Hi all
Hoping to get some support here. I am at my highest weight ever, 257, needing to lose more than 100lb. Never in a million years thought I would have to say that. I was at 195 on my wedding day (pic in avatar), and at that point that was my heaviest weight. When I crossed 200 I thought "this is crazy, I need to reverse this," but here I am 10 years later at 257. Now I look at my wedding picture and think how skinny I looked.
I am so tired of having to buy new clothes just because I'm gaining weight. Can't afford it, plus buying plus size clothing is such a pain in the @ss! I have high blood pressure, PCOS, and am borderline diabetic. I can't do this anymore. I just can't. I feel like if I don't do something soon, I'm not going to be around to see my kids grow up.
My endocrinologist wants me to have gastric bypass. But I just haven't given up the hope that I can do this through diet and exercise.
I need to stop making excuses. I tend to get overwhelmed and stressed by stuff, and use this as an excuse to stop my diet or stop exercising. Today I decided I have to stop this.. even though there are lots of stressful things going on right now and my life isn't "perfect," I started counting calories again. I'm using the "My fitness pal" app.
My biggest goal is that my husband and I want to try for another baby in a couple years. I really really really want to be at a healthy weight. Last pregnancy I developed preeclampsia and had to have my daughter prematurely. If there's anything I can do to prevent that again, I want to do it.
Looking forward to getting to know you all.
The biggest piece missing from previous attempts at weight loss is not seeking support. I need people to encourage me to not give up when things get tough. I need accountability and help from others. Hope this is the right spot.
Emily