Congrats on your weight loss. And you're going to kick your eating disorder and depression in the butt.
As for me, I have the uttermost inability to describe how I actually feel. I see a mental health provider and I always leave the office in tears and shaking. I cannot stand confrontation about my depression. My provider will say something like "tell me about you have been feeling" and I'll give short, polite, indescriptive answers. Then the provider will tell me I look sad. Then I lose it and cry in the office. Every single week. And there is no reason for the way I feel - I guess that's what makes me upset.
So I guess I am strange... I feel nothing at all during the week. I live life on autopilot. During appts, I end up crying because I can't express how I feel.
I also have a habbit of saying I will do something fun and social (like see a movie with friends or go to a concert or something) but, when the day comes, I don't want to do it so bad that I end up crying all morning.