100 lb. Club - #190 - where is spring?
Hey all. Seems like the # thread has kind of gotten lost so I thought I would start it up again.
Is it me or does it feel like it hasn't even really been spring yet? We still have the flipping furnance on for heaven's sake. It is supposed to start warming up in this area over the next few days and then be cooler again. Not that I'm really complaining because all too soon I'll be slugging the a/c upstairs so we can sleep at night without sweating to death.
I've been really down these past few months and I'm thinking I need to see my dr about some therapy and maybe some medication. Normally I'll get blue and be able to snap out of it but this has gone way beyond feeling blue. I'm going to ask her to do a full spread of blood tests too, maybe my thyroid has finally keeled over.
Right now everything is really horrible. My job, my marriage, my daily life, the only bright spot is my son, he is the best thing in my life, the only thing that is giving me any happiness lately.
Sorry to be on such a downer. I guess I"m looking for a little pick me up from ya'll.
Take care everyone, hope things are better for ya'll this weekend.
05-18-2003, 12:18 AM
of course we're here to pick you up! also, i'll try to send some sun your way! it's not quite summer here, but the sun doesn't seem to know that. today it was hot... but windy so it wasn't unbearable.
you can always come here for support. =) and remember, eating right and exercising isn't JUST about losing weight -- when you do it, you feel good!
05-18-2003, 01:16 AM
I agree. Where IS spring? Grr.
I'm sorry to hear that things seem to be on the downside for you, Jen. It sounds like YOU'RE trying to turn things around though, and that is something to really be proud of. Some people just figure that things are so bad "what's the point?" and THAT'S when they're really in trouble. Good luck with everything, my prayers are with you. :) -Apryl
05-18-2003, 02:39 AM
(((hugs))) Jen - I hope things start looking up for you soon!
It was barely above freezing here today, it was hailing and so windy that I couldn't stand being outside. The furnace is going full tilt and I am so cold. I went to some garage sales today, and I accidentally locked myself out of my car (while it was running too). I had to call for a locksmith and I sat outside in the sidewalk for 40 minutes waiting for him. I was huddling up to the front of my car for warmth and I am still chilled to the bone from it.
05-18-2003, 04:45 AM
Definitely see someone, Jen. You shouldn't have to figure this out all on your own. *hugs*
Yes, it's been raining for almost the last 2 weeks. It can stop anytime. :)
05-18-2003, 11:55 AM
Well, it hasn't been cold here, but it's been raining for three damn weeks and we've had tornado warnings (as in "get in the tub 'cause it looks like it's coming your way") literally every other night.
And I agree, Jen - you should definitely see someone.
thanks everyone for their support. It means a lot to me to know that there are some people out there pulling for me.
today has been a really good day. of course my husband isn't around to ruin it for me but my mom did phone me and get on my nerves big time because she wanted me to tell her what was going on and I wouldn't. Why don't some people get the hint? I came right out and told her I didn't want to talk about it and she bugged me for a few minutes before I was finally able to change the subject and she dropped it. She thinks I need someone to talk to about this which I do agree with but not with her. She would only just tell me what I should do and then she'd be po'd with my husband which I don't need.
Anyway it has been a nice, sunny, warm day here. I had a nice walk with the baby, we went to the park and I've been outside a fair bit doing some gardening. I bought some impatiens for planting in the front yard but I think that will be for tomorrow which is supposed to be nice as well.
Take care all.
05-20-2003, 12:07 PM
There's no anti-depressant like gardening for me, Jen! I always feel better when I get outdoors. I'm so glad you got some sun your way!
05-20-2003, 03:08 PM
Jen - Don't you just HATE that. I mean, there is nothing more blatent than, "I do not want to talk about it." Yet, some people just don't understand that at all!!! It's super frustrating.
I've got some good news, I'm finally MOVING!!! My boyfriend and I just put a deposit down on a rental house downtown. I am so excited! It's bigger and two floors. It has a small yard for the dogs and it's right by the trolley. I can't wait. I currently live in the tinyest place in the world. If anyone ever gets depressed about rent (or house payments) look at San Diego. The MEDIAN price for a home is around $394,490!!!! The MEDIAN income for a family is $45,041!!! My rent is about $1500 a month (for a two bedroom). This is like living in Manhattan!
05-20-2003, 03:16 PM
I don't know how old your son is but it could be baby blues and you can get help for that. I hope the gardening helped. It is so nice to see the new growth in the gardens. That always makes me feel better.:)
05-20-2003, 03:33 PM
yeah, i totally don't want to live in san diego, for that reason jessica! NoCal is expensive enough!
congrats on moving!!
05-20-2003, 04:41 PM
Yeah, Jessica - when hubby and I lived in San Diego, we paid $525 for a 550-sq.ft. apartment...and that was 17 years ago! We loved it there, but there's no way I'm going back - too expensive!
And it's odd....I went to the mortgage calculator at ginniemae.gov. I typed in $45,000 for yearly income, then $200 for minimum monthly credit card payment, $300 for car payment, and $100 for "other" (I was thinking student loans.) With these figures, the max mortgage loan you can get is $119,809. If the avg. income is $45,000 a year, who's buying the houses? Pretty soon the real estate market is going to price itself out of business!
05-20-2003, 05:58 PM
Hi All!! Thought I'd check in.
Things are pretty good. My BIL's wedding was last weekend. It was fun, I should have some pics to post soon. EVen @ 294 lbs, I felt pretty and even sexy. It's been a long time since I felt sexy, I almost forgot I could. I am going to try and feel that way more often. I let my weight rule what I wear, clothing and shoes. I shouldn't do that.
On the "journey" homefront, I am still doing the EAT 6. This week I was up, but I attribute that to TOM. It will be interesting to see how next week is.
I am going to go back to curves tomorrow. I saw my foot doctor and I will be getting orthotics, but she gave me some meds and told me I could go back. Yippppeeee. I felt better when I was going. 4-5 days a week is my goal.
I also went to see the Doc about my TMJ - Looks like I'll be getting a mouth piece ($1900 later). I'll have to wear it 24/7 at first. Fun, Fun.
I am going to try to spend the next few weeks getting my life back under control. I am behind on everything. I need to take off work for a week and play catch up!!
Jen - ((HUGS)) I'm sorry that things are in such a bad state right now. I do think speaking to someone is a good idea. And I also think daily exercise might help too.
Raelynn - I hate keys and cars. One time I locked myself out of my car...with Jacob in the car...in the rain. Not my best day.
Goddess Jessica - One more reason to live in Indiana. 5 years ago we paid $124,000 for our 2100 sq. ft home. 394,000!! How can that be??? Congrats on your new place! :D
05-21-2003, 12:01 AM
Sandi - I was so glad that Jordanna wasn't with me, because I would have been so upset with her in the car and me locked out!
Jessica - wow that is expensive for rent. And I thought that $725/w all utilities included was too much! lol
05-21-2003, 06:16 PM
Jacob's Mommy - I'm sorry but I had to laugh at the locking your kid in your car, in the rain! How terrible but funny! My aunt's kids once locked her out of the car (while they were in it) and wouldn't let her back in. They were around 3 and 7!!! The locksmith couldn't understand why they wouldn't just open the door and when he popped the lock? Ryan (the 7 year old) pushed it back down again and laughed manically. Hee!
Holly - yep, I would love to live in NoCal but here is where the Cute Boyfriend is. The only thing I really hate about San Diego is the cold water. It would be perfect if it wasn't for that. But hey, if you ever want to visit! Look me up!
Jennelle - Yeah, the market is bound to fall. I mean, this is crazy!
05-21-2003, 06:53 PM
Hi all! Jessica, your cousins sound like my kids. Little trouble makers.
Everything is going ok here. I too, wish it were spring, but we are already above 100. YUCK. Now it is time for the way too expensive electric bills. I hate having to air condition!
I have brought myself back to the scale after a couple of months off, mostly because I knew I was gaining weight. I am now about 8 pounds more than my last weight. So, I am once again weighing in at 216. Yuck. I need to get my self control back. I know that I will again, but I was having too much fun eating everything and anything. I'm still not too worried. I know that 8 pounds can be lost again, as long as I don't keep gaining. I need to learn how to maintain my weight.
Jen, I hope that everything is going better for you. Did you make it to a doc?
I hope that everyone is doing well.
05-21-2003, 07:51 PM
Denise - I'm proud of you for stepping back on the scale. I have a habit of skipping weigh-in when I don't think I'm doing well which only perpetuates the problem for me. I did just that the last couple of weeks and am going to face the music tomorrow and weigh in no matter what.
I had to share a little victory. I picked up some great jeans (the drawstring/ roomy kind) over the weekend in a store. I was carrying them around while my husband was shopping in his side of the store. I went over to see what he was doing and he asked me if I'd tried them on. I hate to try stuff on but he talked me into it. Well, guess what? The 2X was too big! I had to go back and get the 1X which fits perfectly.
I love it when that happens!
05-21-2003, 08:24 PM
that IS an accomplishment, angi!
i never buy anything (except maybe t-shirts) without trying them on. things never fit me right. someday i'd love to be an actual size!
as for the sun/heat -- i'm not much of a hot weather person. it's already too hot here for my liking, it's in the 90's. at swim practice i got sunburned shoulder, ouch! i prefer fall weather. cool & crisp is my favorite.
05-21-2003, 09:21 PM
Yeah, I'm like you Angie, I hate to try things on. I end up buying so much crap that doesn't fit or doesn't look right.
This past weekend I bought a cute pair of DNKY light brown jeans without trying them on because they were on clearence for $8. Well, I wasted $8 because they are obviously petite but not marked as such and on my 5'9" frame, they are terrible!! I'm trying to get into the habit of not buying it unless I try it on... period.
05-21-2003, 09:32 PM
I abhor trying clothes on in the store! The lighting always makes me look like a terminal liver patient, and I SWEAR they use funhouse mirrors designed to make you look about 100 lbs. more than you really are! I don't go into dressing rooms, even when I'm thin. I buy the stuff and try it on at home. If it doesn't fit right, I take it back. Of course, this means I occassionally run into the problem of buying something on clearance that turns out to be gross...
Hi guys! I'm still alive -- just haven't had much internet access. I did stay at the motel for 1 week. I found an apartment!!! I just can't move in till June 1st. Till then I'll be staying with friends. It's just not a good idea for me to go home. I'm not sure how I'm doing with weight, but the "PANTS-O-METER" says I'm OK. I'm trying to stay with normal food, but I admit I've been eating more sweets, and since I'm not at home, it's hard to eat all the same stuff. Oh, it will be so good to be settled in my own little apartment. I'll still be in NH. I got a little 1 bedroom apartment overlooking a river. It's on a busy road, so there's traffic noise, but otherwise it's very peaceful and quiet and serene. Yes, it's expensive, but it's WORTH it. I need the peace and the space.
05-21-2003, 11:20 PM
Here is a picture from the wedding over the weekend!
05-22-2003, 12:33 AM
Great dress, Sandi! And you look beautiful in it. No wonder you felt sexy!
05-22-2003, 12:43 AM
Sandi, I LOVE your dress! It's so glamorous!
05-22-2003, 12:50 AM
Jeanne - I'm so glad you found an apartment! I know you are so excited to be on your own!
05-22-2003, 01:17 AM
jeanne --- SO SO SO SO happy for you! that sounds wonderful and it will be so good for you and your health!
sandi -- oooh, sparkly! very pretty!
Sandi - you look fabulous!!! I agree that regular exercise would probably be good for me, problem is that I'm having trouble getting my butt out of the house. I just end up thinking something like, is it really worth all the trouble? I know that it is but I just have no motivation at all.
Denise - I've got a dr's appt next week and I'm hoping she'll be able to help me out with this issue.
Thanks everyone for their support. :)
You look beautiful Sandy!!! I love the gold! Why not sparkle?
Yes, Jennelle and Holly, it won't be long. It will be so good to put away my suitcase and be at home in my own little apartment. I am longing to be settled. I feel like I'm constantly moving. I moved from the motel to a friend's house on Monday, and I am staying at another friend's house this weekend, and will go back to my other friend's house after this weekend, and then I will move to the apartment next weekend.
I'm not sure if it's affecting my weight. It's hard to say. I'm going to have to buy my own scale now for my new place. I haven't been as good with eating this past week and with my schedule, I've been skipping out on some of my exercises -- but I'm trying to be as regular as possible both with eating and exercising. Things are just going to be a little crazy till I'm settled.
05-24-2003, 04:41 PM
Well tomorrow is my 7 year aniversary and I have nothing to do but clean my house. O'well, same as last year.
I haven't been doing all that well latley. I have gained weight and that isn't good. So I'm going to do my best to get it back off. It's been hard with my money issue to stay OP. But I'm trying to keep up with my water and workout and eat reasonably.
Hopefully that will work.
05-24-2003, 04:51 PM
*hugs* Good Luck, Bella. Money is tight here this week, too.
Jeanne, congrats on finally doing it!!! Sooo proud of you!
Sandi, you look great!!
Angi, congrats on the pants! I HATE trying clothes on, but am inspired by your lil story. :)
05-24-2003, 09:07 PM
JML, good luck when you get into your own little place. I'm sure life will be more peaceful when you're settled in.
And happy anniversary anyway, Bella. It's surely more difficult having hubby away then and esp. two years in a row. I remember last year you had financial difficulty when hubby was called up. Is there any possibility he will be returning to civilian life soon since things have quieted a bit? I hope so for your sake and his and for those two little darlings.