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Granola
07-01-2013, 10:03 AM
Yet another thread to stay accountable. Feel free to introduce yourself, your problems and anything else on your mind as relates to binging.

June was a fairly tumultuous month for me and many others and net I don't think I've lost anything in the past month but hopefully we've all learned something about our eating habits that can be put to good use this month, and if this month isn't great there's always next month. Personally I continue to binge on Sunday's for no reason other than the fact that it's Sunday. I wish I could remove that day from the calendar.


avery12
07-01-2013, 11:38 AM
Yes! So down for the challenge! This is my first attempt to go this long binge free so I'm apprehenesive about it but I've been getting much better at stopping myself before a binge recently. Do any of you more experienced users have any advice or strategies for making it binge free?

NYFLAgirl
07-01-2013, 11:39 AM
Hello everyone! I'm actually excited to see this thread as Saturday was a very bad day for me. I've been doing great with my weight loss and exercise but something snapped with me on Saturday and I had one of my worse binges in a while.

I haven't had a binge for months and nothing particularly bad or emotional happen on Saturday or that week to explain why I did it. I wanted pizza (my trigger binge food) and so I had it. A large cheese pizza that I ate by myself. And a full order of buffalo wings. And a large Dairy Queen blizzard. I felt absolutely awful afterwards and had trouble sleeping Saturday night because of all of the food and carbs in my system. The worse was that I was up 6 lbs after just breaking through a major stall in my weight loss.

I still don't know why I did it-it was so stupid! I'm really mad at myself and disappointed. But I can't turn back time. What's done is done and I just have to move forward.


Granola
07-01-2013, 11:44 AM
Yes! So down for the challenge! This is my first attempt to go this long binge free so I'm apprehenesive about it but I've been getting much better at stopping myself before a binge recently. Do any of you more experienced users have any advice or strategies for making it binge free?


I stopped eating bread/rice/corn carbs for the past week and that cut my cravings down significantly, I was honestly amazed at how in control I felt. I binged very badly yesterday but I do that every Sunday it seems, 100% psychological not physiological.


Hello everyone! I'm actually excited to see this thread as Saturday was a very bad day for me. I've been doing great with my weight loss and exercise but something snapped with me on Saturday and I had one of my worse binges in a while.

I haven't had a binge for months and nothing particularly bad or emotional happen on Saturday or that week to explain why I did it. I wanted pizza (my trigger binge food) and so I had it. A large cheese pizza that I ate by myself. And a full order of buffalo wings. And a large Dairy Queen blizzard. I felt absolutely awful afterwards and had trouble sleeping Saturday night because of all of the food and carbs in my system. The worse was that I was up 6 lbs after just breaking through a major stall in my weight loss.

I still don't know why I did it-it was so stupid! I'm really mad at myself and disappointed. But I can't turn back time. What's done is done and I just have to move forward.

I feel you on not knowing why you did it, I wasn't even having cravings yesterday but I still binged. I think I'm genuinely afraid of success, like if I ever meet this goal I won't know what to do next.

Pink Hurricane
07-01-2013, 03:18 PM
Yesterday my husband and I had a big cookout with friends and I definitely binged but we had such a great time!

I will be going all of July without a binge, I am promising myself that. Taking it one day at a time! :D

KittyKatFan
07-02-2013, 12:08 AM
Got thru Day 1...

missunshine
07-02-2013, 07:52 AM
I feel you on not knowing why you did it, I wasn't even having cravings yesterday but I still binged. I think I'm genuinely afraid of success, like if I ever meet this goal I won't know what to do next.

this is exactly my problem! but i'm slowly working on it.

i need to keep me accountable today. i woke up too early and i'm so sleepy but i have to study and i'm trying to take a nap but my mind won't shut off.
i already ate to much cookies and it's only a lunch hour.
i hope i can make it today without binging. i woke up and the scale moved a little since yesterday. i hope it moves more when i finish my tom. surprisingly this month i had no crazy pms cravings. go figure.

Healthymeanshappy
07-02-2013, 11:31 PM
I have a really bad issue with binge eating at night after dinner. I do it every night eat a little bit of everything.

Pink Hurricane
07-03-2013, 07:33 AM
I know it's early, but I had a great start to Day 3 with a berry smoothie with almond milk for breakfast and a cup of earl grey tea with a teaspoon of natural honey. I also have an orange but I am probably going to save that for morning snack. Breakfast is usually my smaller meal for the day, so I feel very satisfied.

I plan on having my chia fresca drink with my morning snack before I workout, it helps keep me full and give me plenty of energy. I know what I am making for my husband and I for dinner, just not sure what I am going to make for lunch yet.

Andrea85
07-03-2013, 02:32 PM
Monday was great, Tuesday was....ok. I wouldn't say I binged, but I did snack more than I needed to! Today has been on plan so far, and I am currently trying to avoid snacking by cleaning up, playing on the internet, a little bit of work, and I may turn on the TV (not a trigger for me).

My next snack is planned for, but I'm trying to wait an hour!!

Granola
07-03-2013, 04:08 PM
Today and yesterday have involved over eating but they both felt like special occasions so I'm not too upset, I still feel confident that the rest of the month will be good.

anm17
07-03-2013, 09:54 PM
I definitely want to challenge myself to a month of binge-free eating. I do not know if I have gone a straight month without overdoing it. I just want to feel free of food's control over me. Food seems to be on my mind 24/7 :/ If I'm not eating it, I am thinking about it or trying to fight the temptations. Regardless, food rules my thoughts. I am trying to fill my free time with more activities (even tried a zumba class for the first time tonight, everyone should try it :) ) Let's see if I can make it through this month :)

KittyKatFan
07-03-2013, 10:37 PM
So far so good for July...

avery12
07-04-2013, 09:29 AM
Doing well so far! Today is and hopefully continues to be my 7th day binge-free! I'm very happy because I usually break down every 5 days or so...But I have two essays to write this weekend and little else to do so I'm really on my guard because lack of structure and academic stress are my too biggest triggers...Got to stay strong! Wish me luck, lovelies! :smug:

Pink Hurricane
07-04-2013, 09:46 AM
This week is going so great for me and it's refreshing! I feel like I really do have a lot of control over my eating now, so I want to keep that power and use it to my advantage!

Granola
07-04-2013, 10:37 AM
Good luck to everyone on the 4th of July, I don't think I should have a problem with the holiday but today will be the first day I feel comfortable calling day one binge free.

missunshine
07-06-2013, 08:12 PM
well i definitely overate/binged a little today. first it was fruits and then a little too much of nutella. i was anxious because of exams and we had people coming over to see the appartment so i couldn't study. i hope tomorrow will be better, i was really trying hard this week to lose 2 pounds but i guess i'll have to work on it some more.

good luck y'all!

anm17
07-06-2013, 09:11 PM
Yeah, the 4th was a little hard for me too. I wouldn't say I binged per se, but I definitely ate more than I should have. All we have to do is keep working on it :)

Granola
07-07-2013, 02:45 AM
I think I broke even these last 2 days, as long I can make it to Monday without losing it I should be good to start a good week.

danzingurl77
07-07-2013, 12:34 PM
I would like to join also... I havent been here in a while- havent been doing much better or worse- I'm hoping to make this non-bingeing stick at some point. I'm still bingeing every 7-10 days.. :( I just had two pretty bad days in a row. I havent had as much time as I used to to exercise either with teaching dance classes, working at a resaurant, going to school full-time, and I just started CNA training yesterday also. I hate that I binged yesterday- especially because Sunday is my only day off to get a long run in and catch up on homework and house-cleaning... but I feel so bloated and gross and defeated that I dont want to do ANYTHING.. ugh. :(

I love that I can come vent on this thread... I think it helps to just get it out.

Heres to day 1- and getting through the rest of July!!

SkinnyGina
07-08-2013, 11:31 PM
Hey! First week of July is starting out good so far. I did Binge two days...but I have been lasting for six days now (a new record for me!). So very excited about what July has stored for me:) I am moving so that is helping me keep busy.

Granola
07-09-2013, 01:00 AM
I would like to join also... I havent been here in a while- havent been doing much better or worse- I'm hoping to make this non-bingeing stick at some point. I'm still bingeing every 7-10 days.. :( I just had two pretty bad days in a row. I havent had as much time as I used to to exercise either with teaching dance classes, working at a resaurant, going to school full-time, and I just started CNA training yesterday also. I hate that I binged yesterday- especially because Sunday is my only day off to get a long run in and catch up on homework and house-cleaning... but I feel so bloated and gross and defeated that I dont want to do ANYTHING.. ugh. :(

I love that I can come vent on this thread... I think it helps to just get it out.

Heres to day 1- and getting through the rest of July!!

I made it through Sunday (also a problem day for me) but then today was a disaster, at least you have the excuse of being very busy! My hours at work just got cut from 25 to 7 (outdoor/active job) so now I'm way less active AND I'm home all day = recipe for disaster that I did not anticipate but I know now so I won't do it again. I should think more highly of myself, we're all bigger (figuratively...) and more capable than this. It's 12am, so here's to a good Tuesday!

Pink Hurricane
07-09-2013, 10:09 AM
I've done really well so far this month, had a bit too much ice cream last night with DH BUT I was still within my calorie limits. Barely, but still where I should be at 1540 calories. :D So yes, even though I wanted to inhale the rest of the carton, I stopped. Whew, it was close...

BrittBit
07-09-2013, 06:04 PM
Hello everyone!
My name is Brittney. I can't really say that I'll be binge free for July but hopefully I'll be able to say that I have been binge free for the second half of July.
I started off the month well and then I went to Southern California to visit some girlfriends for the 4th of July. I was expecting my diet to be pretty bad during my little vacation but surprisingly, it was really acceptable. I made it through the whole vacation but then I get home yesterday and hit full-throttle which continued on to today. What the ****? How do I make through a holiday vacation with tons of alcohol and no inhibitions only to come home and completely clean out my fridge, freezer, and pantry!?! I don't even understand how so much food fits inside me. Ugh!
Well, tomorrow is a new day. I really want to focus on being healthy and letting my food provide me with the nutrition I need. I hope that being held accountable will help me and I encourage all your advice and support. :)

Granola
07-10-2013, 12:39 AM
Yeah, the urge to binge can hit you when you least expect it, I wake up somedays with the thought of "wow, I have no urge at all to binge, today will be great", let my guard down and before you know it... Anyway today was day one for me and I'd like to think it went pretty well, hopefully tomorrow is good for you Britt, we're not even 1/3 done with July.

Pink Hurricane
07-10-2013, 10:50 PM
So I have been hit with the urge to binge today but I'm holding out, I worked out instead now I am going to kick back and play some video games and email my husband while he is working tonight. I do have carrots on hand just in case I get hungry, but I refuse to binge, I've already lost another pound for the week!

BrittBit
07-11-2013, 02:00 PM
Yeah, the urge to binge can hit you when you least expect it, I wake up somedays with the thought of "wow, I have no urge at all to binge, today will be great", let my guard down and before you know it... Anyway today was day one for me and I'd like to think it went pretty well, hopefully tomorrow is good for you Britt, we're not even 1/3 done with July.

Thanks Granola! Yes, I think having 2/3 of July left still leaves plenty of days for a major accomplishment. I actually don't think I have ever made it a full month binge free in my life! Has anyone accomplished that, who's doing this challenge? If so, how? Also, if you have, how long have you been living with the addiction? Hope these questions aren't too personal.
I have been living with my addiction for 15 years. I can pinpoint the exact moment it started and why, but that hasn't seemed to help me resolve the issue...

Granola
07-11-2013, 10:43 PM
I been good since Monday (though I'm still carrying a bit of weight from that binge) but today, like 10 minutes ago, I ate my pre dinner snack, it didn't taste very good and I immediately rationalized to myself that I should just eat dinner now (I'm not going to bed for about 5-6 hrs and I'm just about to go to the gym so I'd be starving by bedtime if I ate dinner now). So I begin preparing it and while the egg white is cooking (yes, for dinner) I think to myself "You know what, I can wait". Probably a combination of satiety sinking in from the snack and the mental acknowledgement that this kind of spontaneous eating is how most of my binges start allowed me to hold off. I'm very happy that I was able to stop myself (though I did a little snacking on the ingredients) but am concerned that I thought eating dinner so early would be an okay idea. I'm glad I can share the experience here and am confident now that the rest of the night will be fine.

Does anyone else get tempted to overeat after a disappointing meal? How do you deal with it?

danzingurl77
07-12-2013, 06:19 PM
Granola- I sometimes do get triggered by an unstaisfying meal- especially one that doesn't seem "filling". I start to panic thinking that I will have to be hungry for the rest of the day (somehow the thought is terrifying- even though being hungry for a few hours should NOT be such a huge deal). Anyways- I panic and suddenly want to eat everything.

Today is day 6 for me- I'm feeling pretty hungry but have a ton of veggies around to munch on so I think I'll be okay. My "mini goal" is to make it to July 23 because I have an audition for a dance company and I need to look & feel my best!!

Granola
07-12-2013, 07:03 PM
So I participated in this paid psychological study and in the end they give you randomly assigned food to take home (I did not know about this part!), I got spaghetti and cheesecake, two things I haven't had in months and would never buy. I couldn't bring myself to throw them away so I went ahead and ate them and then ate a bunch of other stuff in my kitchen which I'm not going to bother listing. I should probably constitute that as a binge as the amount of food I ate was completely uncontrolled but it wasn't nearly as bad as Monday in that I haven't gone to any fast food restaurants and I did not eat to the point of passing out.

The worst part is, even now I don't how I could have possibly stopped myself, the whole thing felt inevitable as soon as they handed me a container of cheesecake, that's something I'll have to think about. *Sigh* Well, it could have been much much worse. I suppose tomorrow will be the new Day 1.

EDIT: And now it's become a full binge, tomorrow is definitely day one.

2nd EDIT: I'm going to go ahead and use this post to document all of tonight's eating problems.

After a bit a internal arguing I got into my car and headed to the nearest drug store to buy ice cream and whatever else looked appetizing to binge myself into a proper food coma, I was standing in the frozen section nearly motionless for 2-3 pondering whether to go for the Haigen Daaz or the store brand when reason kicked in and I asked myself what the **** I was doing, why I thought eating a piece of cheesecake excused inhaling an entire kitchen, and what I planned to do when the pint of ice cream was empty.

It was tough and I probably looked odd to the employees but I managed to leave with seltzer water and gum, I picked up a black coffee on the way home from Starbucks (I don't really want it but buying a 'speciality' drink that comes in a nice cup was psychologically satisfying) and here I am. Of course angry and disappointed with myself for undoing the past 3 days but also content with the my ability to deal with these emotions now instead of procrastinating until tomorrow morning with another 3k calories flowing through my system.

From now on I'm going to immediately throw away any food unexpectedly given to me if it cannot be reasonably fit into my next meal, no questions asked, and instead of taking a "I messed up, I might as well binge" response to over eating I'll think the about the extra 2 days of my life I'll have to spend disappointed in myself for every 1 pint of ice cream.

KittyKatFan
07-12-2013, 11:21 PM
Just passed the week five binge-free mark. My previous record is 19 weeks so I have a long way to go to top that, but after such a challenging April, May, and early June it just feels good to be back on track.

I'm so proud of my progress. I actually was able to bake a cake tonight and I only ate one normal-sized slice. In the past, I wouldn't have been able to eat only one slice; I would have eaten the whole thing. This moderation thing might just be working :)

missunshine
07-14-2013, 06:37 PM
omg, kitty i just came here to announce that i baked today and didn't binge on it and i'm so proud and i read your post that you baked too. hehe and great job on week five ;)
i stopped counting my days but so far so good. trying to lose some weight untill a wedding in august, am exercising a bit and notice a little change in my booty which is great.

KittyKatFan
07-14-2013, 07:09 PM
omg, kitty i just came here to announce that i baked today and didn't binge on it and i'm so proud and i read your post that you baked too. hehe and great job on week five ;)
i stopped counting my days but so far so good. trying to lose some weight untill a wedding in august, am exercising a bit and notice a little change in my booty which is great.

Isn't it amazing to be able to cook or bake something and leave the majority of it sitting in the pan? :smug: that may not be a big deal to normal eaters but it is a HUGE sign of progress for me...and for you too, I'm guessing.

Because I live alone, I can't eat the whole cake before it would go bad (there are about nine portions there). I had one piece on Friday, one on Saturday, and a few bites today. I put two more portions into individual containers, then threw out the rest. I didn't want to be tempted, and I think the rest would go bad before I ate them.

I have never allowed myself to cook something that is more than one portion, or to buy anything that isn't wrapped in individual portions because I will eat the whole thing. Maybe it is time to start thinking about buying a bag of something, like cookies, and see if I can just eat one serving.

Granola
07-15-2013, 02:04 AM
Today and yesterday were both very good and I feel good about going into this next week, even though I've said that most weeks for months now, it's still not a bad feeling to have. I started buying peanut butter ('healthy' trouble food #1) and raisins (#2) in single serving packages so no more extra spoonfuls here and there.

2nd half of July incoming (that was fast), good luck to everyone going forward.

littlefatcat
07-15-2013, 04:05 PM
Been bingeing for three days. Sixteen days left in July. Committing to being binge free for the REST of July!

Granola
07-16-2013, 01:59 AM
@littlefatcat Serial binges are the worst, I always feel that I've done enough damage and should be satisfied at this point AND that I should continue eating any and everything because why stop now.

1...2...3..and...STOP

Good luck to you.

Day 3 went well for me :-)

BrittBit
07-16-2013, 04:12 AM
Ugh! Well, I guess tomorrow is the new Day 1! :(:(:(

littlefatcat
07-17-2013, 11:48 AM
New day one for me too! Here we go, I can do this!

Granola
07-17-2013, 02:51 PM
Prepackaged single servings of peanut butter have made my life much easier...

Intro to Day 5 is going well.

missunshine
07-18-2013, 12:01 PM
@kittykat yeah i think it's hard if you're living alone but then again you have the freedom to buy and eat whatever you want, there is no one to bring home the bad stuff except you and you don't have to hide food from anyone (sometimes i eat in secrecy). it's a double edged sword

so yesterday, after a two day frustrational studying for my exam which i could have passed without opening a book, i was so angry and i planned a binge but the events in the next few hours didn't quite gave me a chance to have one so i kinda postponed it to today and except for a handful of wafers i'm still on plan. lol. who would have thought. i guess the anxiety from the exams is going away slowly but the scales this morning totally dissapointed me. i hope it shows some progress on monday.

hopesfull
07-18-2013, 05:49 PM
Hey there...I'm pretty new to this site and have been looking around for some threads that might be a fit for me and I'm certain this is one...I am for sure a binge and compulsive i eater and I could relate to almost every post I read...this has been a problem since I was about 11 years old...

I eat all the time for every emotion then feel extreme guilt and shame because of it...if I'm not eating food I'm thinking about it...I even force myself to eat when I'm feeling bad or some type of way that's negative cause that's whet I usually do to feel better but it of course never works...

I just want to be rid of this craziness ...I hope this is the beginning of that

I realize that was a bit of a rant

Granola
07-18-2013, 06:03 PM
@hopesfull Welcome! This thread is basically for rants that you don't want to make into a new post so don't worry about that. You're going to encounter negative emotions for the rest of your life, come up with a way to deal with them that doesn't involve food, take food off the table as a potential response.

Today is Day 6 for me and all is going well as far as I'm aware. I like counting numerical days instead of days of the week, it takes some of the pressure off of Sunday being the day to binge and stops me from feeling like I need to 'restart' every Monday. Still, I anticipate this weekend won't be easy, I would ecstatic to make it through 10 days. I haven't gone that long all summer.

littlefatcat
07-19-2013, 01:30 PM
I eat all the time for every emotion then feel extreme guilt and shame because of it...if I'm not eating food I'm thinking about it...I even force myself to eat when I'm feeling bad or some type of way that's negative cause that's whet I usually do to feel better but it of course never works...

I just want to be rid of this craziness ...I hope this is the beginning of that



I hear you, hopesfull! I can so identify with what you are saying. I too am hoping to find some answers and a way out of this craziness I've experienced most of my life. Best wishes to you. Cat

Granola
07-20-2013, 01:26 AM
So today makes a week for me. I was initially happy about it but I've gone from feeling very accomplished and happy for myself to self loathing, insecurity, and apathy as staying on plan has allowed me to shift focus from staving off binge eating to other issues in my life. Throughout today I have been very critical and nit picky about my body, more so than I have been all week, during which I felt a sort of comfort from the knowledge that I was working on it and making progress. Suddenly a week free of binge eating no longer feels like much of an accomplishment and I look down on my former self for ever succumbing to it (it has ONLY been a week!). I question what things I truly expect from achieving my goal figure and whether those things are actually attainable, whether or not I counted calories strictly enough this past week to constitute staying on plan, and how long it will take for apathy and anxiety to prompt another binge to distract myself from life again.

I don't have physiological cravings anymore, those pretty much stopped when I started getting proper rest and stopped eating carbs, but I still have the psychological craving once in a while to buy a bunch of junk (Chips Ahoy have been advertised as 'on sale' for weeks now and every time I walk past that aisle in Walmart I think about buying a package) and eat it all because I'm used to it and because why not, junk food tastes good and I'm not worth all of the attention I give to diet and exercise. I bought an iced coffee today as a sort of reward but it tasted like it had extra cream and sugar to the point of passing the advertised 140 calories mark, I drank it all anyway. I'm not sure if I feel guilty about drinking it or not but I felt the need to mention it.

Well, that has got to be one of the most melodramatic posts about reaching a goal on this site. It felt good to write it all out at least.

KittyKatFan
07-21-2013, 11:36 PM
Binge free for over six weeks now. Which is good, but so far fom my all-time record of 19 weeks. But feeling somewhat optimistic I can break my record...fingers crossed..,

GettinFit
07-22-2013, 11:48 AM
I need to join this thread again as I had some binge issues this past weekend. I want to gain control and get back to losing weight again. In the past, this thread has helped me to gain control of my eating. I was feeling lonely and I was really tired over the weekend so I turned to food for comfort :(. Today I feel AWFUL from all the junk I ate. I'm trying to turn it around and get back on track. I WILL make it through the day binge free. I am following the Weight Watchers plan so I have logged every bite so far.

missunshine
07-22-2013, 02:07 PM
granola- i hope you're doing ok. one week is an amazing accomplishment, you're finally breaking the pattern.

kitty-woohoo on 6 weeks. keep it up.

hopesfull- we've all been there, done that. wish you luck and welcome.

so i've been thinking about binging a lot lately but i haven't succumbed yet, i'm just waiting for it to happen. so far i've been strong and i resisted, though the urges weren't that strog, but still. this is going to be tough week, i just finished with my last exam, i have 5 days to pack, move all my stuff to a new apprtment in the biggest heat wave and pack again to return home for the summer. i can't wait to go home, in about 4 weeks i'm suppose to attend a wedding where all my family is going to be who hasn't seen me in a few years. some saw me when i was skinny but most of them saw me when i was at my heaviest. right now i'm somewhere in the middle and i feel so nervous seeing them after a long time. they will be critiquing me a lot, and i'm working my hardest to lose at least a few pounds till then but my scale is protesting and it hasn't budged over a week. i'm not giving up, i keep telling myself it's a water retention from "exercising" . here's to a positive and successfull week!
man am i happy exams are over :)

Granola
07-23-2013, 12:09 AM
@Gettinfit Good luck!

@misssunshine I'm doing alright now, thanks, I've got 5 weeks until school starts back up again so we're on a similar weight loss timeline.

I guess I binged today, it was bad in terms of all the food but not bad psychologically, I'm not really distressed or too upset about it.

I did a sort of pen pal like exchange with someone abroad (planned for probably a month or more), we both sent each other a box of candies and such, my package came today and I kind of decided to just eat all of it at once (Had to run out the house this morning for an appointment and skipped breakfast and I really wanted to eat breakfast at home so waited until I got home (about 7 hours after getting up) to eat anything and there was the package).

I'm not really mad about it because there's no way I was going to throw it all out (lots of foreign stuff I haven't tried, too) or give it away after all of that planning, so it was going to get eaten (by me) eventually and I didn't want it in the house temping me all day every day so that binge was sort of inevitable. It's all I've eaten all day. I've been trying, generally, to not do the whole starvation after a binge thing but I'm not really hungry and it was A LOT of candy, also I want an empty stomach for breakfast tomorrow.

And I've finally come to terms with the fact that I've got to cut back on my salt intake, even though it doesn't have any calories the bloating is becoming a real problem making me want to binge to 'empty' myself and drinking an obscene amount of water to combat it doesn't actually work. My crazy salt intake is the last unhealthy part of my diet so I'm happy to finally be doing something about it.

Eh, tomorrow is a new day, I guess I'll call it Day 1.

missunshine
07-25-2013, 10:12 AM
one week till the end of the month girls! how're you doing?
it's so hot here it's driving me crazy.
i'm hanging in there, it's hard but i try to resist a little bit more.
the scale is not moving at all!! i've been on 1300-1500 cal for a few weeks now and i walk a lot plus do some strength exercise and nothing. :/ i'm worried that i totally screwed up my metabolism with gaining -losing the same 10 pounds the last two years? at this point i have no idea what my bmr is...i always thought it was about 2000 cal, but obviously it's not. i don't want to spend the rest of my life on 1500 cal when i reach my goal :(

Granola
07-27-2013, 03:39 PM
I've been good since Monday, it can be hard to tell sometimes if I'm losing or not, sometimes it's clear that I am but at other times I feel the same size as a week ago. It's like I feel the same amount of fat but I seem to look better. I'll give it another week and then re-evaluate, I really don't want to have to cut daily calories.

KittyKatFan
07-28-2013, 06:47 PM
Made it to 7 weeks binge free then binged. I was in the hospital and got out a day early, which I think caused me some distress. I have had to be on a special diet for the treatment I was hospitalized for, and I was so excited to go back to the foods I wasn't allowed to have.

I think I could have managed the food thing, but I'm realizing that it is the emotional loneliness and total isolation I'm feeling that set me off. I have to be isolated from others due to the radiation exposure; I can't even be at home to see my cats so I'm at a hotel. I feel totally alone, and in unfamiliar surroundings, I feel like nobody cares about me and that I'm totally on my own in life. I hate the leader I support at work because he makes me feel like crap even though I put in an unbelievable amount of effort to help him succeed. I am taking a two-week vacation in early September and he is angry that people would even consider taking time off when there is a big work project going on until October. Jerk. But it makes me feel guilty.

So I'm alone, isolated, overworked, and completely unhappy with my life, and totally disoriented due to my hospitalization and recovery. And I have been binging.

I will start off on a fresh slate tomorrow...

Granola
07-29-2013, 03:23 AM
Things didn't go according to plan and in response I lost control; I need a plan B for next time. Here comes August.


EDIT: Ugh, I want to be sick. I'm so disgusted and angry with myself, I was doing really well and to think of all the points I could have stopped by didn't, why? I wish I could stay inside and fast for a week but I have to go work, I wish I could call out sick, I hardly slept and feel terrible.

EDIT2: And I'm continuing to binge today, at this point I guess it's just from a lack of discipline or concern.

KittyKatFan
07-29-2013, 09:39 PM
I'm still binging. Can't stop. Worst binge episode since I started therapy eight months ago. I feel sick as I look in the mirror, I'm so fat and bloated.

I want to die.

Granola
07-30-2013, 09:33 PM
Hope you're doing better, Kitty. I think I overate a little today but I wasn't really counting, dinner was sort of disgusting, ugh I hate disappointing meals.