WElcome aboard the board!!! You'll find lots of great ideas & support here, as well as a kick in the pants if you need it
I'm one of those nutty people who advocates digging around in your brain for WHY you got so big in the first place, I know that was what saved me. Figuring out the "why" can make the losing a lot easier; why we got big, why we give up after 30 pounds or whatever. Mine wasn't scary, no abuse or horror in my past, just a life-long love affair with being a SPOILED BRAT
and once that dawned on me, I could discipline her and move forward. Otherwise, I always fear no matter HOW much weight I lost in the future, she'd always pop up at some time and ruin it all.
Just a thought!