Support Groups - Lo Carb #43 April Fool, the jokes on me.

Speaking of being foolish. I continue to play games with my eating program. ANd my exercise. I hurt no one but myself.
I think of the many dreams that I put off by not doing what needs to be done. SOme things are simply vanity such as wearing a 2 piece bathing suit, buying sexy underware, wearing sleeveless tops.
Somethinga are doing things lioke scuba diving and white wtaer rafting.
Health issues like high blood pressure, diabetes.

The foods that I cheat on only bring me a milisecond of "pleasure".

Eating is to simply nourish my body and if I want to lose weight I must take in less and move my body more.

Well I am off to the gym with lots to think about!

Oh pat how wonderful way of thinking about it.

I have been fighting TOM and that has been causing cravings which on a stronger day does not throw me off that bad but with my weekend state i let it get carried away with me. forgetting the bigger picture. is that 5 min of pleasere worth it?? NO!!!!

thanks Pat of reminding me of that!

Pam it is so great to hear from you!!! I am so sorry to hear about your dad. you have occured somuch loss in your life I am so glad that health is finally returning to you!!!

Kina I agree melody has had a very hard time of life not only financially but more than enough emotionally from one end to another. Yet she is so supportive of all of us. All you girls I hold in close regard. You all mean so much to me much more than my "friends here" I am so glad you got that award!! very much deserved!!!!

Melody {{{HUGS}}}}

Hey all,
Gosh the week is flying by. Not eating much can't seem to find the time. Must stock up on some lo carb bars to have w/ me.

So far have exercised 2 times this week. Hope to get there after work.

Sue I wonder what the"key" is to this eating thing. But I guess if we figured it out we'd be milanares. It os as simple as eat right and exercise and as complicated as How screwed up my head is at any given moment. I allow so many things to cloud my judgement. And these things keep me from the desires and goals and dreams that I have. SOme are "legitimate" ones such as a health some are "foolish" like underware. But they are all individualized and "OK".

Pam, I continue to pray for you and look forward to your return.
Melody, I miss you and your energy. Take care

Kina check in when you can, It's hard to juggle school and family.

Hello to the lurkers and MIA

Well Today's goals are to eat OP and get my water in. I am going to try and tract what I eat. Had an awful weekend. Eating wise. Feel pretty bad today w/ a carb hangover.
will check in to morrow. Where the heck has everyone been?

Well I am talking to myself.
DId OK food wise. Stuck to the plan
Had lo fat yogurt and kashi go -lean for breakfast
Weight watchers frozen lunch meal
beef, salad and beans for dinner

went to the gym after work

Water was so so.

Being busy sure doesn't leave time for cheating.

I saw a girl at the gym in teh afternoon who I know works out in the morning. And I mean work out. She's on teh eliptical machine. Not holding on, going backwards. Face red and sweating. Talk about motivated and motivating. I think about the phrase you get back what you put in. ANd looking back to when I was successfully losing and eating right it was because I was whole heartedly putting alot of effort into it. It wasn't always an effort to do either. I just did waht I needed to and saw results. I wasn't dragging mysefl to the gym, I just went. I wasn't cheating or wanting to cheat, I just ate what I should. It was allot about attitude. I was worth the effort.

I must remember I get back what I put in.
I need to move my body everyday and I need to eat right. That cookie or candy isn't good for me. ANd it isn't worth the minutes I put into exercise.

Well it's weds. No w/o yesterday. Ate well though. Still sruggling with teh water.
Talking to myself here again. WHere is everyone. Hope all is well.

No new insights, wish things would come together. Frustrated that when warm arrives I have put on 20# since last year and am certainly no where near as toned.

We got that snowlast weekend and it's still with us. Very depressing as we now have had snow since 11/02. 6 months is along time.

WEll lets see how today goes

well I have been MIA with eating as well as the board.

I had put in a lot of OT this last 2 weeks all in the last 6 days. been car shopping and doing tons of things that make more time to spend for me. no cleaning in the house yet but I am starting today. TOM hit in the middle of the OT and blew me out of the water.

I agree with the get back with what you put in. I have not been putting in anything but food and junk!! so what did i get back?? a big butt! :lol:

But anywahs I have hit the 40 lb mark for weight gain then yesterday I carried a 40 lb bag of salt and wow it sure is heavy!! I need to lose 2 of those now!!! I know I can do it I just need to get off my duff and realize that i need this. I would be so much more active and healthy and have more energy!!!

Well it is on the run for me!!!

Hey Sue I am glad to see you were able to post. I miss you. I miss everyone for that matter. I am afraid that people are staying away because they aren't OP. Hence no good news to post.
My gosh waht a long winter. And it it sure is hangg on here. I know it sure makes it hard to move about for me. OT is hard. Are you still working teh night shift? How is teh family? How are you?
I know I am very frustarted with myself, for the ground I have lost.

Yesterday ended up in a carb frenzy which I used to cope with a very bad day.
SO goes another day and another day that could have been used to work toward my goal. WHich obviously isn't in the top 5 goals. Or is easily toppled off the top.

Well Lets see what today brings

Well the week is over. No loss there Both realistically and figuratively. No pun intended.
Only worked out once. And it looks like I continue to whine.
I am meeting my sisters for lunch tomorrow and might do some shopping in Syracuse before we meet.

The new job keeps giving me "opportunities for growth" but the clinic continues to run.
Well have a good weekend

NEW TO ME CAR!!!

OK i KNOW i CAN SAY IT BIGGER

NEW TO ME CAR!!!!!!!

Yes I finally got one. All my time and energy the alst 2 weeks with working and boys couts was devoted to finding ald searghing for a new to me car!1 I found the perfect one. A bit high in the mileage but it is a good car so that shoudl not matter that much. a 2000 chevy impala!! WHOOO HOOOOO

so now I can focus back on me and getting back in the exerc ise program. I have had so many excuses .. I will start this week as the kids do not have to go to school!! I can go the they gym and then shower and go to work!! that is how i did it before and it worked wonderfully!!! so this is the perfect oportunity or atleast start at home when i can get my room cleaned out to get Tae Bo working again if AI can get the tape paler working

Pat I gree that many peole are not posting ad theya re not repeoring tood nes. I have bad news to report and I will not be proud to reoprt it but if i do not say it I will not get thigs done about it!!

I am now officailly 40 lbs over my low weight!! there I saaid it it does not feel good and definatly does not look good but I know that things need to get done about it.

I have started to pop my thermogenic to get my duff back in the swing so i can start tos ee some changes faster to keep my morale up. but I will be carful with those as i can not afford to get sick!!

Well enough of me!!

Report in girls!

Hey Sue congrats on the new to you car!!!!! Car shopping can be so stressful. But it si nice to have something nice and reliable.
ALos I know how hard you work in all of your realms. You deserve it!
I am sorry about the gain. I also am 22# over my lowest. ANd I am so mad at myself when I think of all teh effort I put in myself to get there. And teh clothes that I gave away and could use now. I had to buy a size 24 pants yesterday. Not happy about that at all.

But A new day is dawning. Another opportunity to get back on track.



This is something that I thought was funny.

A WEEK AT THE GYM

If you read this without laughing out loud, then there is something

wrong with you. This is dedicated to every woman who ever attempted to

get into a regular workout routine.

Dear Diary...

For my fiftieth birthday this year, my husband (the sweet dear)

purchased me a week of personal training at the local health club.

Although I am still in great shape (from playing on my high school

softball team), I decided it would be a good idea to go ahead and

give it a try.

I called the club and made my reservations with a personal trainer named

Bruce, who described himself as a 26 year old aerobics instructor, and

model for athletic clothing and swim wear. My husband seemed pleased

with my sudden enthusiasm to get started. Well, the club encouraged me

to keep a diary to chart my progress, so here it goes:

Monday:

Started my day at 6:00am . Tough to get out of bed, but found it was well

worth it when I arrived at the health club to find Bruce waiting for me.

He is something of a Greek God - with blond hair, dancing eyes and a

dazzling white smile. Woo Hoo!! Bruce gave me a tour and showed me

the machines. He took my pulse after five minutes on the treadmill. He

was alarmed that my pulse was so fast, but I attribute it to standing

next to him in his Lycra aerobic outfit. I enjoyed watching the skillful

way in which he conducted his aerobics class after my workout today.

Very inspiring . Bruce was encouraging as I did my sit-ups, although

my gut was already aching from holding it in the whole time he was around.

This is going to be a FANTASTIC week!

Tuesday:

I drank a whole pot of coffee, but I finally made it out the door. Bruce

made me lie on my back and push a heavy iron bar into the air-then he put

weights on it! My legs were a little wobbly on the treadmill, but I made

the full mile. Bruce's rewarding smile made it all worthwhile. I feel

GREAT!!

It's a whole new life for me.

Wednesday:

The only way I can brush my teeth is by laying on the toothbrush on the

counter nd moving my mouth back and forth over it. I believe I have a hernia
in

both pectorals. Driving was OK as long as I didn't try to steer or stop. I

parked on top of a GEO in the club parking lot. Bruce was impatient with me,

insisting that my screams bothered other club members. His voice is a

little too perky for early in the morning and when he scolds, he gets this

nasally whine that is VERY annoying. My chest hurt when I got on the

treadmill, so Bruce put me on the stair monster. Why the **** would anyone
invent a

machine to simulate an activity rendered obsolete by elevators? Bruce told

me it would help me get in shape and enjoy life. He said some other ****
too.

Thursday:

Bruce was waiting for me with his vampire-like teeth exposed as his thin,

cruel lips were pulled back in a full snarl. I couldn't help being a half an
hour

late, it took me that long to tie my shoes. Bruce took me to work out with

dumbbells.

When he was not looking, I ran and hid in the men's room. He sent Lars to

find me, then, as punishment, put me on the rowing machine-which I sank.

Friday:

I hate that ******* Bruce more than any human being has ever hated any

other human being in the history of the world. Stupid, skinny, anemic little

cheerleader.

If there was a part of my body I could move without unbearable pain, I

would beat him with it. Bruce wanted me to work on my triceps. I don't have
any

triceps!

And if you don't want dents in the floor, don't hand me the &*@*#$ &*@*#$

barbells or anything that weighs more than a sandwich. (Which I am sure you
learned in

the sadist school you attended and graduated magna cum laude from.) The

treadmill flung me off and I landed on a health and nutrition teacher. Why
couldn't

it have been someone softer, like the drama coach or the choir director?

Saturday:

Bruce left a message on my answering machine in his grating, shrilly voice

wondering why I did not show up today. Just hearing him made me want to
smash the

machine with my planner. However, I lacked the strength to even use the TV
remote and

ended up catching eleven straight hours of the *$@#&& Weather Channel.

Sunday:

I'm having the Church van pick me up for services today so I can go and

thank GOD that this week is over. I will also pray that next year my husband
(the

*******) will choose a gift for me that is fun -- like a root canal or a

hysterectomy

Well lets look to a week to do what we know works, avoid what we know screws us up and give and get support from each other so that we can win this battle

I love that!!! I feel like that now (when i spent a day walking a bit more and the muscles in the front of my legs are hurting!) I used to enjoy hurting like that!! what is wrong with me!! :lol:

Well it's Monday and a new opportunity to Make better choices.
Good luck to you all.
Let you know how today went!
I'd at least like to make 1 goal!

Hi Ladies (maybe even men, I don't know who may be lurking)! I hadn't realized that you all had made a new thread. I am so sorry! I hate apologizing every time I pop my head in. I am trying as well as one can.

The semester is ALMOST over...thank goodness! I plan to lose 30 lbs by the end of the year! I am going to do it. I am getting so disgusted with myself. My "love" handles are starting to poke out enough that DH noticed...not that he minds. But once he notices and mentions it that gets my burners on high alert. So once this darn semester is over, which is the beginnning of May, I will be setting a daily regime to get that darn scale to MOVE!

Today marked my 30 th birthday! It was a wonderful day. I had TWO cakes...as if I needed more than one...as if I declined! Well we only celebrate our birthdays once a year! My parents took us out to eat chinese...ugh talk about buffet! It was amazing as always. I received great presents and ecards. It was a great day.

Well, people, it is late and I have class in the morning! I am glad to see Sue and Pat still getting some input on the board. Where are the rest of the gals? I hope to see you all in soon!

I will talk to you all again. Hugs & Smiles,
Kina

Hello My Darlins,
Back home and in the South where the warm spring sun begins to slide even now into summer. I missed most of the wisteria but the Honeysuckle is leaping into action to make up for it. The garden is tilled all 144'x48' of it!!!Guess who has to go out and buy plants fast!!! I think Hubby has bit off more than he can chew but we shall see. I have my seeds sprouting now so part is near ready for planting. I have to out tomoprrow and plant my new flowers and shall do so with glee. Oh my Dears I am now the biggest HGH fan in the world what a difference! I did not use my wheelchair one time while I was in Illinois no one was more amazed than I. I have a Susanne Summers exercise machine and can actually use it. My endurance is building but after all of thses "sick" years my muscles are non-existant. I am working on that!!!!!!!!!I gained about ten pounds while in Illinois but not because I ate a lot. In fact everyone worried that I didn't eat enough. I did but we ate a good bit of sandwiches and fast food as there was no time for anything else. I ran my you know what off.....say, I better measure that puppy.
Pat I love what you wrote and remember well how that feels.
I could so relate. Ann, who is the birth Daughter of My "Dad" and my sister in spirit for more years than I care to count, was relating how she bought me pink tennis shoes and practically dragged my lazy butt around to get to exercise and my response was I really don't feel to well. She was practically beating her breasts about doing that to me not knowing that MS had taken a hold of my body at that time. She apologised profusely saying" I thought you had just gotten lazy " LOl I told her not to feel bad I didn't know either!!!!
Now my life is returning to me in a large degree. I can move , walk, and function near normal. My husband is delighted. I no longer have to sit and cook!!! So though ten pounds up I am not unhappy. I shall have it gone in a week. I begin tomorrow in a set routine much to my own joy and twice a day that includes exercise!!!! Thank YOU GOD!!!!!!
I had warned everyone before I went to Illinois that I had changed much , aged, mushy, and androgenous. I was stunned to hear people I knew who judge others harshly say you aare more lovely now than when you left ten years ago, you look so much younger, The priest at the funeral stopped and looked at me... saying , do you never change ...no I take that back you are more beautiful than I remember you. Another I knew said, you look exactly the same as I remember you. I had to back track and now I have better view of myself looking through the eyes of others.

AS for exercise , dieting and all of it....
I am humbled by God's grace
I am grateful to be able to move again trapped so long in a body that could not respond to my will.
I take joy from the aches and pains of long unused muscles that are now beginning to respond once again.
I am filled with wonder at each new thing I can do again , like walking in a store, bending over without my back leaving me.
If I am not yet graceful in all my movements it is only temporary and once again that to shall return.
I delight in the expectations that others are putting in me, even if I can not meet all of them yet it has so long since anyone believed I could do the things I am doing. Sometimes they expect more than I am able to do at this moment but happily it is growing every single day and each day a new discovery of the me I once knew and and am getting to know once again.
Not in my body,but in my mind, in my spirit and most of all in my own personality. I have rediscovered me. The me long gone buried once in illness, weakening hope, and a view of myself ascued by lifes circumstances. I have come home in more ways than one.
Pam

My Goodness I can't tell you how happy I was to see Pam and Kina checking in.
You were missed , Now we just need to hear from Melody.

Lee, Terri too.

Yes there are alot of lurkers, You too are welcome here.

Pam I love to read what you feel you have such a way of conveying info. I can't tell you how jelous I am of you weather. We have snow in the forecast yet again. I am glad that you are feeling better, not trapped or betrayed by your body.

Kina. I know too well about Seeing the end of the semester. For me it will be starting classes again. We always start a new thread with LO Carb and a # . ANd usually do so when we get up to 2 pages.

Hey Sue how are you and the new car? I am feeling closer to the zone. Mentally . DH and I got the treadmill upstairs last night. So teh room at home is ready. Got to get there!
Well You all have a good day

Today was a warm day a day for air conditioning. I walked out into the yard with my purple silky caftan waving in the warm breezecaressing my legs almost affectionately and went to check my new seedlings. They were so thirsty. The sun had warmed them well and the moisture had reached out to the sun leaving the little seeds longing for the moist earth that coaxes life to explode from the dark soil and reach delicate arms upward in praise. Gently like a spring rain I drizzled water over them almost hearing a sigh of relief. So my Darlings I wispered soon, I shall set you deep in rich soil with room to wriggle your tender roots deep into the soft welcoming ground. I turned my water to my beloved Magnolias and beconed them to fill with the huge blooms so richly fragrant of floral and citrus. My azalias cried out for the loving attention I had lavashed elswhere and I obeyed happily raining gently on the the delicate pink and white flowers that graced my eyes. Flowers still in pots yearning for release from cramped plastic pots also were indulged in the gentle rain that came from the old green hose leaky and needing replaced. There to did the rain fall softly with promises for release on the morrow.
The birds played gleefully in an out of the leafy trees in some game game known only to them and God. Some sang for me the bees hummed a tune in harmony, the breeze whispered in the treetops so clearly I nearly caught their secret words. This was my day today peaceful and serene on the surface and much enjoyed by me but beneath in the center of my mind a thousand thoughts of things to do indoors and out filled my mind gratefully in an orderly, nay, friendly manner causing no chaos nor disharmony but rather like old friends coimng one by one to be seen and achnologed. Tomoorow we go out into the world and adopt more plants more seeds to add to the charming promise of tomorrow ablaze with life and giving thanks with the fruits of their lives and efforts so again I can praise them and their brief lives will have been filled with the product of selfless giving to our cycle of life and together we shall rejoice in the sharing. Each knowing we are and have fulfilled our destinies.
Pam

Pam that is so beautiful. You have such talent with the written word. It sounds so beautiful and peacful there. It reminds me that I miss alot of the world by feeling pressured and pressuring myself. I am glad that you continue to feel well. You're efforts are being rewarded in beauty.

Well I am closer to the zone. More concious of what is going in my mouth. Have worked out 2 days so far, water intake continues to improve. More mentally stable.

How are the rest of you doing?

Today the clouds lay languidly above as though to shield me from any harsh effects of the day as I lovingly nurse ailing plants suffering from neglect while I cared for my extended family so far away.Soft words spill upon them encouraging them to grow and be renewed with love. Expectations of miracles always in my soul and great hope for the fragrances and beauty that are hidden beneath sickly limp pale green. Still I know what it is to be in that condition and as long as any life exists there is hope. So, I hope on feeding them whatever possible. Energy, water sunlight, nutrients whatever I can and always I hope and pray for thier efforts to be successful. Today In gentle hands they will be set in fresh and fertile soil unbound roots to find a way to revigorated good health. Yesterday I walked for miles searching for plants and accesories for the vegetable garden amazed at the ease with which I walked and moved. Free again, free again. How much we take for granted is ever present to me. How we resent the efforts needed for work or play until....it is not possible. To be in a body racked with pain, profound weakness, the inability to function at all trapped within our skins. Imprisoned by flesh unable to comply to the simplest request. I am free again. I delight in the body fat, older, weak but gaining strength and robustness, vitality!!!! So much to do so much I am grateful to do. Dreams of what I wanted to do coming true each and every day.
Never , never let go of your dream ...for when you do you have let go of the real you. The person you value the most that can do so much for all you love. Never let go of you and your dreams no matter what the odds. Don't believe what anyone tells you when they ask you to let go of you or your dreams . Keep them closae to your heart and protected in your arms because miracle do happen...every..... single...... day!
Pam

Yes Pam miracles do happen every day. And I just read a saying that dreams are the basis of life and when you stop dreaming you stop living.

Well another week is past.
Not as close to the zone as I was in teh beginning of the week.

I am going to start a new thread #44