07-09-2012, 01:03 PM
I have always been the "fat chick". I am only 5' 5 1/2'', which doesn't help things at all. In high school I just didn't care about my weight and I was 250+. I was definitely a late bloomer due to my weight, I always hung out with guys, never had a boyfriend, nor did I want one. When I started getting interested in guys I started to lose some weight. When I met my sons' father he was all about exercising and I started going to the gym with him and got down to about 180. Not long after my weight loss I found out I was pregnant with our first child (Sean). I was a very unhealthy eater during that pregnancy and gained 40 pounds. Afterward I NEVER lost the weight. Fast forward 3 years and I find myself pregnant again, starting off at 232 pounds. During my second pregnancy I ate really healthy and actually ended up losing weight. After having the baby (Trae) I thought I was on the right track. He is now 8 months old and I am so unhappy. I got on the scale this morning and I weigh 246 pounds!! :( I am ready to get my weight under control. I am tired of not wanting to take pictures because I am so overweight. I am a very emotional eater. No matter whether I am stressed, sad, mad.. I deal with all of it by eating. I buy food for Sean and I end up eating it along with him. My living situation and family life is very stressful, for the time being I am a single mother, just temporary for a few years. I am still with my sons' father but he isn't around for right now and that does nothing but add stress. I am determined to lose weight. I am just nervous that I am going to get focused and then not succeed.