50 AM
Hi there,

Thanks everyone for the positive feedback. I went over my calories yesterday and I would have today too if I logged my overeating this light ice cream that I bought. It's tempting to overeat, that's something I struggle with and this seemed like a trigger/binge food.

I have to get going, have a great day!

Take care!

Amy

IBelieveInMe2
05-03-2014, 12:18 PM
I am writing from my phone at the lake, so will be brief.

projectjudi: That is awful about your hernia!!! :( Sounds so painful and uncomfortable. I am just glad they found it so you can get it removed and feel much better. I would be scared too though...... but you will be okay..... actually much better when that horrendous thing is removed!!! Try to focus on that if you can. Best of luck and prayers to you! :hug: I hope you will get back to healthier eating soon. You can do it!

Trish: Thinking of you as you prepare for your trip on Monday. All will be well..... all will be well..... all will be well!!! (Repeat to yourself.) :hug:

Will post to the rest of you later from hubby's computer! Take good care everyone! :)

Fiona W
05-03-2014, 08:14 PM
Sorry I didn't check in yesterday: I have been working very long hours on the BERP, like 10 hours a day, but the progress is slow. Going through magazines and scientific journals one page at a time looking for useful images to clip is definitely going to be the slowest part of this project in terms of visible results. But the end of the clipping part is in sight. Next I need to clear out an area where I'm hoping Bob will build a nice-looking piece of cat furniture—not one of those things you buy in a store that have cream-colored carpeting on them, but something that will resemble a very simple, modernistic apartment building for cats, except made of nice wood with a nice finish. (Bob loves working with wood and is especially good at stains and finishes.)

Anyway, sorry to go on about that when others, like poor Judi with her hernia, are really suffering. I've been sleeping well: 10 PM to 6 AM for two nights in a row. It's because I'm doing physical labor all day. I think my right arm, especially my shoulder muscles, are going to be outstanding by the time this project is over.

But things aren't going so hot back in my home state of Texas, where my mother has Alzheimer's and started throwing tantrums in her special "memory care" facility, so she's been on a geriatric psych ward for two weeks. My sister is the family member who has to be there when this sort of thing happens, and she's all stressed out & angry about it. She took it out on me over the phone, and I wound up breaking down and crying. Then my sister hung up on me and I kept crying the whole rest of the day, not getting any work done on the house.

My family of origin is so horrible. I mean my parents were. They both physically abused me when I was a child, but I intervened to protect my little sister from all of that: I was six years old when she was born, so I was old enough to get between my parents and her and take the blows myself. My sister and I were very close all through her grade school years, but then I turned 18 and went to college 1400 miles away, and she massively resented me for doing that.

And that's basically been the story ever since: we build a fragile truce, she gets mad at me and it breaks down, and so on ad infinitum. She doesn't want me down there in Texas helping take care of Mom, though. (My dad died in '07.) She thinks I would make the situation worse. She thinks all these crazy things about me because my parents bad-mouthed me in her ears so convincingly for nearly 40 years, she's effectively brainwashed. =sigh= She sure can hurt me bad over the phone. She did it today. My eyes are so puffy from crying, I can just barely see out of them. I'm just hopin' to be able to get back in the saddle tomorrow. Normally Sunday is my one day off from the BERP, but today was blown to pieces by my long bawling jag, so I'll have to forgo my day of rest this week. I just hope I can sleep tonight. Sorry for all my rambling. I'll stop writing now and not subject you nice people to any more of my crap.

IBelieveInMe2
05-04-2014, 02:16 AM
Fi: Great to hear from you, but I am so sorry that your mom is basically in a geriatric psych ward and your sister had you in tears much of the day. :( None of you has to apologize for sharing any of your hard times. All of us have rough times and we need to be able to share BOTH our ups AND our downs in this group. Each of our struggles are different and unique, and none matter less than others, especially to the one going through the difficult time. So vent all you want, everyone! Share your ups AND your downs and we will be cheering for each other through it all!!! :cheer2: Fi, that is horrible that you were physically abused as a child and that you were forced into the position of "protecting" your little sister when you were just a child yourself. :cry: I am so very sorry that you had to grow up in that environment. Tears for Little Fi..... :cry: .....and a big hug for Big Fi! :hug: You are truly a SURVIVOR!!! Embrace and celebrate that fact. :hug:

worththeeffort2: I sure do hope you can swap workspaces with someone else who WANTS the cold air blowing in on them! Hope you are getting around to those meditative exercises that will allow you to be more at peace in your work environment.

Holly: Sounds as though you are busy as a bee! I am at the lake house now and having a wonderful time, thank you. Sending you :dust: to resist your own yummy cooking!!! :lol: Try not to sweat the overeating too much and jump right back on board. You have been doing so well! Our weather in Ohio has been crazy, too. Can't wait until it stays consistently warm. Hope you had a great time at the fundraiser with your motorcycle crew! I'm sure you looked wonderful! :D

Amy: Thanks for checking in! Remember when using MFP that it is a tool to HELP ~ not shame ~ you on your journey. It's all about PROGRESS and not perfection! You can do this! :)


As I mentioned, we are at the lake and I got a lot of exercise in today. Walked with my family and also with our dogs and took a bike ride around the islands with my hubby! I love it when exercise feels FUN!!! :D Food is always a challenge up here, but I am doing okay with it. Yep, just okay.
Seems to always be room for improvement with me in the healthy eating and/or smaller portions department. :dizzy:

worththeeffort2
05-04-2014, 04:14 PM
Fiona: I'm sorry to learn about the abuse you suffered as a child. Please know your experience is not uncommon among survivors of childhood abuse who protected their siblings, then escaped when presented with the first opportunity. I'm sorry your parents created a toxic environment for both their children. Perhaps, at some point in the future, you and your sister will be able to heal and build a more stable, loving, and supportive relationship. I hope so.

Today, I staged a purge in the house. A friend of mine is going through a difficult time and will be incurring major medical bills in the coming months. Her family is preparing to so a number of fundraisers to help defray the expenses for her. Since it is time for spring cleaning, I took advantage of the opportunity to gather some stuff together to donate to the cause. My husband and I just finished loading two big boxes of books, a box of household goods, and a large bag of clothes and jewelry into the back of the car.

It feels SO good to clear unneeded clutter out of the house. It feels so GOOD to pack a bag of clothing that is still in perfectly good condition but is now way too large for me. It feels especially good to know that all of these items will go to a cause that supports a friend in time of very serious need. I hope they get a lot of other donations and that this first fundraiser makes a lot of money for the cause.

seabiscuit
05-04-2014, 04:46 PM
Hi there,

Thank you again to everyone for the encouragement!

Judi- :hug: I'm sorry about your hernia, hugs. A relative of mine had a hernia, had surgery and now he is doing great. Think positively!

Fiona- :hug: I am very sorry about the Alzheimer's, another relative of mine has it and it's sad. The Alzheimer's Association is a good resource. I'm not sure if they have support groups.

Believe- thank you for those kind and encouraging words, I needed to hear that!

Worth the effort- I agree on getting rid of clutter, that's what I'm about to do in a few minutes, I keep getting rid of junk because I'm moving. Less is more!

Take care everyone! It's a beautiful day! Now, if only spring allergies would calm down.

Amy

VermontMom
05-04-2014, 05:15 PM
Hello!

Fi - I am so sorry to hear of the terribly upsetting phone call. It is so hard to understand HOW parents can abuse their own children..and how that affects the dymanics of siblings. You were a hero to your little sister! at way too young an age though :( what a responsibility. And now to have that sister have the ability to 'get' to you :( really sorry.

worththeeffort2 - I am sorry to hear of your friend's medical troubles, but what a good friend you are to immediately help :) and what a bonus when it precipitates getting items out of the house that will then go to a good cause! win/win :cool: Oh and especially saying 'buh-buy' to those too large clothes!

Kathleen - HOw great to make exercise FUN! :D It must have been nice weather for you to be able to walk the dogs and bike. Yay! Yes I had a very good time at the fundraiser, ate very little but drank 6 Coronas :devil: and as I am the reigning 2013 Miss Crossroads Motorcycle Rally Queen :cool: (yes I brought my sash and tiara in my purse :rofl: ) I got to pull the last 5 big ticket numbers from the drum. I also got a great consolation prize, a Biolage box of shampoo and conditioner, and our motorcycle rights group pooled money to buy another ticket, and won a car wash kit, value $50.

Amy - Hi how is the moving / packing process? Hope it's not too much of a pain. Oh I also find it so easy to 'overdue' on something like lite ice cream..tastes so good, it just makes me want more. Hope your calories are good to you today. I"m glad you've had some beautiful weather but i hope your allergies don't bother you too much.

Hi to lilturtle, Ohio, Chelsea, Monte Cristo, projectjudi, 1life2liv, coffeeshopgirl, and Hope

today was 45 and rainy AGAIN. I remember a science fiction short story of a place where it rained 364 days of the year; one day of the year there was sun for one hour, that's how it feels here :rofl:

seabiscuit
05-04-2014, 06:12 PM
Hi Holly,

It's great to hear from you! My allergies feel a bit better now, thank you. I have a prescription nasal spray that the doctor called in.

I was working away at packing, I need to get back to that. As my high school advisor said, "(I) am the Queen of Procrastination!"

Ok, now I want to get this box packed before dinner!

I hope you get some sunshine soon!

Take care!

Amy :)

Fiona W
05-04-2014, 10:29 PM
I really appreciate the things you guys said about my rough childhood and the role I played for my sister. And you know what? I just got off the phone with her: she called me, to repair our relationship after what went down yesterday. What a loving thing for her to do...we are back on wonderful terms with each other, and my sweet sister, Lee Ellen, is the one who made it happen. I'm very tired right now and I need to crash, but I just wanted to y'all about that. =smile=

seabiscuit
05-04-2014, 10:40 PM
That's wonderful, Fiona!

Have a good night everyone.

Amy

IBelieveInMe2
05-05-2014, 12:50 AM
Fi: I am so happy to hear that your sister called to repair your relationship! Thank you for sharing this good news with us. Hope you will sleep better knowing all is well with you and your sister. :)

worththeeffort2: You are a good friend to get right to work on donations to benefit your friend who is going through a difficult time. And purging (your) house is something I am working on right now, too. I have been working periodically with a professional organizer, because it is very difficult for me to organize and get rid of things for a variety of reasons. So I applaud you for doing it on your own, with help from your hubby! :)

Amy: Good for you for taking the time to get rid of clutter as you prepare for your move. How ironic: we are BOTH "Queens of Procrastination!" ;) Hope you can get your allergies under control soon. Those darn allergies sure can make you miserable. :(

Holly: The weather wasn't great (cool and very windy), but we made the best of the DRY, partly sunny day at the lake. It is so much fun to walk and ride bikes up there, especially with my hubby and our little family, which includes our 3 dogs, of course! :love: Glad to hear that the fundraiser was fun and (it sounds like) exciting! I am so impressed that THE reigning 2013 Miss Crossroads Motorcycle Rally Queen is a member of OUR group!!! :D You are one popular chick, Holly!!! :cool:

Trish: I will be thinking of you tomorrow (Monday). Praying that you will not experience too much anxiety and that all will go well for you! Have a wonderful time with your mother! :hug:


I have battled a migraine :headache: the past couple days, but ~ thankfully ~ still managed to have a great time at the lake. It is so relaxing up there..... and NO CLUTTER!!! :D Waving hello to everyone! :wave: Please check in when you can!

lilturtle
05-05-2014, 07:17 AM
Judi - I am sorry to hear about your hernia. I would be scared too. But you can get it removed. That should help. I'll be thinking of you.

Fiona - that is great news about your sister!

I'm terrible at addressing everyone but I am reading along.

Today is my flight. I didn't sleep last night. I'm really nervous. In less then 12 hours it will all be over. I overate this weekend too. I've been so good. I did lose 1 1/2 lbs between Tuesday and Friday. Not sure how the weekend affected it. Next time I post it will be from Florida.

worththeeffort2
05-05-2014, 07:38 AM
:hat: ¡Feliz Cinco de Mayo! :celebrate: No guac and chips or margaritas for me! Instead, I'm declaring my independence from fat and my observance of today will be to hit the elliptical later.

Fiona, it's great news that your sister called to apologize for her behavior and make up with you.

The forecast is for sunshine some of the day today. I have an eye appointment this morning so will be clinging to my darkest pair of sunglasses since I'll be getting dilated. The upside to that is that I won't be going to work today so can do my workout later this afternoon. Truly, it seems that my life has gone from revolving around food to revolving around when I can schedule a workout.

pixelllate
05-05-2014, 10:19 AM
Sorry I didn't check in yesterday: I have been working very long hours on the BERP, like 10 hours a day, but the progress is slow. Going through magazines and scientific journals one page at a time looking for useful images to clip is definitely going to be the slowest part of this project in terms of visible results. But the end of the clipping part is in sight. Next I need to clear out an area where I'm hoping Bob will build a nice-looking piece of cat furniture—not one of those things you buy in a store that have cream-colored carpeting on them, but something that will resemble a very simple, modernistic apartment building for cats, except made of nice wood with a nice finish. (Bob loves working with wood and is especially good at stains and finishes.)

Anyway, sorry to go on about that when others, like poor Judi with her hernia, are really suffering. I've been sleeping well: 10 PM to 6 AM for two nights in a row. It's because I'm doing physical labor all day. I think my right arm, especially my shoulder muscles, are going to be outstanding by the time this project is over.

But things aren't going so hot back in my home state of Texas, where my mother has Alzheimer's and started throwing tantrums in her special "memory care" facility, so she's been on a geriatric psych ward for two weeks. My sister is the family member who has to be there when this sort of thing happens, and she's all stressed out & angry about it. She took it out on me over the phone, and I wound up breaking down and crying. Then my sister hung up on me and I kept crying the whole rest of the day, not getting any work done on the house.

My family of origin is so horrible. I mean my parents were. They both physically abused me when I was a child, but I intervened to protect my little sister from all of that: I was six years old when she was born, so I was old enough to get between my parents and her and take the blows myself. My sister and I were very close all through her grade school years, but then I turned 18 and went to college 1400 miles away, and she massively resented me for doing that.

And that's basically been the story ever since: we build a fragile truce, she gets mad at me and it breaks down, and so on ad infinitum. She doesn't want me down there in Texas helping take care of Mom, though. (My dad died in '07.) She thinks I would make the situation worse. She thinks all these crazy things about me because my parents bad-mouthed me in her ears so convincingly for nearly 40 years, she's effectively brainwashed. =sigh= She sure can hurt me bad over the phone. She did it today. My eyes are so puffy from crying, I can just barely see out of them. I'm just hopin' to be able to get back in the saddle tomorrow. Normally Sunday is my one day off from the BERP, but today was blown to pieces by my long bawling jag, so I'll have to forgo my day of rest this week. I just hope I can sleep tonight. Sorry for all my rambling. I'll stop writing now and not subject you nice people to any more of my crap.

Wow Fiona, I had similar parents and an older sister - when she went away to college I was a little afraid fending for myself, but I would have killed for loving protection like what you gave. Unfortunately, the abuse had turned my sister abusive to me. Its nice to see the opposite happening here and I'm glad that things are better between you and your sister.

MonteCristo
05-05-2014, 10:33 AM
Hi Everyone!

Had a lovely weekend...weather was absolutely perfect, so I spend both Saturday and Sunday outside working in the yard. Planted a couple of trees (Japanese Maple and White Dogwood) and started a batch of dwarf mondo grass. Then I cleaned out a couple of flowerbeds at my Dads and did some weedeating. I'm a little tired today from all the work, and I busted a couple of knuckles, but all in all it was a great weekend.

VermontMom
05-05-2014, 10:44 AM
good morning chicks!

Fi - that is so wonderful, your sister did that, so glad you told us :) And you are probably back to BERP-ing today :D

lilturtle - best wishes for the flight!! and we look forward to a WARM and SUNSHINY :cool: post from Florida!

Kathleen - so sorry about the migraine! :( I do hope it is gone by now. Have you told us the 'flavors' :D of your dogs? 3 is a herd!

Amy - did you get that box packed before dinner? :D (not nagging, really!)

worththeeffort2 - hope your eye appt. is routine and don't forget the-->:cool: Regarding the issue of working in a workout, that is truly a big thing to do but it will be so rewarding to have exercise a regular thing to do..like not "am I going to work out?" but "when am I gonna work out" :strong:

Monte Cristo , you are the yard queen!! I'm so glad you were able to enjoy the beautiful outdoors and got so much done! your yard will be a sanctuary.

Hi to pixellate, who posted with concern to Fi :wave:

Hello to Ohio, Chelsea, projectjudi, 1life2liv, coffeeshopgirl, and Hope

It is not raining at the moment, but it is gray and such low-lying clouds..gloomy. However the weatherguessers :D say sun tomorrow and Wednesday. I had planned to start my summer job on Wednesday, but I ... just... might... postpone to Thursday, so I can enjoy a nice day!

seabiscuit
05-05-2014, 07:05 PM
Hi there!

Believe,

That is funny!! :D. How are you?


Holly,

I worked on the box, thanks, but it's not quite done. Maybe I'll finish it tonight.


Monte Cristo,

I love trees! They sound beautiful!


Have a good day!

Amy

FleurDeLis
05-05-2014, 09:58 PM
worththeeffort2- Visit home was great! Much needed! Today went well at work. THere was a fiesta and even though it wasn't for me, it still felt like it. Everyone missed me. Nice to hear that. Got lots of hugs!

Ibelieveinme2- Aw, that is wonderful! We have a box as well that we have several things in. Of course it is in her room. We haven't changed anything. I sometimes go in there to feel closer to her. It helps. I made sure to take picture of her with me to work to put on my clipboard. I work at a desk that is shared with other shifts, so I can't have a picture frame or anything, but my clipboard goes in my own little cubby so I know it is safe.

Vermont- Thank you! Sorry for the gloomy day!

First day back at work today. Went pretty well. Lots of hugs and welcomes. Was nice. I'm tired now, bedtime for me!

VermontMom
05-05-2014, 11:12 PM
...Visit home was great! Much needed! Today went well at work. THere was a fiesta and even though it wasn't for me, it still felt like it. Everyone missed me. Nice to hear that. Got lots of hugs!



aw how nice!

and I suck because I skipped your name in greetings ---> embarrassed face! :^:

so nice you can have a picture of your angel at your work :hug:

IBelieveInMe2
05-06-2014, 12:19 AM
Well, today we took a road trip to Pittsburgh to my daughter's Endocrinologist there. I had a stomach ache all day and was REALLY CRAVING chocolate. So.......... on the way home, at a restroom stop, I bought one of those "Whatchamacallit" candy bars that used to be one of my favorites. I haven't had one in years and periodically crave one when I see them in the convenience stores. Thinking that maybe it would help my stomach settle down (seriously!), and STILL craving chocolate, I ate the whole thing. I must admit that it was good, but not nearly as good as I had remembered. So I did make a mistake by buying and eating the candy bar, but I learned a valuable lesson for the next time I am craving something: It doesn't taste as good as I imagine it will taste. AND I am now reminded of the saying: Nothing tastes as good as being THIN will feel! However, since we were on the road all day, I just sat in the car. Uggggh, I feel FAT tonight. :(

Trish: I was thinking of you today. Hope all went well and that you are now in Florida relaxing with your mom! Enjoy your time there! Please post as soon as you can to let us know how things went at the airport. Sending a big hug! :hug:

worththeeffort2: Love your line that you "are declaring your independence from fat and (your) observance of today will be to hit the elliptical later!" Good for you! Nice way to switch up the Cinco de Mayo holiday to make it healthy! :D That is awesome about your life now revolving around your workout rather than food!!! You are on your way! :) Hope your eye appointment ~ and your workout ~ went well!

pixelllate: Happy to hear from you again. Sorry for the abuse you suffered, too! :( So sad. Please feel free to chime in any time! Thanks for supporting Fi! :)

MonteCristo: Your yard must look lovely! Yay for perfect weather and yardwork as exercise! Hope you didn't overdo it!

Holly: My migraine is finally gone today, thank God! My pups are: a 10-yr-old male Brittany (Spaniel) ~ red/brown and white ~ named Griffin, a 4-yr-old black male Cocker Spaniel ~ named Lucky, and a 1-yr-old white female Clumber Spaniel ~ named Lucy. Lucy, still a pup, is a real handful! Love them all to pieces, though! :) I am posting photos of Griffin and Lucy below, but I have tried for over an hour to post one of Lucky and it won't let me! Arrrrgh!!! Frustrating!!! :dizzy:

Amy: I am doing okay, but I'm frustrated that I can't be consistent with healthy eating and small(er) portions. How 'bout you? When do you move? How is the packing coming, my fellow procrastinator?!? ;)

Sabrina: Glad to hear that you felt really welcomed back to work and got lots of hugs! :hug: So nice that you have a photo of Isabelle on your clipboard at work and her room to spend time in when you want to feel close to her. She will be watching over you always and you will always be her Mommy! :hug:

Hello to Everyone Else! :wave: Hope all is well!

coffeeshopgirl
05-06-2014, 10:02 AM
Hi everyone :coffee2:

Thanks for the well wishes and prayers. Your support is what makes me keep coming back here :hug: . I just keep telling myself that I'm doing the right thing and that everything will be ok.

Hope all is well.

seabiscuit
05-06-2014, 12:08 PM
Hi there!

It's a beautiful day here!

Believe- thank you for your cheerful message! I am almost done with that box! My friend is going to help me pack this weekend. I move June 11.
How are you?

Holly- how are you doing?

Coffeeshopgirl- it's wonderful to see you!

I'm off to volunteer at my local hospital. I'm saying an early goodbye because I'll only have about 5 more days volunteering there as of today, I volunteer once a week. Take care!

MonteCristo
05-06-2014, 02:17 PM
Feeling a bit down today. Apparently my Dad and his fiance had a little spat, and she contacted me all emotional and freaked out wanting me to talk to him for her. I mean really, do I have a sign on my forhead that says "free counselling". I'm sick of everyone needing my help. And my family wonders why I'm perfectly content to be single...like they set good examples of relationships! My dad asked her not to contact him for a couple of days, and she wanted me to be a go between. Yeah right. I told her no obviously (not getting dragged into that again). She gets all dramatic about how much she loves him and only lives for him and wouldn't be able to make it if he ever left her. Gag! She is SO childish. This is not what I expect from a 45 year old woman. I want my dad to be happy, but honestly, the more I know about her, the less I like her. I already have one should be grown woman in my life that acts like a teenager (my mom), I certainly don't need another. And this is making me crave sugar like crazy...not even one thought about sugar after the first few days, and now at the very first sign of family crap I want to dive headfirst into a giant chocolate frosty. :(

lilturtle
05-06-2014, 02:27 PM
I'm in FL. I got to the airport at about 12:30 for my flight that was scheduled to leave at 3:28. No one was at the ticket counter until 2:20ish. The flight was delayed until 5:02. I got pat down and a full body scan in security twice (I went through once, went to McDs which turns out is outside of the secure area). The flight didn't leave until 5:30. The flight itself was uneventful. The seatbelt extender worked fine. Having two seats was a good idea. They pack people in like sardines. It's great to see my mom. Haven't seen her since Xmas. Oh both airports weren't too bad as far as crowds.

Sunny day (supposed to be 92)! Headed for the pool soon.

Fiona W
05-06-2014, 07:16 PM
Well, I'm workin' like mad on the BERP, which is going very slowly. =sigh= I don't really have much else to say. My mood is holding steady, even during the afternoons—usually my worst part of the day. I wish I could take a day off to make a collage, but until I begin to see the light at the end of the tunnel, I live and breathe for the BERP. One thing all this physical labor is doing for me: my insomnia is gone! I'm sleeping straight through, eight hours a night. I wonder if clipping magazines is enough exercise that it will speed up my weight loss: it sure does make me perspire. I'm content to wait and find out on my regular weigh-in day, the 22nd.

Anyway, I don't have time to greet y'all personally, but I'm sending warm thoughts in your direction!

VermontMom
05-06-2014, 09:02 PM
Feeling a bit down today. .... And this is making me crave sugar like crazy...not even one thought about sugar after the first few days, and now at the very first sign of family crap I want to dive headfirst into a giant chocolate frosty. :(

Gah is right about the fiance acting so childish! and trying to put you in the middle!! I HOPE the angst will not push you into having sugar when you've been doing so well :hug:

Coffeeshopgirl - :hug: we are here for you :)

Kathleen - Oh thank you for the pup pics! Griffin is cute and OMGosh at Lucy, what a CUTE face on that little girl :D Oh I am so sorry that the small indiscretion (candy bar) was made you feel yucky. Well now you know that they don't taste as good as you think, and the results are regrettable. Hang strong!

Hi Sabrina, how was your day?

Seabiscuit, I"m so glad you had a beautiful day, and you are so wonderful to do that hospital volunteer work .

Fi, you are making such a dent in your BERP! and very good to hear that the insomnia is gone.

lilturtle, so glad you made it! I would have been :mad: at getting there so nice and early for check-in and no one there! and delays. BUt now you're enjoying WARMTH and sun I hope and a pool :cool:

Hi worththeeffort2, Ohio, Chelsea, projectjudi, 1life2liv, and Hope!

Today was FINALLY sunny! :sunny: So as I had no excuse, I was outside for over 2 1/2 hours raking, picking up branches, and cleared off our deck, which was a horror show of discarded crap, leaves, pine needles, dirt, ugh! It looks FANTASTIC now. The lawn is leaf-free. Soooo.....my DH comes home, pauses at the door before coming inside, and DOES NOT SAY 'WOW EVERYTHING LOOKS GREAT' or anything like that...he chooses to say, 'where is the sensor for the thermometer?" It is apparently a small piece of white plastic that was on the deck table...I immediately felt the blood rush to my face and get red..he would NEVER do anything like that physical work, I am the only one around here to do it, and that's the reaction??? I said shortly, 'well I guess I raked it, and it's gone, sorry' and just stalked away. I'm still steamed. I shouldn't get so upset but things like this make me want to be single!!!!!!!! It also makes me want to stuff my face out of anger, and we don't even have anything 'good' but i would do it with peanut butter and bread!!!

IBelieveInMe2
05-06-2014, 09:28 PM
Hello Support Buddies! Today was a gorgeous day! I walked my dogs for 25 minutes, but my eating wasn't great. I am going to walk on the treadmill tonight for some more exercise and aim for healthier eating tomorrow.

coffeeshopgirl: Happy to know that you are feeling our support! :) I hope you DO keep coming back! Hope all is going okay with the stress that you are dealing with. That's great that you are using positive self-talk with yourself. It really does help. Hang in there! :hug:

Amy: Happy to hear that you had a beautiful day where you are, too! Hope you took some time to enjoy it! Good that your friend is going to help you pack this weekend. You can finish that box! I know you can. "Just do it!" ;) Nice that you volunteer at your local hospital.

MonteCristo: Sorry that you are feeling down today. :( That is so childish, unfair, and manipulative of your Dad's fiance to try to put you in the middle of their spat! Good for you for NOT taking the bait! Sorry this is all making you crave sugar, but DON'T CAVE IN!!! You have done so well!!! Do your best to stay focused on YOURSELF and YOUR life and YOUR needs. You matter! Be strong for YOURSELF!!! :hug:

Trish (lilturtle): So happy to hear that you made it to Florida okay! Your delay in leaving must have been so frustrating. But you made it through everything!!! YAY for YOU!!! :D Enjoy the sunshine :sunny:, the pool, and time with your mom! Thanks for checking in! :)

Fi: Keep on BERPing!!! YOU CAN DO IT!!! Glad to hear that all of the physical labor has chased away your insomnia and that your mood is holding steady. You can reward yourself later, when the BERPing is done, by making a collage. :) Thank you for taking the time out to post and say hello!

Holly: How are you? When did you decide to begin your summer job? I hope all goes well for you!

Chelsea (CDubsGotGoats): Haven't heard from you in awhile. Are you still reading along?!? Hope all is well!

Waving HELLO to everyone else! :wave:

IBelieveInMe2
05-06-2014, 09:39 PM
Holly: I just read your new post. Great job on the yardwork!!! So sorry that DH ignored your good deed and focused on the ONE thing missing. :( I hate it when that happens!!! :mad: Try to stay proud of your hard work and not let his comment deflate you too much! And, especially DON'T let yourself stuff your face out of anger!!! You will regret it. Just do this to him behind the door: :p ! That's what I do. :lol: Thank you for the puppy compliments! :D

worththeeffort2
05-06-2014, 10:04 PM
Wicked sore back muscles tonight. I went to the fitness center after work and did the rowing machine and circuit training. By the time I was doing my walk/jog intervals, my back was starting to seize up. I've used some Blu Emu spray on my back and am sitting with a heating pad. Thank heavens tomorrow is Wednesday and my regular day-off from working out.

Holly: I'm so sorry that your husband is unable to appreciate the work you did in the yard. I'm also sorry that he is unwilling to do physical labor. On a positive note, congratulations for all the incredibly hard work you did and the fact your yard now looks beautiful. Try to focus on the pride you should feel about a job well-done. Plus, you burned a butt-load of calories! We're all proud of you!

MonteCristo: Sorry about the situation with your father's fiance. Stay strong and maintain your boundaries.

Fleur: I'm glad you had a great day Monday and that work went well.

IBelieveInMe: I'm glad your headache is finally gone. Love the sweet puppie pix!

I hope everyone else is doing okay today. Sorry to not address everyone individually. Holly, you're WAY better at that than I am. Blessings be on all of you. Now, it is off to bed with me.

(P.S. I have to say, I'm not a fan of the ads for Breyer's Gelato Indulgences on 3FC. That's just mean! ;) )

VermontMom
05-07-2014, 07:11 AM
good morning!

Worththeeffort2 - oooh your poor back! I hope it feels better today, and that today is your 'give it a rest' day :D But yay for working out so hard!

Yes, the side ads are mean! :D Sometimes I purposely visit a couple motorcycle related sites before coming here, and then the side ads are for motorcycle boots or insurance instead, LOL.

Kathleen - HI and glad you had a treadmill workout! and my face - stuffing was limited to a big apple with about 2 TBSP of peanut butter, could have been worse.

thanks for the commiseration :hug: I do know that he does appreciate the cleaning up, tidying up, throwing away, raking, everything that I do for this dump :p but just does'nt say it the way I want to hear it. And after I started banging things around in the kitchen, after the clumsy remark, he did say 'everything looks great out there" And I should remember that he truly does not 'see' things that I think are glaringly obvious, and sometimes there is a delayed reaction , especially if something from work was bothering him. And that stupid piece of 'lost' plastic? Apparently it is still out there, because our indoor thermometer thingy is showing the actual temperature outside too (a flippin' 29 degrees!! )

So I decided to go back to work today :dizzy: I have 4 large boxes of stuff to lug there (specialty tools/decorating, books, specialty cake pans/forms, etc) and the pans and such will need to be run through the dish machine (THAT is truly a joy to use, really) then put my stuff on my shelves, catch up with my chef boss, meet the new guy, say Hi to the maintenance guys and promise them cookies soon :D One week from today is Opening Day and everything has to be ready by then. I'm a little excited ;) :carrot:

Fiona W
05-07-2014, 10:52 AM
I just want to complain that Bob is a colossal crab when he's sick. He's had a bad cold, both nose & chest, for a couple of weeks now. Every time I try to interact with him about something urgent, he ends up chewing my head off. I'm sympathetic, of course, with the fact that he feels so bad, but it's really getting on my nerves. And I could use his help with moving things around for the BERP, too. He's too wiped out, though, to do anything physical. =big sigh=

I should be counting my blessings, though: at least it's evident by now that I'm not going to catch it from him. I had a sore throat one night, but I gargled with salt water and that was the end of that.

Another blessing: I got an email from my breeder saying the kittens are doing really well. She didn't have time to send new photos—because she's a special ed teacher, and the upcoming end of the school year means lots of paperwork to do—but she'll be more in touch with me soon. =smile=

Holly— Your summer job involves baking? That sounds fun, but also kind of maddening, when you're trying to stay away from sweets. At least it would be for me!

worththeeffort2— Sorry to hear about your back spasms! I've gotten those before: they hurt like nobody's business. I hope I don't have that happen when I start moving heavy books around, as part of the BERP. As for the nasty side ads, you might consider putting some ad-block software on your browser, or get a different browser where it's part of the package. I'm using a non-Apple browser on my iPad for that very reason.

MonteCristo— What I found striking in your story about your father's fiancée is that it sounds like your dad is picking out the same sort of immature, hysterical personality for his 2nd wife as he did for the 1st one. Do you think it would do any good to point that out to him? Or maybe you already have...

Kathleen (& others)— I've been meaning for some time to share with you a technique for increasing willpower that I learned from that book called The Willpower Instinct. It's a slow-breathing exercise that's been shown to activate the part of your brain that's right behind your forehead, sometimes called "the executive control center": it's the part you use to make rational decisions. What you do is, lie down comfortably on your side or your back, and start by totally relaxing your belly muscles. Then imagine that your belly is a balloon that you slooooowly inflate when you breathe in. Hold it completely inflated for a count of 3, then slooooowly allow it to deflate. Pause for a second or two after the exhale. If it's going too fast, try inhaling and exhaling through pursed lips. Ideally, you should take around 5 seconds to inhale, 5 seconds to exhale, so it will feel like a really long time to you compared to an ordinary deep-breathing exercise. It may take a dozen breaths or so before you get the hang of it. Your aim is to get your breathing rate down to 4 breaths a minute, or 15 seconds a breath, but even if you don't achieve that, slowing your breathing rate way down will still work. Do the exercise for about 10-15 minutes. The best time to do this is before you're going to be facing a willpower challenge—before dinner, for example, or before your tempted-to-nibble time in the evening. But in case you're cooking for other people, it doesn't have to be right before the meal: a few hours before is OK, I think. I have found this exercise to be very helpful! It seems odd that breathing slow would increase willpower, but they've demonstrated the effect in brain scans, so I believe it.

MonteCristo
05-07-2014, 12:47 PM
MonteCristo— What I found striking in your story about your father's fiancée is that it sounds like your dad is picking out the same sort of immature, hysterical personality for his 2nd wife as he did for the 1st one. Do you think it would do any good to point that out to him? Or maybe you already have...



The thing is I don't think my mom wasn't like that originally. Honestly, I think she ended up with some kind of severse post partum depression that never got addressed and things just snowballed from there. So she ended up just running away and rebooted her life as if she was 18 again. Also, Dad never wanted her to leave, so maybe he likes that type of personality. I doubt it would do any good to point it out. One problem is that she is in the Phillipines. He met her online, and has been down there to visit her several times, but there was some legal snafus on her end, so it has taken nearly three years to work through the visa process. Saying anything at this point just seems mean now that so much time is invested, and my Dad is dramatic and would probably be all like "then I'll just be alone forever because I don't have the energy to start over again". Another big problem is I totally don't agree with my Dad's ideas about marriage...he really into the whole submission and husband being the leader and all that...and I'm NOT. That's the stupidest part about this whole thing. The fight was about Dad telling her not to bring up a subject anymore, and she keeps forgetting and doing it anyway. So he got annoyed, and he's so sensitive that he thinks that if you "forget" something you just don't give a carp about the other person, or that you did it on purpose. Anyway, the whole thing sucks, and I can't seem to get over it either. Writing about it here helps, but not much. I got so worked up last night that I ended up crying for a hour, and then I couldn't relax enough to go to sleep until after midnight. And I don't have anyone to talk to about it...

I've thought about sitting down with my Dad and having him talk to me about the relationship and what he sees him her and all that, but that seems like a totally weird thing for a daughter to do. I know we have an odd relationship anyway and I'm way up in his business more than a child normally is with a parent, but is that really my place? But then the divorce was such an unmitigated disaster I certainly don't want that to happen again, not just for Dad's sake (and my sanity) but there are all the kids to consider (and she has one too). I wish he didn't pick some one so far away...then I could have gotten to know her...maybe she isn't so bad, maybe I only hear about it or get contacted by her when she is in a particularly bad place. I wish I didn't feel so responsible for everyone all the time...but I can't help it since I end up picking up the pieces when everything falls apart.

lilturtle
05-07-2014, 04:14 PM
Well I may be moving down here. My mom found a place that I could afford that is like 10 miles from her that we are going to check out. It would be nice to be closer to my mom. My father passed away 2 years ago and he was the only reason I stayed in Pennsylvania. It's something to think about.

We went sandel shopping today and got some frozen yogurt. I got a kid's size. My goal whilde I am down here is to not gain weight. Not shooting for record weight loss while on vacation. I think that is reasonable. So far so good. Getting my hair colored in a little bit then off to the pool this evening. It's great getting out so much.

worththeeffort2
05-07-2014, 09:06 PM
Good evening, everyone. I am enjoying my night off from working out but I have my gym bag packed to hit the pool tomorrow after work.

Holly: I love to bake sweets and decorate cakes. I can't anymore because it is like being an alcoholic trying to tend bar but I use to spent a lot of time in the kitchen making all kinds of goodies. I cannot bring myself to get rid of my pastry bags and decorating tips, though (even though I haven't used them in almost 10 years!). I'm glad your husband eventually got around to acknowledging your hard work in the yard.

Fiona: Men are such babies when they are sick. I hope he's feeling much better very soon (and that he says thank you for taking care of him!). Can't wait to see more pictures of your kittens.

MonteCristo: Personally, I think it would be a loving thing for you to do to sit down and discuss the situation with your dad. You'd be doing it because you want the best for him, especially if you already suspect this relationship is already destined to end in divorce. You may discover that he's feeling more obligation than love for the woman at this point. If he's open to finding women online, he could simply advertise for a submissive. There are women who actually enjoy being dominated and ordered around. I don't happen to be one of them but I do know that they exist right here in the states. Any woman strong enough to leave her home and family in order to secure citizenship in another country through marriage is going to be an ambitious, strong-willed woman. A submissive woman would just settle for what she could get in her native country and not question it. It's something your dad needs to think about.

Lilturtle: It sounds like you've got something very exciting to think about. Imagine winters with no snow and lots of fitness opportunities because of good weather. Of course, after a horribly long winter, any place warm and green sounds like heaven to me right now!

I think I'll spend some time cuddling with my own husband now and thank him for all that he does around the house so that he knows I appreciate him. :)

Fiona W
05-07-2014, 09:24 PM
Howdy folks! I have two new pictures of the kittens: one (http://www.oceanstar.com/cats/cherrys_kittens_1--3_wks--crop.jpg) and two (http://www.oceanstar.com/cats/cherrys_kittens_2--3_wks--crop.jpg). They will be three weeks old on Friday. If you happen to notice that their ears look rather too large for their heads, well, that's because they're entering what I call "the bat stage." Oriental shorthairs have large ears as adults: those ears develop way faster than their heads, so orientals go through a phase where they have these little faces and huge ears, making them look like bats. One person who saw our last pair said, "They're space aliens!" Whatever....it all comes together eventually, and they end up, as adults, looking very much like the cats in ancient Egyptian statues. That's because they're descended more directly from the North African desert cats that the ancient Egyptians domesticated, than are the domestic or American shorthairs most people have as pets.

And if that's not enough of the kittens for you, here's a little snatch of video. (http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=cfEIlrGqMZQ&feature=youtu.be) They're just starting to explore their environment, so the birthing box has been moved into a pen, to keep them out of trouble.

By the way, I think it's very sweet of y'all to be interested in my kittens...=big smile=

FleurDeLis
05-07-2014, 10:26 PM
Hey everyone!

Sorry I didn't post yesterday. I was pretty busy and got tired earlier than normal.

We started a walking program/contest at work. There are several teams and you record the amount of steps taken in time set aside specifically for the program. We also have a conversion chart to calculate steps for other activities like biking, swimming, yard work, etc. Yesterday I did an interval workout on the treadmill and tried a yoga class. Today I weight lifted and did a cycling class.

Food was great today. Spaghetti for lunch with some pretzels, a chocolate covered strawberry brought to me by the CEO (I couldn't refuse!!!!), and then three pieces of a frozen pizza for dinner. Also a small snack cake for desert. Cals came in at around 1200 today. Whoop!

I'm off work the for rest of the week (easing into the job). I'm going to a grief retreat at Fatima retreat house. I'm really looking forward to it. One of my coworkers paid for my registration (so blessed!) Even though I think it will be difficult, I'm excited.

Friday I'll be taking hubby to the oral surgeon to get his wisdom teeth removed. Poor guy, I'll feel so bad for him.

I came home to flowers and a mother's day card today. Since he won't be feeling well to get them this weekend. It was so sweet, but not not what I dreamed of my first mother's day. No one wants the first to be without the child that made them a mother..

Well, quick post and run for me. I'm exhausted! Goodnight!

seabiscuit
05-07-2014, 11:27 PM
Hi there, Believe and Holly, thank you for your kind words about my volunteering at the hospital. :). I have volunteered at four hospitals in my life and two nursing homes, I truly love giving back to health care and the community. I'm planning on trying to volunteer at a hospital when I move, I find it to be very rewarding. I am coming up on 200 hours of volunteer work at the hospital where I volunteer! Some of my co-volunteers have thousands of hours.

Fiona, your kitties are beautiful!! I love that orange marmalade color. Orange cats are very special and beautiful.

I'm going to head to bed soon, I watched the end of the movie Beethoven, such a great movie!

I find this to be such a supportive group, so encouraging! Thank you for this support!

Good night and sweet dreams!

I tried to attach a photo of myself and my sweet guinea pig, Snickers. :)

lilturtle
05-08-2014, 12:18 AM
My mom took my picture after I got my hair done. I hate pictures but I thought I'd share.http://tinypic.com/r/2j47wk4/8

I don't know how to attach a picture. Here http://tinypic.com/r/2j47wk4/8

VermontMom
05-08-2014, 07:00 AM
a super quick check in, before I get ready for work, hi everyone! kittens are adorable, and lilturtle, you have really nice hair!

IBelieveInMe2
05-08-2014, 11:40 AM
I finally went to the store yesterday and stocked up on healthy items. Now, I just have to stick to eating the healthy stuff ~ in moderation! Worked out with our trainer yesterday and will walk the pups today for exercise. We are in the process of getting our backyard pool ready to swim in, so that will soon be an additional source of exercise! :swim: YAY! It was just installed at the end of last summer, so this will really be our first summer using it. I can't wait! It will also be wonderful exercise for my handicapped daughter. That's the main reason we put the pool in. All docs have always said that will be her best form of exercise. I feel really spoiled having a pool in our back yard, but I LOVE it!!! :D

worththeeffort2: OUCH on the wicked sore back muscles!!! :( I hope your pain has eased up some by now. Good for you for having that gym bag packed for the pool after work. Preparation and planning is so important.

Holly: Glad to hear that your DH finally complimented all of your hard work! I hope your first few days at your summer job are going well. It sounds like you really do A LOT for that place!

Fi: That is funny you mentioned The Willpower Instinct! I am reading it right now...... very slowly and in spurts, along with a few other books. Thank you for your summary on breathing techniques for increasing willpower. I will definitely give them a try! I need all the help I can get when it comes to willpower!!! I hope Bob feels better soon ~ for his sake AND yours! ;) Last, but not least, thanks for sharing the photos and video of your kittens! So adorable! :)

MonteCristo: Good luck dealing with the situation with your Dad and his fiance. It probably wouldn't hurt to discuss your feelings about the situation with him, if you have that kind of relationship. You are in a tough position. Sending you a big hug! :hug:

Trish: Wow!!! How exciting that you might be moving to Florida near your mom! :sunny: One of my best friends just moved there with her long-time boyfriend. It would be nice! Did you like the place you looked at? Please keep us posted. Good for you for getting a kid-sized yogurt. Thank you for the photo of you. Your hair looks great and it is so nice to have a face to go with your name! :)

Sabrina: Glad to hear that you are easing back into work. It sounds like the walking program/contest is going to be great for you! Good luck! You are off to a great start! Hooray for doing well with food and calories, too! I hope you get a lot out of your grief retreat. I will be thinking of you. So sweet that one of your co-workers paid for your registration! Good luck with your husband's wisdom teeth removal on Friday. Sounds painful! That is so thoughtful that your hubby got you flowers and a mother's day card before he is off his feet. My heart aches for you that you don't have your precious Isabelle here with you, since she made you a mommy, but you are every bit her mother!!! :hug: I will be thinking of you on Mother's Day and keeping you in my prayers. :hug:

Amy: Thanks for checking in! I am so happy that you find this group to be very supportive. I do, too! I am thankful for all of you! :grouphug:


Gotta run! Hubby is working on the pool and needs my help! Take good care, everyone! :)

lilturtle
05-08-2014, 01:04 PM
The kittens are so cute Fiona!

Nothing much going on here. Enjoying my little vacation. Going to the pool a little later. I'm doing pretty good controling myy eating.

I was thinking about going through security on my trip down here. I think I was singled out due to my size. Both times I went through I got a pat down. Does anyone else have any experience with this?

Fiona W
05-08-2014, 08:07 PM
Well, I was doing really well for several days there, regarding the BERP stress, but yesterday and today I've had all these interruptions. First there were the new kitten pics, which I wanted to put links to in various places, including here, and send to various people, which involved a temporary hassle with not being able to connect to the server for my domain. Then I went to the Co-op pharmacy to pick up a medication I'm out of, only to discover that it hadn't been called in by my shrink. It still hasn't, because I was unable to get through to his secretary today. =sigh= I'm also kind of flustered because the date has arrived when I need to wrap & assemble & write a note (in French, of course) for Robine's birthday present. Robine, for those of you who missed that kerfluffle, is a friend who lives in Belgium, who cut off communication with me abruptly in January, causing me a bunch of pain. More on her in a sec...Inevitably, I have strong feelings about sending her this gift. As I write these words, I'm feeling pretty overwhelmed!

But I'm trying to focus on the up side, the blessings: Robine and I are on pretty good terms these days. She actually wrote to me in email (!) that she's been in therapy for a few months, and that it's going much better than her previous trials of therapy. One result of it is that she isn't Robine any more: she's now, finally, comfortable with the name her parents gave her, which is Ignace (pronounced roughly "eeg-NAHSS"). ("Robine" was a handle she & I invented together during our long intense email correspondence, when I grew frustrated with her not having a name.) It also sounds like she's processing a lot of what happened between her & me with her therapist. That's really good news! And she put up a Flickr account just for me, which is called "un regard dans ma vie" (a look into my life)—lots of photos from her walks around Antwerp, where she lives, plus many of her own drawings and watercolors. That was a lovely gesture, and I've really appreciated the care Ignace took with it, setting it up so that it sort of tells a story, including a few photos of her handwritten to-do lists, open books with poems she wanted me to read, that sort of thing. The messages in the Flickr account are loud & clear: she values our friendship and does want to get together with me in person...some day. I am content to wait until she is ready, however long that takes.

There's also been the minor (HA!) matter of our next-door neighbor conducting an enormous landscaping project in his yard over the past week and a half, involving lots of people talking loudly, lots of heavy machinery hauling and spreading dirt, making tons of noise, driving over & damaging the roots of our beloved old silver maple—all right next to the big window over the couch where I'm sitting every day, clipping images out of magazines & catalogs. I can't move my project to another room, because I need the ample daylight from that window to see the colors of what I'm choosing to clip, so I can do at least some of the sorting as I work. I'm very weary of hearing that "BEEP-BEEP-BEEP..." of trucks and tractors backing up.

I just wish I could concentrate on the BERP to the exclusion of all else, which is dumb, because of course life goes on. I'm looking forward to Sunday, when I've promised myself a proper day of rest, along with making a collage I hope...

I've been meaning for some time to start going for regular walks, but I haven't done so yet. It drives me nuts to have to leave the BERP for even a short trip to the Co-op. It's like the only way I can deal with all the stress of what needs to be done is to be totally immersed in the project. Yes, I know, walking helps you handle stress much better. =sigh= At least I haven't eaten anything off-plan in quite a while, not even extra helpings of muesli.

Thanks so much, guys, for bein' there to write to!

worththeeffort2
05-08-2014, 08:35 PM
Went to the pool tonight after work. After about 15-minutes, only five laps (down and back). I am definitely not a strong swimmer but using My Fitness Pal to log my workouts, I've been surprised that swimming actually burns a lot of calories. IBelieveInMe2, you're going to love having a pool right in your back yard. I'm jealous (but in a positive way)!

seabiscuit
05-09-2014, 09:11 AM
Hi everyone,

Believe- thank you! I love this group, everyone here is so friendly. Sometimes I feel it's a bit overwhelming to reply to everyone, but I enjoy the group support, thanks!

Worth the effort- I love to swim too. I find it so relaxing and it is so good for my mind and body.

Have a great day everyone!

Amy

lilturtle
05-09-2014, 11:19 AM
I admire those of you who address everyone in your posts. I do read but it is so hard for me to pulll it all together. Please know I do care about all of you and you have my full support.

My mom mentioned me moving down here a couple of days ago. She had been opposed to the idea 2 years ago. I'm scared to bring it up again because I fear she may have changed her mind. I think I annoy my mom. I really need a change. I've lived in the same town almost all my life. The only time I didn't was when I was in college and even then it was only 45 minutes away. If I was closer to my mom I would probably get out more. I just have to build up the courage to bring the topic back up.

seabiscuit
05-09-2014, 05:28 PM
Hugs to you, lilturtle. I'm sorry you're going through a lot right now.

I have had a rough day, I need ankle surgery again. I welcome any private messages for support.

Have a good day.

Amy

seabiscuit
05-09-2014, 09:28 PM
Hi there,

I just want to say I appreciate all of the support here, I didn't mean to scare anyone off by mentioning that I need surgery. You are all very kind and special, and I enjoy this group a lot.

Take care, be well.

Amy

worththeeffort2
05-10-2014, 12:03 PM
I'm feeling quite down and alone these days. I have no one in my life with whom I can discuss the trials and tribulations of my weight loss journey face-to-face. My husband considers it whining. He's a typical male: 'just suck it up and do it and stop talking about it.' He doesn't understand that talking is the way a woman de-stresses.

My mother sent me a recipe for cookies in the mail yesterday. For her, weight loss is a competition and she better win and have all the attention during the process and as the final result. Unfortunately, because my husband is not a social person, my friendships have passed by the wayside and I find myself very much alone, sitting silently, and staring out the window a lot of the time.

People I know do come to me often, seeking input, advice, and help but those same people don't seem to be available when I need someone to talk to. Really, it's the story of my life. The past few days, I've felt a need to just talk with someone but there's no one to listen.

Talk about what? Well, my exercise routine, for one. I've been going to the gym for about six weeks now and I can't say that I'm loving it. Although I've tried very hard to be positive and express enthusiasm, I find the rowing machine and circuit training to be tedious and boring and I don't see much in the way of results, either. I did laps the other day and, upon leaving the pool to rinse off under the open shower before heading back to the locker room, I was suddenly struck by the fact that everyone could see my hideously scarred legs. I hadn't even thought of that before but suddenly I was overwhelmed by embarrassment and wanted to hide.

I feel like I've fallen into a rut with my exercise routine but I don't even have someone I can invite to do workouts or even go walking with me. I decided to resolve the issue by paying someone to talk to me. I scheduled a consultation with a fitness coach for next Monday--then he called me and rescheduled to May 20, instead. Lord, I can't even pay someone to talk to me when I need to.

I told folks here about my doing a spring cleaning to donate items to a fundraising yard sale for a former co-worker who is severely ill and needs help to raise money to cover medical costs. Do you know, it took a significant amount of effort to get someone to come pick up the stuff from me? I offered to drop the items off on someone's porch but the woman sponsoring the yard sale did not want me on her property if she wasn't home. I tried not to take it as an insult but it made me feel bad. It was all so very strange. Finally, a niece of the woman showed up on Friday to pick up the items from my car. She was sweet and said thank you and was appreciative of my efforts to help her auntie but I no long felt good about trying to help. As she looked in the bags and boxes she rattled off how this aunt would take this and such-and-such cousin would want that. Just take the stuff and go. Whatever.

I don't expect to be treated like a princess but it would be nice to be treated with some respect for a change. I can't even lose myself in a pint of Ben and Jerry's to salve my wounded pride and God help me, I don't want to get on that elliptical but I suppose I don't really have a choice if I'm going to continue to make progress despite every feeling to the contrary. I just have to keep working; keep going; keep pushing.

For me, it is a very down and lonely day.

IBelieveInMe2
05-10-2014, 01:56 PM
Amy: I just now saw your posts. Sorry that you had a rough day yesterday and need ankle surgery again. :( I had to have two foot surgeries on the same foot exactly a year apart (July 2012 and July 2013) and it certainly doesn't help with exercise and the weight loss journey! But I guess you gotta do what you gotta do, right?!? Try to focus on how you will feel once the surgery is over and you are healed. Hopefully, you will be much better off after the surgery. And THAT is a good thing! When do you think you will have the surgery?

worththeeffort2: Oh, how I feel for you with working out for an extended period of time and feeling like you aren't getting results. I so often feel that way, and it is sooooooooooooo frustrating!!! :( "They" say that we should work out because it is good for our health and not for results, but ~ come on ~ who doesn't want good results?!?! :dizzy: I am so very sorry that you have no one to talk to face-to-face about your loneliness and weight loss journey. Good for you for making an appointment with a fitness coach! That is a very POSITIVE step in the right direction! And if for some reason you don't like this coach, keep searching until you "click" with someone. Having the right person to coach you can make all the difference! I pay a shrink AND a personal trainer to talk about my weight loss and other issues. I don't feel like there is any shame in that. It is all a part of taking care of ourselves, as far as I am concerned. Please hang in there and post all you want about your loneliness and frustration. This too shall pass. Keep up the great work with exercise and watch your food intake and you will HAVE to see results soon! Try to be patient with yourself. You have been doing SO well. Frustrations are bound to come up. It's all part of the process of getting healthy. I am sending you a great big hug :hug: and I hope you can feel it through cyberspace!!! :hug:

Trish: We have also experienced patdowns at the airport...... lots of times, actually; even ~ and especially ~ my handicapped daughter, because she sometimes sets off the metal detectors with her leg braces. I hope you will get the courage up to talk to your mom again about moving to Florida. YOU CAN DO IT!!! You will be glad you did! I will be thinking of you and sending you strength! :hug:

Gotta run. We are at the lake and going out for lunch. I will check in later and try to address the rest of you. Hang in there, everyone! Group hug! :grouphug:

seabiscuit
05-10-2014, 04:51 PM
Hi there...

Worth the effort,

:hug: I hear where you are coming from. Some people in my life are more emotionally supportive than others, that can be frustrating, I relate to what you're saying. Keep the faith and believe in yourself. I've been trying to make new friends, many who I will miss when I move but it's good to reach out to others. That's great that you're reaching out here. Hugs.

Believe,

Thank you for your kind words. I wish more people were supporting me in this surgery but I have to do what's right for me. I will probably have surgery in the end of August. I saw my friend today, she is very sweet and kind. She helped me through the first surgery. We laughed and joked and smiled. I was invited to a family function next weekend. I'd like to go but I'm not sure if I will or not.

Have fun at the lake!

Hugs,

Amy

Fiona W
05-10-2014, 10:43 PM
Not a stellar day for me, but not a total loss, either. After an intense morning session of clipping magazines at high speed—I really work up a sweat doing this!—I suddenly hit the wall. I got stressed out, spoke in an unecessarily querulous tone to my sweetheart, and from there quickly slid into depression pain. Not really severe, but bad enough that I had to take a couple Geodons and knock off for the afternoon, if not the rest of the day. 'Got up later to watch the qualifying round of Formula One in Barcelona with my fellow F1 fan, Bob. After that I took another long nap. I may just give up on today and go to bed early.

I need to assemble a birthday present for Ignace (formerly Robine—she's gone back to the name she was given at birth) (pronounced "eeg-NAHSS") for putting in the mail to Belgium. Surely I can slot that in tomorrow, my day off. My niece Margaret & her son Gavin won't be coming over tomorrow, because they're up at Bob's mom's farm, so it will be a nice long day of rest and activities not related to the BERP.

I have spoken to the father of Grace, my great-niece, and he thought my idea of paying her a little bit (minimum wage, 'cause she's only 13) to help me sort my clippings sounds most excellent. I'm waiting for a call back from Grace herself, but it's getting near the end of the school year, so no rush...

worththeeffort2— I hear you! Bob is more supportive of my weight loss effort than it sounds like your husband is, but he still doesn't "get it." Like the other day I mentioned that I was going to order a couple pairs of lightweight capri leggings for walking during the summer, and all he could do was grumble about how many clothes I have already. He hasn't even paid attention as I've relegated one pair of pants after another to the charity pile because they were literally falling off me. I think your talking to a fitness coach sounds like a great idea! Why don't you call the person back and ask them to let you know if they have a cancellation before the 20th? I'll be thinking about you...and by the way, is there any chance you could give us a name to call you by? It doesn't have to be your real name. Names are so much friendlier than handles, don't you think?

Well, that's my news, and all I have time to write, y'all. Have a good Sunday, everyone! =smile=

VermontMom
05-11-2014, 09:55 AM
good morning and Happy Mother's Day, here is a pic of my beautiful Mom who passed away 3 years ago
http://www.barber-lanier.com/fh_live/11100/11183/images/obituaries/1137167.jpg

Fiona -
Holly— Your summer job involves baking? That sounds fun, but also kind of maddening, when you're trying to stay away from sweets. At least it would be for me!


Yes, it can be if I'm hungry..but actually because it's in a work setting, I'm able to treat it more as 'this is a work product, it is not for me'. I try to think, if I was working in a bank, I couldn't treat myself to money :D And my chef boss is very fit and lean, and only will pop carrots or romaine lettuce as snacks, I'm so insecure that I don't like to appear like a piggy if I'm seen eating my stuff :devil: Sorry you hit the proverbial and physical wall yesterday. I think the idea of the girl helping for the summer is great!

worththeeffort2 - -I'm feeling quite down and alone these days..
I"m so sorry !!! I will star * your issues and at least let you know we are listening! *first, it can be so lonely-feeling when you want commiseraton on how hard it is to stick to a diet and work out to better yourself. I do think males try to offer problem-solving as opposed to listening to us just speak about our trials and tribulations. *As for your mom, that must hurt, to feel that she's competing in a competition of weight loss with you, ideally Moms should be thinking of their children's feeling first. *Doesn't it suck when you are always 'there' for people who need someone to listen to them, yet when YOU have the need for that, they don't care? so selfish of them! *I would have felt SO frustrated, when trying to make an appointment with the trainer, to be given such a long time to wait! and it is sad :( that we have to PAY someone to listen to us about our thoughts. *:cheer2: for your commitment to working out!! it IS doing good for you :carrot: *I want to smack the lady who would not let you 'on her property' to donate sh*t!! what the ****!! and I'm glad the younger woman came to pick it up, but hey, weren't the items supposed to be sold for the benefit, not 'up for grabs'?? I hope this paragraph wasn't too hard to read but I 'm so sorry so many troubling things are piling on your now. Sometimes, just the next day might be a little better, so hang in there dear!!

Monte Cristo - . I wish I didn't feel so responsible for everyone all the time...but I can't help it since I end up picking up the pieces when everything falls apart.

Oh, that feeling of responsibility towards your family must feel so heavy! :(

lilturtle -Well I may be moving down here. My mom found a place that I could afford that is like 10 miles from her that we are going to check out. It would be nice to be closer to my mom. My father passed away 2 years ago and he was the only reason I stayed in Pennsylvania. It's something to think about.


I think if your mom found that place you could afford, it means she wants you nearby :)

Sabrina - -
I came home to flowers and a mother's day card today. Since he won't be feeling well to get them this weekend. It was so sweet, but not not what I dreamed of my first mother's day. No one wants the first to be without the child that made them a mother..
that is so sad, sweetie :( :hug: I hope the retreat this weekend is helping you through this first Mother's Day. We are thinking of you!

Kathleen - I finally went to the store yesterday and stocked up on healthy items. Now, I just have to stick to eating the healthy stuff ~ in moderation! Worked out with our trainer yesterday and will walk the pups today for exercise. We are in the process of getting our backyard pool ready to swim in, so that will soon be an additional source of exercise! :swim: YAY! It was just installed at the end of last summer, so this will really be our first summer using it. I can't wait! It will also be wonderful exercise for my handicapped daughter. That's the main reason we put the pool in. All docs have always said that will be her best form of exercise. I feel really spoiled having a pool in our back yard, but I LOVE it!!! :D


You deserve that pool and I hope you have warm weather to enjoy it! and burn those calories, baby! :D

Amy - -
I have had a rough day, I need ankle surgery again
Amy

Oh no!!! :( that is crummy news ..really sorry to hear that! We are here for you :hug: I'm glad you had a good day with your friend. Oh and thanks for the CUTE pic of Snickers, he is a beauty :)

and hello to Ohio, Chelsea, projectjudi, 1life2live, and Hope

I missed 2 days of working out since going back to work, it will be difficult to fit it in, the only way I can will be to get up at 5 a.m. and do it then, before DH and DS wake up and are in the living room (that is where I do my thing). I can never do my exercise in the afternoon, when getting home from work.

I am down 7 pounds :carrot: at 155. I have a range of jeans, crazy how the sizes differ! all different brands, but - the 8's are baggy in the butt, the 10's fit okay, I have an 11/12 that are OK, another 10 that is good in waist but tight in thighs...sheesh.

We rode about 80 miles yesterday because it was GORGEOUS! blue sky, mid 70's, few clouds, just so nice. I think we're more appreciateive of nice days because we hardly have any :rofl:

A question - I should know, if I should talk about 'what I did at work' because it would maybe be triggering cravings, as my job is to bake desserts? I won't if it bothers even just one of you all.

seabiscuit
05-11-2014, 05:19 PM
Hi there!

Thank you all so much for the support.

Hi Fi! Thank you for your kind private messages. That was very kind and thoughtful of you!

Holly- thank you so much for your kind and encouraging words. I don't want to have surgery but I think my surgeon is excellent. I am looking forward to having my left ankle as strong as my right ankle. Thank you about your sweet comment on Snickers!!! He is my best furry friend. :)

Have a good day everyone!

I'm going for a walk...


Take care!

Amy

IBelieveInMe2
05-11-2014, 11:54 PM
We just came home from the lake. It is always kind of depressing to come home because it means work and school for my hubby and kids the next day ~ and housework for me. YUCK!!! The kids will be out of school soon enough, though (June 5th)! My youngest (my daughter) is graduating from 8th grade that evening, which seems unreal. Time really does just fly by! My son will be a senior in high school next year. I can't even fathom the thought of him leaving for college yet! :( Anyway, we walked at the lake with the dogs on Saturday, but didn't get any exercise in today. Oh well, I guess I took the day off for Mother's Day! :) Happy Mother's Day to all of you moms out there, BTW, including you pet moms!!! :D As usual, eating was a challenge at the lake, but I did better Saturday and Sunday than Friday. I need to really buckle down and get serious again this week!

Amy: How on earth did I miss that adorable photo of you and Snickers on the previous page?!? I had to scroll back after reading Holly's comment. Snickers is such a cutie! :love: I hope you will go to the family function you were invited to next weekend, since you said you'd like to go! Sorry you don't have support about the surgery. Yes, you have to do what's best for you. And I am glad to hear that you have an excellent surgeon. Hang in there!

Fi: So sorry about all of the interruptions and distractions you have encountered with the BERP! The noise at your neighbor's house really sounds annoying. When will their work be finished? Glad that you will maybe get some help on the BERP from your great niece. It sounds like you are at least getting a lot of work done so far. It'll be worth all of this hassle and hard work when you have those adorable kitties there with you. (hearts) They will give you so much love and affection. :love: It sounds like things with Robine/Ignace are definitely on the mend. I am happy for you about that. Interesting that she is now comfortable with the name that her parents gave her.

Holly: I am fine with you talking about your work day, including the scrumptious desserts you make, just for the record. Thank you for sharing that beautiful photo of your mother. I am so sorry she is not with you physically on this Mother's Day. :( I am blessed to still have both my mom and dad alive, but dad turned 85 and mom 80 this past April. So I am savoring the moments we are together, knowing that time is running out for them. I did not get to see my mom today since we were at the lake (and she wasn't; they have a place there, too), but we are going to celebrate Mother's Day together next Sunday at the lake. Something to look forward to! :) YIKES at getting up at 5am to work out! CONGRATULATIONS on being DOWN 7 pounds!!! :carrot: That is awesome! So happy to hear that you finally had gorgeous weather and got out on your bike!!! :bike:

Trish: How is Florida? I hope you are having a wonderful time! :)

HELLO to everyone else! :wave: Hope all is well. Would love to hear from you when you get a chance to write!

worththeeffort2
05-12-2014, 07:37 AM
I want to thank everyone for their support. IBelieve, Amy, Fiona, and Holly, I appreciate all your kind words. It does make me feel less alone.

I'm feeling so down right now, its hard for me to put words together to write much. The last couple of days, I've done longer workouts on the elliptical. If I focus on actions--exercise and sticking to my eating program--maybe I can survive this current slump without stalling on the way to my goals. I just don't feel *good*, if you know what I mean.

Holly, go ahead and write about work, if you want to. It won't bother me. Glad you managed to get out for a ride yesterday. God willing, one day I will be able to wear a size 8 or 10! Congratulations on the 7 lbs lost. Great job.

Hope everyone has a wonderful day.

Fiona W
05-12-2014, 10:25 AM
I had a miserable day yesterday. Severe depression pain. I think the stress of the BERP is taking its toll. Only tentatively functional this morning.

Holly— I'm certainly OK with your writing about work. Please do... I look forward to hearing about a job you actually like and where your boss is not an ***hole!

seabiscuit
05-12-2014, 02:07 PM
Hi there...

Believe,

Thank you for that sweet comment about Snickers! He is a bit tired, I was worried but the veterinary receptionist was nice and reassuring. I don't think that I will go to the family function, I would like to but I was just seeing them, I have to get ready for the move. Thanks though.

Worth the effort,

I'm glad that I was able to be reassuring and comforting. Hugs.


Fi,

How are you doing? Take care!

Have a good day, everyone, I am going to swim laps at the pool.

It's a bit warm here!

Amy

lilturtle
05-12-2014, 02:39 PM
My diet is going ok. I'm ready for my vacation to be over. i would trade all the stuff my mom has bought me for feeling like she actually wants me here. Friday can't get here soon enough. One day she talks about me moving down here then the next day she says it isn't a good idea. I'm just tired of all the emotions and not sleeping and smart comments. I took some malware off her computer and now she is complaining she has to enter her passwords. I don't even want to go to the pool anymore. It's not that much fun going by myself with no one to talk to while I am in the pool. I just really want to go home. I am never coming back down here again.

IBelieveInMe2
05-12-2014, 03:49 PM
Trish: So sorry that you get the feeling that your mom doesn't want you there. :cry: That is so sad and depressing. No wonder you want the vacation to be over. From the sounds of things, it is a good thing you WON'T be moving closer to her. It sounds like she is messing with your mind. I would know, because my mom does the same stuff at times. :( I really and truly don't understand it. I am just sorry that you have to go through this. I am sending you big hugs and lots of love! :hug: :hug: :hug: This was NOT a wasted trip, however, because you found out some valuable information: Your mom is toxic to your emotions and well-being. I would keep my distance as much as possible! You deserve to be treated MUCH BETTER!!! :hug:

worththeeffort2: Thanks so much for checking in depsite feeling so down. I am sorry that the depression remains. You are doing so well with your workouts. Does that help at all??? I am sending you big hugs too!!! :hug: :hug: :hug:

Fi: Sorry to hear that you had such a miserable day yesterday! :( Your depression pain sounds awful! I hope it subsides soon. Hang in there! :hug:

Amy: Hello and thanks for checking in. Hope you are getting closer to ready for your big move! :)

Fiona W
05-12-2014, 03:56 PM
Sorry about my morose posting earlier. I just got back from the post office, where I sent Ignace's 60th birthday prez on its way to Belgium. If she had not cancelled her plans to come visit me, she and I would be together at the beach right now. =sad face= But then she would've missed out on getting to meet the kittens, so maybe it's just as well.

I'm declaring today a melancholy day, which is a distinct improvement over yesterday's very depressed day. And I'm taking another day off from the BERP, since yesterday didn't really count as a day off. We have rain clouds here in Maryland, which is kind of nice, actually, because it suits my mood. And yet rain in this area is so wimpy, it always makes me homesick for the serious tropical-monsoon-like rains of Houston.

Trish— I'm sorry to hear that things with your mother are turning so sour! I don't get along with my mother either, and she used to do the same thing as it sounds like yours does—buy me stuff instead of loving me. I hope you'll get your balance back when you return from Florida.

Amy— I forgot to say this: Snickers is really cute, and the two of you together are even cuter! I'm so glad you have a pal like that. I'm looking forward to having a couple of furry pals of my own, when late July comes 'round.

Kathleen— Thanks for the vote of support re. the BERP. They spread straw over the raw muddy mess the workers made of the lawn overlapping ours and our neighbor's, and the trucks & tractors have stopped showing up, so I think the landscaping work is over, thank God. Now it's quiet enough that the loudest thing I hear is the sound of birds chirping—yay! That's too bad you have to return to housework. Oh well...you and me both!

worththeeffort2— Are you sure I can't talk you into giving us a name to call you? How 'bout your middle name, or a name you happen to like?

seabiscuit
05-12-2014, 06:52 PM
Hi there,

Lil turtle,

I am sorry that you are so upset. I personally love the pool but that's because I am an avid swimmer. It helps me to get lost so to speak in concentrating on my breathing and swimming. Personally I find it very therapeutic. Hugs. :hug:

Believe,

Thank you, yes I am getting ready for the move but I still have a bit to go. I have just under a month to go!


Fi,

Thank you, I love little Snickers! I got his new carrier in the mail today. It's very cute and I love it, I think it's adorable! We may go for a walk tonight if it cools off, it's muggy here. How are you? What type of pet are you going to get?

Take care,

Amy

VermontMom
05-12-2014, 09:09 PM
Hello friends!

Trish - Oh that is so sad :( I'm so sorry the visit has turned sour. I don't understand how a mom could play games with her daughter like that :?: but the end result is your are miserable and that sux! :hug: to you.

Fi - I meant to comment about Ignace before; and then I meant to commiserate about the infuriating *beep*beep*beep* of the landscapers ...but now I need to say how awful about your day of depression pain..I'm glad it has downscaled a bit to 'melancholy' ...now I hope it downscales more to 'good' :)

worththeeffort2 - I am so very sorry that you are still very down :( it is awful isn't it. I think the longer workouts are a marvelous idea, even if you don't feel it now, it is doing good for you. Focusing on actions is good...gives you a tiny sense of control I think. Please know we are pulling for you and wish we could do more :hug:

Amy - did you take Snickers for a walk? do you have a leash or harness for the little guy? I hope it cooled off , for both of you :)

Kathleen - How did you do with your eating today? (just being a good nagging friend :D) Does your son know which college he wants to attend after senior graduation?

Hello to everyone else! :)

so...I would love to be able to just type here, what I make at work each day. Because no one else asks, everyone always wants to talk about their job, not ask 'so what did you do today'. So I would love to be able to tell you all :D

seabiscuit
05-12-2014, 10:32 PM
Hi Holly,

How are you? I was going to take him for a walk but it was very hot here today for spring, about 85 degrees and it hadn't cooled down to 75 yet, guinea pigs are very sensitive to the heat and 65-75 degrees is an optimal temperature for most guinea pigs, I think that maybe tomorrow will be better.

I hope all is well with you, take care.

Amy

MonteCristo
05-13-2014, 10:39 AM
Hi Everyone!

Sorry to drop off the map...I don't get on the internet much at home, and I've been really busy when I'm at work.

Mother's Day was hard. I've mentioned before how my mom never contacts me unless she wants something? Well, she posted on FB (which we are friends on, so she knows I saw it) that Mother's Day is so hard and lonely for her. Well, maybe she should make some effort to maintain a relationship with her kids. As she lives 12 hours away, when she comes to pick up the kids for summer or xmas vacation she always stays with me, and I'm expecting a call any day now about when she is coming for summer...a mean part of me wants to go out of town the days she will be here so she is forced to make other arrangements and can't just keep taking me for granted. The way over communicator part of me wants to write her a huge letter explaining how much it hurts that she treats me this way. And the lazy part wants to just pretend nothing is happening. Unfortunately lazy usually wins.

On a good note, I did get to visit my (maternal) grandmother, and she adores me and thinks I'm the most wonderful person in the word next to my dad. :)

FleurDeLis
05-13-2014, 12:04 PM
Thanks everyone for all the thoughts and prayers. Sorry I've been a bit absent the past few days. I've been busy with work and working out and then Mother's Day snuck up on me.. :/ I cleaned house like mad on Saturday to stay busy and then didn't do much on Sunday.

My husbands surgery went well and he is recovering well. He's not swollen anymore, but is still eating softish foods.

Mother's Day was pretty difficult. I had a really bad headache and didn't much want to talk. When I returned to work on Monday someone asked me how my Mother's Day was... :/ I just felt it was so insensitive.. So that was rough. But we're moving right along.

I have a phone interview for a job really similar to mine only I wouldn't have to deal with shelter residents. Instead I would be working the phone only, which I believe could be a good thing for me. Still involved in human services which will help me once I get my degree but also somewhat distanced from children.

I apologize for not addressing everyone individually. I'll try my best to stay up to date with everyone and make a daily post. Back to work for now!

lilturtle
05-13-2014, 01:09 PM
Thanks for understanding. I know I shouldd be grateful. I complain a lot. I just feel trapped. Friday feels so long off. I'm not sure how to deal with all this. I don't have the coping skills.

FleurDeLis
05-13-2014, 03:41 PM
Hey lilturtle, I'm sorry the trip hasn't gone well. You're not complaining. We are all here to listen to each others difficulties. It's a safe place to let go of what is bothering us. We can't keep this stuff to ourselves, it just makes things harder.

Have you talked to your mom about how you feel, do you think that's an option?

Fiona W
05-13-2014, 04:52 PM
Well, yesterday turned out to be another day lost to depression pain. I went from melancholy to acutely miserable not long after I posted. Bob helped me by encouraging me to go upstairs and get in bed, so he could spoon around me and hold me. It was hard to move when I was hurting so bad, but Bob's idea was a good one: I actually fell asleep with his arm around me, and slept through the whole evening and night.

And I've got some good news: I analysed the progression of my mood decline over the week and into the weekend, and I realized that it might be due to my having cut in half the daily dose of one of my medications. I did it because my shrink wants me off that particular drug, and I did it gradually over the course of a month. But all the same, maybe now, with all the BERP pressure, is not a good time to be doing that. So starting with yesterday's dose, I went back up to what I was taking before. And guess what?! I feel much better today, like my normal chipper self again—even in the middle of the afternoon, which is always my worst time of day. I'm so relieved, I just can't tell you!

I see my shrink tomorrow. I'll show him my mood chart so he can see what happened when I cut that medication by 50%. Maybe after the BERP is over and the kittens have arrived & settled in, I could try weaning myself off that med... but much more slowly next time!

Thanks, y'all, for the kind words and the support. It means a lot to me to know that such terrific people are listening. I don't have the energy to make personal comments today, but worththeeffort2, I want you to know that I am listening to you and thinking about you, every day.

seabiscuit
05-13-2014, 07:02 PM
Hi there,

I hope that everyone is having a good day. The temperature here feels nice and cool, probably in the 70s, a refreshing change from yesterday being so muggy.

I'm going to take my guinea pig to the vet tomorrow, I think he has an eye infection :( I'll be changing vets once I move.

Volunteering went well today, I have 196 hours! Next week will be 200 hours, wow! I am excited to be receiving another 100 hour pin. :) I will truly miss all of my co-workers, they are so upbeat and positive. I volunteer at an absolutely wonderful hospital, I will miss it a lot but I think I may volunteer at an another hospital after my ankle surgery.

I'm seriously considering Lap-Band, I posted about it in my thread on the WLS forum. I think it could help me tremendously.

Have a great night!

Amy and Snick :)

Fi- what is BERP? How are you? Take care!

Hi to everyone else!

worththeeffort2
05-13-2014, 10:20 PM
Lilturtle: I am very sorry to learn that your vacation has not turned out to be a happy one. :( At least you have your answer about whether or not to move. You can put that concern out of your mind. In the meantime, do what you can to get some exercise and sunshine as it might help your mood. :cool: You can also do what I do when I'm swimming laps all by myself. I talk to the ladies here in my head. :)

MonteCristo: Sorry that you had a difficult Mother's Day. At least you had a nice visit with your grandmother.

Fleur: I'm glad to hear that your husband's surgery went smoothly and that he's healing. Good luck with the phone interview. Keeping my fingers crossed that it goes really well for you. :crossed:

Seabiscuit: I think it's wonderful that you've earned that much time volunteering. I'm sure they value your contribution very much.

Our local hospital has quite a significant bariatric surgery program. I sat in on a number of sessions to learn about the procedure and listen to patients who had the procedure done. The loudest message I took away was that if you don't have control over your mental and emotional relationship to food, the tool of bariatric surgery won't work in the long run. That's why I decided to give the medically supervised dietary program a shot first. It is giving me time to deal with my dysfunctional relationship with food. If I'm unable to maintain my weight loss following this program, I'll probably reconsider having surgery for a sleeve gastrectomy.

Fiona: I'm glad you figured out the cause of the decline in your mood. Cutting medication by 50% for the first taper does seem pretty aggressive. I hope your doctor is willing to work with you to go slower next time.

I've been giving your request for a name a lot of consideration. I spent a lot of time coming up with my screen name and like it because it took me a long time to come to the conclusion that I am, indeed, worth the effort to take care of myself and my health. In keeping with that theme, I've decided on the name Amanda, if it would please you to have a first name for me. I settled on Amanda because it means "worthy of love." I am still working on learning that I am worthy of loving myself and worthy of receiving love from others. But I'll answer to Worthy, too. :D

Having the sun come out for the last couple of days has helped my mood a little. I was even able to get outside for a walk at lunch time today. Tonight, I'm prepping for a colonoscopy tomorrow. As some of you may already know, it isn't much fun. I probably won't get much sleep tonight but I'm hoping that I can sleep most of tomorrow, once the procedure is over.

Oh, and I'm totally weighing myself when I get out of bed in the morning to seek how much I've lost through the, um, elimination process. ;)

Blessings be on everyone.

VermontMom
05-13-2014, 10:51 PM
good evening ladies!

Worthy - :D I like that! very glad the sun :sunny: came out for you to enjoy for a walk. I've not had the procedure you've got to do..but heard the required fluids are ugh. best wishes for that!! and enjoy the lower number on the scale tomorrow morning.

Amy/Seabiscuit - glad it cooled off for you. We're waiting for it to warm up, lol. I'm sorry to hear about Snick's eye infection, best wishes for that. I read about your queries on the lap band on the other thread, big decision. I don't know what to say except I hope you find an answer that is good for you. and congrats on SO many volunteering hours! :carrot:

Fi - really sorry that you had to suffer a day of depression pain..ugh. Very nice your guy could physically comfort you to fall asleep. Yes, weaning off the med sounds more do-able than a strict 50 percent cut.

lilturtle - - really sorry things are the way they are with your mother :( hand in there!

Fleur - I was thinking of you on Sunday! :hug: Was it last weekend you went to a retreat? Hey that co-worker was an insensitve lunk for asking about your Mother's Day. I hope the phone interview progresses to an actual one :)

Monte Cristo - I smiled so much at your comment of your grandmother who adores you! :) as she should! :D that is how grandmothers should be!! real sorry about your mom's actions, she is being so disrespectful to you and that is so not right. On a total unrelated topic, are your garden plants 'taking hold' well?

Hi to Ohio - are you okay??
Hi to Kathleen!
Hi to Chelsea :)
Hi to projectjudi :hug:
and 1life2liv, and Hope!

I will be staying at my work overnight for the next 3 nights, through Saturday. I'll be working in the kitchen during the days, and working in the Dining Room at night, at it is 23 miles away, so it just makes sense. And it makes money for me :D Oh! this is what I made today...100 servings of Lemon Bavarian Cheesecake (layer of lemon cake; layer of bavarian cream; thin layer of tangy lemon curd on top) 60 servings of peanut butter oatmeal cookies with a peanut butter filling; 65 onion rolls for sandwiches tomorrow. Hope that doesn't drive anyone crazy :dizzy:

Oh and Internet is very spotty there (it's deep in the woods) so I might be out of touch during that time.

seabiscuit
05-13-2014, 11:18 PM
Hi Holly,

It's great to hear from you! I appreciate your good wishes for Snickers, we're heading to the vet early tomorrow morning. I think he is feeling a bit more lively but his eye looks a bit watery and a bit larger than the other one, poor little guy. Yes, I agree that Lap-Band is a huge decision but I think it could work for me because I have heard a lot of success about it and I think that it may be something to help me out. I have tried so many diets, I get frustrated and I gain the weight back. I was doing MFP the other day but I get bored and frustrated. Anyways, thanks for the decision. Your pastries sound yummy, good for you! I love watching The Food Network, it inspires me to cook more. Have a great night!

Hi there to Ohio, Fi, Believe, Worth the effort, Monte Cristo and Fleur De Lis!


Take care and have a great night...

Amy

IBelieveInMe2
05-13-2014, 11:54 PM
Just checking in quickly before I go to bed. Not enough energy to address everyone personally. Sorry! :( Finally walked on treadmill today for 30 minutes. Food pretty good, but always room for improvement, it seems. Reading along, but just very tired tonight. :yawn: Thinking of all of you, especially those who are really struggling. Will say a prayer for our group and each of you tonight! :hug: Hang in there, everyone! :grouphug:

Fiona W
05-14-2014, 01:43 AM
Well I'm feelin' mighty fine tonight, because I made a new collage (https://www.flickr.com/photos/fi_webster/13994951748/). Be sure to keep the title ("exodus") in mind when you look at it. Bob's too depressed to give me any positive feedback, but I'm pleased with it. =big smile=

VermontMom
05-14-2014, 07:20 AM
Just checking in quickly before I go to bed. Not enough energy to address everyone personally. Sorry! :( Finally walked on treadmill today for 30 minutes. Food pretty good, but always room for improvement, it seems. Reading along, but just very tired tonight. :yawn: Thinking of all of you, especially those who are really struggling. Will say a prayer for our group and each of you tonight! :hug: Hang in there, everyone! :grouphug:

Hi Kathleen and yay for 30 minutes on the treadmill! :cheer2:

Fi, another kewl collage! :cool:

this is probably my last check in for 4 days, so remember, I am OK even though you are not hearing from me ...:hug: to all

MonteCristo
05-14-2014, 09:55 AM
Monte Cristo - I smiled so much at your comment of your grandmother who adores you! :) as she should! :D that is how grandmothers should be!! real sorry about your mom's actions, she is being so disrespectful to you and that is so not right. On a total unrelated topic, are your garden plants 'taking hold' well?



They seem to be doing well. It hasn't stopped raining since I planted them, so I didn't even have to go through the bother of watering them. I just hope they don't drown! :)

lilturtle
05-14-2014, 01:33 PM
Nice collage Fi!

I'm getting my hair colored today. Tomorrow we leave for home. We are driving. I can't wait to get home. The diet has gone good. I'm anxious to check the scale.

FleurDeLis
05-14-2014, 06:54 PM
worththeeffort- Yep, he's doing really well. Says he's still a little sore. I'm hoping he feels a lot better by Saturday as we are going to Kings Island with my brother and his fiance. I'd hate for him to not want to ride anything because his teeth hurt. :/ Interview will be in less than an hour.. Nervous!

Vermont- Yes, I went on a single day retreat on Friday. It was great! Very peaceful and uplifting. Yeah, unfortunately, the same co-worker has continued to try to discuss what has happened, asking me how hard it is to be back to work, what's the worst part about being back, etc. Today I just flat out told her to please stop bringing stuff like that up. I don't want to talk about how I'm feeling with her, because I don't know her well and honestly she irritates me. (I thought it was just pregnancy hormones before, but now I realize, she is just truly irritating!) She said she was just trying to be sensitive. I didn't feel like she was, it felt more like she was being nosy.. :/ Interview will be here soon. I'm nervous. Pretty sure this is basically a way to weed out crazy people because they described it as simply getting to know you a little better. If I don't get past this phase, I guess I'm crazy!!!

Other than my insensitive co-worker issue, today was a good day. It was rainy which was disappointing and a little chilly. I went to the gym and did my weight lifting routine. I wanted to mow the lawn because it sprouted up really fast after the rain yesterday, but the lawn isn't dry and as I said it was chilly.

Tomorrow I won't make it to the gym because I have to take our cat and dog to my parents house about an hour away. We are going to visit my brother and his fiance, but my brother is allergic to cats and so we can't bring her with us. My parents offered to watch both of them which is nice. We will leave for my brother's house friday night after work. They live in Southern Indiana which is why I have to take the pets to my parents tomorrow night (they live in to the North of Indy). My husband and I are dead center in Indy.

Fiona W
05-14-2014, 08:17 PM
Howdy folks! I'm checkin' in briefly before my evening session of clipping magazines...I had a good day, it's just that my primo morning time was consumed by going way across town to see my shrink. He's cool with my waiting to withdraw from that one medication until later in the year...he's always cool with what I want to do.

Now if we could just get our Blue Cross Blue Shield coverage sorted out so I don't have to pay full price for my meds—but that's a long story. Suffice it to say that the federal bureaucracy is unbelievable Kafkaesque. "You can't get there from here," was the constant refrain I heard after half a day of fruitless phone calls. =sigh= Oh well, it's just money...money never gets me down.

I hope y'all are havin' a good evening...oh! I almost forgot: I have an NSV (non-scale victory) to report. Last night I got up from a sound sleep to go to the bathroom, and somehow managed to trip on the bedclothes and fell to my knees on the soft rug. I blinked for a second—didn't hurt myself, of course—then I tipped forward a little, lifted one foot and planted it on the rug. Then I just used that thigh muscle, and was standing up again. What a piece of cake! I went through a long period where falling down like that was a major event, because I was so heavy, it was really hard to get back up without assistance. I think a few of y'all know what I'm talkin' about! But now, between my leg exercises and weighing around 70 pounds less, getting up off the floor is just not an issue. Yay!! I'm so pleased with that. :)

FleurDeLis
05-14-2014, 08:49 PM
What an awesome accomplishment Fiona!!! I get where you're coming from in regards to having trouble getting up. I got that way when I was pregnant and am still having issues moving around my larger self.

Sorry about the health insurance, that really is crazy it doesn't cover medicines.. :/ Is that an employer run health plan or something covered through the new government law?

floralshorts
05-14-2014, 09:03 PM
Monday, 5/19/14 will be a big day for me. It will be my first day back at work after being on leave for over a year due to borderline personality disorder and PTSD.

I feel like a different person now, and feel confident that I'm getting my weight under control, but I am still nervous that the stress of my job will cause me to feel depressed again. Then again, I worry about everything, so maybe work will be great.

If anything, I am excited to start making money again, and work will keep me busy and make the months fly by a little more quickly. At the end of August I am traveling to the UK. I've never been out of the US before. I am traveling around Europe with a friend. But most importantly, I will be meeting a man at Heathrow airport that I've sort of been falling for the last few weeks. We are both incredibly anxious for that day to get here.

This will be an eventful summer. I'm going to work hard in therapy, and work hard with my exercise and Optifast weight loss. :) When I get off that plane in August, I am going to look so good!

IBelieveInMe2
05-15-2014, 12:43 AM
floralshorts: :welcome: to the Ups & Downs Support Group! Best of luck to you as you return to work on Monday! I will be thinking of you and hoping things go well. What type of work do you do? That is great that you are feeling good and confident about your weight loss. Your trip to the UK sounds exciting! Don't wish the summer away, though! ;) I LOVE the summer months!!! Glad you found the group and posted. :)

Fi: Interesting and neat collage! I am so happy to hear that you are doing better after some rough days. Glad you realized that your wean from the med was causing problems and you've delayed it until after the BERP! It is so nice when doctors accept our input on things. I hope you will get your insurance sorted out soon, so that you don't have to keep paying full price for your meds. That gets SO expensive! HOORAY for your wonderful NSV (non-scale victory)!!! I can relate to daily life tasks being more difficult at a heavier weight, so I understand how getting up easily off the floor after a fall would be a major accomplishment! Great to hear that your weight loss is making life easier for you these days! Keep up the good work! :D

Sabrina: How rude and insensitive of your co-worker to pry into your sensitive business and not let it drop! So sorry you had to go through that. :( As if going back to work and Mother's Day weren't already difficult enough for you..... I am glad that you were honest with her and asked her to stop. On a brighter note, it is good to hear that the retreat was peaceful and uplifting. Also happy that your husband's wisdom teeth surgery is over with and he is doing well. Hope you have a great time at King's Island on Saturday! Nice that you can drop your pets off at your parents' house. Hope your interview went well! Please give us an update on that when you get a chance. Thank you for continuing to post. You are such a great addition to our group! :)

Trish: I am so happy for you that you will be home ~ safe and sound ~ soon! Drive safely! I bet your hair looks fabulous! :D Again, I am so sorry that things went sour between you and your mom. :( Glad you didn't move down there and THEN find this out, though! Hope you get a good # on that scale when you get home!!!

MonteCristo: Glad to hear from you and that your garden plants are doing well. I planted flowers the other day and it has rained here the past several days since then, so I have not had to water either. Kinda nice! Hope all else is well with you!

Holly: Thanks for letting us know that you will be gone for a few days, so that we don't worry about you. I know you like this job, but I hope they aren't overworking you! I will be thinking of you the next several days and hoping things are going well at your "new"/summer job! BTW, your post about the yummy things you made at work did have my mouth watering, but go right ahead! I can handle it! ;)

Amy: Hope you are making progress with your packing and preparation for the move! How is Snickers? Good luck deciding whether or not to have Lap-Band surgery. Tough decision! A friend of mine recently had a gastric sleeve done and lost about 75+ pounds and got off pre-diabetic meds and other meds due to weight. She looks great! Then, after that, she had a tummy tuck and breast lift (along with a hernia repair), but she is still in pain from the last surgery, so not sure if she is glad she did that one or not. It's been great hearing from you regularly!

Worthy: I hope your colonoscopy went well today! So, what did the "elimination process" do for you on the scale??? :lol:

ohiofreespirit: Are you okay??? I assume you are busy with your two classes at school. Please post a quick reply if you see this. No need to address everyone personally. Just want to make sure you are okay!

Hello to everyone else! :wave: If you are just reading along, please consider posting and contributing to ~ and benefitting from ~ the group! :)

floralshorts
05-15-2014, 02:19 AM
floralshorts: :welcome: to the Ups & Downs Support Group! Best of luck to you as you return to work on Monday! I will be thinking of you and hoping things go well. What type of work do you do? That is great that you are feeling good and confident about your weight loss. Your trip to the UK sounds exciting! Don't wish the summer away, though! ;) I LOVE the summer months!!! Glad you found the group and posted. :)


Thanks for the warm welcome. :) I work in a banking call center, which sounds easy (the work technically is pretty easy), but the emotional toll of irate customers and management really tore me down. I have heard my department has changed a lot though, so I am optimistic and consider this a fresh start.

No worries about wishing the summer away - I'm definitely not, and totally looking forward to pool days. :D I am just eager for the time to pass so that I can meet my potential boyfriend in the UK. :) We met online and have gotten quite close, so when I fly over there it will be our first time face to face. The both of us are very anxious for August!

IBelieveInMe2
05-15-2014, 03:48 PM
My doctor is increasing the dose of my thyroid med, because my bloodwork showed that levels were still low. That should help with weight loss. Thank God they discovered this issue!

Anne3: :welcome2: Thank you for sharing your tips about weight loss with us.

floralshorts: Yikes on irate customers and management! That would tear anyone down. Hope your experience is much better this time around! :)

lilturtle
05-15-2014, 08:30 PM
I just spent all day in a car traveling from FL to NC (on my way back to PA). It rained almost the whole way. I ate way too much too. I can't wait to get home.

worththeeffort2
05-15-2014, 09:19 PM
Greetings, all. I can barely keep my eyes open. I went for a 2-mile walk/jog interval workout on a long hill across the road from our house. It was a kicking workout. I should continue to burn calories for a few more hours now that my muscles have been worked so hard.

The worst part of the colonoscopy procedure was the nurse's failed effort to start an IV in an elusive vein. I don't have good veins, anyway and she didn't want to use the one that I pointed out to her as being successful when I have blood draws. A second nurse went for the obvious vein and did a good job 'sinking the tap.' ;) I slept through the procedure. The best part of the procedure, I lost 4 pounds and have gained back only 1 pound of that so far. I know that I'm badly dehydrated, so will be focusing on drinking lots of water through the weekend. The water weight will come back. :)

worththeeffort2
05-16-2014, 09:49 AM
Oddly enough, I have a vacation day today, the sun is shining, and I am starting to feel better. Coincidence?

lilturtle
05-16-2014, 05:05 PM
I'm finally home. Such a long trip. I'm going to step on the scale this evening to see how I did. I ate poorly the last two days on the road. Mostly fast food which I never eat at home.

worththeeffort2
05-16-2014, 06:34 PM
Lilturtle: Welcome home. You may want to wait until tomorrow morning, just after you get up, to step on the scale. The doctor advised me that it's the best time of day to weigh in. After you've used the bathroom, in the buff, and before you've had anything to eat or drink. When ever you decide to weigh in, I hope you get results that please you.

I managed to get 60 minutes of cardio in and a little strength training, too. I'll be doing my usual Saturday weigh in tomorrow morning.

FleurDeLis
05-16-2014, 06:40 PM
Glad you were able to sleep through that procedure worththeeffort, that wouldn't have been pleasant otherwise.. :/

Things have been going well for me the last few days. I've been pretty busy. I started another online class last week towards my bachelor's degree. I've loved most of my classes so far, but this is a Government class and I find it absolutely boring and irritating... :/ Oh well, 4 more weeks and then on to an economics class.. I'm sure that will be just as boring and irritating..

So about the interview.. It went great up until I was informed that the job would sometimes entail making referrals for women who are seeking abortions. This is definitely NOT something I could do and live with myself. So the ship on that job has sailed. I had also applied a few weeks ago to a job in my Roman Catholic Archdiocese and I was excited to hear news in regards to it. Unfortunately, the news I heard was that they have decided not to fill the possible right away. :/ Not sure when they will, but I've been informed I will be contacted at that time.

Well, I'm off to Southern INdiana for the weekend. See everyone on Monday!

seabiscuit
05-16-2014, 09:25 PM
Hi there,

I am going to see my friend tomorrow after seeing my family doctor. I'm making progress on packing, yay! I have my clothes out of storage, I'm trying to go through them.

I've got a few things to do over the weekend but it should be quiet on Sunday. I'm going to hopefully take my last few swim lessons soon, then I'll move in less than 1 month, yikes!

Have a good weekend!

Amy :)

Fiona W
05-17-2014, 03:14 PM
If you happened to wonder why I didn't post yesterday, it's because I got an idea for a collage right around 6:30 in the morning, and proceeded to spend sixteen hours straight on it, with no breaks to speak of. Then I crashed, slept, and woke up to spend six more hours this morning, completing it. 22 hours for one collage!

This artwork is all about how I feel trapped by the huge amount of labor that remains to be done on the BERP. Here it is: the title is "as free as a bird." (https://www.flickr.com/photos/fi_webster/14203192641/)

IBelieveInMe2
05-17-2014, 04:30 PM
Hi Everyone! Worked out with trainer Thursday morning and walked with my pups 35 minutes Friday. Soon to walk the pups up here at the lake and ride bikes with my hubby! So exercise is great! Food so-so. Gotta get that right and all will be well.

Trish: Home Sweet Home!!! :D So happy for you that you are home ~ safely and soundly! Hope you are happy with your weigh-in!

Worthy: I am so happy that your mood has improved! It is amazing what a day off and sunshine can do for the soul. You are doing so incredibly well with exercise. Hope it is paying off on the scale!

Sabrina: Can't blame you for being turned off by the "requirements" of that job. I couldn't do that either! Best of luck to you with finding something new! The right thing will come along...... in God's perfect timing! :)

Amy: Glad to hear that the packing is going well. Thanks for taking the time to check in!

Fi: You are one BUSY collage maker!!! Sorry you are feeling trapped by all of the work involved with the BERP. I bet the collage-making process is very therapeutic for you, though.

Holly: How are you? Please write when you get home and let us know what you've been baking! :T

Waving HELLO to everyone else! :wave: Hope all is well!

Fiona W
05-18-2014, 12:26 AM
Well, I got new kitten pictures today. =big smile= But instead of loading all the still photos onto my domain and all that fuss, I'll just give y'all the link to the new video (http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=YzLXMXbusdU&feature=youtu.be) of the oriental shorthair named Cherry Bomb and her four kittens, now four weeks old. To those of you who may not have been following this story, two of these kittens will arrive in my husband's and my home in about nine weeks. Enjoy!

worththeeffort2
05-18-2014, 09:30 AM
Adorable kittens, Fiona. Mom seems very attentive, making the rounds and confirming that everyone is clean and in good order.

I have a 2-hour drive down state today to do a 15-minute presentation about some of my research. While attending a meeting yesterday, someone asked me if I would do a longer presentation to their genealogy group but I don't know if that will work because they only meet at 1 p.m. on Wednesdays when I'm working. I told her I could do a Saturday or Sunday but not a week day. I expect that will be the end of it.

<edit> Oh, yes...I'm only 21 pounds away from Onederland. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that by August, I'll be below 200 pounds for the first time since 1993.

Fiona W
05-18-2014, 02:00 PM
Another crazy day in BERP-land for me! My niece Margaret and her son Gavin are coming over for our regular Sunday get-together tonight. She's volunteered to help me box up the rest of my horror fiction collection for moving it down into the basement: the bulk of it is already down there, because what used to be my writing office, with my horror near at hand for all the writing related to horror literature that used to be my job, is turning into my collage studio. I need nearly every inch of bookshelf space in there for my "cutter" books and my boxes of clippings! Plus, I plan to move my quite voluminous postcard collection into that room, because the main reason I've been acquiring those postcards, mostly in the form of booklets & boxes, is for use in collage. Eventually I want to get everything I need for collage into that one room, or at least as much of it as is humanly possible, instead of having it scattered all over the house.

The good news, in addition to the blessing of having Margaret available to help me some with book storage chores, is that Bob already installed cat flaps in both the doors of our bedroom and of my office-now-studio. That's so those doors can be closed for privacy without shutting the cats out from anywhere. I taught our last pair of cats how to use the cat flaps (they're not born with that knowledge =laugh=), and now I anticipate teaching the next pair. But not until they've emerged from Phase One of their accommodation to our house: when we first bring the kittens home, they'll be kept just in our bedroom and its bathroom. For a couple of weeks, more or less, Bob and I will be living almost entirely in that space, in order to be in close contact at all times with our new babies. =smile=

What? Weight loss? Is that what this forum is about? I'll be lucky if I remember my regular weigh-in day, the 22nd of the month! =grin=

seabiscuit
05-18-2014, 03:32 PM
Hi there...

How is everyone? It is a bad day for seasonal allergies!

I saw my family doc yesterday, I'll continue to see him after I move. I have a lot of faith in him and we have a good rapport. I probably have to get a medical clearance for ankle surgery from him. Interestingly enough, he thinks that I should try another diet such as WW or calorie counting before doing Lap-band. I'm actually glad to hear that.

I've got to get to tidying up my place and packing, have a good afternoon. I'll try to stop in later or tomorrow.

Hi to Holly, Fi, Believe, Ohio and hugs to everyone else!

:)

Fiona W
05-18-2014, 07:11 PM
Worthy— That's terrific you're just 21 pounds away from Onederland: by the time we're weanin' our new fur-babies off wet cat food onto organic kibble, you'll be there! As you can tell, I'm very oriented these days toward not just any ol' future, but specifically the future month of August 2014. =grin= It sounds like your cardio and your renewed commitment are really paying off. As for your name, I appreciate it that you gave it a lot of thought, and I've always loved the name Amanda, but Worthy really has a ring to it... it's you: you're worthy! =big smile=

Amy— It's none of my business, of course, but even at my highest weight of 351, I was opposed on principle to bariatric surgery. I just think since we all have to sort out our issues regarding food and exercise anyway, why not take the time to make those permanent lifestyle changes at the pace of normal human change...slooooowly. And what you have to lose now isn't much more than what I've lost so far, and look at my ticker: I'm not even close to halfway there yet. But I'm goin' all the way down this time, you better believe it! If you combine some carbohydrate restriction with the calorie counting, Amy, that will help you along, and be good for your longterm health to boot.

Kathleen— You say you've got the exercise part figured out, but your eating is still so-so. What's the plan? What's your next step? Are you in need of some tough love? What about applying some of the principles from The Willpower Instinct? How are those slow-breathing sessions working out for you? I really find that they're helping me not only to make the right "I won't" choices, as in "I won't eat too many nuts," but also in the "I will" choices related to working hard on the BERP. In other words, they help me maintain my focus on what I want in the long run, and not get distracted by what I may feel like doing or not doing, at any one moment. And that's just one item from the whole bag o' tricks in that book.

Well, Margaret called to say she's got the awful respiratory bug that's goin' around, so we won't be seein' them tonight, after all. Oh well... maybe Bob can help me out some day this week with getting those books boxed up. He just got over that bug himself, and he's been really grumpy in its aftermath. Every time I suggest something he could do to help me with the BERP, he sighs a whole lot, and then if I bring it up again, he snaps at me. =sad face= I'm not sure he's quite ready to be a parent, but our fur-kids are coming, ready or not!

I have a small NSV to report: I now fit into size 3X leggings, and my 4X t-shirts are starting to be comfortably (fashionably even?) loose. As for my beloved collection of black 5X tees with rock stars and hippie slogans on them, I'm still wearin' 'em, but I guess there will come a day when they'll look ridiculously huge. I wish I could trade 'em in for the exact same tees in a smaller size, equally well broken in and all, but I guess I'll have to wait 'n' buy 'em all over again when I get down to size L.... one fine day... =wistful expression=

worththeeffort2
05-18-2014, 09:13 PM
I'm absolutely exhausted. It has been a long day of driving. The presentation went okay. The other presentations were very interesting, too.

I have Monday off from work and will be taking advantage of it by pulling all my clothes out of the closets to try things on to see what fits, what is too baggy, what needs to stay, and what needs to go. Since I don't have any girl friends to help out, I'm pressing my husband into service to give me feedback on what looks decent and what doesn't.

Now, off to bed. zzzzzzzzz.

IBelieveInMe2
05-19-2014, 02:23 AM
I am tired and ready for bed, but wanted to check in. Walked about 30+ minutes at the lake today. Home now and ready for a HEALTHY week ahead! :broc: I will focus on making good food choices this week, while keeping up with my exercise and walking.

Fi: Those kittens are adorable!!! :) I haven't read any more in The Willpower Instinct, but I definitely need to PRACTICE the breathing technique. Set the book aside for awhile; got bored with it and started another book. I tend to do that. :( Thanks for challenging me to make a plan. I need to do that. I was following the DASH diet plan as a rough guideline to eating healthy. Need to revisit that book and buckle down and get serious with it again! I lost 6 pounds right away on it, which was the first weight I have lost in years, and I have kept that and a few more off! I also began my thyroid med around the same time, so I am sure that helped, too. Now, my dose has been doubled because my thyroid levels were still low. Will recheck bloodwork in 2 months. HOORAY on your NSV!!!!! :D

Worthy: Happy to hear that your presentation went okay and you are home safely and soundly. Hope you get a good night's sleep! Best of luck to you as you go through your clothes! That can be a tedious process, but enjoy the smaller YOU as you work! :D Oh, ONEderland!!! I long for the day again, too!!! It has been way too long! :( I am about 15 pounds away, I think. Need to weigh in this week to be sure.

Amy: Glad you like your doc so well that you will still see him after you move. And so happy to hear that he thinks you can lose the weight without lap-band surgery! What route do you think you will go ~ WW, counting calories, or another plan? Good luck with that decision. YOU CAN DO IT!!! :D

Holly: Are you home yet?!? Anxious to hear how you are liking the summer job this year! ;)

ohiofreespirit: Please post a quick (or long) note when you can! I assume you are busy with school, but just want to be sure you are okay!

Chelsea: Are you still reading along? Please post a quick update if you get a chance. We haven't heard from you in a good while. Hope all is well.

Trish: How did your weigh-in go? You must be so happy to be home! :)

Sabrina: Waving hello :wave: and sending a hug! :hug:

MonteCristo: How are things with you??? Miss hearing from you! Hope you're okay!

floralshorts: Please let us know how the big first day back at work goes! I'll be thinking about you! :hug:

worththeeffort2
05-19-2014, 02:08 PM
Day off from work. It's raining. Good thing I planned on cleaning closets. I no sooner than brought all my blouses downstairs from storage and Mr. Black Cat showed up to supervise the proceedings. Look familiar to anyone? ;)

I was surprised that the process went so quickly but really, it only took me about 90 minutes to go through the two piles in the photo and another two piles of equal size. The best, best, best part was trying on a number of 18/20 size blouses that my husband bought me as Christmas gifts that I hadn't been able to wear. They all fit now. It's like having a whole new wardrobe! I did keep a few 2X tops to wear while working out but everything else--3X and 2X--has been packed into two drawstring trash bags to go to the thrift store.

I've attached some pictures of my day's project that has left me feeling pretty accomplished--both in terms of actually following through on a house cleaning task and having the confirmation of my weight loss. :carrot:

lilturtle
05-19-2014, 06:02 PM
I still haven't weighed myself. I've been kind of discouraged lately thinking even if I lose the weight I am still going to have image issues. Like bad hair, crooked teeth, bad skin, etc. I'm just having kind of a down day.

worththeeffort2
05-19-2014, 09:14 PM
Sorry you're having a down day, Lilturtle. I hope things are better for you tomorrow. :hug:

VermontMom
05-19-2014, 10:38 PM
HI!! I've been back since late Sat. but I've been so fried, I wanted to wait til I read through the days here :)

Fi thanks for the adorbs vid of the kittens! and congrats on that NSV. I am a firm believer in honoring fitness as something that helps us everyday in simple things, such as carrying groceries, having to clamor over something, or bouncing up after a fall..congrats on your victory! and your latest collage.

Worthy I am impressed with whatever your career is! :D and I'm glad you had that nice vacation day. Oh and congrats on your new wardrobe! all done because of your hard work through exercise and diet..and your work on weeding through the clothes. I haven't had a kitty in decades, but I do remember how they would love to commandeer things spread out on the bed :D

Amy Hi! glad the packing is going along. and best wishes on weight loss plan you choose. How is Snicker's eye?

Ohio - we haven't heard from you in a while! thinking of you!

Chelsea thinking of you too! I drive by a small farm with lots of goats, they are SO amusing!

Trish - sorry to hear you were (are) having a bad day. I hope you feel ALOT better.

Sabrina oh that co-worker sounds exasperating!! and that she didn't 'get it' even after you spoke to her, that she said she was trying to be sensivite? duh. I'm glad the one day retreat was good. And best wishes on landing a perfect job, when it presents itself. Did you get to mow your lawn yet? are you the sole mower?

Monte Cristo - Hi, I'm glad to hear your plantings have taken hold and you didn't have to water right away :)

IBelieve - HI girlfriend :) and yay on your walking and biking and everything! so...do you plan your meals for the week? cook and freeze portions? that is what I've had good luck with..just sharing some ideas :D I want you to succeed!

floralshorts - Hi and :welcome: !

So.. my long days were indeed long, I love being in the kitchen during the day, but the waitstaffing at night..I do not love, lol. Each night I would think 'oh thank GOODNESS this is almost over'. Just made for a long day. Then I would creep away to my little room (the front-of-the-house manager made sure I had a room away from most of the noise, very considerate) but the lodge was full of boisterous, re-united members and I found it so hard to fall asleep..we just get so used to our own beds/houses don't we! THen I would get up at 5:30 to start the coffee station and do it all over again.

But I hope I made alot of money (we are on an every 2 week pay period) and I got tons of compliments on my desserts, and people saying they were very glad I was there again for the summer, that is always nice :D

ALERT - descriptions of desserts to follow! First day - lunch dessert was a peanut butter cookie with a peanut butter filling; dinner dessert was the Lemon Bavarian cheesecake with a pink guava sauce; Thursday morning was blueberry muffins and cinnamon walnut coffeecake, lunch dessert was a chocolate crumb bar; Thursday night was pumpkin and mince pies; Friday morning lemon poppyseed muffins; lunch dessert apple spice cake with whipped cream cheese frosting; dinner dessert Chocolate Mousse cake with a chocolate drizzle..Sat. morning Morning Glory muffins; lunch lemon raspberry bars, dinner dessert French apple pie...now I'm making myself hungry!

I did have today off, and mowed the lawn (it was SO thick and high, I did have to rake afterwards) planted some annuals in pots; did laundry, and just LOVE seeing the lawn mowed all green and pretty and the flowers..I wish it was a little warmer because I still haven't been on my motorcycle much.

so I will talk to you tomorrow morning :cool:

IBelieveInMe2
05-19-2014, 11:28 PM
Holly: Welcome back home!!! :D Your desserts sound so scrumptious! :T I thought it sounded like you would have some very LONG days; glad they are behind you now! ;) You sure worked hard on your "day off!" You do it all, don't you?!? To answer your question, NO ~ I don't cook and portion things off ahead of time. I know that would help, but I've never done it. Cooking isn't my strong suit anyway. :( I could do better on the PLANNING part of things, though.

Trish: Sorry you are having a down day. :( Hope you feel better about your life tomorrow! I do think your mind is trying to sabotage your good efforts at weight loss lately by bringing up the "other" image issues. No matter what, it is healthier for you to be at a lower weight. YOU CAN DO THIS!!! Don't give in to that negative "stinkin' thinkin'!" You have been doing so well. Keep moving forward! :hug:

Worthy: Congratulations on your successful closet cleaning efforts! Sounds like you got quite a lot done today! That is great! HOORAY for donating those bigger sizes that you have shrunk out of!!! :D


Walked 25 minutes on the treadmill :tread: at the gym today and rode the recumbent cycle :ebike: for 20 minutes. Food was good. I need to weigh in soon to see where I stand on the scale. :^: I never seem to know. :dizzy:

Hope to hear from everyone else soon! :wave:

FleurDeLis
05-20-2014, 09:23 AM
Vermont- I'm not the sole mower, I just really like to do it for the workout. Last week it rained like crazy and the only day we had the chance to mow, my husband got to it before I did. Oh well, plenty more times for that.

Had a good weekend, though Kentucky Kingdom was a major bust. Way too many people and wasn't able to ride any good rides. Only got on one and it was a 3d one, waited so long for it too. It was disapointing. Luckily the tickets were free. Then we made our way to see hubby's parents and then my parents, then back home. Was a very short weekend.

Got the best news ever on saturday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Drum roll please!!!!!!!!!

Isabelle's grave marker and vase were delivered to the cemetery. They should be in place for Memorial Day!!!! I'm so so so so so so soooooooo excited! I prayed everything would be ready by memorial day. They are having a special mass there and it will be great to finally have her place marked. It will be emotional, but I just can't wait to have something to look at when I visit her. It's the little things in life... :/ I won't see her grow up, but I can make sure where she sleeps is always beautiful.

As a side note, hubby and I bought our plots not too far from where Isabelle is. She is in a children's circle. We decided to get ours now so we could be as close as possible to her. We can see the children's circle when you face our future graves. Sounds sad and depressing, but I'm excited about that too.. Odd, I know, it's like I'm excited to die... I know it will happen one day and I'm glad to know we will be close to her.

MonteCristo
05-20-2014, 01:31 PM
Fleur - I'm glad that you are able to find comfort even in a hard circumstance. Sometime your point of view can make all the difference.

IBelieve - I wish I would exercise half as much as you do. You are doing awesome.

Holly - I wish you could take a little of our warmth...supposed to be almost 90 today. I love working in the yard for that reason too...I know some people like plant and garden for that reason, but for me it is like organizing my yard, and I love organizing. Your desserts sound delicious too...making cakes was one of the ways I kept myself together before I went on meds...giving away a cake and getting all the compliments made me feel really good. :)

worth - Closet cleaning!! One of my favorite activities. :)

lilturtle - Sorry for your bad day. Image issues must be difficult.

Fiona - Congrats on the NSV. Have you considered doing something special with your t-shirts? Maybe they could be remade smaller, or made into a really cool throw?

seabiscuit - Allergies have been crazy this year...I've been taking benadryl almost everyday for weeks. I saw a joke somewhere that allergies are so bad this year that the meth dealers will be turning the meth back into sudafed. :)

floralshorts - I'm late, but welcome to the group!

Not been having a real good time lately. Not particuarliy bad days, just kind of blah and stupid. I can't even be bothered to find a tv show to watch. So I just wander around in Oblivion whacking orcs and bandits lol.

I have a tenant who is causing me problems again. She just won't pay her rent...it would be easier to deal with if she was obnoxious and mean, then I would just have her evicted. But she always has these stories that sound reasonable at first, and then spin out in to ridiculous series of lies. After 6 weeks of trying to get the rent from her I finally asked her if she really didn't have the money to just tell me and quit with the ridiculousness and she STILL insists that she has it and just can't connect with me. As if there wasn't a perfectly good system to get things to people without meeting them that only costs 50 cents. :eyeroll:

lilturtle
05-20-2014, 01:33 PM
Just checking in. Didn't sleep real well last night either. I feel like crap.

FleurDeLis
05-20-2014, 07:53 PM
Monte- I try my best to think as positive as possible.

Vermont- I'm not the sole mower, I just enjoy the calorie burn. I'm a tom boy anyways. I'd rather mow the lawn than do laundry or the dishes! haha!

Today was really busy at work. Every now and then I hear an insensitive remark that is said to me... this one may come close to the number one most insensitive, though asking about my mother's day is hard to beat... Anyways, I have a picture of Isabelle on my clipboard at work. When I'm having a tough time, I have here sweet face to look at... She is beautiful to me though I know she has some things about her that may make others think otherwise. It isn't graphic in any way. Her lips are black and she has some minor bruising on the face. It's one of the best pictures of her and one of my favorites. Though her lips are black, I've come to utilize tht and call her my little emo baby.. It makes me laugh to think of that. She was the cutest emo baby ever! I'm rambling.. anyways someone who makes deliveries to us stuck his head over the desk and stared at it. Then he said something that just floored me.... He said, "That's a really weird looking baby.." and had a screwed up look on his face... I was shocked... that passed and I was able to choke out that it was my stillborn daughter. Pretty sure he felt pretty awkward after that. He tried to save face, but the damage was done. I know it wasn't intentional, but cmon who says any baby looks weird? Have some sense when it's most likely someone close to the person who has the picture...

So that was a bit of a day ruiner. The day was super busy on top of that.

I went to cycling class and again completed my goal to finish the class! Mission accomplished!

VermontMom
05-20-2014, 08:17 PM
Got the best news ever on saturday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Drum roll please!!!!!!!!!

Isabelle's grave marker and vase were delivered to the cemetery..... I won't see her grow up, but I can make sure where she sleeps is always beautiful.
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Oh I am so glad for you! :hug:

VermontMom
05-20-2014, 08:20 PM
. Every now and then I hear an insensitive remark that is said to me... this one may come close to the number one most insensitive, though asking about my mother's day is hard to beat...

That delivery guy was a lunk!!! :mad: I'm so sorry that happened to you :(

congrats on doing the cycling class! :ebike:

seabiscuit
05-20-2014, 08:25 PM
Hi there...

How's everyone doing? My allergies are awful! I left volunteering early today because of hay fever!

Holly, Snickers finished all of his medicine, good boy. He is feeling better, more like his playful and curious self, thanx for asking.

Monte Cristo, that's funny! Yes I'm ready for allergy season to be over!!!

Believe, thank you for your encouragement and kind words. I'm a bit of an emotional eater though although not as bad as before.

Fi, thank you for your support. I am going to try WW points or calorie counting.

Take care, thanks!

Amy

IBelieveInMe2
05-20-2014, 08:27 PM
Sabrina: OMGosh, that is the most stupid and insensitive comment in the world that the delivery guy said!!!!!!! :mad: I am so sorry you have had to deal with such insensitive comments at work. :( Yep, that would ruin my day, too. All that matters, though, is that Isabelle is YOUR little girl and you will love her forever!!! NO ONE can take THAT away from you! Ever! :hug: I'm so happy for you that her grave marker and vase were delivered to the cemetery in time for Memorial Day. Nice that they are having a special mass there and that your plots are not too far from Isabelle. On another note, HOORAY for you on finishing your cycling class!!! Sorry to hear that Kentucky Kingdom over the weekend was a major bummer. It is always nice to hear from you! :)

MonteCristo: So sorry to hear that you have still been down. Your tenant sounds annoying! Good luck dealing with THAT situation! How are things with your Dad?

Trish: Wish there was something I could say or do to make you feel all better! Sending a big hug through cyberspace! :hug:

Gotta run! Will check back later!

VermontMom
05-20-2014, 08:29 PM
...Allergies have been crazy this year...I've been taking benadryl almost everyday for weeks. I saw a joke somewhere that allergies are so bad this year that the meth dealers will be turning the meth back into sudafed. :)

:rofl: that is hilarious! ( I'm a huge BB fan and miss it terribly!)

I never thought of garden work as organizing...interesting!

sorry to hear of the tenant giving you grief!! I know 2 people who are landlords, and they say they have the hardest time ever because of people like that. Then the eviction process, seems to be always seems to be in favor of the ahem, deadbeats!

I would take a little of your heat :D but not too much :devil: right now we have blackflies to deal with, you want to be outside because it's so beautiful and green and you want to dig and plant..but the blackflies BITE and the itch is awful. Right now I have three fresh ones I'm trying hard not to touch.

(dessert description warning!)
today for lunch dessert, I made some Cinnamon Chocolate cookies; for the gluten-free guest, I made some chocolate meringues. For dinner dessert, I made a Rhubarb-Raspberry compote, from rhubarb I picked fresh on the property; then I made Angel Food Cake; and left instructions to place cake in bowl, put some freshly whipped cream on, then a spoonful of the compote. I LOVE rhubarb sauce :D

I did not work out today...booo..but tried hard to eat less to make up for it.

seabiscuit
05-20-2014, 09:37 PM
Holly

Your desserts sound delicious! Feel free to post some recipes!!!

Black flies, are those the big flies that I call horse flies, they definitely do bite! I had a big bee in my apt the other day, I panicked!

Take care ;)

Amy

Fiona W
05-21-2014, 12:10 AM
Well, I'm still BERP-ing. Not much else to report.

Holly, I'm a huge BB fan, too: I watched the very first episode when it aired, and it sucked me in and turned me into a despicable JUNKIE! And now I have Heisenberg Withdrawal Syndrome! Arrrrggggh!

lostbutstilltrying
05-21-2014, 09:39 AM
Hello everyone! this looks like a very welcoming and supportive group. My name is heather I just rejoined the 3FC community and I have been posting in the 300+ for about 2weeks - but as I am really struggling with my bipolar (mostly depression) and anxiety right now I wanted to come over here because it makes me feel better to know I'm not alone. I promise I will catch up and read this thread latter today, but it is time for my chair exercises and I will take any excuse to get out of it, so I better not give myself one! Good to meet you all!

MonteCristo
05-21-2014, 10:37 AM
Ok, I feel like I should know what BB is, but I guess I have a mental block...

Hi Heather, and welcome to the group. :)

lilturtle
05-21-2014, 03:05 PM
The last few days have been a struggle for me. Lack of sleep was the main trigger. Today I found out there is a lot of pressure for me to move. I currently rent my apartment through a program for people with mental health problems. It's very affordable (only $350 a month). I am scared that I am not going to be able to afford more then a room in a boarding house somewhere. This is very stressful for me.

Diet wise I guess I am doing ok. I still haven't gotten on the scale though.

IBelieveInMe2
05-21-2014, 04:33 PM
Heather (lostbutstilltrying): :welcome: to the group! We do share lots of support and encouragement here, so feel free to jump right in! Sorry you are struggling with depression and anxiety right now. Most, if not all, of us can relate, so you are definitely NOT alone! :hug: Congratulations on your 35 pound weight loss so far! Keep on rollin' with it!!! We will be here to cheer you on! :cheer2: So happy you posted.

Amy: I think I cross-posted with you yesterday, so missed saying hello. Glad to hear that Snickers is feeling better. Are you all packed yet? When is the big move date? Sorry your allergies are giving you fits! :(

Holly: Are those big blackflies horseflies, as Amy asked??? I HATE those things!!! :fr: Any bug that bites is NOT a friend of mine! Your descriptions of your desserts are killing me, but thanks for the warning note beforehand, so that I can mentally prepare for my spontaneous salivating while reading. :lol: Have you been out on your bike lately?

Fi: Thanks for checking in! Keep on BERPing, but make sure you are taking adequate breaks, too! ;)

I am also lost on the "BB" thing. Is it a TV show?!? Please forgive my ignorance! ;)

Trish: So sorry you are going through a rough time and that there is pressure on you to move. :( I will keep you in my prayers. Hang in there! :hug:


Going to work out at 4pm, so gotta run! Take good care, everyone! :)

FleurDeLis
05-21-2014, 05:36 PM
Vermont- Cycling class is great. I think I'll go again on Friday hopefully.

ibelieveinme2- Yep, she's my little girl! :) Hopefully we can try KK again and it won't be so crowded.

seabiscuit- I call them horse flies too, until you mentioned that I wasn't sure if they were the same thing as black flies.

Welcome lostbutstilltrying!!! This is a great group, I know I get comfort from talking to everyone.

Monte- BB stands for Breaking Bad. It was a show about a chemistry teacher who began cooking meth in order to pay the medical bills as a result of his cancer. Really good show.

FleurDeLis
05-21-2014, 05:39 PM
lilturtle- I will keep you in my prayers in regards to your housing situation.

ibelieveinme2- Hope your workout goes well. I skipped my workout today because we're having some severe storms. Don't really want to get stuck at the gym longer than necessary and don't want the possibility of hail damage on my car. :/ This is the first day I've skipped in a long time, so I'm not worried. I'm more bummed out than anything. Today was a lifting day. I LOVE lifting!

VermontMom
05-21-2014, 11:23 PM
Heather -:welcome: to our group! VERY supportive and gosh so nice here :) I hope you feel as welcome as I do to say hi, gripe, sob, or smile :D

Sabrina - - bummer you missed out on your gym time! especially doing something you love! :love: do you lift heavy? I only have dumbbells that go to 15.

Kathleen - how was your 4 pm workout?

Trish-that must be really upsetting to have to deal with, I hope it works out! try to get some more sleep if you can :hug:

Fiona - chugging along with the BERPing! I bet you're so glad you started weeks before the arrival of the furry pouncers :) So you mourn the end of Breaking Bad as much as me?? for WEEKS after the last episode I would google "I miss breaking bad" to try to find support forums :rofl:

Amy - - I hope your allergies weren't as bad today, as the day you had to leave volunteering early.

Monte Cristo - Hi! I planted some annuals in pots for the deck and steps, and potted up some herbs - dill, mint, thyme, chives, parsley.

Sorry about the mysterious BB (Breaking Bad) reference, guys! of course it was the joke about the meth/allergy medicine that made me think of it.

Oh and up here (New England) 'blackflies' are small, bodies are bigger than say, a mosquito but they are small bugs. BUT they have teeth like razors! they HURT when they bike (yes, like a horsefly HURTS when they bite) and their bite can swell on some people, but itch like crazy for everyone. If I carry an AfterBite stick and use that right away, it's helpful. But if you scratch and break the skin, then use the AfterBite, it feels briefly like you poured gasoline on an open wound :eek: The best thing about them is that they do disappear in a couple weeks. Then we can enjoy being outdoors.

I did get to ride my motorcycle to work today, it was cool when I left home, about 42, but I layer up; and then the ride home was fan-tas-tic :cool:

Dessert description warning! Dried cranberry scones (recipe from King Arthur flour website, fantastic recipes there); ginger muffins with a tangy lemon glaze; raspberry walnut bars; and over 80 mile-high biscuits with a honey-butter wash.

You will think I am :dizzy: but during the summer, I do work one afternoon a week (Wednesdays) at the awful stinky deli/bakery store; it gives me gas/pocket money for the week, and I do like some of the customers. I was there today for the first time since mid-April, and it was so slow, I got to sit at the counter and play Candy Crush for almost an hour! and the best thing about it is when I am leaving after 4 hours with my cash :devil: Oh and the satisfaction of leaving the place cleaner than I left it.

So I won't have time in teh morning to say hey, it will be my one morning a week that I cook breakfast at the Club, to give the breakfast/lunch cook a day off. Then I do desserts for the day. So I will say hey tomorrow evening :cool:

Fiona W
05-22-2014, 12:29 AM
Another day of the BERP. I'm slowly but surely making significant progress. I'm looking forward to when I have a place to put all the stuff that's emerging from boxes. I'm almost there: I just need to twist Bob's arm a little harder, because he's promised to help me box books—an activity that gives me back spasms very easily—so I can move X & Y & Z into the freed-up bookcase space, thus opening up a small bookcase downstairs where I can start organizing paper & letters & stationery & stuff on its shelves.

My 13-yr-old great-niece Grace—who's very creative & wants to be a vet (cool!) when she grows up—is coming over on Saturday for her first 4-hour block of helping me sort clippings (i.e., images for collage) into the boxes I have all set up in my collage studio. That room used to be my writing room, during my career as a book reviewer and nonfiction writer, but it's slowly being transformed into a proper studio. I really look forward to the day—not too far in the future if Grace likes the work (I'll be paying her minimum wage) & comes back again & again to help me sort clippings—when I'll be able to walk into that room, and everything will be neat and orderly, in readiness for the creation of art. =happy sigh=

And the place downstairs where Bob's going to build the cat tower is almost ready for us to move into the design stage. I've been looking at some fabulous cat furniture on the Web, which is so expensive they say they will have to "quote you a price" after they sit down & discuss your needs (whoa...). I plan to shamelessly copy it, as best as I can tell from the photos, in drawing up my design. =wide grin= I've changed my mind about having it be natural wood, and am thinking instead of spray-painting the whole thing black—glossy black with as close to a mirror-like finish as possible. That would be so awesome, for our orange cats to climb up to the top of a modernistic black tower!

Tomorrow is my monthly weigh-in, first thing in the morning. I can't really tell if I've lost weight this past month, but it would be a nice surprise if I have.

Thinkin' about all of you...good night...

Fiona W
05-22-2014, 08:13 AM
Today was my monthly weigh-in, and I can't believe it: I lost 10 pounds! In one month! Gee, the BERP must really be burning some calories...

This means I finally completed my second mini-goal of getting down to 280. And at 272 now, I've taken a big step toward my third mini-goal of getting down to 260.

=big smile & raised eyebrows=

lostbutstilltrying
05-22-2014, 09:10 AM
MonteCristo, IBelieveInMe2, VermontMom and everyone thank you so much for the welcome! It will be really nice to be among people who can "get it" when I say I'm having a down day.

I finally caught up on the whole month of may thread and I have to say I am impressed! You folks really move and stick to your eating plans like pro's not to mention tackling tough stuff with considerable gumption! I hope you all know how awesome you are!

lilturtle - Hi! I think you are doing great, I hope that you can tackle the sleep issue - for me that makes everything, and every emotional swing much worse. Right now, I'm at a rough patch, so I am taking a sleep aid just long enough to get me back on track. Would that work for you?

FleurDeLis - I have been thinking about getting into a gym and trying some weight lifting, do you have any advice for a beginner?

VermontMom - I miss BB too! I think any TV show that gets you involved enough that you are regularly shouting at the TV characters is good TV

Fiona W - your collages are very cool! Super congrats on the 10lb loss!but please please tell me what BERP is, I am going crazy trying to figure it out!

To everyone else HI! I hope we can talk/type in the future!

I am off to go dig through my closet as I have my first job interview in almost 4 years tomorrow (I'm very anxious) and I have no idea what fits! Good luck, thanks for being here one and all - and have a good day!

Fiona W
05-22-2014, 09:29 AM
lostbutstilltrying— Sorry to be cryptic with the BERP reference: it stands for Big Entropy Reduction Project. It's a massive effort to declutter my house and bring order to my collage & other art supplies. Thanks for the kind words about my art! If you're interested, I made what I think is an amusing collage about the BERP. (https://www.flickr.com/photos/fi_webster/14055313141/) (The other folks have already seen it.) Good luck with your job interview! =smile=

MonteCristo
05-22-2014, 01:20 PM
Work sucks right now. I've been frantically trying to figure out what one of our departments is doing wrong to screw up all the money flow between the plants (I'm an accountant) and it has me so stressed. Every time I bring it problem up to that dept manager he just says "that's what we were told to do" which is not only supremely ridiculous (we would never ask someone to do the stupid they are doing) but it doesn't even matter. IT IS WRONG!! Quit trying to blame everyone and just SHUT UP AND LISTEN!! The problem must be fixed, Corp is getting very upset. I've been working all week long trying to find their problem, which is next to impossible because they've been doing work WITHOUT EVEN USING THE SYSTEMS!!! So it is all invisble. I've been having panic attacks again, and I can't sleep well and I'm so angry right now I could punch the dept manager right in his smug face. Thankfully my manager is just as pissed and has escalated it to the plant manager so hopefully that will get something rolling (she is great, always has our backs) but Jumping Jehosaphat it is FRUSTRATING!!! I haven't gotten a single other thing done all week, and my yearly goals are due today. I want to scream and cry and punch things and eat fattening food. I could really use a drink.

lilturtle
05-22-2014, 01:23 PM
lostbutstilltrying - Thanks. I didn't sleep much last night so I think I am going to call my doctor.

Fiona W
05-22-2014, 02:02 PM
MonteCristo— Oh man, I hear you about ultimo-frustrating screwups like that. My husband (who used to work for NASA) & I are both retired, but we are currently suffering due to the government causing our health insurance & pharmacy coverage to lapse despite the fact that my husband's retirement paperwork, all in order now, dates his retirement & continuation of benefits as September 2012! We have wriiten confirmation of our coverage and everything, but it's one of those deals where X agency needs to communicate Y info to Z person elsewhere. Despite dozens of phone calls by Bob & me, despite receiving more letters confirming that everything is supposedly in order, our insurance & pharmacy coverage is non-existent, even as I write these words. We're both paying for very expensive name-brand medications out of pocket, because what else can we do? I just hope we don't have a medical emergency! Anyway, sorry to prattle on: I just wanted to say I really understand how exasperated you are. But hang in there on the healthy food front: you know that binging out on bad stuff will just make you feel worse in the long run. You will be able, one fine day, to look back on this period of time and say, "Good for me! Even though I was stressed to the max, I didn't take it out on my body!"

Trish— Sorry to hear insomnia is dragging you down: it's not helpful to be feeling so poorly right when you're facing possibly having to move, is it? I hope your doc can help you, and I hope, too, that you get your living situation sorted out OK. I'll be sending positive vibes in your direction!

seabiscuit
05-22-2014, 03:48 PM
Hi!

I'm sorry that this isn't a long reply but I'm using my iPhone to reply and I don't have much battery life.

I got up early today to go take the train to Philly for medical appointments. I got caught in a rainstorm -lol!

Then I saw one of the new docs, this one was for my anemia. I think he is nice but I completely disagree with his insisting that his fellows will see me most of the time. I told him twice that it's my right to not be seen by them as I often feel uncomfortable. He said that the hospital is to teach students and we disagreed. I'm not sure what I'll do next. It's interesting though, at my ortho after him, I saw the fellow most of the visit and he was quite nice and thorough. I spent more time with him than my actual doc. I guess I'll rethink things.

Take care! Hi Holly, thank you, my allergies are still a pain! How are you? Hi to everyone else!

Amy

Fiona W
05-22-2014, 10:13 PM
Thanks for the encouraging words, lostbutstilltrying! Now that I know I'm 10 pounds down, suddenly I'm appreciating how much easier it is to get through some of the formerly tight-squeeze spots in the rooms I haven't cleared yet. Funny how it can work that way...before I weighed myself, I was actually wondering if some of the boxes had moved! =laugh=

Well, today I finally got Bob to help me box books in my collage room. He worked hard, too: he labeled the boxes with a jumbo marker exactly according to my instructions, not arguing with me once, and each time he got two boxes full, he carried 'em all the way down two floors to the basement—and those basement stairs are steep. Then he'd have a brief cool-down and get right back to boxing books again. I was working at the same time to square away the accumulated pile of sundry paper scraps and items worth clipping on my work table, so when my great-niece Grace comes over on Saturday, we'll both have places to put our boxes of clippings while we work at sorting them into the appropriate labeled boxes. Bob and I working together got a lot done!

Y'all would laugh if you could see our house right now: one of the most daunting aspects about this enormous job has been figuring out where to organize things, in rooms that had no open spaces. But now the solutions are just popping into my head. For example, once I got the stairs going up to the second floor cleared, I took post-it notes and on the wall over each step put a letter, or two letters, of the alphabet. My whole jumbled collection of little postcard books and boxes is being moved upstairs to the newly opened shelves in my collage room, so I'm using the stairs as a way of alphabetizing them. I'll grab half-a-dozen books/boxes of postcards, climb the stairs & put each one neatly on the side of the step where it goes—C for Cézanne, R for rabbits, V for Vienna, & so on—then come back down and do that again. After about four or five such trips, I get winded and have to rest, but slowly the collection is getting organized.

I'm already starting to fantasize about choosing some Saturday night in September and having Bob's whole extended family over to meet the kittens. I know what we're going to serve (wine 'n' cheese 'n' crudités), what cards I'm going to use for the invites, the whole bit. How spiffy the house will look by then! The few people we've allowed inside during the past five years will be totally gobsmacked! =grin=

seabiscuit
05-22-2014, 11:07 PM
Hi there!

Fi, way to go on the weight loss and getting organized!!!

I'm about to head to sleep...but I'm glad it stopped raining at least for now. I'm debating cutting my hair a bit shorter. Currently it's a few inches past my shoulders, I'm thinking of going just above my shoulders.

Wow, I'm sleepy...good night!

Amy

VermontMom
05-23-2014, 06:57 AM
lostbutstilltrying[/B];5008365]...
I am off to go dig through my closet as I have my first job interview in almost 4 years tomorrow (I'm very anxious) and I have no idea what fits! Good luck, thanks for being here one and all - and have a good day!

best wishes on the interview today! knock 'em dead :D

Fi, CONGRATS :cheer2: on 10 down! That is great. And I love the term 'gobsmacked' LOL. That will be wonderful for you to have people over when you haven't wanted to before.

Amy, hmm I would think also that you have the right to see the doctor and not students. Hope they see things your way!

Good morning to everyone else!

Hey, I got an unexpected raise at my summer job!! $1 an hour.

Rainy and grey here, I'm disappointed at being off my motorcycle more than on it so far. Oh well I will try to make up for lost time when I can!

I hope everyone has as good a day as possible. I do know that when things are bad, they seem insurmountable..but just sometimes, things are better the next day.

VermontMom
05-23-2014, 07:00 AM
lostbutstilltrying ;5008365]...
I am off to go dig through my closet as I have my first job interview in almost 4 years tomorrow (I'm very anxious) and I have no idea what fits! Good luck, thanks for being here one and all - and have a good day!

best wishes on the interview today! knock 'em dead :D

Fi, CONGRATS :cheer2: on 10 down! That is great. And I love the term 'gobsmacked' LOL. That will be wonderful for you to have people over when you haven't wanted to before.

Amy, hmm I would think also that you have the right to see the doctor and not students. Hope they see things your way!

Good morning to everyone else!

Hey, I got an unexpected raise at my summer job!! $1 an hour.

Rainy and grey here, I'm disappointed at being off my motorcycle more than on it so far. Oh well I will try to make up for lost time when I can!

I hope everyone has as good a day as possible. I do know that when things are bad, they seem insurmountable..but just sometimes, things are better the next day.

VermontMom
05-23-2014, 07:02 AM
oops too much coffee already this morning :D tried to delete it twice even.

seabiscuit
05-23-2014, 02:55 PM
Hi Holly!

How have you been doing? Congrats on the raise! Yay! I'm interested in learning how to cook like you!

I am tired, these allergies are awful! I'm going to the store shortly, I've just got to get some food!

I still have so much packing to do, yikes!

Take care!

Amy

lilturtle
05-23-2014, 03:14 PM
I got some sleep last night!! I feel so much better. I can work on stuff now.

lostbutstilltrying
05-23-2014, 04:43 PM
I am sorry, gonna keep this a short post. My interview didn't go well. It was for both 1 possible job and a training program. 90% sure no on the job, and I don't know if I will make it into the training program, although that looks better if I can get all my documentation together in time to pass the background checks.

I am sad, really disappointed - but I don't feel like eating my sad, so I guess that's something. And I walked 2 miles between buses, so there is that...

I will catch up more with everyone when I am feeling less down.

seabiscuit
05-23-2014, 05:18 PM
Hi there.

Lostbutstilltrying- :hug: I'm so sorry your interview didn't go well. I've had interviews that didn't go well either, I know how upsetting it is. :hug: kudos to you for getting out there and trying! I'm sure things will look up. Take care!

CDubsGotGoats
05-23-2014, 05:48 PM
Hi Everyone,

I have some catching up to do, my depression has been causing a lot of difficulty for me but things feel like they are picking up a little maybe. Thank you for checking <3

Chelsea

VermontMom
05-23-2014, 07:01 PM
Work sucks right now. I've been frantically trying to figure out what one of our departments is doing wrong to screw up all the money flow between the plants (I'm an accountant) and it has me so stressed. Every time I bring it problem up to that dept manager he just says "that's what we were told to do" which is not only supremely ridiculous (we would never ask someone to do the stupid they are doing) but it doesn't even matter. IT IS WRONG!! Quit trying to blame everyone and just SHUT UP AND LISTEN!! The problem must be fixed, Corp is getting very upset. I've been working all week long trying to find their problem, which is next to impossible because they've been doing work WITHOUT EVEN USING THE SYSTEMS!!! So it is all invisble. I've been having panic attacks again, and I can't sleep well and I'm so angry right now I could punch the dept manager right in his smug face. Thankfully my manager is just as pissed and has escalated it to the plant manager so hopefully that will get something rolling (she is great, always has our backs) but Jumping Jehosaphat it is FRUSTRATING!!! I haven't gotten a single other thing done all week, and my yearly goals are due today. I want to scream and cry and punch things and eat fattening food. I could really use a drink.

I meant to comment on this first thing after I read it!! I am soooo very sorry that this aggravating situation exists and that it is so frustrating for you!! :mad: :tantrum: :hug: I am glad to read that your manager is aware and has your back but I hated hearing about the smug dept. manager! Please resist that urge to eat fattening, bad-for-you food because you will only regret it and feel worse. Are you allowed to have a drink? I don't know if you abstain or are off it for life, if not, surely one drink wouldn't be too bad . I hope the situation gets taken care of and your stress dissolves :hug:

VermontMom
05-23-2014, 07:04 PM
I am sorry, gonna keep this a short post. My interview didn't go well. It was for both 1 possible job and a training program. 90% sure no on the job, and I don't know if I will make it into the training program, although that looks better if I can get all my documentation together in time to pass the background checks.

I am sad, really disappointed - but I don't feel like eating my sad, so I guess that's something. And I walked 2 miles between buses, so there is that...

I will catch up more with everyone when I am feeling less down.

Oh jeez I am sorry it seems that it didn't go well, lost! :hug: And that is a big something that you don't feel like eating your sad.

Hey I meant to comment on your sig line, about someone else being happy at being one's current weight..that is a kewl thing to remember, glass half full and keep things in perspective :)

VermontMom
05-23-2014, 07:05 PM
Hi Everyone,

I have some catching up to do, my depression has been causing a lot of difficulty for me but things feel like they are picking up a little maybe. Thank you for checking <3

Chelsea

Hey you! :) Yes we have been thinking of you and wondering. But sorry to hear your depression is making things not good for you. Just know that we are here for you!

Fiona W
05-23-2014, 10:17 PM
Chelsea— I'm so happy to see you reappear in this group! It's been kind of like a group therapy setting, all of us in a circle, except one chair, your chair, has been empty. Give us the lowdown...what's it been like for you? Is your life on the up and up?

Tonight I said to Bob that I wanted to make a happy collage showing two cats on a rug, their tails making spirals—the symbol of renewal & rebirth. He said, "'Sounds like wish fulfillment to me." What was that supposed to mean? I felt like he was raining on my parade. It's his parade, too!

And then I said I wanted to get some cushions for my outdoor lounge chair, the one on the deck with its lovely view of our little patch of forest. Bob said disparaging things about what happens to cushions like that when they get rained on repeatedly, how moldy & gross they get. When I replied that I would bring them inside, every time I used them, he said, "We don't have any space."

The BERP is all about making space, lots of space! I walk bags of paper out to the recycle bin every day, and bags of trash to the trash can. Why can't he see that? It's like he won't really have faith that the house is going to look spacious and orderly when I finish, until I do finish, and even then he'll have something pissy to say about some detail he doesn't like. =sigh= Why can't he share the dream with me, a dream of a better future when our environment will be pleasant, our cats will be happy & loving, and I'll be no longer fat? I can see that future coming, but he can't.

worththeeffort2
05-24-2014, 02:50 PM
Just back from a 90-minute. 3.5 mile interval workout. This is a picture of me before heading out, sporting my spanking new hi-viz yellow shirt that matches my visor and shoe laces, thank-you-very-much! I felt so bleeding coordinated for the first time in my life. ;)

Yeah. So, now I'm going to take my shower and crawl into bed to die. :D I totally kicked my own butt with this workout. I've been working so hard and been sticking to my eating program but not an ounce lost this week. I hope this doesn't indicate a plateau.

lostbutstilltrying
05-24-2014, 03:05 PM
seabiscuit and VermontMom thanks for the hugs about the bad interview. I am feeling much better today after a good cry, a good (healthy meal) and a good sleep! and pretty proud that I didn't binge when I was upset because that is a major problem with me! So - overall I am proud that I am making progress, trying to find work and step away from my eating issues.

And thanks for the comment on the sig line. I thought about that one day when I was cheering a loss for someone 50lbs heavier than me and I thought, if they have the right to be happy at that weight, why don't I?

CDubsGotGoats (I love that name by the way, I love goats!) have a hug () the down won't last forever!

Fiona W - sorry to hear hubby is struggling with changes. Just remember if he is grumpy it's probably because he liked his old life and might be a bit worried about it becoming too different - a compliment in a weird (although frustrating) way. Hang in there, he will jump up outta the dumps soon enough.

worththeeffort2 Hi! I like yr new shirt too!, what is/are interval miles workouts? sounds interesting

worththeeffort2
05-24-2014, 05:00 PM
lostbutstilltrying: an interval workout mixes periods of walking with bursts of fast walking or jogging. I have a series of recorded interval workouts I bought from Prevention magazine but I also just load music on my iPOD shuffle so the tempo varies between 100 and 160 beats per minute as the songs change.

The benefits of interval training is that you get a higher calorie burn and burn fat without burning muscle and the only equipment I need is my iPOD shuffle and a good pair of sneakers. Today was the first time I've done more than three miles.

IBelieveInMe2
05-24-2014, 07:57 PM
I just posted long personals and everything and LOST IT ~ again ~ in cyberspace!!! I will be logged in and then ~ after writing a lost post ~ it asks me to log in again and knocks my post out. Arrrrrrgh! I am reading along and will post again soon, but wanted to let you know that I'm okay. At the lake for a long weekend and going out to walk the dogs with our little family NOW!!! Hope all is well with everyone! Thanks for keeping this group rolling, even in my absence! You gals are AWESOME!!! :hug:

ohiofreespirit
05-24-2014, 09:38 PM
I hope this post finds you well.


Things here are ok. My house is a mess, I just can never seem to keep up.


I have been so down for so long. The Dr said I was on a bi-polar downer so she suggested putting me on Lamatical. I am starting to feel a little bit better. One more week, I can go up to 2 pills. It is a slow progression on this medicine.

I haven't been working out. I know I should but my motivation is zilch. I think at some point, I will but I have not yet hit rock bottom. Until then, I am still really happy with myself. I have a great life. I have a daughter who loves me. I have a roof over my head and a nice car. I am pretty and very kind to others. I love my jobs. I am very lucky so until the time comes when I lose some weight, it will just be icing on the cake.

My math class is going well. I passed my 1st Unit test. Now it is onto decimals, percentages and ratios. Word problems really give me fits but I just keep trying and passing my homework and tests. We have to get 80% on everything we do, even the tests. I actually enjoy math, even though I am not that great at it.



I miss you all and hope you are healthy and happy.

FleurDeLis
05-24-2014, 11:16 PM
Hey, hope everyone is having a good weekend. Mine has been good so far. Woke up today and got a haircut, mowed the lawn, and did a lot of homework for my government class. Ugh! That last bit was the worst part of the day.

We went to the cemetery today and got to see Isabelle's grave marker and vase. We bought some artificial flowers to have out there. It's very beautiful. We also installed an eternal lighthouse with a solar LED candle that will light up at night. It's so pretty. Went to mass afterward and then home to relax. I did MORE homework. I have this week off from class for Memorial Day, but I plan on working on assignment anyways to get ahead.

Hubby and I have booked a trip to Nashville, IN. It's a bed and breakfast that has HOT TUBS in the room!!!!!! YEAH! We had the trip set for last summer for our anniversary, but since I had gotten pregnant we cancelled it. No wine and no hot tub would have been a bummer. So we decided to make the trip this summer for our anniversary. I can't wait! :)

I've been doing really well eating wise. Smaller portions, counting calories as best I can. I'm so glad I have Monday off, the extra day will be nice to relax.

Vermont- I wouldn't say I lift heavy. I've only been into for about a month now. I bench a measly 35 lbs right now, but did two reps at 40lbs after my three sets the other day. Leg Press 210lbs, deadlift 60lbs, shoulder press 15lb db's, calf raises via leg press machine 210lbs. I do a few more lifts, but that's the gist of it. I've improved quite a bit from where I started.

lostbutstilltrying- Lifting is intimidating at first. Going into the free weight area will feel uncomfortable, but just go in and do your thing. It will feel awkward the first few times because you don't know where anything is and there are all these beefy people around. Focus on form. If you have terrible form, you'll end up hurting yourself. Also don't start heavy, make sure to work your way up to the heavy stuff. Also, if possible, use free weights and not machines. I only use two machines in my routine, seated row machine and the assisted pull up machine.

VermontMom
05-25-2014, 06:14 AM
Good morning! I am up pretty early. It's just so easy, with birds and approaching daylight which is SO nice. In winter I would not get up before 7:30 yikes.

Had dinner with our son, other son and his fiance last night, nice. Younger son nd fiance are getting married this Sept. 27. I am making their cakey dessert substance :D she would like Cake Balls. I know of them; never had one, never made them ... yet. I have 5 months to practice, lol

I had to be extremely direct (mean/b*tchy) to the new guy at work, he did something again which I had nicely asked him NOT to do, which affects my job. Well maybe now he will remember. My chef boss was right there and did not correct me so I know I was right :carrot:

Fi, i am sorry Bob is not sounding on board with the good changes! I hope he comes around and appreciates and can see 'the whole picture' soon.

Ohio, so good to hear from you, and i love your positive attributes :) I hope your new med takes effect SOON so you feel better.

Sabrina, you sure do alot on your days off :D I guess we have to, right, or else nothing would get done. I love the solar lights I have seen in cemetaries, they are beautiful, such a nice 'night light' for the ones we love. Kewl about the booked time away!

worthy - WOW 90 min. of intervals, you sure did kick your own butt, lol. High viz is the way to go! great advice from Sabrina to you about weights. Also tons of tutorials on youtube but as you know, just because it's on the internet doesn't mean it's right, lol. I have also read the benefits of free weights vs. machines, you exert more effort with free weights so maybe more benefits in shorter time...whatever works for you, wtih no pain or injuries. congrats on sticking to plan and I would say that the interval work plus counting calories SHOULD make some loss!! let's hope so!

Kathleen - oh, the lost posts are SO frustrating aren't they. Hope you have nice weather for time at the lake :) and good walks!

lost anytime we DON't turn to food in times of stress is great!! very glad you didn't and proud of you also.

Hi to Amy, Chelsea, lilturtle, Monte Cristo!

Oh I've been doing SO very well with light and relatively clean eating, despite the constant temptations at work; until last night, my younger son gave me some Lake Champlain (locally made) chocolate for a late Mother's day gift. The dark chocolate/coffee truffle bar made me lose control and i ate the whole thing 6 ounces I think, maybe 8 ounces :eek:

worththeeffort2
05-25-2014, 10:33 AM
Fiona: I'm sorry Bob is not being very supportive right now. I hope his mood changes for the better very soon. :hug:

Kathleen: I type up my longer emails in Notepad first. That way, I can read each person's post and respond to it, then just copy and past into the reply tool. I started using this approach after losing one of those long, personalized responses, too! :dizzy:

Ohio: Fantastic work on the math class. I've tried and tried to refresh my math skills because they truly aren't any good. I admire you for taking the class and doing so well. Keep studying hard. It will be so worth it! :cp:

Fleur/Sabrina: Your vacation sounds so relaxing and wonderful. Wine and a hot tub. ~sigh~ Maybe your hubby will toss in a foot massage to boot! :D You sure outdistance me in the lifting department! Great job! You're right the free-weights area is very intimidating. :strong:

Holly: Cake balls? Isn't that a Batchelorette Party dessert? ;) Do I sense the guests will be dining on cake balls on occasion during the next five months? Good for you for standing up to the new guy. You asked nicely once. You were direct the second time. B**chy doesn't come around until the third time when you bounce his head off the wall as a 'gentle' reminder. :)

Through my MyFitnessPal account, I received an email yesterday with links to some exercises to be done using free weights. Sabrina and Holly, with your encouragement here, after studying the form in the demonstration videos, I may just try the free-weight area of the gym on Tuesday. Can you hear my teeth chattering? :o

I'm off to visit my parents today and take them to the family cemetery to lay flowers. Since they are both elderly now and unsteady on their feet, I don't want them in a remote cemetery alone where one or both could fall. Even though my idiot brother has lived in their house with his wife and two children rent-free for more than two years, he doesn't do this sort of thing for them. So, I will drive up to pay a visit and lend a hand today to make sure all is safe and secure.

Happy Memorial Day weekend, everyone. Be safe.

seabiscuit
05-25-2014, 02:13 PM
Hi there everyone...

I'm exhausted because my allergies are terrible! I have so much to do with packing, cleaning, etc., but I just have not had the energy. Today I bought a few things at the grocery store, then I bought Snickers a big exercise ball, I think he will have fun with it.

Sorry for a short post, take care!

Amy

VermontMom
05-26-2014, 01:08 PM
Worthy - LOL @ the cake balls joke :D and hey, that's kewl that you decided to hit the free weights section tomorrow!! you go! :carrot: and thanks for your input on the co-worker, LOL! He seems to have straightened out..for now. And as for your brother and his family who aren't helping your parents, grrr...!You are a wonderful daughter to visit and drive them to the cemetary.

I'm always so confused about Memorial Day..is it for anyone who has passed away, or just vets?? You see the veterans honored of course but my family has always gone to the cemetary to place flowers on family members who are not military.

Amy - so sorry your allergies are making you miserable! :( Must get in the way of needing to continue your packing/moving process. I hope you feel better soon! and is the exercise ball the one that they can roam all over? sounds fun :D

Hi to Fi, , Kathleen, Sabrina, Monte Cristo, Ohio, lilturtle, Chelsea, lost; we haven't heard from coffeeshopgirl, project judi, 1life, nor hope for a while, I hope you are all good!

I have some bug bites that are making me :tantrum: I even took 2 benadryl last night to help..it did help but i got so very drowsy. Got the bites from cutting the grass yesterday, should have worn long sleeves!

I have off today, not because of the holiday, just that i have Mondays off; and it was wet this morning, then dried out, so I weedwhacked and it looks so nice and tidy. It is clouding up again., it just keeps changing. I have ridden to work a couple times now, but really want that to be every day. I could get on the bike now..but I really don't need to just ride for the purpose of doing it..don't want to go to a coffee shop because I would just be tempted.

worththeeffort2
05-26-2014, 02:24 PM
Holly: Memorial Day used to be Decoration Day, established to memorialize America's Civil War dead. Later it included all Americans killed in combat. Because families commemorate their relations who served, I think it was a natural progression that the opportunity started to be used to spruce up the graves of other family members, as well.

It was cloudy and raining when I took to the elliptical for a workout this morning. I did 60 minutes straight. Once I was done, I got to thinking about the fact that just six months ago, I struggled through only 10 minutes before having to stop to rest, gasping for breath. Today, I was turning up the resistance. I needed the extra calorie burn to compensate for that bratwurst I ate for supper last night. It wasn't a binge it was just a really high-fat, processed meat product that I shouldn't have eaten but that tasted SOOoooooo good. :)

lilturtle
05-26-2014, 05:01 PM
I watched Flags of Our Fathers last night in honor of Memorial Day. I am so grateful to the men and women that serve in our military. I know I can't so thank God for those that do.

My eating hasn't been all that great. I hope to get back on track this week and get on that darn scale.

seabiscuit
05-26-2014, 05:33 PM
Ugh! I just deleted a long reply! So frustrating!

Oh well, I'm having an ok day but it's too warm.

I've started packing more today but I have more to do. Snick doesn't like his new toy, he's scared of it so I'm returning it.

I'm thinking of going back to my fitness pal. The possibility of ankle surgery is becoming more real. I'm going to get another opinion, maybe I'll have it up where my family is, although I do like this surgeon.

Take care, have a good night!

Amy

lostbutstilltrying
05-26-2014, 07:02 PM
ohiofreespirit, I get your house related pain - I am pretty sure I have more mess than house at this point - if I am having a down or anxious day and I get the minimum done, everybody feed, clean enough and out the door then I give myself a pat on the back and that is good enough. Good job on the math test!

FleurDeLis, I have never been to Nashville and thought about going, because it’s not too far – be sure tell us how you enjoyed it when you get back. And thank you for the good advice about lifting!

VermontMom – I too am finding myself getting up earlier, but in my case, it’s because the dog and cats see the sunshine, hear the birdies and come jump on the bed until I wake up. Learn about alarm clocks silly animals!

worththeeffort2, good for you for taking care of your aging parents. I have often worked with the elderly and so many of them are forgotten by their busy younger families and they feel restricted and lonely. Sounds like you think they are worth the effort too!

seabiscuit – sorry to hear about your allergies, no fun at all! I misread your post at first and thought you bought a big snickers exercise ball and I was picturing a strange contraption that has a snickers candy bar in it that rolls away from you so you have to chase it down to get the candy bar. Sorry the kitty didn’t like it, I’ve had that happen and I think you’re smart to get a second opinion on the surgery. That is always a good idea

lilturtle – Hi! You can do it! You can get back on track!


I am doing better up-wise as well, am making progress on the job training front and although I have a much dreaded physical tomorrow, I feel like I can handle it. Eating is going well, exercise is going ok, just on a slight back pain delay - but my goal is to join a gym this week - I will not let my social anxiety stop me from going to do this, I can do this!

FleurDeLis
05-26-2014, 07:41 PM
Vermont- I used to think of Memorial Day only for veterans, but after losing Isabelle, I've decided it shouldn't just be for them. We made it a special day for Isabelle. Went to the mass at the cemetery and visited her grave again. She changed our lives and had such an impact on us, just like those who serve or have served our country. I know I'm definitely a busy body! Can't help it! As for getting up early, I get up during the week at 5:45am! I love the early sunrise because it makes going to work so much easier!

Worththeeffort- You can do it! Just crank up your music and focus on you. No one else really exists when I'm in that zone. Good luck!

Lostbutstilltrying- Let me know how lifting goes if you try it. Also there is a weight lifting thread here on this forum. I've found it really helpful.

I feel like I've been doing really well with my diet and exercise. I went to try on some clothes today at walmart, but was disapointed. :/ I won't go into the details, but I just feel like I'm not making any progress... Very depressing. I came home and cried. :(

seabiscuit
05-26-2014, 07:59 PM
Hi again!

Lostbutstilltrying- that's so funny about the exercise ball! Snickers is my pet guinea pig! He got his name because his coloring is like that of the caramel in a Snickers bar! :D Thank you for your support regarding the other opinion on my ankle, I appreciate it. How are you?

Fleur- I saw your post in the calorie counting forum, take care!

Toodles ...

Amy

worththeeffort2
05-26-2014, 08:22 PM
lilturtle: Sending you good vibes :goodvibes: that you are able to get back on track this week.

Amy: MyFitnessPal has really been working for me. I hope the ankle surgery is something you'll have the freedom to prepare for and schedule so you'll have the healthy foods around that you'll need while recovering. :carrot:

lostbutstilltrying: Thanks for your positivity. Yes, my parents are worth the effort, too--even though my mother can drive me crazy. :dizzy: You can totally overcome the social anxiety and start going to a gym! You can do it and you're going to feel so great! :cool:

Fleur: I'm sorry you had a disappointing day trying on clothes. I hope you bounce back and feel better about things tomorrow. :hug:

I had to take Benedryl to deal with my allergies after supper, so I'm barely awake at this point. It was a good day off. I even managed to prep a salad to take for my lunch tomorrow and packed my gym bag for after work. I'm looking at doing 20-30 min. with weight training and 60 min. of cardio. I'm really hoping to lose at least two pounds this week. Fingers crossed! :crossed:

ohiofreespirit
05-26-2014, 09:30 PM
Hello ladies,


I am so sick. Everytime I cough, I pee my pants. It's awful. I feel like I am going to cough up a lung. I am medicating myself to try to calm down the coughing and sneezing. I have to work tomorrow. I don't know what I am going to do? I don't want to make anyone sick. So anyway...

School is going well. I need to work on some schoolwork tonight in-between sneezes.

I am so sorry some of you are struggling with things, allergies, anxiety and weight. I am so sorry. Hello to everyone. *waves*


Much love to all.

IBelieveInMe2
05-27-2014, 01:41 AM
So very sorry that I didn't check in ~ except once (briefly) ~ during the LONG weekend! We kept pretty busy at the lake and entertained my 2 nieces all day Sunday. Got several walks in during the weekend, but they were shorter than planned. Ate decently, but snacked a bit, as usual up there. Haven't weighed in for a few weeks.

As a few of you have mentioned, I am also very thankful for the sacrifice that our military and their families have made so that we may live as we wish in this country. Especially remembering those who have made the ultimate sacrifice.

I don't know quite where to jump back in with personals, and I hate to say that I don't have the time for them tonight. I have to get some sleep. Please know that I am reading along and will check in whenever possible. I am so busy with the end of the school year for both my kids and preparing for an upcoming trip to Ireland. I will be without a computer and wi fi while there, so please keep on posting and welcome any new people to the group! I will be here to start up the June thread, though. For safety reasons (for lurkers), I don't want to give the exact dates of our trip, although someone is staying at our house with the pups.

So happy to see that Chelsea checked in, but sad that you have been struggling. :( I am keeping you in my prayers. :hug: I often fall asleep thinking of our group and praying for everyone. It is wonderful to know you are all here! :grouphug:

seabiscuit
05-27-2014, 06:49 AM
Ohio,

It's good to hear from you! I hope you feel better! I've had a dry cough lately, it's no fun, hugs! :hug: take care and it's nice to see ya!

Believe,

It's nice to hear from you! I understand that you get busy, take care. I am also grateful for the military service that so many gave to our country. Take care!

ohiofreespirit
05-27-2014, 12:04 PM
Hello friends,

I cancelled working with one client and I am waiting to hear from another one to see is she wants me to come work with her, when I am sick.


Today is my daughter's 21st birthday. I have no idea what to get her?

I hope you all are well. You are in my heart.

Fiona W
05-27-2014, 12:22 PM
It feels like it's been a long time since I posted: I've been so busy with the BERP! I had a great time Saturday when my 13-yr-old great-niece Grace came over to help me sort clippings up in my collage studio. She was a whiz at it! I gave her some gifts to help move her along in her own collage efforts, and from all reports she had a splendid time, too. Plus, I paid her for the four hours—minimum wage, which seems reasonable for her age. =smile=

The rest of this week I have to focus on getting ready for the book guy to come on Saturday: I'm giving away some 1500-2000 books to a local charity, for distribution to schools & prisons—plus for selling, perhaps, to support the running of the charity. There's a lot of unshelving and sorting of books to do before I'll know what I'm getting rid of. Bob has promised to help me with the unshelving part today, because that activity, when I did it once in the past, caused a painful back spasm that crippled me for days. Onward we go!

Ohio— It's nice to see you back posting regularly: I sure hope you feel better soon!

Amy— You posted, but you didn't say anything about what's going on with you! What's the latest news?

Best wishes to everyone else...I'm reading your postings & thinking about you, just really crunched for time!

MonteCristo
05-27-2014, 12:43 PM
I'll try to do a personal post tomorrow. I feel like I haven't talked to y'all in ages! :)

My manager kicked butt and took names over the whole "issue" last Friday when I was out. And has decided that we are not going to fix it for them, just give them guidance, which really relieves the pressure for me. Although I didn't enjoy having a meeting about it at 8am today, lol. So, hopefully this is mostly resolved and won't cause that much more stress.

But when one thing goes away, another comes up. My aunt, uncle and grandma are going to be visiting today. Normally that would be a good thing, but my family, being Italian, is very loud and argumentative about everything. I used to be okay with that, but since the whole divorce fiasco I have what I can only describe as PTSD about family conflict. Last time he was here he ended up having an argument with my dad and I completely freaked out. Like curled up in a ball hyperventilating and crying. It was not good.

My littlest sister had her ninth birthday yesterday. And guess what she wanted? Real handcuffs, lol. Specifically not those lame ones at wal-mart that just open with a button. And another sister ordered her a cane with a dragon on top. My family is so weird. My 14 yo brother got a cane and a pipe for his last birthday. No, he doesn't smoke, just thinks it is cool. They also caught a snake and were feeding it toads in the backyard. I never know what I'm going to find when I go home now. Crazy kids!!

VermontMom
05-27-2014, 03:28 PM
It was cloudy and raining when I took to the elliptical for a workout this morning. I did 60 minutes straight. Once I was done, I got to thinking about the fact that just six months ago, I struggled through only 10 minutes before having to stop to rest, gasping for breath. Today, I was turning up the resistance.

That right there is one of those great Non-Scale Victories! :carrot:


My eating hasn't been all that great. I hope to get back on track this week and get on that darn scale.
I hope you get back on track, lilturtle!



I've started packing more today but I have more to do. Snick doesn't like his new toy, he's scared of it so I'm returning it.

I'm thinking of going back to my fitness pal. The possibility of ankle surgery is becoming more real. I'm going to get another opinion, maybe I'll have it up where my family is, although I do like this surgeon.

Take care, have a good night!

Amy

sorry that Snick is scared of his kewl ball :( it was nice of you to think that he'd enjoy it. If you got another opinion, would you have to give up the surgeon you do like?



I am doing better up-wise as well, am making progress on the job training front and although I have a much dreaded physical tomorrow, I feel like I can handle it. Eating is going well, exercise is going ok, just on a slight back pain delay - but my goal is to join a gym this week - I will not let my social anxiety stop me from going to do this, I can do this!

I hope you got through the physical today without too much angst..and congrats on the goal to join a gym this week! and LOL @ what you thought the Snickers/exercise ball was :rofl:



I feel like I've been doing really well with my diet and exercise. I went to try on some clothes today at walmart, but was disapointed. :/ I won't go into the details, but I just feel like I'm not making any progress... Very depressing. I came home and cried. :(
I am soooo very sorry to read that :( I have done that also!! and it especially SUCKS when you think that you've exerted such effort and gone hungry and sweated, and not found joy in a smaller size :( BUT i bet that it will happen soon for you! hang in there Sabrina :hug: I try to not get too hurt by thinking of the positives that are happening that aren't visible...yet.

Hello ladies,


I am so sick. Everytime I cough, I pee my pants. It's awful. I feel like I am going to cough up a lung. I am medicating myself to try to calm down the coughing and sneezing. I have to work tomorrow. I don't know what I am going to do? I don't want to make anyone sick. So anyway...

School is going well. I need to work on some schoolwork tonight in-between sneezes.

I am so sorry some of you are struggling with things, allergies, anxiety and weight. I am so sorry. Hello to everyone. *waves*


Much love to all.

I'm so sorry you're so sick! :( i sure hope you feel better soon. Oh and Happy Birthday to your daughter :)

Kathleen - Oh Ireland will be so great!! we will miss you so much but we will continue our support as if you were here :D



The rest of this week I have to focus on getting ready for the book guy to come on Saturday: I'm giving away some 1500-2000 books to a local charity, for distribution to schools & prisons—plus for selling, perhaps, to support the running of the charity. There's a lot of unshelving and sorting of books to do before I'll know what I'm getting rid of. Bob has promised to help me with the unshelving part today, because that activity, when I did it once in the past, caused a painful back spasm that crippled me for days. Onward we go!


...Holy...schnikees! :D That's alot of books!!! I gave away close to 500 last year, and I know how many boxes that is, I carried them all downstairs and out to the car. Do take care with you back! and arms!


My manager kicked butt and took names over the whole "issue" last Friday when I was out. And has decided that we are not going to fix it for them, just give them guidance, which really relieves the pressure for me. Although I didn't enjoy having a meeting about it at 8am today, lol. So, hopefully this is mostly resolved and won't cause that much more stress.

But when one thing goes away, another comes up. ....! I am sure glad that the pressure on the work issue is relieved for you. And I hope the family visit is not so stressful as that last time.

Well I am having a much better day today, than yesterday! and all because it hasn't rained since last night. So this morning after coffee I did work out, then finished mowing the side yard, then went to town for errands and few food items, now back home and it's only 2:30 pm :) I could do a quick trip to town on my motorcycle but I really don't have any destination. Suppose I could pick up a quart of skim milk :D and I hope to be able to ride to work for the next few days, no rain forecast...yet.

I think I'm also down another pound :carrot: As of now, I am almost just 10 pounds away from my lowest adult weight, 142. That is hard for me to grasp because I still feel so pudgy. Our minds are weird aren't they :dizzy:

lilturtle
05-27-2014, 04:31 PM
Ohio - I hope you feel better soon!

Thank everyone for the encouragement. I did good yesterday so I may be back on track. I had a meeting today with the people I rent my apartment from and the pressure to move is not as great as I thought. They just want me to be moving in that direction by doing things like filling out applications and getting on waiting lists. So that is a relief.

seabiscuit
05-27-2014, 07:15 PM
Hi there...

Fi... Thanks for asking about me. I still don't understand what the BERP is...

I am okay, just very tired and I have a lot of things to do, especially packing. I feel like a bomb went off in my place, ugh. :^: I have 2 weeks as of tomorrow to finish packing, I feel very overwhelmed. Sigh, thanks for asking but things feel a bit unnerving right now between lining everything up for the move and getting my healthcare from Medicaid to transfer over. Ugh!

Holly- thanks for your concern, I don't plan on telling my current surgeon about getting another opinion, I like and respect him very much but my hospital experience when I had my first operation was a nightmare, not his fault. His staff apologized but it has left mental scars, I like him a lot but I feel rather nervous after that experience. I've made an appointment with an orthopaedic surgeon in NY, a top notch hospital. I'd prefer to recover with family, not strangers. I also found out that the hospital may provide financial assistance due to my not having much income.

Yes, it's funny about Snickers not liking his ball, that's ok, I'll return it.

Have a good night.

Amy

lilturtle
05-27-2014, 10:24 PM
Amy - I hate moving and packing. I am so unorganized by nature. You have my sympathy. Just think it will all be over in a couple of weeks and you can move on to unpacking which to me at least seems less daunting. I dread the time I am going to dace when I move from here.

That reminds me...I really need to organize. Any tips Fi?

lilturtle
05-27-2014, 10:29 PM
Oh I got on the scale this evening. Yes I know you are supposed to do it in the morning but I just had to do it when I had the courage. Down 11 lbs since 4/29. YAY!

I just realized something - I have lost over 100 lbs in less then a year!!!!!

lostbutstilltrying
05-28-2014, 09:38 AM
IBelieveInMe2 – welcome back to posting! Enjoy your busy and fun summer season!

seabiscuit – sorry things are chaotic and unnerving, this too shall pass! And it sounds like to you a well thought out surgery and recovery plan – do what’s best for you.

ohiofreespirit – sorry to hear you are not feeling well. You know what helps a stupid (pee oneself) kind of cough – gargling warm salt water a couple times a day and vicks vapor rub on the bottom of the FEET (under socks) when you sleep – crazy, but it really helped me! For a 21 yr old, dinner and money? I know that sounds trite, but at that age I loved going out to dinner somewhere nice and was often saving up for things.

Fiona W – wow that is a lot of books! Do be careful of your back!

MonteCristo – I think most people are getting busy as the season changes, and all of us will be in and out more. Sounds like you have an active and fun life, what helps me is realizing that if I love my family and respect them as adults I have to let them solve their own problems and ignore it while they pick fights (a lot of my family are drunks and nut cases) Whatever you do, don’t take all the burden and none of the fun from their visit.

VermontMom – I’m glad to hear your doing much better today, you always take time to say the kindest things to everyone and we appreciate it very much! And WOW! on getting so close to your lowest previous weight – that is super impressive! You are an inspiration!

ilturtle – glad to hear things are getting better! You can do it, you can stay on track! And CONGRATULATIONS ON THE LOSS! And on 100 LBS IN LESS THAN A YEAR SUPER AWESOME!!!!!!

lilturtle
05-28-2014, 01:59 PM
I still am in shock that I have made it past 100 lbs. I still have a ways to go and I haven't seen much difference myself. I will with the next 100 though. My goal is to be down in the twos by the end of the year.

ohiofreespirit
05-28-2014, 04:26 PM
I still am in shock that I have made it past 100 lbs. I still have a ways to go and I haven't seen much difference myself. I will with the next 100 though. My goal is to be down in the twos by the end of the year.

That is so wonderful. I am so proud of you. :hug:


I am feeling a little bit better today but just a little bit. I am getting ready to leave for school. I have to drive to Columbus for my Math class.

Have a great day everyone. I will try to get back in here tomorrow.

Fiona W
05-28-2014, 06:25 PM
Another day of dealing with books—moving out unwanted books buried in the far corner of the dining room, dusting off books piled up in the downstairs hallway and sorting them into keepers & nonkeepers, carrying up books on the stairway that go in my collage studio, and so on. It's exhausting, of course, because books are so heavy, especially art books. But the good news is, the work Bob & I did yesterday cleared out a whole floor-to-ceiling segment of the huge built-in case that Bob built (years ago) in our living room. That means there are spaces for the recent keeper books to go. I'm especially pleased to be bringing together all my scattered books on collage, and on the Dada & Surrealism movements, since they provide me with a lot of inspiration.

This morning something happened that reminded me of how short a time it's been since I went binge-free and sugar-free. I had a number of errands to run, starting with the post office and on from there to the drugstore. As I was walking out of the P.O., I was slammed by a sudden downturn in my mood. I got in my car and sat there a while, thinking, "Why do I feel so depressed, when morning is my best time of day?" And then I realized: I used to buy candy at the drugstore, so going to that store is no idle proposition.

Even after figuring that out, I still had trouble when I got to the drugstore, because they'd rearranged everything, so I couldn't just grab what I needed quickly. I walked and walked down the rearranged aisles, looking for one elusive item. It seemed like every aisle had candy on it! I had to walk by this candy display and that candy display, where I could smell the chocolate right through the packaging. It was an ordeal, I'm telling you.

I wonder how long it'll be before encounters with cookies, candy, and donuts don't make me miserable. They don't incite cravings anymore, but they do come loaded with all those negative emotions I used to feel while binging—almost always in my car, 'cause I was ashamed to do it at home. =sigh=

Amy— BERP stands for Big Entropy Reduction Project—a massive decluttering and reorganizing effort all through my whole two-story house. Good luck with the packing!

Trish— How utterly fabulous that you have lost 100 pounds in less than a year! Man, it took me 20 months to lose the first 50 pounds, and I have a ways to go before I'll have lost 100. I am most impressed! =smile=

lostbutstilltrying— You wrote personals to everyone but didn't say how you are doing. What's up in your life?

Holly— 10 pounds away from your lowest adult weight is terrific! Just hang in there until your mind gets with the program: you're doing great, gal. When I get to 10 pounds away from my lowest adult weight, I'll be 5 pounds away from my goal: I'll probably post a video of celebration, or something equally extreme...

IBelieveInMe2
05-28-2014, 08:14 PM
This is about the 5th LOOOOOONG post with personals I have lost recently with one faulty click of a button on my keyboard!!!!!!!!! :mad: :devil: I am going to try the idea of copying and pasting from a notepad or Word. Hopefully, I will have time to finish getting to everyone this time around....... again! ARGGGGGGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :dizzy:

Wishing everyone well in the meantime! :wave:

IBelieveInMe2
05-28-2014, 09:16 PM
Okay, I am trying this post by copying and pasting from a Word document! Let’s see how this goes…..

Chelsea: I was SO incredibly happy to hear from you, but sorry to hear that you have been really down. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers! :hug: Hope things turn around for you SOON!!!

Trish: CONGRATULATIONS on your weight loss, especially losing 100 pounds in one year!!! That is FANTASTIC!!!!!!! At this rate, you will get to your goal of being in the 200’s by the end of the year! How exciting!!! I am so happy for you!!! I am also glad to hear that there isn’t as much pressure on you to move as you originally thought.

Holly: Congratulations to YOU on being only 10 pounds away from your lowest ever adult weight!!! That is truly INCREDIBLE!!! Good for you! I get the feeling you are a “get ‘er done” type of gal! I need some of that!!! Thank you again for all of your thoughtful and kind responses to everyone in the group. I really appreciate it! You are such an asset to this group!

Amy: So sorry you are feeling so overwhelmed with all of the packing you need to do, along with everything else. Try to do just ONE thing at a time and continue to BREATHE! This too shall pass. You will be moved, life will go on, and ALL will be well….. soon! I hope you come to a peaceful decision on your surgery and surgeon. Too bad you had that horrific experience last time. Don’t blame you for not wanting to go through THAT again! I will keep you in my prayers as you continue to pack, move, and make decisions about the surgery. You have a lot on your plate right now. Please try to be patient with yourself!

Fi: Holy cow, you are the ONLY person I know of that has more books than I do!!! I hope your back holds out as you move all of those heavy books around! It sure sounds like you are getting a lot accomplished in your house. That is great!!! Keep up the good work! That is interesting about your experience before and at the drug store. You have such great insight into yourself and your behaviors. As someone who is always trying to analyze my own and others’ behavior, I admire your self-knowledge. You are an inspiration to me in this regard! Knowing WHY you are behaving a certain way is often half of the battle! Good for you for RESISTING all of that candy you had to pass in the aisles of that drug store!!!

ohiofreespirit: It is great to hear from you again, but sorry you have been so sick! I am glad to hear that you feel a bit better today. Hopefully, you are on the mend! I was also on Lamictal for a long time to prevent the really low lows. I just tapered off of it around the end of 2013. I think it did help me, and I was able to go off without event now that I am feeling more UP. I hope it will help you. Funny that you are driving to Columbus for your Math class. You are in my neck of the woods then! Is it at DeVry here in Columbus? I know you said that at least ONE of your courses would be at DeVry. Hope school is going well for you this quarter/semester. I also hope your daughter had a happy 21st birthday. What did you end up getting her?

Sabrina: So sorry you had that awful experience trying on clothes at Walmart. I can so relate to that experience and the depression, frustration, and disappointment that go along with it. Been there LOTS of times. Be patient with yourself! Your pregnancy was really such a short time ago. You will get to where you want to be in time. Glad that you made it back to the cemetery to visit Isabelle’s grave for Memorial Day. I really like how you said that you can always make sure that she has a “beautiful place to sleep.” You are a great mother!!! (insert hearts) I am so happy to hear that you and your hubby are going to go on that trip to Nashville (IN?) this summer ~ complete with wine and a hot tub in your room! No doubt you both need it after all you have been through! :hug:

lostbutstilltrying: It is great to see you continue to post and to post personals, but do please also tell us how YOU are doing! We care and we want to be here to support you, too! How did your physical go? Have you mustered up the courage to join a gym yet? YOU CAN DO IT!!!

worththeeffort2: You are doing SO WELL with exercise!!! Glad to hear that you realize how far you have come! Hope that helps to boost your mood at least a little! Thanks for the tip on typing up a response separately and copying and pasting it to the reply link. It is SO frustrating to lose a post that I have put so much time into….. let alone five!!!

MonteCristo: Your family sounds very interesting….. like mine! Never a dull moment! I hope the visit with your aunt, uncle, and grandma went well and without event. So sorry that you had such a traumatic experience with the argument between your uncle and dad last time. I hate family conflict, too! Hope your little sis had a happy 9th b-day!!! Did she get her “real” handcuffs?

Well, I worked out with my trainer yesterday, but need to still work out today. I am extremely frustrated with my body and house clutter, but determined to CONQUER it….. one day at a time!!! It is a daily challenge for me. Food could be better. Still working with the doctor on getting to the correct dose of thyroid med. Weight has maintained at about 214. Can’t wait to get back into the 100’s. I CAN DO IT!!! Please, Lord, HELP ME!!! :^:

seabiscuit
05-28-2014, 10:30 PM
Hi there...

I am glad to be seeing my therapist tomorrow after seeing the vet for Snicks nail trim and picking up his records.

I appreciate all of the kind words. Just to clarify, I think my surgeon is awesome and I have decided to have him do the next surgery. It was frustrating with being stuck a lot for an IV at my last surgery which was so upsetting. I think that the surgery has been a great help in my daily life.

So I don't remember when I last told you about my 'iffy' friends, well one of them decided to be a complete @ss to me, so I am glad that I know his true feelings so I won't waste time with him.

Have a good night. I hope tomorrow is better.

Amy

lilturtle
05-29-2014, 03:36 PM
I had to go down to the social security office because I need a new card. It was a zoo and just as bad as going to a welfare office. I am a little grumpy today. It's raining and I got like 4 hours of sleep. The person who took me also treated me to Subway so that was nice.

lostbutstilltrying
05-29-2014, 05:11 PM
Hi all! short post today as it is a down day - just a note to let ya know where I am at - kinda sorta passed my physical, did the physical lifting and bending and walking part just fine, which I am happy about because I was worried about it. BUT when they found out I have absense (small) seizures, they said I might not qualify for training and a job. I haven't been able to afford a neurologist in years, but I booked an apt with one and I have to see if he will give me meds and a note that will let me work -

The job training place will let me take the classroom part of the training, 40 hrs a week for 5 weeks, but if I can't get the doc to sign off on me working in patient care (in the next 5 weeks) I get the boot and no certification and no job (after all that work) it's very nerve wracking.

but what really tipped my day over to the sad side of the force was getting made fun of when I tried to run for a bus. Not only was I really really bad at running (couldn't even run a few steps) but people shouted at me to "run fat lady run" and then complained that I smelled when I got on (I was red and sweaty from running a block)

now I know these people were jerks and that I am out of shape which is what I am working to change, but it still made me cry ...... stupid jerks

I will catch up with everybody later, and I WILL work up the nerve to join the gym, just haven't done it yet (but the weeks not over yet) It's 3pm and I am just now eating lunch as those stupid bus jerks made me so ashamed of myself I couldn't eat at lunch time.

love to everybody

seabiscuit
05-29-2014, 05:59 PM
Hi there...

Hi little turtle!

Lost but still trying- :hug: I'm so sorry people were mean to you. I have been made fun of because of my weight too, it's mean. Hugs. :hug:

Good luck with the neurologist. I have seen neurologists for migraines.

Take care.

Amy

worththeeffort2
05-29-2014, 09:56 PM
lostbutstilltrying: I am so sorry you encountered those ignorant jerks today. I'm sure many of us have been there, too, and understand the pain you feel at being singled out. I'm glad you allowed yourself to cry in order to vent the pain. I hope you're able to let that pain go now. You're a beautiful person. We're all here to support you! :hug:

IBelieveInMe2
05-30-2014, 01:36 AM
lostbutstilltrying: I am so very sorry that those stupid jerks were so mean to you when you were running for the bus. :devil: That really makes me angry!!! :mad: Please consider that they are just rude and insensitive people and try to let it go. I know that is way easier said than done, but jerks like that do not deserve your time or energy!!! :( I am sending you COURAGE for joining the gym! Do it for YOU!!! You deserve to be healthy and fit! :hug:

lilturtle
05-30-2014, 02:37 PM
lostbutstilltrying - Sorry that happened to you. :( That would upset me too.

Not much to report. Eating almost the same thing every day. I think I will weigh myself over the weekend.

VermontMom
05-30-2014, 07:32 PM
lost, :hug: I am so sorry those ignorant soulless beings were such jerks, oh how it hurts to hear crap like that :( You just keep on being you and we are on your side hon!!!!

I will be back to say hey to everyone soon, gotta clean up from dinner but had to give lost a hug!

worththeeffort2
05-30-2014, 09:36 PM
Hit the gym hard this week. My muscles are tired and sore but I'm hoping I accomplished a big time fat burn. Since I was unchanged last week, I'm crossing my fingers that I lose two pounds this week. Sunday is my monthly weigh and measure.

The next doctors appointment is this coming Thursday. I suspect I'm going to be moved into the transition stage of the weight loss program, so I'll move out of ketosis and back to eating carbs. I plan to continue avoiding refined sugar but honestly, I am truly looking forward to being able to have a sandwich.

lostbutstilltrying
05-31-2014, 09:53 AM
thank you for the hugs everyone, knowing that people care makes a difference. I will pick up and keep going on, I hope that everyone has a good weekend

worththeeffort2
05-31-2014, 10:06 AM
I saw the attached image on Facebook and snatched it to share here because it speaks to my journey and I think it might speak to others, as well.

If you can't read the image, it says: "It's not that some people have willpower and some don't. It's that some people are ready to change and others are not."

It's the same epiphany I came to a few weeks ago, when I was struggling so much. It's not a matter of can and can't. It's a matter of will and won't. When I'm fighting for each step on the treadmill, track, or elliptical, I repeat that phrase to myself before chanting inside my head, 'I will take this step.' Doing that forces me to own my choices.

Have a blessed day, everyone.

seabiscuit
05-31-2014, 11:11 AM
Hi there...

I love the positivity in this thread, which I need to hear! I have a head cold and I'm trying to get ready for my move. I'm pretty tired...

Take care and my apologies for a short message...

Amy

Fiona W
05-31-2014, 07:13 PM
Well, Darryl from Books for America came today, and left with about 800 books. Not as many as we hoped he'd take, 'cause the woman who talked to me on the phone told me erroneously that they take hardcover fiction that's older than two years—which they don't. So I still have at least 700 more books to get rid of.

But one good thing about living in the DC area is that a lot of charities have their main offices nearby. Darryl told me that another organization, American Veterans, will pick up the remainder of what we have, so long as it's in boxes or bags. (Books for America was great 'cause they provided their own boxes.) I can't imagine someone carrying a bunch of heavy hardcovers out to a truck in bags, but as it happens, my BERP efforts so far have freed up some boxes. Not enough, though—I have to do more BERP-ing to come up with more boxes. It's amazing how many boxes of miscellaneous paper I have squirreled away everywhere!

I just re-read those two paragraphs. I need to apologize to y'all for how utterly boring my postings have been of late. Opening boxes, clipping images, sorting clippings, moving books from one place to another—it's all paper. That's my life, doing various things with paper: before the BERP, during the BERP, and after the BERP. You can't be a collage artist if you don't love paper, that's for sure. But these days I don't have time to make art with paper, 'cause all this fuss is about getting excess paper out of our house—plus bringing some order to the great mass that remains. =sigh=

Since Sunday night is our weekly date to have our niece Margaret and her son Gavin over, and I have to do some grocery shopping before that, tomorrow doesn't count as a day off. Therefore, I have decided to declare Monday a day of rest—from the moment I wake up...until I fall asleep that night. So there!

I'm just about climbing the walls here...I've had three episodes so far of completely breaking down and freaking out about the BERP. I don't want to have another one! When I became bipolar, I lost all my tolerance for stress...and this whole multi-week ordeal is STRESS CITY.

I hope y'all are having a more fun, more restful weekend than I am. =smile=

seabiscuit
05-31-2014, 11:15 PM
Hi there!

Fi, way to go regarding your huge progress with your BERP! Wow, that's awesome!!! :carrot: :D

I, too get overwhelmed easily, stress is my enemy, ugh! I've become better at it but I still struggle.

Today I went to the doctor, I saw a doctor in my family physicians group, he was very kind and caring, I felt like I have some confidence in him, which feels great. He switched my antibiotic and slowly, I'm feeling better. I really didn't feel up to going to the doctor but I'm so glad that I did.

I restarted my Ok Cupid profile, I've been so pleasantly surprised by some nice guys. I chatted with one tonight on the phone, I am quite elated! He seems very kind, funny and sweet, also sincere. Warm fuzzy feeling!!!

Have a good night ladies!

Amy ;)

IBelieveInMe2
06-01-2014, 12:13 AM
At the lake. Food has been good, except for a piece of ice cream cake for my daughter's 15th birthday today. Walked some today and did a few exercises, but plan to walk more/further tomorrow. I love reading all of the posts here and being a part of such a supportive group! You ladies are wonderful!!! Please remember to watch for the June 2014 Ups & Downs Support Group thread...... coming SOON!

lilturtle
06-02-2014, 10:43 AM
My eating was very good over the weekend. Under 1000 calories both days. I'm really feeling motivated. Today I go to the grocery store. I go once a month. While I didn't get any junk food, the temptation is going to be there to binge on some of the healthier snacks I got. If I do that just means no snacks for the rest of the month as I won't be going back to the grocery store.