Chicks in Control - Denial...

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09-21-2013, 10:47 PM
For the past few years I have been in major denial, all the while watching myself pack on more and more pounds. Today I want to be free from living in a state of lies. I am a binge eater, I am an over-eater. I never thought of an eating disorder involving eating too much, but only the other way around. But I have had my eyes opened to see that I do have an ED. I eat when I am happy, I eat when I am sad, I eat when I am bored... I just eat, and by eat I wish it just meant I had one serving of something. What people don't know is the vast quantity of foods I cram in my body when no one is around and no one can see. I need help, I need accountability, I need to be free. This is me taking my first step.

09-21-2013, 11:10 PM
That is a big step. Now that you know it is not just lack of willpower but an ED - have you looked at any programs to assist?

09-22-2013, 02:04 AM
It is a huge step. Sometimes the hardest. Welcome

Fresh Feeling
09-22-2013, 03:59 AM
Yep looks like we're all in this together. I don't know what happened to me. As a teenager I used to complain about such a small amount of fat in my body when I was only about 5 kg heavier than my normal weight range.

I thought it was a lot at the time and I wonder how I ever got +10kg and more heavier! Working together we can combat whatever compels us to do this to ourselves. I have faith :)

Mrs Snark
09-22-2013, 01:17 PM
Huge step, congratulations. You can't fix the problem when you don't think you have one.

09-22-2013, 02:59 PM
Been there. There is light at the end of the tunnel and it's not a train...

Acknowledging the problem is the first step.



09-23-2013, 09:22 AM
Denial is such a safe place to live isn't it? People have a very difficult time understanding eating disorders because it makes them feel uncomfortable. If it's anorexia or bulemia they have to accept that it's not about food because it seems to crazy to people that ED causes people to starve themselves. When it comes to Binge Eating Disorder or Compulsive Overeating, it's so easy to blame it on lack of discipline or lack of motivation or a flaw in one's character that people don't even acknowledge the real struggle people have with this. Have courage, but just know that you can't do this alone, you must seek help!!