Weight Loss Support - How do you feel when you look at your BEFORE before pictures?




divinechaos
01-28-2014, 11:49 AM
Like, before you gained a lot of weight. I've been overweight ever since I was little, but when I look back at pictures of me when I weighed 180 pounds... I can't believe the self-image I had back then. I might've been overweight, but I didn't look unhealthy like I do now:

http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-5mehbb0cV2o/Uufbx3GiM6I/AAAAAAAAAJ4/vh3UYWPJ2fI/s1600/Make+up+(2).JPG

That was taken when I weighed between 180-200 pounds.
As heartbreaking as it is to look in the mirror and see how I let myself go (100 pounds later...) it's also kind of encouraging to look back at these pictures and know someday, I will be confident again.

Do you ever look back at your old pictures and get encouraged? Do you post them anywhere to keep yourself inspired?

I know looking at other people's before and after pictures is extremely inspiring/motivating, but do you find inspiration when looking at your old pictures of your smaller self?


rubidoux
01-28-2014, 12:02 PM
Ya know, there are hardly any pics of me pre-gain. For a lot of my 20's I weighed between 120 and 130 pounds, but the only pic I have is wearing a big leather jacket and you can't really see my body at all. You can see that my face/neck are much slimmer, but it's a terrible pic. I think it would be motivating if I had some good pics.

pixelllate
01-28-2014, 12:13 PM
That time was the only time I ever really let myself be in pictures. I felt so upset looking at those when I wasn't really being proactive about weight loss. However, now that I am working on it I don't mind looking at them at all, even if I am not as thin as I was before (getting there!)

I think my issue is "getting over" that things might not be the same. I could be the same weight, approx the same size, but maybe my proportions will be slightly different, maybe I won't like rewearing my old thin clothes because styles have changed over time. I tend to be harder on myself than I think I should be.


GlamourGirl827
01-28-2014, 03:02 PM
Interesting topic...My siggy will tell you my weight history. ...anyway it depends on my mood. If I'm feeling positive, a pic of me at a low weight will be motivation...if I'm feeling down it will only make me feel worse, like I still ahve sooo much to go. I stay away from those pics if I'm already feeling bummed out.

CrabNebula
01-28-2014, 07:48 PM
I am always surprised because I can't believe how much I must have been eating to be the 250-260lbs I was in my fattest pic. I am embarrassed of it. Motivation not to go back, that is for sure.

Paulitens
01-28-2014, 10:16 PM
That time was the only time I ever really let myself be in pictures. I felt so upset looking at those when I wasn't really being proactive about weight loss. However, now that I am working on it I don't mind looking at them at all, even if I am not as thin as I was before (getting there!)

I think my issue is "getting over" that things might not be the same. I could be the same weight, approx the same size, but maybe my proportions will be slightly different, maybe I won't like rewearing my old thin clothes because styles have changed over time. I tend to be harder on myself than I think I should be.

I feel the same way! When I was not doing anything about my weight, I would hate looking at those pictures, because it upset me that I was not that thin and healthy anymore, and that I did not have the willpower to snap out of my bad eating habits. But now that I'm working on losing weight and I'm doing great, I enjoy looking at those pictures. I actually set them as my desktop background for motivation. One day, I hope, I am going to look at my "before" pictures (before I started losing weight) and feel thankful that I'm not there anymore. One day... :)

Suzanne 3FC
01-28-2014, 10:28 PM
I feel sad when I look at my 'before' photos because I didn't see it at the time. That's not what I saw when I looked in the mirror. It's strange. And sad.

Chardonnay
01-28-2014, 10:48 PM
The before before, well, that's just normal to me, that's me.
When I look at the before picture (after I gained 97 pounds): disgusted
Now: relief

alaskanlaughter
01-29-2014, 01:01 AM
I see pictures of when I was in high school and i'm guessing I weighed 180s range and I don't see a fat girl but I FELT FAT.....I see pictures of me at my highest weight around 270 and again at 240 and I look fat, I FELT FAT...and I see pictures of me now in the 180s range and I look a lot smaller but I STILL FEEL FAT....pictures look different to me but when I see myself in the mirror, I don't feel like any EVER changed....gaining weight, losing weight, I still feel the same about myself and I don't see a big change in the mirror despite what pictures say

and I've NEVER felt horrible about myself...I've never felt disgusted or hated myself....granted sometimes I didn't like what I saw but I've never felt all that bad or ashamed or anything....if fat's the worst thing you can call me, then i'm doing pretty good in life :)

Munchy
01-29-2014, 09:23 AM
I feel sad when I look at my 'before' photos because I didn't see it at the time. That's not what I saw when I looked in the mirror. It's strange. And sad.

Ditto!

LilDazed
01-29-2014, 09:55 AM
I feel pretty disappointed looking at the before pictures and that I had let myself get heavy and looking very STOUT. =P Especially fat face. Don't like the fat face!

But it makes me feel happier at where I am now.

Mrs Snark
01-29-2014, 11:18 AM
When I look at "before" pics, those are really pictures throughout my whole life, (because I've been up and down this weight roller coaster ALOT), mostly I feel frustrated that I couldn't seem to learn any lessons about how to STAY healthy. Years, and years, and years of NOT learning.

Elladorine
01-29-2014, 11:40 AM
I really don't have any, unless you count childhood photos from long before I'd hit puberty. I'm still obese but am currently smaller than I ever have been as an adult, so I'm kind of in a weird place.

Radiojane
01-29-2014, 04:13 PM
Me too. Any pictures of me at a normal weight date back to age 16, so they're not much motivation. my fattest oictures? I like using them beside progress pictures, but I don't dwell on them. That's not who I am anymore.

Em Coconut
01-29-2014, 07:05 PM
Oh, wow....This really made me think, actually.

I don't know what weight I was on the last pictures before I started really gaining. Probably somewhere between 175 - 190. Having being overweight for as long as I can remember, I obviously felt bad about myself back then.

Going through those pictures, I feel that I shouldn't have been so hard on myself. Yes, I was heavier than I should have been, but I actually think I looked pretty good considering. I feel sad that I really let myself go like I did, and it makes me want to go back to that time. I could've done anything to just wake up tomorrow and be where I was at, because it wasn't as bad as I thought, and it sure was better than now!

GlamourGirl827
01-29-2014, 07:06 PM
When I look at "before" pics, those are really pictures throughout my whole life, (because I've been up and down this weight roller coaster ALOT), mostly I feel frustrated that I couldn't seem to learn any lessons about how to STAY healthy. Years, and years, and years of NOT learning.

You pretty much described my 20s. yo-yo from 150-180..with 160ish being the place I settled when not binging or starving off the weight.

kelijpa
01-29-2014, 09:16 PM
It depends on where I'm at, I, too, have been up and down over the years, I feel like this fitter version is the real me, at least the me I want to be, I know the bigger version was me, too, but not happy with myself, I guess that's why I ended up losing again.

I have 3 pictures together on my dresser of 3 different size Kelis, the pics motivated me to get back to where I was when fit and to not get back to where I was when fat.

Some pictures make me cringe, some make me smile.

I do remember looking at pictures of my thinner self when heavier and wonder "why did I think I was fat, or how silly I thought I had a big butt then"

Interesting thread, thanks!

Diamondonalandmine
01-30-2014, 04:43 AM
When I see old pics of me at my biggest I feel ashamed that I let myself get so out of hand. It motivates me in that I'd never allow myself to climb up to that weight/size ever again. But sometimes I feel like it damaging to me because I start to think that all the work I have done so far isn't good enough. I try to correct my thinking pattern but it's happening fairly often now anyone else experience this!?

BettyBooty
01-30-2014, 10:48 AM
My first thought was that I have always been "chubby" but actually when I started law school I was about 145 and looked very good. Looking back at the few pictures I have from that time I am actually confident that I can get back there someday. It doesn't make me feel too badly about where I am now, but it does reinforce my need to keep on track.

Had you posed this question a month ago, I probably would have been all woe-is-me, but I am solidly on the train now and feeling more optomistic.

AwShucks
02-01-2014, 09:20 PM
When I see old pics of me at my biggest I feel ashamed that I let myself get so out of hand. It motivates me in that I'd never allow myself to climb up to that weight/size ever again. But sometimes I feel like it damaging to me because I start to think that all the work I have done so far isn't good enough. I try to correct my thinking pattern but it's happening fairly often now anyone else experience this!?

I feel this way. I've been overweight since childhood. My last "normal" photo was in 2nd grade. When I look at photos of myself, I know it was reality, but I'm disgusted with myself. (Gosh, that seems harsh, but that's how I feel) Having been so big, I know I judged myself harshly. I envy the new generation that loves their body no matter what size. I've never felt that way.

I keep a packet of particularly disgusting photos (to me, anyway) for inspiration, and I think they were motivating at one time. However, I currently think they're harmful. I still see myself as I was in those old photos. There I am smiling on vacation, but I think I looked awful. I know it was reality at one time, but I'm having a hard time convincing myself it's not reality now.

I guess I'm looking for validation that I've changed. I mean, I know the numbers have changed and physically I feel better and can do more - even though I always feel things would be "better" if I lost more weight. I just don't SEE myself as changed in the mirror. I still see that girl from 100 lbs ago; that's me. I spent a long time as that girl.

I always read that losing weight really doesn't change anything - it's not like all your problems are immediately solved, prince charming will walk in, and you'll be offered the job of a lifetime. Life is still the same - you just weigh a little less. Maybe I expect too much.

Melonlefey
02-02-2014, 02:00 AM
I have to go back to middle school or younger to find pictures where I'm not overweight. Where I'm at now is a HUGE improvement from my high school years, so I don't really look back on old pictures with regret.

Diamondonalandmine
02-03-2014, 02:38 AM
I feel this way. I've been overweight since childhood. My last "normal" photo was in 2nd grade. When I look at photos of myself, I know it was reality, but I'm disgusted with myself. (Gosh, that seems harsh, but that's how I feel) Having been so big, I know I judged myself harshly. I envy the new generation that loves their body no matter what size. I've never felt that way.

I keep a packet of particularly disgusting photos (to me, anyway) for inspiration, and I think they were motivating at one time. However, I currently think they're harmful. I still see myself as I was in those old photos. There I am smiling on vacation, but I think I looked awful. I know it was reality at one time, but I'm having a hard time convincing myself it's not reality now.

I guess I'm looking for validation that I've changed. I mean, I know the numbers have changed and physically I feel better and can do more - even though I always feel things would be "better" if I lost more weight. I just don't SEE myself as changed in the mirror. I still see that girl from 100 lbs ago; that's me. I spent a long time as that girl.

I always read that losing weight really doesn't change anything - it's not like all your problems are immediately solved, prince charming will walk in, and you'll be offered the job of a lifetime. Life is still the same - you just weigh a little less. Maybe I expect too much.

ARE WE TWINS!!!! I do the SAME THING!!!

Paramedic
02-03-2014, 05:26 AM
Wow, this is a really thought provoking topic! I honestly didn't really think about it too much before reading this, because I don't make it a habit to look at old pictures of myself, but honestly, when I see myself when I was in my teens, before I gained most of my weight, I see someone who's pretty care free; I see someone before life hit them in the face. And that's a pretty hard thing to realize.

There was a point for me when life was simpler and a lot easier to handle, and it's physically noticeable. But, luckily I'm slowly getting back on track. Things are getting easier to handle and things aren't AS rough as they were when I gained all of my weight.

vealcalf2000
02-03-2014, 05:34 AM
I hate my before pictures. It's not just because of my weight, but for me personally, at my highest weight of 352 lbs, I quit loving myself all together. I quit doing my hair and my makeup. It's like I was trying to make myself disappear as strange as that seems. I'm also reminded of a lot of bad moments in my life....the teasing, not fitting into seats, clothes not fitting (not even being able to find my size in plus sized), feeling like I was going to suffocate when I sat down because of my weight pushing up into my esophagus, passing up promotions because I lacked confidence in myself.

I also can't stress how true the "trying to disappear" was! I literally worked at the same job for 13 years and it wasn't until my last year there when I lost a significant amount of weight and started loving myself again that people noticed me! Some didn't even realize that the OLD me and the NEW me were the same person!

I left my weight turn me into a sad lonely person. For me personally, it's been a journey away from "her".

vealcalf2000
02-03-2014, 07:52 AM
I did think of something that made me laugh a bit at myself....At my highest weight I was forever trying to hide to make myself appear smaller....LOL ANYTHING was fair game! People, chairs, couches, pillars (peek-a-boo!), cars...I'd always appear to be popping out from places. If I had a hoodie on I'd put my hands in my front pocket and push out to stretch the fabric and in my mind make my tummy look flat!

I think my previous post seems so sad :( I focused so much on the negative aspect of it all. I will say this....I'm pushing 40, I am 190lb ish, I have a far from perfect body or face, but honestly, I feel more confident now than I have in my entire life! Why? Because the control I lost so many years ago was taken back! Do I still struggle with food and self image? Absolutely! But I'm finally at this wonderful confident place where I've learned to love myself again.

Lunula
02-04-2014, 03:52 PM
I didn't really gain "a lot" of weight until a couple years after college when I hurt my knee and couldn't afford knee surgery (no insurance). When I was in high school, I was 5'6 and weighed 125-130 lbs, and I thought I was "big." Even in college, I was around 170 - not great - but not huge. Of course, I thought I was absolutely HUMONGOUS.

Now, at 150'ish, I notice the bulges and whatnot, but I NEVER think like that anymore. Ever.

JollyGreenSteen19
02-06-2014, 07:52 AM
Looking back at photos of myself when I was 13-17ish is SO HARD because I was healthy looking and beautiful but I never felt that way. There's never been a day in my life where I've been like "oh I'm thin now". NEVER A SINGLE DAY. Not even one. And now that ages 18-24 have been spent at varying degrees of legitimate obesity, I regret that I couldn't see how nice I looked then. Like when you think you're just a fat slob you don't care, you don't see the point until it spirals out of control. I stepped on the scale one day to 351 lbs! NOW that is definitely a problem and now I have forever damage to my skin and what not. But yes, those "before" photos are hard for me to look at. I just wish I could go back in time and tell myself that you're beautiful and look great and to take care of myself and not let people's nitpicking get to me.

novangel
02-06-2014, 11:28 AM
Being overweight made me unhappy but sometimes fat worked in my favor. I'm thin now but my face looks older. :/

Most pics don't bother me but the two pics I DO hate are from a particular night because of what I was wearing, and the way I was sitting make my upper arms look enormous. I was about 155p and want to burn those.

I found another picture in a pile the other day from 2003 when I weighed 174p a year after having my son. I just said "wow I was fat" and moved on. It didn't bother me nearly as much as being able to see my arms at a much lesser weight. Strange how we have hang ups.

Paulitens
02-06-2014, 11:33 AM
I feel sad when I look at my 'before' photos because I didn't see it at the time. That's not what I saw when I looked in the mirror. It's strange. And sad.

Isn't it awful!? I didn't see it either. I only saw the tiny little bulge in my back under my bra, and thought I was still not thin enough. And because I am more chesty than most of my friends, the whole "boobage" situation would not let me see how thin, healthy, and beautiful my body was, because in my mind "big boobs=fat" or "big boobs=old lady." Also I was always aware that my bone structure was a little thicker than other girls' and I would compare myself to them, instead of looking at myself, and my own body, and my own body frame, and what looked good on MY body. I am working in loving myself bigger, and loving myself in the process, and learning to see the beauty in me regardless of my weight, so that when I finally achieve my goal I can see myself for who I am, and not for whom I wish I were.

Paulitens
02-06-2014, 11:47 AM
I hate my before pictures. It's not just because of my weight, but for me personally, at my highest weight of 352 lbs, I quit loving myself all together. I quit doing my hair and my makeup. It's like I was trying to make myself disappear as strange as that seems. I'm also reminded of a lot of bad moments in my life....the teasing, not fitting into seats, clothes not fitting (not even being able to find my size in plus sized), feeling like I was going to suffocate when I sat down because of my weight pushing up into my esophagus, passing up promotions because I lacked confidence in myself.

I also can't stress how true the "trying to disappear" was! I literally worked at the same job for 13 years and it wasn't until my last year there when I lost a significant amount of weight and started loving myself again that people noticed me! Some didn't even realize that the OLD me and the NEW me were the same person!

I left my weight turn me into a sad lonely person. For me personally, it's been a journey away from "her".

This is so good! I totally understand where you're coming from in terms of your feelings for yourself. It is important to love ourselves and not to give up on our outward appearance regardless of our weight. This may sound shallow but it is not -- we need to take care of those are things that we CAN control and that don't change much regardless of our weight. In terms of appearance I have not once given up because of my weight. I refuse to. I don't want to not like this body I have because it is the only body I will ever have! I need to love myself at my worst and see the beauty in it even if it's not a standard beauty. I need to learn to appreciate the beauty in my in my own eyes, and that is a long process. I always do things about my body that make me feel good, for example I always dress it for my size even if my size is XXL, I always do my nails to make my hands look pretty and feminine, I always do my make up because I think that my face is my best feature, I always do my hair in a different way because I love my red locks. Those are things that make me feel in control of how I look regardless of how much I weight, and believe it or not, they have helped me love myself more now that I'm 68 lbs overweight, than I did when I was almost at my ideal weight. And I feel more confident about who I am, and I believe it is that confidence and that love towards my body what are giving me the drive to do this diet. :carrot:

Thank you for sharing how you feel. It's good to let it out even when we may feel it sounds negative because there will always be someone in here to understand you. :hug: