Weight Loss Support - Things you remember about your pre-weightloss journey lifestyle...




LebenAlles
09-24-2012, 11:20 AM
My partner and I will often have a conversation that goes like this:

"Remember when we used to have fishsticks, macaroni and cheese, and mashed potatoes for dinner?"

"Good lord, yes. Remember when I had to ask you to help me tie my shoes?"


And the list goes on. What are some things that you remember from before your journey that you either can't believe you did or are glad you don't have to deal with anymore?


JossFit
09-24-2012, 11:31 AM
I can't believe how much I used to drink!

LockItUp
09-24-2012, 11:37 AM
So funny you should post this, I was just thinking about this last night as I was watching Supersize Vs. Superskinny.

I definitely don't miss having to wear maternity pants WAY past the acceptable period in which one should wear maternity pants, post-pregnancy.

The amount of food that I could eat really turns my stomach to think about! There have been a couple times, in the past few months, I have really overeaten -- but NOTHING compared to what I would have regularly eaten and not have batted an eye. But the few times I have eaten way too much, reminds me of the often painful fullness that I felt almost all the time back then. It's absolutely miserable.


angie7896
09-24-2012, 11:39 AM
I calculated the calories from a normal day and it was over 4,000!

I used to look forward to things like family get togethers for the food. Now I look forward to spending time with people. :)

krampus
09-24-2012, 12:02 PM
I remember it fondly. I for one enjoyed every bite of my three bowls of Reeses Peanut Butter Puffs I had for breakfast...eating a whole box of Annie's mac & cheese for dinner...cooking a big pot of gnocchi and eating it with prefab tomato sauce...ahhh, those were the days.

Still worth it to wear single-digit pants sizes.

Kery
09-24-2012, 01:19 PM
Yeah, I can't believe either the amount of crap I was able to eat, both in quantity and, uhm, shall I dare call it 'quality'? Right now, if I were to eat it again, I'd probably explode and die on the spot (well, at least my intestines would).

LeilaJey
09-24-2012, 01:32 PM
I just remembered yesterday when I was in the shop that a few years ago I used to regularly buy (in my bingey days) a big loaf of thick white bread, real butter and koka noodles (chicken flavour, ooh yeah). What a shitty meal. Also that stuffed pasta stuff, I'd buy a pack of that and eat the whole thing with just a jar of sauce stirred in. For dessert I could have a pack of plain digestive biscuits and some chocolate spread. It all sounds crap but it was totally delicious at the time. If I ate that now I'm sure I'd just feel really shitty and bloated.

DisappearingActs
09-24-2012, 01:38 PM
Shopping. I remember going to Catherine's and being in denial that I couldn't fit the size 22 skirt. I remember going to Express with a friend and getting earrings because that's all I could fit.

Wow, I actually forgot those days...

JohnP
09-24-2012, 01:39 PM
I can only say I didn't get to 300 lbs by accident ...

Pink Hurricane
09-24-2012, 02:00 PM
How much soda I used to drink (which is cool to say since I haven't had one in over 3 months) and how little exercise or movement in general outside of day to day routine that I would get. It was ridiculous! Now I cannot imagine not having exercise incorporated into my daily routine, even if it's just a short walk and a few jumping jacks, I have to keep moving!

healthyangie
09-24-2012, 02:23 PM
I remember it fondly. I for one enjoyed every bite of my three bowls of Reeses Peanut Butter Puffs I had for breakfast...eating a whole box of Annie's mac & cheese for dinner...cooking a big pot of gnocchi and eating it with prefab tomato sauce...ahhh, those were the days.

Still worth it to wear single-digit pants sizes.

Yum! gnocchi! I think I could possibly manage about 6 of them now, versus about 40 before LOL!!!:)

thewalrus0
09-24-2012, 02:28 PM
I haven't lost much weight but just one year ago I smoked every day, whenever I got a chance. I drank diet soda like it was going out of style. I almost never drank water. I drank crazy amounts of calories when I would drink alcohol because we usually drank our hard alcohol with lots of non-diet soda. I ate frozen food for dinner and lunch, like pizza rolls. I'd buy single serving things of pizza rolls for lunches and big dinner packages to have at the house! Some days I'd have pizza rolls for both lunch and dinner, after having a hot pocket for breakfast?!

I also would eat candy for snacks whenever I could. Chips too.

The past year I really upped my veggies and fruits, started buying healthier foods and learned how to cook. My biggest problem is even after eating healthier I'd eat too much still. That's the problem I'm tackling now.

About two months ago I started having trouble tying my shoelaces. And not like I can't do it, but I get all breathless after bending over to tie them and I've started sitting down to do it. I never realized how much I took small things like that for granted! I want to tie my shoes without getting breathless! And I will. :)

healthyangie
09-24-2012, 02:59 PM
I use to drink 4 of my favorite martini's just about every Saturday night. Each martini has 500 calories. So I was drinking the amount of calories I'm eating per day these days! That's not including the food I ate earlier in the day and the greasy food I ate when the night was over.

Don't let me get started on ice cream. I could polish off an entire box of ice cream in 2 days by myself! Mind you I work from home so it was very easy to do.

I never counted calories, I drank like 2 cans cokes per day, never worked out - I could go on and on...

Wow this is so eye-opening for me, but I am very thankful to be in control now!

I'm impressed - 4 martini's and even when I could drink A LOT - I'd still be under the table :)

juliastl27
09-24-2012, 03:04 PM
at my highest weight (220) id sometimes eat an entire bag of peanut M&Ms in one day.. the 1lb bag...

gailr42
09-24-2012, 03:08 PM
Some pretty yummy food, drinks and smokes passing by here!!! Those were the days...

Before I started on my journey, I was totally sedentary. I have started to walk, and keeping this up as well as adding other forms of exercise is going to be my greatest challenge.

healthyangie
09-24-2012, 03:11 PM
at my highest weight (220) id sometimes eat an entire bag of peanut M&Ms in one day.. the 1lb bag...

Yeah - I can remember the big bags of Salt & Vinegar chips going down the same way .... and I DO like peanut M & M's!

IsabellaOlivia
09-24-2012, 03:11 PM
A family size Pringles sour cream and onion box, a large Cadbury Caramel chocolate and a diet Coke was breakfast.

It's insane to think of how long I've come since that.

coolacrity
09-24-2012, 03:31 PM
We have a looooong corridor at work that we call "The Green Mile" and my classroom is allllllll the way at the end of it. Two years ago, if I were asked to go up to the front office or some other errand, I would sigh and be back in, say, fifteen minutes. Now, I can go up and down TGM in a snap. Walking has gotten so much easier!

And don't get me started on what I would eat late at night!

MedChick87
09-24-2012, 03:58 PM
I remember eating fast food 2, sometimes 3 times a day. I'd have to rotate which places I'd go to because I didn't want them to remember me :o


I also remember being mortified at pretty much any picture that was taken of me and how I was lucky if I fit into the biggest size at any "regular" clothing store. I still have a long way to go to get to my goal, but it's so much better being 50 lbs lighter!!

stimkovs
09-24-2012, 05:00 PM
at my highest weight (220) id sometimes eat an entire bag of peanut M&Ms in one day.. the 1lb bag...


im at my humanly lowest weight ever right now, and i could go for one of those, right about now.

but not in one day.

one sitting.

YUM.

there's a reason i used to be fat.

westcoast rosa
09-24-2012, 05:09 PM
Just last week I was shocked at the difference in the amount I used to be able to eat in a meal....not even a binge. I was making salad rolls and ate 2 and was STUFFED. 6 months ago I could have eaten 4-5 AND at least 4 spring rolls!!! My how things have changed.

Clarity
09-24-2012, 05:35 PM
I once ate 3 Big Mac's plus fries and coke for lunch--just thinking about it makes me sick now. I used to wake up so fuzzy-headed and lethargic that it took me a couple of hours to really feel awake. Now it just takes about 5-10minutes. There's a hill close to my house that was always a challenge--I was breathing hard and struggling to walk up it. Now it barely causes me to breathe harder and it seems easy to walk up.

angelskeep
09-24-2012, 05:46 PM
I remember how much I used to LOVE fast food hamburgers. The BIG ones. And BIG fries. And so on. I started eating cleaner on Feb. 22, 2010 and stayed 100% on plan until Father's Day in June when Robert wanted to drive through at Hardees. It took almost 40 minutes to get the food, and it tasted so nasty and greasy and SALTY. UGH! I have eaten a fast food burger occasionally sine then, but have never gotten back the same taste for them that I had before. We even had nice steak for dinner last night, a super lean NY strip steak and we split one. Robert had a little over 4 oz. of it and I had a little under 4 oz. We used to eat a whole one each, or better still if I could find a pkg of three we'd each eat one and split the third. YOWZA!

My palate has definitely changed.

Barb

juliastl27
09-24-2012, 08:10 PM
Yeah - I can remember the big bags of Salt & Vinegar chips going down the same way .... and I DO like peanut M & M's!


portion control has always been super hard for me. first of all, most portion sizes listed on nutrition facts are nonsense. if you buy a 20 oz bottle of coke it tells you its 2.5 servings... yeah right. 2 slices of pizza, 1 ounce of chips, etc. by the time you total up what *i* considered a serving itd be like 3 or 4.

also, i remember destroying the inside of my mouth on many a bag of salt n vinegar chips, lol. theyre sooo good!

also stimkovs im sure i could still put one down happily. ah, sometimes i long for the days of eating whatever nonsense i wanted all the time.

Madame Souza
09-24-2012, 08:29 PM
I was going through the refrigerator and cabinets throwing old stuff away and found the maple syrup. I had the thought, I used to drink this stuff! I have come a long way since then.

AmyAmy
09-24-2012, 08:38 PM
I remember my life being an unorganised mess. I would go to bed at 3 am and wake up at midday. The house was always messy, I would forget to get the mail and fall behind paying the bills, there would be no routine and I couldn't get anything done. The kitchen was always the worst, with food packets and bowls and plates everywhere from my constant overeating. For some reason, when I started eating well and excercising most days, everything else just sort of came together. I think it was because I needed a routine with my eating, and I had to plan my diet around my workouts since I tend to get stomach issues if I eat too close exercise, and I like a post workout snack. The kitchen was cleaner because I wasn't eating all the time and using up plates. Following a healthy diet and exercise also gave a me a feeling of control which bled over into other parts of my life. I didn't realise this until I had a bad day of binging and no exercise and the next day everything was a mess, and I realised I had fallen behind oon everything I was supposed to do that day.

KittyKatFan
09-24-2012, 09:44 PM
I think about the difference in my lifestyle now vs. then.

I like to travel, and when I was heavier, I would drive around a city to see the sights. I never got out of the car - I even stayed in the car for fast food.

Now when I travel, I look up the city online and try to find out places of interest that I can visit. I will take walking tours in cities, when offered, like I did in Europe and what I plan to do in South America later this year.

I am going to Fargo later this week; my mom was raised there and I have never visited ND (my quest is to visit all 50 states, and ND is about to be #45). I looked up parks and hiking trails so I could walk and get exercise, and am staying near ND State U so I can walk on campus. No driving everywhere!

It is always hard for me to stay on plan when traveling, but I am in a hotel with a kitchenette so I can cook my own meals. In my "past" life I would stay in places that offered room service so I could binge in private and not go out, or I would get massive amounts of takeout/delivery. Now, between walking as much as possible and having the ability to eat healthy, I hope to stay on track this weekend.

mimsyborogoves
09-24-2012, 09:55 PM
Oh my gosh, I have always been overweight, but during high school I tried so many times to lose weight that what I ate was never that bad, but there were times that I definitely ate way more than I should have. I'd make attempts, but for the most part I just ate what I wanted when I wanted. I never really "binged", but I had no problem eating fast food or any other junk, I just ate the proper portion too many times, haha!

My freshman year of college was the worst. Most people gain the freshman fifteen; mine was more like the freshman forty! Oh gosh, it was terrible. I had come into some extra money, so I just went and ate fast food whenever I felt like it. I was also partying a lot: lots of drinking and smoking (cigarettes and otherwise), which would cause me to consume massive amounts of food. I'd come home from a party and scarf down everything in my room that was edible. When I hit 280, that immediately stopped. I quit drinking so much, quit smoking illegal substances, and my weight immediately started going down, although it was slowly. It took me 2 years to drop that extra 40lbs. I never exercised; I mostly just sat on my butt and played on the computer all day when I wasn't in class. It was terrible, and I will never, ever, EVER go back to that.

EVER.

Jonjaxmom
09-24-2012, 10:02 PM
Burger king for breakfast, KFC for lunch, a bag of frozen raviolis for dinner, followed by a pint of Ben and Jerry's. Wow, I've come a long way.

NoSuchUser
09-24-2012, 11:48 PM
Just how often I ate out! & I can't believe I could suck down those venti size sugary frappuccino drinks & not even think of it as anything more than just something to quench my thirst! Now I don't even eat that much sugar in a WEEK!

Nayshal
09-24-2012, 11:51 PM
White rice. So much white rice. I'm Filipino, I bleed rice lol. Now I only have 1 cup a day.

The weather is warm all year round and my idea of cooling down is a big mug of cold soda almost every after meal.

I used to eat a lot of greasy fast food stuff. Fries mmm oh and lots of ice cream. Once I ate two whole pizza (14 inch, thin crust), 1 box of mojo potatoes and 2 liters of pepsi in a day. Thinking about how many calories I ate then makes me sick.

I never exercise. I hate walking. My idea of exercise is anything that makes me sweat.

If you told the me of 1 month ago that I'll be going on a weight-loss journey, I'd slap you and call you a liar.

Mer du Japon
09-25-2012, 01:11 AM
One of my low points was gulping down diet soda in the locker room after a workout at my gym

I once drank 12 diet sodas in ONE DAY!

Soaking popcorn in butter and salt at the movie theatre and eating a whoe bag of red vines

Eating out for lunch and dinner every day of the week

Easily consuming 2-4 sugary frozen strawberry margaritas and licking the salt off the rim

Eating too much...vomiting.. Then eating more...

graciegoose13
09-25-2012, 03:44 AM
I remember eating a bag of chips, candy bar, and a soda every day for lunch in high school.

I remember squeezing myself into 16's and wishing I had the options of going one size bigger in "normal" sizes if I had to.

I remember getting home from school, eating dinner, and then going out to a restaurant for ANOTHER dinner with my family.

I remember crying in dressing rooms.

healthyangie
09-25-2012, 09:37 AM
portion control has always been super hard for me. first of all, most portion sizes listed on nutrition facts are nonsense. if you buy a 20 oz bottle of coke it tells you its 2.5 servings... yeah right. 2 slices of pizza, 1 ounce of chips, etc. by the time you total up what *i* considered a serving itd be like 3 or 4.

also, i remember destroying the inside of my mouth on many a bag of salt n vinegar chips, lol. theyre sooo good!

also stimkovs im sure i could still put one down happily. ah, sometimes i long for the days of eating whatever nonsense i wanted all the time.

LOL - I agree - who can eat 11 potato chips anyway!!! And I remember the sore tongue also! So on a side note, we were on the smoking thread last week-I just got my v2cigs, I'll let you know how they are.

MablesGirl
09-25-2012, 10:52 AM
These are the things I never want to have again, at least until I'm 80! Acid reflux, achy knees, pain in lower back, no energy. Getting up, going to work, coming home and sitting on couch because I'm tired. Blah, I don't want this ever again.

juliastl27
09-25-2012, 10:58 AM
LOL - I agree - who can eat 11 potato chips anyway!!! And I remember the sore tongue also! So on a side note, we were on the smoking thread last week-I just got my v2cigs, I'll let you know how they are.


ooooooooh! awesome! PLEASE do let me know!

mountain walker
09-25-2012, 11:13 AM
I remember getting really angry with my (disabled) hubby when we were shopping as he walks so slowly and shopping together took us ages. My knees hurt so badly I would need a second trolley to lean on ( he leaned on the first trolley).
I cried when I went to buy myself a wedding dress last October.
I didn't want to spend money on clothes that I would still look so awful in.
I love pizza and chocolate and potato chips and have the odd day of eating everything in sight but mostly I am just glad to be on the way down instead of constantly on the way up.

TripSwitch
09-25-2012, 12:00 PM
I guess I kind of miss eating out practically every night of the week...

Sometimes I really miss meeting friends for a drink and then having dinner... I always convinced myself "that it really wasn't "bad" at all" because I always skipped any bread before dinner and always ordered something "healthy" and would just have some sort of vegetable and no accompanying starch... and of course no dessert...

But once you start counting those calories from some drinks or some wine with dinner, they really start to add up and for me anyway my resolve pretty much goes out the window...

So now I skip the cocktail or wine... and just order an extra bottle of Pellegrino for the table...

SerenityDiva
09-25-2012, 12:17 PM
Being achy and having low energy. Having to make sure I have everything I need before ascending stairs so I don't have to make a 2nd trip.

Having now what seems to be HUGE portions. I do "cheat" and I still can't even eat the size of portions I used to be it popcorn, pasta, or drinks.

Thinking I'd never be able to give up sugared soda (now they actually gross me out and I've finally kicked it--I did 3 times during pregnancy but now it's like I don't even MISS it).

I do miss eating out and not thinking "I'm paying $13 for a salad!" but problem solved, I just don't eat out and spend the money elsewhere or save it.

Hating any item of clothing that didn't have elastic and actually limiting my time out and about to 1-2 days a week so I could wear my sweats and yoga pants the rest of the time and be comfortable.

I do NOT miss having gigantic bras.

thewalrus0
09-25-2012, 02:21 PM
I remember crying in dressing rooms.

I have cried in dressing rooms all over this town. You name a store that sells clothes and I probably cried in their dressing rooms.

Elladorine
09-25-2012, 03:34 PM
Honestly, I think I blocked a lot of things out. Too painful. Enough things still linger though.

I remember not being able to breathe. Not that the asthma helped, but sometimes walking from one room to the next about killed me. I ended up in the ER a few times because I simply couldn't handle lugging my body around.

I remember crying because the closest parking we found for a convention was about a mile away from the center, and I wasn't sure I could walk it on top of being on my feet all day, and then walking back to the car again. I wasn't even near my highest weight.

I remember eating Burger King so often that the chicken sandwiches would make me feel sick after about halfway through. I haven't touched BK in about 6 years now and the thought of anything from there still turns my stomach.

I remember the waists of my jeans hurting, so I'd unfasten them as soon as I got home. I can't tell you how many zippers I broke by sitting down while wearing them unzipped! :o I'm not even sure how I justified it back then, but it certainly didn't seem like I was on my way to gaining another 100 pounds! Heck, I also remember complaining about how 2X's in the stores had gotten "smaller" . . . I certainly wasn't getting too big for them, right? If I picked up a bigger size it wasn't because the 2X's no longer fit me, it was because I wanted my shirts "baggy." Wow, was I delusional.

I remember shopping at a plus size store with a friend and leaving in a hurry so I could hide in the bathroom and cry. Why? I realized that they didn't have one pair of jeans that would even come close to fitting me: I was too fat for the fat store! :( No room to be delusional there.

I remember going through two Wisconsin winters with a coat that I could no longer zip up (a 26/28!), I'd gotten too big for it and couldn't afford to buy something that actually fit me.

I remember not being able to fit in the folding lunch tables when I was working with kids at a school. Well, I could fit if I sucked it in and kinda sat sideways. Oh, and not being able to do much actual playing with them outside of board games and coloring.

I remember hating to bend over for anything, even getting something from the bottom shelf of the fridge was a painful nightmare.

I remember food being the only thing I had in my life to look forward to and enjoy (very sad, now that I look back at it). But those were difficult personal times (angry and selfish boyfriend, loss of my parents, money issues, etc.) and I didn't know how to make things better. Worst of all, I remember feeling completely helpless and powerless to change. I'm not only amazed that I got started, but that I've made it this far.

prillabong
09-25-2012, 03:43 PM
If I had a take away in the past I would eat any leftovers (if there were any) later on or the next day cold... now the thought of this makes me feel sick so any leftovers I throw in the bin.

Also I would eat as normal the day after a take away but now Im usually still full til late on in the day :)

LebenAlles
09-26-2012, 08:55 AM
I remember being at Six Flags over Georgia at my highest weight last october, jamming myself into the Scream Machine and having to have the attendant help me lock down the bar. Now, I love rollercoasters but that ride was absolutely terrifying, feeling like I was barely locked in there and knowing shiz could get real, real fast. That's when I knew something had to give.

But after reading all of these (keep em comin!), It's amazing to see how far we've all come. And yeah, we all miss those certain satisfying foods that still make us cry a little inside when we see everyone else eating them, but there's obviously sooo much crap that we've all been able to erase from our lives. Those foods will still be there for the occasional 'cheat', but all of that other crap can stay the **** away, am i right?

berryblondeboys
09-26-2012, 09:39 AM
It's funny. I totally like how I eat now. I enjoy my food and the activity and feeling spritely. But I will not deny that I love food - all of it and that I could totally dig in and pig out.

Is it worth it? No... but when I have dieting breaks (last year around the holidays and this year around vacation), I enjoy myself. I don't go crazy, but I eat like the rest of the family - having a dessert when they have a dessert, eating bread, etc. I just can't eat that way for long or I start to look and feel bad.

We always ate very good dinners - lots of veggies, lean meats, etc. It was the lunches that killed me - full bag of cheetos. several bars of ice cream, etc. Could I do that again? Sure I could. Will I? No.

BreakingUpWith90lbs
09-26-2012, 10:38 AM
Eating at fast food 2x/day. I was so embarrassed because I'd order 4-6 items and I'd order more drinks so the people at the drive-thru would think I was just ordering for more than one person.

Eating a whole box of mac and cheese.

I used to eat a ginormous cookie every day for lunch.

Unzipping my pants immediately when I got home.

Switching to stretchy pants as I got heavier and heavier. If I didn't have to try on pants sizes and they were elastic, I wasn't gaining, right?

The list could go on and on...

dstalksalot
09-26-2012, 12:34 PM
I must still be in a little bit of denial or something because I don't remember eating a one pound bag of M &M's or an entire pizza but I was obviously doing something wrong or I would not have been 220-something pounds. I am still figuring it out, but I think what my issue was is that I was eating servings for a man. I also had issues with large quantities of ranch dressing on my "healthy" salad. Toward the end I became an emotional eater and ate Mint Molanos far too often and would have the yummy chocolate chip cookies daily that they serve at Target.(My work was next to a huge brand new target.)

After a year, I still struggle with the why and fear a regression. I think so much of weight loss is trying to work out the emotional aspects of changing bad habits and addictions and all of the reasons why they became addictions in the first place. I am encouraged daily visiting 3FC and wish you all peace and endurance in your "journey" .

1987
09-26-2012, 02:34 PM
My most 'obese' moments were when my (normal sized) boyfriend and I would order pizza. I'd polish off half a large pizza, dips and sides all washed down with full fat cola. Not good.

Other than the occasional fast food meal, I never binge ate or gorged on junk really. I'm thankful for that, I put my obesity down to over generous portions more than anything else.

westcoast rosa
09-26-2012, 03:19 PM
I'd order more drinks so the people at the drive-thru would think I was just ordering for more than one person.

I totally used to do that at Tim Hortons! I would order 2+ coffees with my 1/2 dozen donuts so they wouldn't know it was all for me. YIKES!:eek:

Steph7409
09-26-2012, 08:58 PM
I remember waking up in the morning and thinking: okay, today I'm going to stop eating like a crazy person. And then realizing that I'd been thinking that every morning for years, and feeling like a total failure. I hated that feeling.

KittyKatFan
09-26-2012, 09:24 PM
Eating at fast food 2x/day. I was so embarrassed because I'd order 4-6 items and I'd order more drinks so the people at the drive-thru would think I was just ordering for more than one person.
...

I would do the same thing :(. I'm sure I was fooling nobody.

KittyKatFan
09-26-2012, 09:27 PM
I would also order a dozen donuts instead of 4 or 5 so the cashier would think I was getting them for the office. I would eat as many as I can and save the rest for later.

So bad...

LookinUp
09-27-2012, 08:20 AM
Ordering a foot long chilli-cheese dog & tater tots meal @ Sonic and having my boyfriend ask "Are you really going to eat all that?"

Muting my cell phone so a friend I was speaking to wouldn't hear my unhealthy order @ yet another fast food drive-thru (my order was usually for a hotdog meal PLUS dessert)

LadyWraith
09-27-2012, 01:37 PM
Not being able to breathe after walking up the 3-4 flights of stairs in the parking garage at my work. Now I RUN up those and am barely winded. Eating huge servings of just about everything. Despised clothes shopping. It's strange; I'm not a ton smaller than I was 30 lbs but I don't break down while clothes shopping anymore. Sure I get disappointed but not heart broken like before.

Em Coconut
09-27-2012, 03:01 PM
Frozen pizzas and entire bags of chips... several times a week.
At least a big bottle of coke every single day...
Chocolate whenever, wherever....
Second dinners...

Haven't been so long this time, but so far I absolutely don't miss any of these!

DoingMyBest79
09-29-2012, 05:55 PM
This thread has been so helpful to me! Thanks, everyone, for sharing your stories.

All summer, I have been struggling with falling off the wagon, and wishing I could eat the way I used to eat but keep my new, much smaller body. Thanks for reminding me that, while I can't eat all the yummy foods I used to in unlimited quantities, I no longer have the many emotionally painful consequences of being fat, either!

I remember crying in dressing rooms, and feeling so bad about myself, and every day (or the next Monday) was the day that I was going to start my diet...that literally lasted for about 12 years, and then I gave up and accepted that I could not lose any weight. I just let myself go for another 7 years, eating whatever I wanted and not even trying to stop.

I finally stopped at 186 pounds, and I've gotten back into the low 130's, but it has been a long journey...reading all of these posts, which I can fully relate to, has helped me remember that I don't want to go back to there again! The taste of the food is not worth the emotional pain!

Thanks for sharing your stories!!

Dottington
09-29-2012, 07:36 PM
Not being able to hike even one measly mile up hill.

I would only eat at night to prove how "good" I was by not eating during the day and tricking myself into thinking somehow I wasn't eating that much.

I used to go out to eat several times a week and eat huge servings.

Eating tons of cheese and bread and of course soooo much wine. I could easily drink a few bottles of wine by myself :o I would often get fast food late at night too after drinking.

I would always binge on chips, eating an entire bag to myself. I would get intense cravings for sweets and felt I deserved "treats" during the week so I'd always have cake or something like that in the house.

Now I hardly eat out at all, love exercise, don't eat any dairy, don't drink, don't eat any fast food, chips, premade stuff ect. Its kind of crazy how different my lifestyle is now.

tricon7
10-01-2012, 04:22 PM
Back at my heaviest - and when I didn't care what I ate - I'd regularly pick up FOUR Big Beef Meximelts at Taco Bell for lunch, then on the way home to eat them I'd pick up a half-dozen Krispy Kreme glazed "Hot-n-Now" donuts. This would all be for lunch, washed down with regular Mountain Dew soda. I'd sometimes make myself an entire lemon pie and eat the whole thing in one day as well. It's a wonder I wasn't 300 lbs.

IsabellaOlivia
10-01-2012, 05:01 PM
I tried on a jacket that I hadn't worn in a long time when I was at my heaviest. The zipper bursted open in public. When I was alone in my room later in the day I cried because of that incident.

I also remember being out partying one night and I couldn't walk up a hill that about ten other people was having no trouble walking up. I felt like such a failure. I was 19 years old at the time.

Being at the doctor's office and being told " Watch your weight" That was an incredibly low moment in my life.

Moreover, I was walking around in sweatpants, because all my other pants were so tight they were giving me stomach pain.

gailr42
10-01-2012, 06:36 PM
One time I bought a bag of the little Reeses cups and ate it all at once, but that really isn't my "thing".

How I got fat was eating way too much bread with way too much butter, and cheese, and the occasional granola bar tossed into the mix. Not too long ago I bought a six pound brick of Mozzarella at Costco so I would have it "on hand" when I felt like making a home made pizza. I put it in the freezer so I wouldn't be able to eat it so easily. Well, freezer or not, I had that baby finished off within a few days. That I could actually eat that much cheese in such a short time was an epiphany for me.

I am only in remission, not cured, from this kind of unhealthy eating. It is going to be a long time before this comes naturally to me.

1spunkygal
10-01-2012, 06:46 PM
The amount of food I would eat in 1 sitting could probbaly feed a family of 3 or 4. Taking out the trash before my family got home so they couldn't see all the wrappers of (fill in the blank) ________. It's shameful the chips, candy, pizza, Hostess cupcakes I use to inhale in 1 sitting. I eat one greasy thing today & I'm headed for the Alka Seltzer. Same here gailr 42 .....I still have a way to go.


BUT WE SHOULD BE PROUD we are works in progress :hug:

1spunkygal
10-01-2012, 06:50 PM
Back at my heaviest - and when I didn't care. I'd sometimes make myself an entire lemon pie and eat the whole thing in one day as well. It's a wonder I wasn't 300 lbs.

SAME HERE except it was a cake :hug:

Cattails
10-02-2012, 08:54 AM
Warming up flour tortillas and spreading them with Nutella - three or four (or more!) a night! Dropping chocolate chips into the peanut butter jar and scooping out bites... Slurping up handfuls of cold pasta while putting it away after dinner - ugh, makes my stomach hurt to think of it now! No wonder I got so fat and was winded from walking up to the back row at the local movie theater. :( Denial and justification is a wonderful thing - NOT!!

olleharr
10-02-2012, 09:11 AM
The potato chips......oh those rottenly delicious potato chips.........

juliana77
10-02-2012, 09:18 AM
Ice cream never lasted more than a day or two in my house, even a half gallon. I remember being home sick one day and buying a box of drumsticks when I went to the store to get soup. I ate one, then another, then decided I had to finish the box so my son (then 6?) wouldn't see them. I really don't remember what I used to eat for lunches and dinners, but I remember eating lots of sweets and snacks on evenings and weekends. Full bags of cookies, candy, chips, etc.

I missed out on so much life!! Was too heavy for horseback riding and zip lining, was too out of shape for hiking, and was constantly stressed about fitting into seats on airplanes. I avoided both business and pleasure trips.

Maintenance is hard. I hoped that somehow I would escape that fact. I was ok at first, but now if I am not logging (I lost my weight through calorie counting) then I find myself slipping back into old habits. Not to the same degree, and less junk, but the eating just to eat.

1spunkygal
10-02-2012, 06:31 PM
I remember telling my daughter when I would down 1 coke & 2 hostess choc cupcakes for breakfast THIS IS NOT A HEALTHY BREAKFAST !


I was not a good example (but I am now)

heathermichigan
10-02-2012, 08:24 PM
Sometimes having three bagels and cream cheese before lunch.

Being bored and eating anything I could think of at night until I wanted to make myself sick because my stomach hurt so badly.

Eating candy, all the time, just because it was there.

Not caring that I had to order size 24 pants and when they were snug, thinking to myself that they must be marked wrong.

Hating clothes shopping. Always. And the only goal was to find shirts and pants that would flow over my bulges.

Thinking of any reason at all to not get my picture taken, or at the very least, never looking at the pictures taken of me.

Never ever EVER being looked at by men. They all looked through me.

Atarimae
10-03-2012, 05:58 AM
Eating late just because.

Staying up until 4am browsing the net or playing games while tanking 3-4 cans of diet soda.

Sleeping at any and all times of the day. Okay, I still sleep a looot, but now I don't like...sleep in until 12 on free days, even if I tried.

What's exercise?

Avoided taking my blood pressure, even when family asks me straight forward.

Reading labels, realizing there are too many calories/sugars/etc, but eating/drinking it anyway.

linJber
10-03-2012, 08:32 AM
Southwest breakfast bagel from a local convenience store almost every work day morning. Sometimes two of them. They consist of a full size bagel, a 4 oz sausage pattie, and a slice of pepper jack cheese. Add a couple candy bars for lunch, a box of snack crackers or tube of Pringles at my desk during the day, and a whole pound of pasta for supper. Then some evening snacks.

I could eat a container of ice cream in 2 days. And I'm in there with the rest of you on the salt and vinegar chips. The inside of my mouth would be raw.

Portion control is still a struggle. I agree with the labeling being pretty ridiculous regarding portions. When I point this out to friends now, they think I'm nuts or making the sizes up because I'm paying attention to it now. But when did a pound of pasta ever feed 8 people?!?! Not any 8 people I know!

Lin

freelancemomma
10-03-2012, 09:00 AM
Maintenance is hard. I hoped that somehow I would escape that fact.

In my case, I would say that maintenance has not been hard, but it HAS been a sacrifice. What I mean is that I'm almost never hungry, and if I am I have a small snack. I eat 2,000+ cals per day, only foods I enjoy, and I occasionally indulge massively. The sacrifice is simply that I can't eat what I want whenever I want. I happen to have a large appetite for food (could easily eat 4,000 cals per day), so there's some permanent restraint involved.

F.

linJber
10-03-2012, 10:55 PM
I posted yesterday bout the food I used to eat. I miss that sometimes, because, as Freelance said, I have a large appetite. I really enjoy all kinds of food - healthy and not so healthy. but mostly I enjoy eating. That's why I have to stay focused. And I manage to do it most of the time. tomorrow is one year to the day for maintaining a +/- 90 pound loss. That made me think about what really is different. I used to think I was OK at 250+ pounds because I had no apparent health issues. Everything was normal, I could walk all day, I could lift my kayak onto the roof of my SUV and get it into the water on my own, I fit into airplane and amusement ride seats. I considered myself "fat fit."

But at 90 pounds less than what I was 20 months ago, I realize that all the things I was "able" to do before, are way easier to do now. All aspects of my life are easier. It's easier to get out of a chair. It's easier to stand up from kneeling or sitting on the ground. It's easier to tie my shoes or paint my toe nails. It's easier to buy clothes. I never thought any of these things were difficult. but I realize just how much easier they are now. In my opinion, all of life is easier. Why wouldn't we want that for ourselves?

I love threads like this one that really make me think about things. I hope year 2 of being 160 pounds goes as well as the first one did. Maybe, just maybe, someday this will seem like the norm and therefor be a bit easier.

Lin

PS - I too would buy 2 small drinks with large fast food orders so the server would think it was for 2 people. That should have been my first clue, don't you think? Ha Ha.

masterptr
10-03-2012, 11:08 PM
taking out the trash bins up the drive way was hard especially when they were full. and even walking slightly uphill was very hard....

tricon7
10-04-2012, 08:53 AM
Honestly, I think I blocked a lot of things out. Too painful. Enough things still linger though.

I remember not being able to breathe. Not that the asthma helped, but sometimes walking from one room to the next about killed me. I ended up in the ER a few times because I simply couldn't handle lugging my body around.

I remember crying because the closest parking we found for a convention was about a mile away from the center, and I wasn't sure I could walk it on top of being on my feet all day, and then walking back to the car again. I wasn't even near my highest weight.

I remember eating Burger King so often that the chicken sandwiches would make me feel sick after about halfway through. I haven't touched BK in about 6 years now and the thought of anything from there still turns my stomach.

I remember the waists of my jeans hurting, so I'd unfasten them as soon as I got home. I can't tell you how many zippers I broke by sitting down while wearing them unzipped! :o I'm not even sure how I justified it back then, but it certainly didn't seem like I was on my way to gaining another 100 pounds! Heck, I also remember complaining about how 2X's in the stores had gotten "smaller" . . . I certainly wasn't getting too big for them, right? If I picked up a bigger size it wasn't because the 2X's no longer fit me, it was because I wanted my shirts "baggy." Wow, was I delusional.

I remember shopping at a plus size store with a friend and leaving in a hurry so I could hide in the bathroom and cry. Why? I realized that they didn't have one pair of jeans that would even come close to fitting me: I was too fat for the fat store! :( No room to be delusional there.

I remember going through two Wisconsin winters with a coat that I could no longer zip up (a 26/28!), I'd gotten too big for it and couldn't afford to buy something that actually fit me.

I remember not being able to fit in the folding lunch tables when I was working with kids at a school. Well, I could fit if I sucked it in and kinda sat sideways. Oh, and not being able to do much actual playing with them outside of board games and coloring.

I remember hating to bend over for anything, even getting something from the bottom shelf of the fridge was a painful nightmare.

I remember food being the only thing I had in my life to look forward to and enjoy (very sad, now that I look back at it). But those were difficult personal times (angry and selfish boyfriend, loss of my parents, money issues, etc.) and I didn't know how to make things better. Worst of all, I remember feeling completely helpless and powerless to change. I'm not only amazed that I got started, but that I've made it this far.

Nice post. You're doing great on your weight-loss journey, and you're also a good writer.

I was certainly piggish at times before I started dieting, for sure. But now that I count every calorie that goes in my mouth and marvel at how few it takes to reach my daily limit, I shake my head when I think back to when I ate whatever I wanted, as much as I wanted, and whenever I wanted. I'm amazed that I didn't truly balloon out of control and develop diabetes or something.

Song of Surly
10-04-2012, 09:15 AM
I love this thread so much. I try to keep my pre-weightloss habits in mind when I feel like I'm "failing." I am by no means near where I want to be as far as my lifestyle is concerned, but I have developed some really great habits that I no longer think about.

The one thing I really remember is getting home after school as a teenager and just EATING. Eating, eating, eating. Some days I just ate anything in sight until I was nearly sick. Cookies, sandwiches, cereal. It didn't even matter if the food was that good. Sometimes, when we were low on groceries, I could come up with the most absurd food to eat. I mean, marshmallow puff on white bread? Yuuck.

I also remember often eating nearly a whole box of shells and cheese by myself for lunch in college. A WHOLE BOX. That's a little over 1,000 calories!! Even though I still sometimes crave the stuff, I can't even bring myself to eat one serving of it now due to the insane calorie content.

I also used to hurt all the time. I was beginning to think that at my young age, I was having some kind of serious joint/muscle issues. With exercise, it has gotten SO much better. I still have a lot of problems with neck and hip pain, but at least I can now move around without too much soreness.

Looking back at myself now, I'm just amazed at all of the things that I didn't even realize were so awful for me and my capacity to eat an insane amount of calories in the blink of an eye.

It's so inspirational to see how far everyone has come. The most successful stories here at 3fc started somewhere, and it's nice to know that some of them weren't very different from where I started.

1spunkygal
10-05-2012, 06:57 AM
I feel the same Song I come here from time to time to see how far I've come & to remnd myself that this is a DAILY commitment to MYSELF :hug:

LebenAlles
10-05-2012, 08:37 AM
I thought of something else. Well, i could probably come up with about 15 more something elses...but yeah, I recently went through my wardrobe and realized that with the poundage gained, there was fashion sense lost. Now, we all know that a lot of the plus sized clothing looks more like drapery or couch covers than clothing, but MAN did my standards on style drop when I was at my highest.
It's been a lot of fun rediscovering my style so far, and I know it's only going to get better as the sizes drop. Oh the day that I'll be able to shop in regular sizes....it'll be magical.

stimkovs
10-05-2012, 09:05 AM
i was also "fat fit". i would eat, and eat and eat. (sometimes i still have the desire to eat and eat and eat). i would fit into airplane seats, i would fit into amusement park rides- but i had a different personality, i was in a different place emotionally. i took really long to get ready and leave the house, i NEEDED to buy new clothes all the time, i needed to be wearing makeup, i was self conscious.

now? not so much. i am comfortable in my own skin. i mean, do i have the associated issues with loosing about 90 lbs? yes. but you know what? every time i look at it, i see that my body is STRONG. it is POWERFUL, and it is BEAUTIFUL.

When i eat the wrong things, i can feel a difference.

also- when i was significantly larger, i was never "bloated" i didn't know what the feeling felt like, because i guess i was permanently bloated, whereas now, i guess i'm small enough to feel it.

LebenAlles
10-08-2012, 09:55 AM
I was at Disney World one year, and it wasn't even my highest weight...We went to one of the water parks that requires a ton of uphill walking and I remember having to stop every few sets of steps while all the girls in the tiny bikini's scrambled past me. Hopefully the next time I go to a waterpark, I'll be jogging up those stairs with the rest of 'em!

alaskanlaughter
10-08-2012, 01:46 PM
i remember as a teenager trying to lose weight that i would give my lunch to the poorest boy in my class....i figured hey, if i'm not gonna eat what mom packed for me, may as well benefit someone who could use it...and so i'd eat barely anything for breakfast, give away my lunch and be STARVINGGGG by the time i got home and eat anything i could get ahold of without looking like a starving child LOL

i remember years ago when my teenager was a toddler, that i'd eat one of those big ice cream/cookie sandwiches that convenience stores sell Every Single Night....i remember lots of drinking yummy alcoholic things in college (not beer, yuck, but the high-calorie concoctions)

i remember being on the verge of moving, my house packed up and being broke, and i decided to lose weight by eating a box of mac n cheese and a dill pickle daily...yes, that's all i ate each day, mostly because that's all that remained in my cupboards...lol and i did lose some weight but it didnt stay off

at my highest weights during pregnancy i remember eating alot of candy bars and jerky, top ramen noodles, and scrambled egg sandwiches....at my highest weight without being pregnant, i did alot of baking (and eating of it)...i ADORE holiday baking and sadly have had to cut it all wayyyy back because i still can't resist alot of what i bake :(

LebenAlles
10-12-2012, 09:36 AM
Gummy bears. So. Many. Gummy Bears.

krampus
10-12-2012, 10:44 AM
Oh man I remember the worst -

I went trick or treating with friends in 9th or 10th grade and they all decided to run from house to house. I couldn't keep up so I got left behind, thankfully one friend stuck with me so I wasn't trick or treating alone.

MAN that's sad.

mottainai
10-12-2012, 01:06 PM
I was working on some online assignments for school today, and I remember that a few years ago, when I did my online homework, it was a habit that every time I would go to the store and pour out a big bag from the bulk foods of chocolate peanuts, chocolate pretzels, yogurt peanuts, yogurt pretzels, and the chocolate/peanut clusters, and eat that while I was doing my homework. Oh gosh, I don't even want to think about how many calories was in that! lol No wonder I was overweight...

GobabyGoGO
10-12-2012, 06:50 PM
I would drink so much juice and soda it was astounding

Misti in Seattle
10-12-2012, 08:52 PM
Great thread. I am enjoying reading all your posts.

SayAnythingBut
10-13-2012, 11:49 PM
The one thing I really remember is getting home after school as a teenager and just EATING. Eating, eating, eating. Some days I just ate anything in sight until I was nearly sick. Cookies, sandwiches, cereal. It didn't even matter if the food was that good. Sometimes, when we were low on groceries, I could come up with the most absurd food to eat. I mean, marshmallow puff on white bread? Yuuck.

Same same same, SoS! Gosh, once (or twice or more, ahem) when there weren't really any cereals or microwave-and-eat groceries on hand, I made a concoction that was just... I don't even... It consisted of 3 mashed-up hard-boiled eggs, a whole thing of canned corn, some mayo, some cayenne pepper, and lunch meat (I think turkey). This was an after-school snack. Like, WTF!? I was just whipping anything together a lot of the time...

NEVER AGAIN! *i hope*

stimkovs
10-14-2012, 07:36 AM
SayAnythingBut- been there, done that.

I still do it in crazy fits of binge sometimes- but then I step back and realize what I am eating isn't even good and put it away.

It is a struggle, but it's an uphill battle.

healthyangie
10-15-2012, 09:16 AM
Could anyone REALLY only eat ONE bowl of cereal?? I don't think I ever put the box back in the cupboard :(

mottainai
10-15-2012, 09:22 AM
Could anyone REALLY only eat ONE bowl of cereal?? I don't think I ever put the box back in the cupboard :(

So true!! That was me, as well....servings of cereal always counted by the box, not the bowl!