Mini-Goals - Finally past seeing the 2 in front of the number!

07-01-2012, 11:05 PM
I think I may have finally broken out of over 200. I'm sooooo excited about it. I was actually pretty nervous about finally lowering my ticker to 198. I do bounce around a few pounds usually. But I've spent the last few days at around 198! It's been a long 6 months since I started this full on journey. I definitely wasn't consistent with everything until about May. And then it clicked more and more. I had finally gotten to around 218. Finally the crappy food wasn't as important anymore. The exercise started to not hurt quite as much. And I wasn't bouncing around the same 10 pounds anymore. My clothes were looser and I started getting rid of my 22/24s that I've been in for so long. Since I was around 23. Once I finally started to understand what the benefits are and really started to believe that this was possible with hard work then I was able to motivate myself to work harder.

I think a few things contributed. I fight hypothyroidism (Hashimotos) and I'm bipolar with depression. But my doctors, I think, found the right cocktail. Suddenly the fog started lifting. Things were getting easier. And through therapy I've been working on not making my career my life. And then came the man. It's a very casual work friend. But we chat and we get along really well. And I just love talking to him. It's been so long since a man has seemed to just be interested in talking to me and showing me attention. And I think I started to recognize that I'm 36 and I'm tired of being alone. I don't really know where or if it's going to go anywhere with him. I would like to explore the possibility, but I'm not sure if he's interested in me that way. But I think just the general interest has been helping. And while I'm not doing this specifically for him I realized that I don't want to feel that weight is a factor anymore in finding someone to spend time with. Maybe I could have found a man at my high weight. But I don't think I had the self-confidence and self-esteem to make it happen. I hid so much of myself. And now that I'm losing some weight things seem possible. I realize that I do have a lot to offer someone and I want to do that. I'm so lonely and just want to have deep conversations and to be touched and loved by someone. And now I think that maybe it's possible again.

I still have a pretty hard journey left to go. I go to the gym every day that I can and I've upped my 30 minutes on the treadmill to 60 minutes which is amazing. I don't even look at 30 minutes anymore as if I'm done. And I'm so proud of that. But I am concerned that my motivation will wane and I'll fall back into the same habits. It is hard and I am tired a lot of the time. But I want to keep pushing. It's just a slow and long tedious process. But at least I have some hope now.

Sorry this was so long. I finally get to write my mini-goal post! I'm so happy to finally be done with the 200s (hopefully for good). Now to just keep pushing forward....:)

07-01-2012, 11:29 PM
What an amazing set of accomplishments! Congratulations and all the best with your upcoming goals!!!

07-02-2012, 02:32 AM
So incredibly exciting! I can't wait to see you post in the Goal thread! Congratulations!

07-02-2012, 05:17 PM
congrats! congrats! what an amazing accomplishment! you have achieved onederland! :)

07-03-2012, 06:14 AM
Congratulations!! That's fantastic!

07-04-2012, 04:01 PM
That's wonderful! Congratulations! You've accomplished a lot and you should be proud of yourself.

07-04-2012, 04:47 PM
I am sooo happy for you!!!! It is great to see other people making it under 200! that has to really be an awesome feeling especially with all the hurdles life has tossed your way ( I also suffer from severe depression, bipolar and low self-esteem). You give me hope to keep trudging along!!!! Thank you!!

07-04-2012, 04:53 PM
That is outstanding!! Not only about for getting out of the 2's, but for finding the right mix to your medicines and moving to make yourself truly happy!

07-04-2012, 05:53 PM
Congrats on your awesome accomplishment!

07-05-2012, 02:46 PM
grats!! awesome accomplishment.. I suffer from depression and I know how much of an ordeal it can be to get things done, and Im finding my way finally, slowly but surely :)

07-05-2012, 10:39 PM
That is amazing, congratulations! Also, very very inspiring! Can't wait for the day I'm done with the 200s.

07-05-2012, 10:45 PM
Congratulations !

07-06-2012, 07:51 PM
Congrats! You should be so proud of yourself- that's an amazing accomplishment!

07-07-2012, 01:54 PM

07-07-2012, 02:04 PM
Good for you, that's quite an accomplishment!

07-09-2012, 02:02 AM
Woohoo!! Congrats :) :carrot:

07-15-2012, 12:31 AM
wow thats amazing!

07-15-2012, 06:47 AM
amazing! :congrat::congrat:

07-18-2012, 01:08 PM
congrats! that was a beautifully put post, and i think many people hide behind their weight, many people feel lonely, and that desire to be loved, and touched, and to have that attention.

i can see that you have a beautiful soul, and i can see the light in you. seems like you're on the right track. please keep this post bookmarked, and if you ever find yourself struggling, re-read it because you have so much optimism! don't ever let that leave you!

07-18-2012, 03:26 PM
Can I ditto what stimkov said? Thats what I want to say but did not have the beautiful words she did.

Good for you!