I feel hopeless sometimes..
I stare off in the mirror and hate what I see. I look at that reflection and realize that its me. I cannot close my eyes, or stop seeing what I see. I have fool myself, loved myself, and hated myself, all three. I cannot love what I cannot see, so all that's left is for me, to hate me.
There are moments in life, when I can clearly see, and then other times when all I see is what I hate about myself. I am so scared that I will become someone obsessed with their weight, all because my life is so out of control. Sometimes, I have no idea what I am doing.
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