20-Somethings - *~~February Chat!~~*

Hey everyone!

Here's the chat thread for this month. For any newcomers, just pop in and say hello and tell us what you're up to/how your weight loss is going - anything you so desire!

I'll post tomorrow with more details about my JET interview!

Can I just say: February?? Already??

Figured I would just post here...

Rainbow - glad you're feeling better. I feel ya on the sick bit, it sucks. You had a "cheat" day, I wouldn't worry too much about those calories either seeing as you're already back on track. I'm jealous of your second 3-day weekend coming up!

Quiet - I love, love, love going to shows in general but NYC? Awesome!

I weighed in at 182 this morning, yay! Lowest weight in almost a year. I was hovering around 190 this summer, up from 178 in January 2011. I'm happy it's going down at least. I'll be really happy to just get under 175 in the first half of the year.

I haven't gone to the gym since Sunday but I have to get to bed early tonight and pack the gym bag before bed to avoid excuses. I told myself this morning that I would just go tonight, but I got home from the office at 7:30 and there was no way I could convince myself to go to back out in a snowstorm :lol:

Happy hump day tomorrow everyone!

Riestrella You've had the interview? Tell us how it went!!

teamcoco Congrats on the lowest weight in nearly a year, that is great! Don't feel too bad about the exercise, sometimes we need a bit of time off - but good on you for packing the gym bag in advance!!

~Woke up this morning and felt like my throat was barely open, have had difficulty eating all day (had to drink water after EVERY mouthful) so I sucked it up and went to the doctor. I have a fever and some sort of viral infection. Bleh. I have some gargle, some pain stuff and also some antibiotics. DUMB.

Boyfriend and I are looking for a place to rent at the moment and it's difficult, everyone seems to be looking and people are showing up with bond money and such on the spot at the viewings to secure a place! I feel like it's going to be hard!

Back on track with eating this week but can't really exercise with constricted shut up throat... so I'm just taking it easy and keeping calories low.

coco: congrats! Awesome :D. And going to the gym in the morning would just not happen with me at all... lol. So goodluck on that!

rainbouwstripe: I hope you feel better soon! Where are you looking for a place to rent? I know nothing about New Zealand but I', sure you guys have a housing-crisis just like the rest of the world has?

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I have to work at 10pm tonight, and I have to figure out a way to still do all my exercise and save up my calories so I have some energy left bij then. So far my strategy has been to do near to nothing on days I have to work half a nightshift, but then I can barely exercise. Any tips are welcome!

Hi everyone!

My interview went...meh. Honestly? I think I messed it up. When I get nervous I tend to get quite chatty and I missed a lot of things that I wanted to say. On the positive side I did get a lot of points in there, I feel that I communicated that I know enough about to Japan and have a really passion for it to live and work there. I messed up on bigging up England though, the questions about the UK I just failed at, I even waffled on so much I forgot the question I was supposed to be answering =(. Sometimes they would start scribbling away when I said something, and at one point I made them laugh when talking about my dissertation and how ridiculous American remakes of Japanese films can be - so I hope I made a good impression.

The ex-JET who I spoke to before and after the interview said not to worry, they'll be looking for a variety of people since I said I was concerned maybe I didn't come across as professional enough. So I'm hoping he's right. I made sure I was really nice to him, since it wasn't technically the interview but he still would have had an opinion.

So all in all, I think it just went ok. I could have done a lot better but I could have done a lot worse. It was all over in 15 minutes, which is nothing when you REALLY want to communicate how badly you want the job. Honestly I'm not keeping my hopes up, I've pretty much accepted that I haven't got it and I'm applying to Interac now. But who knows.

I was quite upset when I came out, so I hung out with my friend in the evening. On the train ride home and after talking to her I realised I didn't do as badly as I initially thought, but still got angry at myself for certain things I missed out that I really wanted to say. Maybe I was just overly prepared? But she took me on a surprise trip to get ice cream, then since I hadn't had dinner I got a 6" from Subway with water (was good and didn't go for soda!) and this morning I actually lost weight! I'm down to 157 lbs =D. So that's something to be happy about.

Right now while I do feel disappointed I'm trying to refocus my energies on getting back to the real world, I feel like I became a bit of a hermit while I was preparing for the interview and now I can look forward to my holiday to see the boyfriend! Just NINE DAYS TO GO!

Also, on a bit of a side note, the boyfriend is quitting his job because he's fed up with it (long story but it's a good idea) and his last shift is the day before I get there. He said he wanted to go on a drinking spree, drink before, during and after his shift. I responded by saying I was a bit concerned that he might be hungover for when I get there, and I really didn't want him to be tired and sluggish since he'll be driving to get me and also I want him to be alive when I see him! I don't want to tell him not to drink or have fun, I just wanted him to be aware to not get absolutely wrecked so he's sick the next day. What do you guys think? I've not seen him in 7 months, I would hate for him to be all groggy and throwing up when I see him for the first time...

Anywho, that was a big one!

coco - Yes! February! Crazy sauce. Congrats on your loss! I love hitting those milestones =). And yes, you go to the gym and you rock it!

rainbow - Go easy on yourself while your sick! I'm sorry you've got an infection =(. Yeah, house hunting is AWFUL. I've only had to do it once but I'm going to hate doing it again! I'm sure you'll find something =)

philana - I'm not quite sure I understand your job/time restraints. I know there was a thread posted here not too long about about night time workers though, maybe you could look there?

Hey Everyone Happy Tuesday!!!

So I woke up this morning all bloated and in immense pain... Yup TOM is here and im up to 220lbs this morning from 218 yesterday :( crappy but I joined the 90 day exercise challenge so I have to stay motivated... I went for my 2km walk this morning with my son and then took him to the park and we played for a half hour...l had to take advantage of the 50 degree weather we are having at the beginning of February :))

On a side note I kinda fell off the wagon in January after my birthday... I gained a couple lbs and never could get it back off so i got frustrated and angry and kinda gave up by the end of the month :( so heres to a new start this month and not giving up....

Riestrella Im sure you did better then you think... if you made them laugh thats a good sign... shows you have a sense of humor at least... and im sure they knew you were nervous and if you knew most of the information it shows your really trying and want it right?? Im sure everything will be fine.... and after reading your post it got me hungry for a sub!! hahaha I used to work at MR Sub before I went on maternity leave and I totally miss being able to have a sub whenever I want!!! im totally hungry now just thinking about it -_- but anyways im rambling great that your down! yay! Good for your bf if he was unhappy with his job... but ya perhaps drinking in moderation is key?? I wouldnt want a hungover or still drunk bf when i came to see him for the first time in 7 months either lol Maybe a compromise?? he can drink in moderation and when you get there you two can go out and have a couple drinks together??? just set aside calories for it??

rainbow hope your feeling better soon..... dont overdo yourself might make it worse if you push yourself... :hug:

I cant believe January is gone and although I did not hit my goal, I still manage to lose 10 lbs. I booked our trip to Playa del Carmen for spring break so I have 41 days to lose as much as I can to look good on the beach.

I hope all you ladies hit your goals and remember take it one day at a time. have a wonderful and happy February!

Riestrella: Thanks for starting the new chat! I'm sure the interview went better than you thought. I'll never forget the time I was interviewing and they wanted me to tell a joke...the ONLY joke I could think of was a dirty one! So embarrassing.
NINE days?!?!?! Oh.my.goodness I am so excited for you! Hope the trip is wonderful and everything you want it to be.
I think you bring up really good points as to why the boyfriend shouldn't get plastered just before you arrive. Also...drinking at work? Doesn't seem like the best idea, even if he is quitting.

Kawaii Sorry you were bothered by the lack of personals, and that you've been having a rough time. Will make it a February goal to do better with personals. ;) Are things any better?

teamcoco Ohmygosh I know! Can't believe it's already Feb!
Yes, I'm excited about NYC. It's just a train ride away for me.
I have a hard time exercising at night too. When i get home I just want to slip into PJs and get cozy! :)

rainbow Oh no! Feel better. I'm sorry you're so sick! Apartment hunting is difficult. Good luck searching!

philana would an afternoon nap help with the evening shift? Followed by a short burst of cardio?

candice Eww....TOM is awful. Mine is coming up soon and my weight is jumping around like crazy. They say exercise helps with the pain, so hopefully the walk and playground time will help you out!

dulo 10 pounds is awesome! Congrats! Don't beat yourself up on the past. Just move forward. :)

I was able to leave work early yesterday AND I get to come in a little late tomorrow! :carrot: So that rocks. It was a huge perk yesterday because that extra 45minutes meant I could go to the grocery store before class started.

Rie ~ Well done on the JET interview. We're always the hardest on ourselves and you may just have done brilliantly, even though you don't feel that you did. You have a love and passion for the country and I'm sure that shines through. I agree w. former JET-ter: they're looking for all different types.

Re: seeing the bf - Yay! for a holiday AND getting to see the boy!!! At this point, maybe just communicate how much you care about him and his feelings. You're supportive about him taking this step in his life and just want to be present for him however you can. If he feels like he has your unconditional support, then maybe he will feel less of a need to drink? Just throwing it out there.

Riestrella: Thanks for starting the new chat! I'm sure the interview went better than you thought. I'll never forget the time I was interviewing and they wanted me to tell a joke...the ONLY joke I could think of was a dirty one! So embarrassing.
NINE days?!?!?! Oh.my.goodness I am so excited for you! Hope the trip is wonderful and everything you want it to be.
I think you bring up really good points as to why the boyfriend shouldn't get plastered just before you arrive. Also...drinking at work? Doesn't seem like the best idea, even if he is quitting.

Kawaii Sorry you were bothered by the lack of personals, and that you've been having a rough time. Will make it a February goal to do better with personals. ;) Are things any better?

teamcoco Ohmygosh I know! Can't believe it's already Feb!
Yes, I'm excited about NYC. It's just a train ride away for me.
I have a hard time exercising at night too. When i get home I just want to slip into PJs and get cozy! :)

rainbow Oh no! Feel better. I'm sorry you're so sick! Apartment hunting is difficult. Good luck searching!

philana would an afternoon nap help with the evening shift? Followed by a short burst of cardio?

candice Eww....TOM is awful. Mine is coming up soon and my weight is jumping around like crazy. They say exercise helps with the pain, so hopefully the walk and playground time will help you out!

dulo 10 pounds is awesome! Congrats! Don't beat yourself up on the past. Just move forward. :)

I was able to leave work early yesterday AND I get to come in a little late tomorrow! :carrot: So that rocks. It was a huge perk yesterday because that extra 45minutes meant I could go to the grocery store before class started.
Im usually in so much pain that I cant move.... and exercise and water dont usually help out at all.... so Im just happy I made it out of bed at all today.... I dont even know how to explain the cramp pain I get except to say it hurts more then when I gave birth to my son.... Ive already been to the doctor in case something was wrong ... there isnt... :( just full off eggs as he says so when TOM comes theres just a lot of pressure?? if that makes sense... so he gives me T3s enough for a yr at a time.... im allowed only 2 a month so I usually take them the third and fourth day when its at its worse.... :( but im still drinking water like crazy and moving as much as I can... :D

Ahh Feb already!
I'm always nervous to jump into these chats because I usually don't have a lot of spare time on here to get into everyones personals.

Riestrella If you're anything like me you're freaking out over the littlest things! I'm sure it wasn't that bad, because what I perceive to be bad someone else has told me it went wonderfully. Fingers crossed for you still!

rainbow I'm sorry your'e sick! Hope you feel better soon

Quiet I'm with you! I got out of school early today, and don't have to go in till 12:30 tomorrow so I have lots of time to go to the gym! I love it. Though I probably should spend it studying for midterms... shhh.

candice I'm sorry to hear about TOM! I used to get really bad cramps when I was younger. My doctor put me on the pill just to help them a little. They can still get fairly bad and it's hard to get myself up and moving but once I do I feel a lot better.

I feel like I don't have anything new and exciting going on in my life. I just go to school, and the gym. My mom has been in the hospital for 2 weeks, and just got out today so that took a lot of stress away because I wasn't getting any homework done because I was spending all my free time at the hospital. My friend that I posted about before is still ignoring me - actually she won't even acknowledge my existence anymore... which is uncomfortable because our lockers are beside each other. She said I'm too negative. Which I was upset about, but then I realized a best friend would have been supportive during my "negative" period when I had temporary custody of a 6 year old, and dealing with 8 classes. /end rant!

torito im on the pill and it helps a little bit but its still unbearable some days... glad I have the T3s.... :)

Sorry to hear about your mom... I hope everything is okay now? and that really sucks about your friend...your right she should have been there for you in your hard time... sometimes friends just suck and dont know how to be good friends... :( Dont let her get you down stressing over someone who cant give you the time of day isnt healthy for you and could be keeping the lbs on or at least explain any fluctuations... i know it does for me... when I stress out hardcore my weight goes back and forth 20lbs!!! Hopefully one day shell come around and see what she did wrong and will want to be friends and appologize to you :)

Life is crazy in Indianapolis right now with all of the Super Bowl madness! Pretty cool to be a part of it all but driving has been a bit tricky.

I finally got my New Rules of Lifting for Women book in the mail and just started reading it! I just want to get through it all so I can give the program a try.

I have an infection on my left temple. It almost looks like an infected blemish. It is casuing the underneath of my left eye to swell. Hideous. I went to the doc today for meds. PLEASE let them work ASAP. I took the day off work to rest. Hopefully I'll be good to go now!

Promise to catch up on personals later :)

stronger: hey! isn’t it weird how our bodies react to sugar after eating healthy for a while?! it’s nuts! hope you feel better though… when is school ending for you? hang in there! and 9lbs?! you go girl!!! yeah, I didn’t really think of it as “falling off”… I try to not beat myself up if I eat off plan and just keep going. I realize now this is a long journey and I better take it slow and not beat myself up… it’s hard to stop thinking in terms off “falling off the wagon” and “getting back on” though… Hmm… that sounds interesting! for some reason I really enjoy reading those kinda “self-help” books…. although now I think I probably need one called “how to not be a pushy and paranoid girlfriend”… but that’s another matter all together… lol.


teamcoco: yes! February! omg! I can’t believe in 2 months I won’t live here anymore… insanity! good luck on getting yourself back in the gym… and congrats on that loss! we’re around the same weight range, so I’m also hopping to see 175 for spring! :)

Rainbow: feel better! I hope you could take time off from work… good luck on the apartment-hunting! I know firsthand how tough that can be!

Rie: aww… well, JET interviewers are notorious for making you feel stressed out (and just being generally horrible) so keep your hopes up!! they scribble a lot because they are grading you… you get points for every question you answer, and basically, they add up your points at the end. them scribbling a lot means nothing good or bad. talking to the ex-JET before and after was definitely a plus! did they ask you to do a demo lesson? anyhoo… congrats on the loss, and yay for icecream! (shouldn’t say that in here though… lol.) and omg, 9 days! ^_^ oh and I think it’s totally fair to ask him to not completely wreck himself the day before you show up. tell him you guys can celebrate and get smashed together when you get there! that’s a nice compromise, no? :p

Candice: well done getting your walk in even with TOM around! I can’t believe it’s so warm over there! here it’s freezing and it even snowed today!! and it almost never snows where I live so the kids were freaking out in class and it was impossible to get them to do anything! lol. here’s to a new start! we’re with you!

Dulo: 10lbs is an awesome loss for a month! and yay, trip!! ^_^

Ballerina: eheh, that was just my little 5y.o. rant… have attention issues… and these days the boyfriend hasn’t been addressing them as well as he normally does, so I was cranky! lol. also I’d had a pretty **** day… things are ok now ;) how bout you? yay for time off work! how did that come about?

Torito: hiya! sorry to hear about your friend :( but yay for your mom being out of the hospital! :cheer: now you can focus on yourself! what are you studying?

Linds: how’s the book? aww… sucks about your eye! hope it goes away soon!


Heyooo~! Here I am! I’m super busy today, but I got a lot of news so I really wanted to come post here! first of all, I worked out last night (did 30DS) for the first time in, legit, over 6 months… and GOD IT WAS PAINFUL!!! omg… I don’t think I ever did so badly… at one point, it hurt to even just bend my legs! that’s never happened before! I guess it shows how out of shape I am… BUT! I did it!

my second thing is that I weighed in this morning, and after two weeks of unmoving 82.0kg… I got 81.2!!! which is 179.something! omg! under 180! *does a little dance*. pretty happy about that.

my third thing is that I ordered some make-up palettes from Coastal Scents and they came in yesterday! and omg, so many colors!!! I was like a kid in a candy store! you shoulda seen my face…

oh and things are going underway for me and the boy to buy our tix to Canada so I’m excited!! we found some that were cheaper than expected too, so that’s really good. the only thing is, like I mentioned before, I’m a bit cranky at him atm cuz he seems to be replying to me more carelessly these days. I dunno. maybe he’s just busy or tired… I know… or maybe it’s just that after 3 months together he feels like he doesn’t have to try that hard, but it makes me kinda sad cuz he was always the king of adorable “I miss you” text messages… meh. I guess I’m a dork. I’m also cranky he’s not coming over this weekend when he said he would… I know it’s not his fault he has to work, but still. aaah, anyways, you guys don’t need to hear about my (non-diet-related) insecurities!

hope everyone’s having a good Thursday. week’s almost over!!

philana I'm in the biggest city in New Zealand, Auckland, which apparently is having a rental "crisis" at the moment. Everyone wants a place but they all want to live centrally and there aren't enough places centrally. I have my fingers and toes crossed though! I hope you worked out the schedule of your day, sounds like you're super busy!

Riestrella I'm sure you did better than you think. The problem with interviews, regardless of what they're for, is you always think of the best things that you want to say before and after the interview, and then nerves and excitement get in the way during. If you came off as positive, I think that's the main thing. Sorry you felt you didn't do as well but you did your best at the time and I'm sure it's ok! If it's meant to be it will happen, and I will be keeping my fingers crossed for you!!

candice Sorry to hear about the wagon-falling! It's good that you're back and ready to go though. Dumb TOM stuff, hopefully it passes soon. Thanks for the well wishes!

quietballerina Thanks for the luck and the well wishes! Yay for finishing early and starting late - lucky!!

torito I hope your mom is doing better now. Sorry to hear about your friend problem - sounds like she might be a little oblivious to the stuff you've got going on. Is there any way that you can organise something fun for yourself? Even if it's just something small, just some time to yourself that isn't class or the gym? Sounds like you may need it :)

Linds Infection sounds annoying!! My sister is planning a Superbowl lunch - which is ridiculous, given the country that we live in and the fact it may not even be showing on tv.... haha.

Kawaii Congrats on being below 180!! Go you! Also your makeup excites me.. I keep wanting buy new things, I have been thinking about making an order from ASOS...clothes, shoes, bags - but I can't really afford to (or at least shouldn't be frivolously spending money!). Yay for trip to Canada too. Also with the boy thing, I think that's (unfortunately) how it usually goes mostly, people get comfortable and they don't do the same things they did in the initial stages of the relationship. Bleh. Silly boys. But he still sounds like a good one.

~Super quick from me. Throat is feeling a bit better, still trying to decide whether or not I should start the antibiotics. Doing well with calories but still no loss. Tomorrow my whole office is getting fish and chips for lunch - I can't really say no because it's a team activity, so I'm just going to have to cope.

Tonight I'm just relaxing a bit as I have a feeling the weekend could be pretty full on. We have another holiday here on Monday, so it's another 3 day weekend. I am SO glad it's Friday tomorrow! This week has been stressful at work, so much to do!!

rainbow: haha, thanks for commenting on my boy issues. actually, that makes me feel better cuz i'm hugely insecure and always paranoid that they're gonna dump me. if it's just him getting comfortable, than i can deal with that ;) and yes, he still is a good one :) oh and the makeup! girl... it's like this big huge palette with 88 colors... 88!!! :flow1: :flow1: :flow1: also, if the doctor gave you antibiotics, take them!! good luck with the fish&chips... maybe you can deal by eating only half or something? i am also very much looking forward to friday! XD soooo tired from work and lack of sleep... geh.

Kawaii Just basing that on experience - most guys I know kind of get comfortable around that 3 month time slot! Oh man, jealous of the makeup haha. The doctor gave me the antibiotics but told me to wait one-two days before starting the course to see if I felt better. Some doctors are a bit weird about prescribing stuff sometimes, and he seemed to be one of them - but at least he gave me the prescription... but now I just dunno whether to take them!

Hey everyone!

First of all, thank you all SO MUCH for all your kind comments about my interview. They've all seriously made me feel so much better about the whole thing. I've been having flash backs to the interview since it happened, sometimes I quite literally have to tell myself to shut up! I'm slowly but surely moving forward and pushing it out of my mind and waiting to see what happens. I've got in contact with Interac, another company that hires ALT's to work in Japan (although it's not as well paid as JET which is why I went there first), and they've looked at my application and are going to do a phone interview with me soon hopefully. I'll get to Japan one way or another! But thank you all again, I figured I would say a big collective thank you here instead of repeating it over and over in personals!

Also, another collective message for those who asked about my boyfriend drinking the night before I arrive, he understood completely and said he wouldn't go crazy. He said he knew that I was arriving the next day and knows how important it is. So that's all fine now too =).

I can't believe I'll be leaving in 8 days! It feels like yesterday it was something like 54 days. It's funny, because I have these really paranoid dreams that the boyfriend is going to see me and not be bothered about me, and today I got an email saying he had a similar dream! Our meeting is going to be SO STRANGE. It feels like I haven't seen him in years.

I failed at my exercise yesterday because of the stressful couple of days I had before. I just wanted to slob out! But today is a new day, and even though the blob is here, I will do Insanity! It's also fareezzzing here, so it will warm me up!

candice - TOM is here for me too! But dayum, I do not get it as bad as you seem to! I'm sorry it causes you so much pain, but it's nice to see you get motivated about getting up and about!
Don't get disheartened when you stall, you have to keep pushing forward! You can do it!
I love subs too, I used to have them all the time at Uni, which was bad because I got the BMT which is like the fattiest of them all haha. But now I've started making compromises, I get a 6" instead of the footlong and get water with it now instead of pop. Once in a while treat won't do me any harm!

Dulo - A holiday is a great source of motivation for weight loss, you can do it!

QB - Well he works at a sushi restaurant so they give out free drinks to all the staff during the shift in case they want them. It is very strange, I agree, but hey ho! I know, I'm so freakin' excited too. I'm actually at the stage now where I can't actually believe it's happening...so I don't actually feel anything at all! I'm so weird, haha.

Alexis - Thank you for the support, I really appreciate it :hug:

torito - I must admit, being apart of these chats does take some time, but it feels like a second family now so I enjoy it! But don't be nervous =). I'm sorry you're having a hard time in life right now. Just try and communicate with your friend, just ask her that you want to talk to her and just tell her what's going on. Just say you're having a really hard time and you're sorry if you seemed really down and negative but to understand it was really hard on you and you really could use the support. If that doesn't work then she wasn't really a good friend to begin with. Glad your Mum's out of hospital now! :hug:

LindsB - Ouch, that sounds painful! I hope the meds work too!

Kawaii - No, thank god I was not asked to do the demo lesson! Maybe I should be extra thankful!! WELL DONE ON EXERCISING!!! WOOHOO! 30DS is really hard when you first start out. I remember starting it and thinking "oh my goose I'm in so much pain" but now I'm rocking up Insanity so it's definitely a good place to build up some strength and fitness!!
CONGRATUMALATIONSSS ON REACHING THE 170s!!! Wow, you're just being super awesome lately aren't you? Haha, you should have taken a picture of your makeup experimentation!
Hey now, this is a chat thread, chat about anything you so desire, it's not all about weight loss in here, girl! Unfortunately, that cute stage is really just a stage...it does fade away. Hopefully it means that he's just becoming more secure and relaxed in your relationship, just make sure you tell him not to take you for granted and still show you he cares. I used to get all sorts of crazy cute stuff directed at me, it's gone now, and trust me I was cranky for a while too...but I started to appreciate the small things and the bigger picture - that we are together and that's something incredible =).

rainbow - Thank you, and you're absolutely right - nerves definitely got in the way!!
I'm glad your throat is feeling better, why wouldn't you take the antibiotics? Surely it would help? Just be sure to keep drinking water and try exercising as soon as you can to start seeing a weight change.
Oh dear...the chippy! My advice would be portion size, portion size, portion size. Try your best to pick the healthiest option! Would they really shun you for not having it though?
I looked in my diary and it said it's Waitangi day Monday, what's that??

KawaiiCandie:
Yes its been gorgeous here! I love it!!! 45-50degree weather for awhile now… which don’t get me wrong I like snow especially now with my son …id like to bring him out to play in it… on the other hand I don’t drive so we walk everywhere…doctors, pharmacy, grocery store, dollar store, park etc. so when it snows I usually have to keep checking the weather and go grab stuff while I can… I also hate sitting indoors all the time L Congrats on reaching 179lbs!!!! Yahoo!!! I can totally relate when you’ve been stuck at a number for SOOO LONG and you finally see the number I think my face looks like the grinch with a grin ear to ear! Haha And no we don’t mind hearing bout your “nondiet insecurites” lol anyway we can help!! Where abouts you going in Canada?? And im sure everythings fine its probably like you said hes tired or busy… try sending him those adorable little text messages… or maybe mention it to him… “I used to love when you sent me little messages like that….” Your def not a dork… you’re a girl :P hahah

Rainbowstripe:
Glad to hear your throat is getting better… my recommendation would be, and im not a doctor, but if your almost over it then I wouldn’t take the antibiotics…. I myself don’t take anything when I get sick… sore throat bad ear runny nose etc I take nothing and im usually over it in a couple days… here in Canada we actually have a couple doctors that when you come in like that wont give you medicine ever…. They just don’t write prescriptions and they send us to the store and say get this vitamin and drink this tea blah blah… it works trust me… try drinking some peppermint tea and rub vicks on your throat and chest J Fish and Chips eh? Ive been craving fish and chips for soooo long…. Mmm maybe just eat half the portion they give you? Or fill up on something else throughout the day that way your not as hungry and tempted to eat the whole thing. A relaxing night sounds good!! Which Holiday do you have right now? Have a great weekend!

Riestrella:
Im excited for you!!!! I don’t know how you can go that long without seeing your bf… I would go nuts!!! I miss Aidens dad when he hasn’t come over for a couple days!!! Haha as for the dreams your probably just both feeling the same way… nervous about seeing each other, its been so long so it could be awkward but don’t let be…. Just pretend like you saw him yesterday…. Act comfortable and **** jump on board and then itll be a great experience. Everyones entitled to a SLOB OUT day lmao once in while…. Glad the stress is somewhat over for you… Sucks about TOM… yea I don’t know why I got picked for the crappy TOMS lol today is a little better still a little tender, especially in the area were my incision is from my c-section. But omg like I never really paid attention to it but when I swell that little pocket of “fat” I guess you could call it from the surgery gets huge!!!! Its so gross and bothers me a lot actually cuz in sweats it looks really bad… Thanks I try not to get disheartened but a whole weekend of cake and great dinners I havent had in awhile and I just missed having the old “good” food :S It was hard to get back on but Im doing good so far .. On target for exercise and calories J I havent had a sub since I left my shop back in March of last year … I wish they had a place near my house I would totally walk and get one for lunch everyday…. Haha I sound like Jared :P

As for me everyone, another beautiful day prob wont hit 50 but theyre talking 46 so gonna go for my walk with Aiden and maybe go a little further today instead of the park... come home hopefully do my workout today since i didnt do the whole things yesterday... well see how the pain is when I get home. Swellings gone done and im down a lb since yesterday thank god... I hate gaining so much during TOM... its like you take all week to lose 3lbs and then gain it in one day ugh :( anyways not much going on here today probably have a chilaxing day with the boy... his dads coming over tomorrow and Saturday for the whole day so itll be nice to him and Aiden be able to spend lots of time with him. :) Other then that I guess Im just really happy... my 17 year old brother and his girlfriend had a baby just around the same time as me (two weeks apart) and he was having a hard time in school before but had gone back today!!!! I couldnt be more proud of him... he has had plenty of struggles with learning growing up in grade school and this is just so great... his girlfriend also went back today after being off since like april just before she had the baby.... I know this sounds like something that they should be doing and not really a big deal but in my family is a big accomplishment... myself being the only one to have finished high school and gone to uni not just out of my family but out of extended family as well.... My other sister who is 23 dropped out in grade 10 and just stopped going... after some talking to she started going to pass and doing the work on her own but dropped out again with only like 4 classes needed to graduate. And my younger sister 14 just started high school and already hates it.... I know this is a lot because theyre lazy and dont wanns go but our school systems have gone down so much I cant even begin to describe how Sh*** the teachers are, and the rules are crap... its just rediculous... I dont blame them at all for not wanting to be there. So anyways Im babling but Im just glad that him and his girlfriend are gone back and doing this for my neice.... well Im going to get my butt in gear and head out!!! Have a great day everyone

torito I'm sorry your mom wasn't doing well. :( Good that she's out of the hospital though!! You're right about your friend. The ones that stick around when you're cranky/impossible/moody (uhm, not saying you were. I meant that as a general "you") ;) are the ones worth sticking with.

LindsB how's the infection? Hopefully the medicine does the job. Did they tell you to put a warm (or cold?) wet wash cloth on your eye to help with the swelling?

Kawaii :( Days like that aren't any fun.
Well, with work, if the dad comes home early (really rare, but it does happen sometimes) I get to leave. He was going to have me stay, but since the baby had just gone down for a nap she was probably going to stay asleep. So I zoomed out of there before he had a chance to wake her up! (Sometimes he talks on the phone too loud, or walks too loud, and it wakes her). And I got to come in a little late because the baby had an appointment. So the mom didn't need me at my normal starting time. Which was awesome! An extra 30 minutes of sleep.
Under 180?! Congratulations!!
in my experience: boys are horrible at understanding how much it means to us when we get cute little texts like that during the day.

OH.MY.GOODNESS.
So, since I only have 1 baby this week, the parents have given me permission to take her out and about all over (within reason, of course) and to even run some errands if I want (woo!).
Today she and I were at a gas station, because they have a hand-held car washer thing that I've seen people use and I wanted to try and use it to wash my car. Well, I couldn't get it to work (haha I'm a spaz) but....I am SO glad I didn't get it to work! This is why:
I was moving my car, driving around to where the cashier girl was so I could ask how to use the washer. Well, as I get close to the cashier, I see this woman almost get knocked over by a car speeding off!! My first thought was "ohmygosh I hope she's ok!" and then it hit me: someone had just stolen her car! So I put my car into park and rolled down the window to call out to her. She was in shock in a huge way. Didn't even see the guy that got in (but I saw him as he was driving off).
So I called the police for her, told the operator where we were. Handed my cell to her so that she could give a description of the car, then she gave it back to me so I could describe the guy that took her car. And then they sent out a police car to us so I had to wait for him to come....and once he arrived I gave the description of the guy again (trying to remember as much of the guy as I could) and gave the cop all of my information if he needed to get in touch with me. Thank goodness the baby was happily munching on crackers in her car seat! :)
Anyway...this poor woman. She left her key in the ignition, and got out for just a minute to walk around her car and remove the gas pump (she had been sitting in her car while the gas was pumping). All it took was that minute or two for this JERK to jump into her car in the middle of the day and drive off. Her cell phone, credit cards, everything was inside the car. I really hope they catch him.

I know none of my story is about my weight. But I just couldn't believe that happened!

hello all!

I'm soooo pooped right now. I barely got any sleep last night but I still got up at 5 and went to the gym. I've been feeling discouraged lately because I've been exercising and following my daily caloric intake religiously, and I have not shed a pound. That day that I was at 143? yeah, back up to 145 the next day and I've been teetering between 144 and 145. GRRR. TOM totally ripped me off with my woosh. :( I had a physical today, and the doctor told me I'm underweight? My BMI is 22...which is in the healthy range, but I have more fat than muscle. I definitely need to step up the weight training more.

My boyfriend wants to go out to dinner tomorrow. We have a gift certificate to a legit irish restaurant we love, and they have live music on friday nights. I haven't cheated at all, but it's difficult to get any healthy dish there, so I guess I'll count this as my monthly treat. It's SO tempting to have fish and chips, but I'll stick to something better and just pick a couple bites from his dish. I know I'll feel sick if I order that. As long as I have my guiness, I'm happy :)

reistrella: I'm sure you did fine on the interview. I've always heard that employers prefer someone with some actual personality rather than someone who just sits there and spews out the expected answers to questions. You haven't seen your boyfriend in 7 months? WOW! I've done the long distance relationship for 6 years, but we've never gone past a month without seeing each other (we had a 2 hour distance between us so it wasn't bad, but with school and work it was a pain!)

Quiet Ballerina: That story is NUTS!! I honestly can't believe people sometimes, and it's a shame how much you really can't trust society anymore. I'm so paranoid about those things. If I'm filling my car, I lock the doors because I remember hearing on Oprah that a creeper could sneak into your car. If I drop a movie off at blockbuster, I lock the door even if I'm 2 feet from the car.

rainbow: hope you're feeling better! Try eating soft foods like applesauce, yogurt, and pudding. They're not great, but at least you get some nutrition and they're easier to swallow! A sore throat is no fun!

Ack! Already so behind lol

Linds Let me know how the book is! I’ve read so much about it and have been thinking of picking it up.

Kawaii I’m studying radiography (x-rays). I’m soo close to being done (well not really… not done until May) but I like to say that I’m close because it makes me feel better haha. The program is really tough, and they condensed it into two years so I’ve been going for a year and a half nonstop. And right now I have 11 classes. And as soon as I graduate I’m probably gonna go right back to get my CAT scan ticket.
Congrats on actually doing 30ds and getting under 180! I’m sure it’s around somewhere.. but where are you going in Canada? I’m sorry you’re having boyish troubles, they can be so stupid sometimes.

candice That’s so good that they’re going back to school! I know what it’s like, my brother’s gf dropped out when she got pregnant and she always talked about getting her GED but never did. I don’t know if she has even gotten it now, but she’s in a post secondary so at least she’s doing something! I am happy to hear you get to enjoy the weather, walks on those types of days are the best.

quiet haha don’t worry I didn’t think you were calling me any of those things ;) That is a CRAZY story!! Good for you for helping out and calling the police. It’s so scary that stuff like that can happen anytime. I usually leave my key in the ignition when I go into the gas station, you just don’t expect anything to happen. Would be a good time though, the car is full of gas.

samma I hate when TOM rips you off. I’m sure it’ll come off, maybe going out will help that out. We all deserve a little treat now and then. I agree with you, that try and make the best choices you can and still enjoy it. Definitely enjoy the beer!

reistrella I feel you on the long distance thing. Me and my ex did it for a few years, and it was the biggest hassle (and now it was the biggest waste of my time and money… but that’s because he was a loser) It’s hard but it is possible! I hated when everyone said it would never last because we were doing long distance.

Riestrella Glad to hear you've tried to stop worrying about the interview, and good to hear you contacted another place as well! Having options is a good thing! Hope the next 8 days don't stress you out too much. How long has it been since you saw your bf? It might be a bit weird at first but I'm sure it will be fine! With the antibiotics, he said to wait to see if I felt better in a day or so or then start them if I didn't.. and since I feel better, I'm not. Waitangi day is a national holiday here, to commemorate the signing of the Treaty of Waitangi. I'd go into it, but it's pretty detailed - if you're interested, go on Wikipedia haha - I'm sure there's heaps of info, but it might not be that interesting!

candice Sounds like some good things are happening with you and your family at the moment! Thanks for the advice - I've been drinking peppermint tea and just taking the odd paracetamol for the throat pain. Antibiotics are still untouched and I am feeling better!

quietballerina What a story! That must have been pretty surreal!

sammalamma I hope you enjoy the dinner!

~I did ok today I think! I only had one piece of fish, picked a smaller one, and had a small portion of chips. It was really delicious, really well made and not super greasy like you find a lot of the time.

My throat is feeling better as well, which is a positive, and I have the next three days off so that is also great!

We've got a few places to look at in the next couple of days (to live) which is good... but so far most have been disappointing or not right for us, so it gets disheartening looking at place after place. I just hope one of them is right.

Weight was still the same. Urgh. I guess I should be happy I am maintaining and not gaining anymore... but... I'm not. Hah.

Oh well, another food filled challenging weekend ahead, so I must remember to pace myself and not eat too much!!

rainbow glad to hear you're feeling a bit better and enjoyed fish and chips. I hate house hunting! I feel your pain

I went to give blood tonight. My dad has always gone (he's almost up to his 100th time lol) and I've always wanted to give being in the health field. So I go, and there was a huge group of first timers that were friends, I happened to be sitting beside one of them while giving blood and he's like "oh starting to feel a little light headed" and I watch his eyes roll into the back of his head and tell my nurse. Then he has a friggen seizure and it takes them a long time to get him back, all the while my heart starts beating so hard. He fights when he comes to, then pukes so I'm trying to just look away. Then he passes out again so 911 is called. (Normally I would be totally fine with this situation, but my arm was feeling light and my heart was beating abnormally fast). I decide I would like a glass of water and ask my nurse and she says she cant give me any, and being thirsty is usually a sign that you're gonna be sick. I was like "no no I'm fine just thirsty" but then I yawn and she like freaks out and pulls the needle out of my arm (apparently yawning is bad when giving blood...) So I'm a little disappointed, I don't know how much I gave, and if I'll be allowed to give in the future. But I'm pretty sure I just did that because of the dude.

ok, first off, thanks to everyone who said they don’t mind hearing about my bf rants!! that means a lot!

rainbow: hope you’re right… didn’t hear from him at all last night, and since I know he got home in the morning, he’s probably still sleeping it off… I really hope he’ll have the mind to mail me before he goes to work (at 5pm) but I have a feeling he might just sleep til it’s time to wake up for work, where he’s not allowed a cellphone. geh. anyways… so did you start the antibiotics? if it was me I would just have taken them right away :p good luck for this weekend! both with the food, and with the apartment-hunting!

Rie: aww, I’m glad the situation was righted with your man! haha, and I know what you mean about meeting up being strange… ages ago, when my bf had to go back to Japan cuz his visa was up (yes, another Japanese man, although that’s just a coincidence! lol), we had to spend about 3 months apart, and I remember feeling so weird when I picked him up at the airport thinking “who is this person? am I allowed to touch him?” lol. well it lasted only about a day and things went back to normal after :p and thanks for all the congratulatory words! I especially liked the “you are being awesome lately” part, eheh. but yeah, hope it keeps up!! :) and I’ll take pics of the makeup next time. not all the colors come off great, but I’m wearing this insanely bright pink today and it still hasn’t faded even though it’s the middle of the afternoon! (I’m wearing MAC primer under though…) and about the boy… my boy… yeah. :( how do you deal with it? you guys are way more long-distance than me, but I figure some things are similar… how often do you guys talk or mail to each other, usually?

Candice: you’re so lucky! I’m freezing my butt here!! lol. and thanks. ;) I’m going home to Montreal! I dunno if you caught it before but I live in Japan… I’m also supposed to be dragging the bf along, but we’ll see whether or not that happens… wow about your brother having a kid… that’s really young! good for them for going back to school!

ballerina: oh right, forgot you were a nanny :p that sounds cool though! and yay for the free time! yup, boys are just really thick, aren’t they? omg!! that situation is so crazy!! that was really nice of you to help her out!

Samantha: well done for getting up early to work out even though you were tired! I really admire that cuz I’d never have the strength to do it myself!! don’t feel down you’re working hard and not loosing… you’re smaller, and the smaller you are, the more difficult it gets to shed pounds off. maybe you should check about what you are eating as well as the caloric intake… some people’s bodies work differently and I know that, if I eat sweet stuff or carbs, even if I’m under my calorie limit for the day, I just don’t lose weight… so maybe shaking up your diet a bit would work. good luck! for the restaurant, don’t make yourself feel guilty, but just try to be reasonable, and it should be fine!

torito: radiography?! wow! good luck… studying sucks, haha, I’m so glad I’m done with it! but you’ll be happy when you get a good job cuz of it ;) omg, 11 classes!!! I would die! like I told Candice, I’m from Montreal and I’m going back home to visit for a bit. I haven’t been back for over a year so I’m looking forward to it! wow, that’s nuts about the blood thing!! I went to give blood one time, and they did some kind of preliminary test on me and then I was told that I couldn’t do it cuz I don’t have enough iron in my blood… :/ maybe that guy had something like that and they didn’t test him before? either way… at least you’re alright!

hey guys!

It’s Friday here for me, and I’ve got about 1 hour of work left. I’m not too looking forward to the weekend though since I’ve got no money to spend, diet says I can’t drink, and boy is not coming over. so I’m probably gonna alternate between packing boxes and feeling sorry for myself. sounds fun, eh? :p

sorry, I’ve been in a pretty gloomy mood. I’m actually feeling better than I did, but still kinda meh. as a follow-up to my complaints of yesterday, I have now not heard from my boy for a whole day. I know he was going out all night with friends last night, and that he’s probably still sleeping it off, but I was really offended that he didn’t reply to me at all. usually he’ll write me when he gets home and stuff. *sigh* so anyways, I am trying not to freak out and tell myself that there is a logical explanation for all of this… in the meantime, it sucks.

I weighed myself this morning and it was a bit up from yesterday, but not by much so I don’t mind. I didn’t work out last night cuz my legs hurt too much and it was seriously too cold in my apartment to do anything. I was basically wearing 3 layers of clothes and shivering under my blanket in front of the computer… Japan does NOT have central heating… it’s ridiculous. oh and I was so stressed about the boy situation that I made myself go to bed so that I wouldn’t call him and embarrass him in front of his friend like a crazy gf… meh. I’m planning on working out tonight though, so wish me luck!

Not much to report over here! Just counting down the days, working and trying to see friends before I leave!! 7 DAYS TO GO!!

candice - That's crazy that you're the only one in your family who's finished high school and gone to Uni! Such an amazing accomplishment. I can't imagine dropping out of high school, I hated it and most of the teachers were shite but I just wouldn't have thought of dropping out. My parents would actually kill me!
Thank youuu! At first it REALLY sucked being away. We did long distance when he was still at Uni in England but we could text and call each other...but when he moved back to the US it got a lot harder because of the time difference and not being able to contact by mobile phone since it would be too expensive. It took some time, but we both learnt to adjust to it. The sooner you try and get used to the change the better, because if you start just missing the way things were that's when problems come up. I've honestly got so used to not seeing him and not (this might sound weird but it's not sexual!) touching him that it can feel like he's not quite real. It sounds like a negative but we still love each other and care about each other, it's just without seeing each other the dynamic really changes! I can't believe that we'll actually be together again soon!

QB - Oh my goose that's awful! You know when I've been to America sometimes I'm really surprised when people do that sort of thing, just leave their keys in the car and just pop out to get something thinking "it'll just be a minute." I would ALWAYS lock my car and never leave the keys in! It really is a shame that it happened to her, since she was just going around to the other side of the car, but again - never ever leave your keys on show!
It was really nice of you to help her, so you should be proud you're a very kind person =)

samma - How many calories are you eating? How much exercise do you do? And how much water do you drink? If you're not eating enough to compensate for your exercise then you won't see a change. There's a great tool here: http://www.choosemyplate.gov/myplate/index.aspx
that shows you what you should be eating and how much. It might seem like a lot, but exercise should be a very important factor to how much you eat. When I ate more since I was exercising 6 times a week for more than 30 minutes I saw a big difference in my loss! Just something to think about!
Thank you, I'm hoping they liked my personality too! Fingers crossed! And yeah, this has been the longest we've been apart for 3 years. The longest we'd been apart was 2 months, but that seems like nothing now after not seeing him for 7! It sounds like it's a long time, but honestly once I got used to the fact I wasn't going to see him for a while we both started to just focus on the future and not dwell on it. The more you wish it was another way the higher the chance of problems happening. It's going to be awesome to be around each other again, because we just have so much fun together!!

torito - I do get the sense that some people don't think it will last, or that he's cheating on me, but I know what the score is and I know he wouldn't do that to me. We've known each other 10 years, he wouldn't throw away all that time and friendship. But people at work like to wind me up about the lack of sex in my life! Haha!
Holy cow, that sounds like a NIGHTMARE blood giving session! I can't believe he had a seizure!! Why is yawning bad while giving blood?

rainbow - It's been 7 months since I last saw him! It will be super weird when I see him, but I can't wait! I'm glad you enjoying your chippy meal, and well done on portion control! Maintaining is sooo much better than gaining, but you know now that to lose you really need to step it up a gear! You can do it!

Kawaii - Hahaha, it's funny what you said about the touching thing, because I KNOW that's how I'm going to feel! Like "so....can I have sex with you or...?" It's going to be very strange, like meeting him for the first time again! But I'm sure after a day we'll be back to our ordinary stupid selves!
We email each other when, honestly, there's something to talk about. We have very ordinary lives but if there's a day where we don't do anything worth talking about then we don't email. But I'd say we email once every 2 days, it rarely goes up to 3-4. We used to email each other every day but it got to be a bit tedious, it lost it's soul because we were just talking about boring crap...it felt like we were just writing diaries to each other. There wasn't much meaning or purpose to it other than to try and find SOMETHING to say. So we stopped doing that.
We Skype probably once or twice a week. Sometimes it's gone a lot longer without Skype, because of the time difference.
At first there was a lot of talk of missing each other, it not being the same, but eventually we got used to being apart. We used to send each other flirtatious emails too...but those stopped because honestly it was just frustrating to hear all this sexy stuff and then not being able to do anything about it with each other! I'm sure leading up to me going over there'll be some filth heading it's way into my inbox, haha!

The thing with distance that you have to remember is that he can't see or sense your emotions. It's frustrating, because in your mind you're thinking "Well he SHOULD be texting me because ___" but to him he's just getting on with things not knowing how you're feeling! Communication is really important in distance, if you let things boil and then explode on him then he's just going to be SO confused and might potentially just get angry that you've called him to yell at him. You just need to be honest, say what you need from him and just be calm about it. Use the last couple of days as an example to say "the last few days has made me feel like you don't think about me because you're not texting or calling like you normally do" (I'm assuming that's how it feels because I've felt it too!) and then go from there. Or even just ask him if everything is ok because he's not been contacting you. Maybe he's getting nervous about the move and your trip to Canada? You just need to be reassuring and clear.

Even 7 months into our long distance we still have communication flaws. For example, he would pop up on IM and not say hello to me. His reason turned out to be because he was leaving soon and he thought I would get angry if he just said hello and then left. I said it's not fair to assume I would get mad, just hearing anything from you means a lot to me; I compared it to living together and having different jobs - if one of us got home while the other was leaving and we saw each other we would still say hello quickly. He understood and tries harder now.

Hola girlies! Finally Friday! I am a bit depressed because I want to go downtown to party today for the Super Bowl, but instead I get to go downtown to work :( All my friends are being SO lame and don't want to go down this weekend! Hubby said he would go with me if I wanted, but we've already been twice.

Rainbow- The fish and chips sounds delish. When i visited NZ I had such a hard time eating anything other than fish and chips because the food is so different than in the US! I LOVE NZ! I hope I get to come back some day!

Kawaii- HAng in there sweetie! Try not to stress over the boy just yet. If he keeps not responding and being lackadasical about you, then I would def. confont him! You deserve the best :)

Ballerina- MY EYE IS BETTER! Woohoo! Today is the first day in 3 days that I have had no swelling! The actual infection site is nearly gone! I am relieved!

Torito- I will def. let you know about the book! I am a little more than 1/2 way through. I am hoping to finish the book this weekend so I can get started with the workouts on Monday. It is definitely an interesting concept and very different than what we, as women, have been taught about working out traditionally.

Good morning all,

It's been an interesting on the namaste roller coaster. Yesterday I finally got my butt in gear and did a pretty intense workout. I went with the bf, who played tennis for years and is still ridiculously thin and in shape even though he claims not to be. ;) Needless to say, I got my butt handed to me. Still, it felt good to work out and I was in a great mood the rest of the day.

I also met with my mom, whom I haven't talked to in about a week after she totally lost it with me. My dad has been saying we need to talk it out anyhoo so we dont lose communication and become angry with each other. She took me to lunch, and I finally just told her everything I was feeling. I'll spare you the gruesome details but let's just say there was a lot on my mind. So she listened, and tried to hear my point of view, and we seemed to resolve a lot of things. She and I went to the bookstore and bought me a couple of books that have become my Bible(s) for the last few months, both by Jillian Michaels. And everything seems to be okay for now.

I have also discovered the vet tech school I was going to was going to be over 30K to attend, and I had to pay it back relatively quick. So obviously that idea went right out the window. I thought long and hard of what else I could possibly do, and I decided to continue with my registered dietician program. (I had a brief detour into another major for awhile and learned very quickly it wasnt for me.) I think it will give me motivation to keep working out and learning about how to be more aware of eating sensibly. It's a huge risk but I think I can do it.

So, that's all that is happening with me. I will try to do personals later on today if I have time. :)

Rainbowstripe: Yes im very happy with my brother and his girlfriend thanks J Glad to hear your doing much better.

Torito: Sorry you had such a horrible experience with blood donating…. That is absolutely horrible what happened to that man… I hope he is doing better now. I am a little curious why yawning while giving blood is bad as well?? Ive never heard of this…. Maybe it was just a bad time… hopefully you can give again in the future J

KawaiiCandie: Yes I am absolutely taking advantage of the weather while I can… its beautiful again today sun is shining a little colder but still do-able for a walk with the little guy… I did see that you live in Japan… ive always wanted to go there and see things… my cousin lived there for two years to teach English and she used to send me pics and souvenirs and stuff J so much fun!! Hopefully the stuff with your bf works out and he can go. Ya theyre really young but great parents…

You should be able to do something fun on the weekend…. Maybe pack boxes and instead of feeling sorry for yourself invite a couple friends over and have a movie night?? Lol sounds cheesy but always works for me J Don’t worry about the boy… us girls tend to over exaggerate everything when it comes to boys… and we always freak out over something that’s probably nothing. J sucks that they don’t have central heating… keep warm!!! Don’t stress about the boy!!! Itll get better…. Good luck!

Riestrella: Thanks I love school if I could go back and not have to pay haha I def would… I loved University more then High School tho. My mom would have been disappointed if I dropped out because sounds stupid but everyone holds me up to higher standards then the others I think because Ive always got the good grades and stuff… But if I had I know she would have understood because she herself dropped out in grade 10... She had me when she was 17 going on 18 and then went back to school just before I graduated from grade 8 and got her diploma so ya she would understand. Sounds really hard the long distance I give you credit for keeping with it… So happy for you tho!!!!

LindsB: I know the feeling I wanted to at least celebrate with a superbowl party but my sons Dad is going to a buddys house now to watch the super bowl and play poker leaving me at home with the baby… L shitty especially since I only got into football this year and because of him. Oh well Ill make up some healthy party snacks and my son and I will sit in our jerseys and watch ourselves I guess…. Going downtown with the hubby is better then nothing right??

The past two times I've calorie counted and exercised, I've had 1200-1300 calories. I use an app on my phone to count, so even when I exercise, it gives me those calories back for eating. I generally get an hour of exercise in every day. Even if it's too much, I just feel better when I do an hour. I'm going to switch it up and do 30 minutes strength, and 30 minutes cardio, along with bumping up my caloric intake to 1400 a day. I'm going to try it out for 2ish weeks and see how I do. I know your metabolism kicks into high gear with strength training so I hope it'll help. I've been doing the same thing that I've done before to lose weight, but I guess my body is changing again.

riestrella: that site is telling me I should eat 2400 calories a day.....is that just for maintenance, or for weight loss??? That seems like A LOT!!! Holy moly I don't think I could eat that much in a day!


sorry, no time for personals. I just got home from my internship and I'm pooped!! I'm going to take a nap before I head out for the night. I decided I'm getting the fish and chips because it's rare that I ever go to this restaurant, and it's the only time I get fish and chips...so why not?

The past two times I've calorie counted and exercised, I've had 1200-1300 calories. I use an app on my phone to count, so even when I exercise, it gives me those calories back for eating. I generally get an hour of exercise in every day. Even if it's too much, I just feel better when I do an hour. I'm going to switch it up and do 30 minutes strength, and 30 minutes cardio, along with bumping up my caloric intake to 1400 a day. I'm going to try it out for 2ish weeks and see how I do. I know your metabolism kicks into high gear with strength training so I hope it'll help. I've been doing the same thing that I've done before to lose weight, but I guess my body is changing again.

riestrella: that site is telling me I should eat 2400 calories a day.....is that just for maintenance, or for weight loss??? That seems like A LOT!!! Holy moly I don't think I could eat that much in a day!


sorry, no time for personals. I just got home from my internship and I'm pooped!! I'm going to take a nap before I head out for the night. I decided I'm getting the fish and chips because it's rare that I ever go to this restaurant, and it's the only time I get fish and chips...so why not?

Considering you're doing that much exercise then 1400 sounds really low to me. I know it sounds crazy, but eating more when exercising a lot will really speed up your weight loss. Think of your body like a fire: the fire is your metabolism, the wood is the fuel/food and the air around the fire is how much you exercise. The more you exercise the more fuel your fire needs. It really is that simple, and it works.

2400 does sound like a lot, but maybe start by eating 1900 of healthy food. The great thing about that food plan is it tells you what you should be getting of each food group a day. If you can, eat 5 meals a day, the more your body gets used to being fed the metabolism will just keep on going and you'll also be fuelled up for your exercise.

I'm 5'5" and I've been eating around 1900-2000 calories a day since July last year and I've continued to lose weight. I exercise up to 1 hour 6 days a week so my body needs the food to keep up! I was in the Sarge's No Excuses Boot Camp thread over in the Chicks Up For A Challenge sub forum and they were all hardcore fitness people who swore down by eating more. Well, they were right, I just kept dropping week after week once I started eating more!

Obviously everyone likes to lose weight differently, but losing weight is a big lifestyle change and I'm happy eating what I eat now and could happily do it for the rest of my life. When you look at RDA for calories, they don't tend to be below 1800, but again I'm fully aware we all have different ways of losing weight.

It's just something for you to think about since you are exercising so much, and with strength training thrown in there too eating more might be something you want to consider to improve your performance. It always helps if the body is stalling to change things up a bit, so perhaps it might work for you?

kawaii Yea 11 classes is a stressful amount, but I decided this semester if I had to spend more time at the gym and have my grades suffer a little I’m ok with that. First semester I wanted as good as I could get grades… but I realized they really don’t mean anything so may as well spend more time doing something that will really benefit me. I’ve always wanted to go to Montreal! I hear it’s so pretty.
They test your blood for iron every time you go, so if you really wanted to you could eat a protein rich diet for the day then go and try again. And it’s a stupid amount of testing before they’ll take your blood. First you get your finger pricked and tested for hemoglobin (iron) if it’s under 125 they will deny you right there. Then a billion questionnaire thing, then a nurse takes your blood pressure, temperature and pulse rate to make sure you are “fit” to give blood. So there’s no way he wasn’t tested appropriately, some people just have reactions from losing so much blood. BUT I did lose .8 of a lb since yesterday so that's a plus lol

ries I was in the same boat, I completely trusted him and we ended up doing long distance for 2 years. And we didn’t break up because of the distance, or cheating so there is always hope! I hated when people would doubt it, like just be happy for me who cares if we’re apart right now.
I assumed that yawning is bad because I think yawning is your body trying to get more oxygen, and if all your oxygen rich blood cells are going out your arm… it’s not a good sign. I asked one of my nursing instructors today and she said that I was right, and they probably were scared I was going anemic.

namaste984 It’s good that you worked things out with your mom. It can be a hard relationship to manage. I know what you mean about tuition, I just had to bite the nail and take the expensive program I wanted to. But I think the dietician would be fun too! If you enjoy it, and it’ll help keep you motivated that’s awesome (because really who wants to take advice from a ‘fat’ dietician haha)

candice it was a pretty scary first experience. I already have my next appointment booked so hopefully it was just the excitement going on and I will be able to give again.

Hey guys!

I've been on the job application blitz with my best friend and boyfriend. I picked up somewhere around 15 to 20 of them and I've been filling them out tonight. It has definitely lit a fire under my bum, so to speak, because a lot of the people who work in retail are very skinny. I have a similar personality to most people in retail, I am very bubbly and energetic, but I've often wondered if people who work in retail who are overweight and not in a plus-size shop are taken less seriously. Regardless of that, I have decided I'm going to bite the bullet and really lose the weight. It was just the motivation I needed.

torito- Exactly! I actually got a job application at a nutrition supplement shop and the guy at the register looked at me like I was crazy. After I explained that I was a nutritionist-in-training and I had lost 30 lbs already, he looked much more receptive and willing to give me time of day. :) It was pretty cool but I don't want that look at every nutritionist job, like, what are you DOING here? type of look.

I will be back tomorrow at my usual time. I will keep you updated on the job app blitz. Wish me luck! :)

Ok, so I wrote this in the morning before I left, but then googled f-ed up and wouldn’t let me log into 3fc again…

First of all, thanks to everyone who gave me advice about my boy! It’s much appreciated!! And guess what? Over what everyone said to me and all the speculations (mom, friends…) you guys were the one who were right!! There’s nothing wrong, he still wants to come to Canada and is ready to buy the tix, and it’s probably just the 3 months thing and he’s getting more bored of mailing often! I found out that he didn’t even stay up all night on Thursday, so there was like ZERO reason for him to not mail me before work cuz he was definitely awake, and I was just stressing for NOTHING!!! Grrr! Men!!! I told him “you know I was REALLY worried!!!” and he made this sheepish face and was like “sorry…..” gah!! Ah well… all is good anyhow…

Rie: I want to thank you especially for your really good advice! I feel like a lot that you said applies to our situation lot… even if the distance is not as great as you two, it feels a bit like that sometimes… like the daily mails were just becoming saying the same thing over and over… so maybe I should back off. Haha. oooh, I would be pissed off about the IM thing too!! But sounds like you guys have a really good thing going on ;) I’m happy for you that you’ll be able to see him real soon!

Linds: thanks! Aww… I hope you got to enjoy your Friday night nonetheless! I hate it when you wanna party and your friends don’t… pooh!

Namaste: wow, sounds like things have been hectic for you! But I’m glad to hear you patched things up with your mom. And good for you for working out with your man!! I would be waaaay too embarrassed to do that with mine, haha. what did you guys do?

Candice: that’s what I’m doing too! Teaching English here.. I really love the place although it can be soooo frustrating! The Japanese are a really stubborn people! Let me know if you want a souvenir, I’ll send you something! :p that goes for any of you too! Well, as long as it’s within my means! Haha… yeah, thanks, I am definitely the queen of over-reacting… and today I’m gonna dress cute, go out to karaoke with my gurlfriend and take purikura! Should be fun. Then I’ll come home and pack. Lol. having a movie night sounds fun, but there is actually no movie-rental place near where I live, which is sooooo lame. I live in the city center of my town, so yeah…

Samma: yeah, your body always adapts to what you’re doing so after a while it’s good to change things up! good luck!

Rie: hey, what’s that website you’re telling Samma about??

Torito: oh, I see! (about the blood thing) how weird that guy got sick even after all that… yeah, Montreal is a really nice place! You should definitely go! It’s nicer in the summer than now though! So much snow! Lol. I think my boy will freak out when we go… he doesn’t even own a “real” winter jacket! Mwahaha…

Hey girls!! So like I said, all is well again and I am the queen of making drama out of nothing… lol. I couldn’t work out last night, cuz obviously I was so stressed out, and I had a friend come over, and then FINALLY he mailed me at like 10:30 after work… sheesh. Silly boys… well anyways, I worked out just now for the 2nd time and it was still pretty hard, but now as bad as the first time, so I guess that’s good!

Today I plan on getting dressed up and going out and about on the town with my friend! I’ma show you pics of my new make-up cuz rainbow wanted to see, eheh… oh and, get this! When I weighed myself this morning, the scale said 79.8kg… that’s like 176lbs… I just couldn’t believe it and it makes zeeero sense… so I’m not updating my ticker cuz… I don’t believe it! lol. plus today is my cheat day so it’ll probably go up again.. but that would mean I lost like 3lbs in a day!! Wtf!!

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Holler! This is me and my makeup camwhoring! :p
(wow, my expression looks really stupid on there... lol!)

riestrella: yeesh...that just seems like a lot to me. Although I work out a lot, if I eat that much, I do gain. My body is weird that way. The funny thing is, I'm not hungry when I have only 1200 calories...I'm not starving. But thanks for the advice, and I'll take it into consideration!

namaste: atta girl with the applications!!! Just gotta get your foot in the door :)

kawaii: hey, take the weight loss! and LOVE the make up kit! I love eye make up, but I have absolutely no skill with putting it on! haha!

Well dinner was great last night! The fish and chips were delicious, even though my stomach was not happy this morning and I am clearly the most bloated woman on the planet today. We were sat right in front of the performing stage, so we were the ones that the performers paid attention to. It was fun at first, but started getting a little uncomfortable. I'm not a fan of having a lot of attention on me. The performers thought we were married, so when we said no, they assumed that it was a first date, so we had to clarify that we've been together for 8.5 years. With that, the whole restaurant said "oohh!" and the performer was like "WOAH. 8 years? dude, you need to get on that!!" (that's been the running theme for 2 years now. everyone is waiting for us to get engaged. hahah!) So my boyfriend got his taste of reality last night hahaa.

My mom has a stomach virus that's been going around....so I SO can't wait to catch it. Though....maybe it'll give me a jump start with my weight loss! HAH! (TOTALLY KIDDING) But prior to the stomach bug festivities, I'll be going to the gym today, then out to lunch with my good friend that I haven't seen since June, and then getting my hair trimmed..so I'm going to be a happy camper today!

Have a good day everyone!

Torito: well good for you for not getting discouraged from the last one!!

Namaste: Good for you for getting out there… I wouldn’t worry to much about that…. The majority of them may be skinny but theyre also bi*****!!! I hate going to the mall…. They look at me like im crap because theyre skinny and it makes shopping very uncomfortable…. Frankly id rather have someone with a little more meat and bubbly helping me then a snobby skinny chick… I usually don’t end up buying anything when I go into stores like that L but good for you for grabbing on to that motivation to lose the weight… im sure once you lose it you wont turn into one of them women. :P

KawaiiCandie: glad to hear everything is great with the beau … men can be so weird sometimes… they just don’t get us haha I so wanted to do that one day go teach English somewhere but itll be awhile now that I have my baby lol…. Id love a souvenir!! Omg that would be awesome… you really don’t have to … id be cool with like a piece of paper with my name written in Japanese or a really cool saying in Japanese!! Thank you!!! <3 hmmm Sucks about not having a chance to rent movies…. Perhaps you can download one online and burn to a disc?? But good for you karaoke night sounds fun!!! J your scale is probably right… sometimes mine does that too I just lose 3lbs overnight even tho I probably should have gained…. Tomorrow if it’s the same you better change your ticker gurl! :P I love your makeup youre such a beautiful girl omg!! Gorgeous!

Not much going on for me today went for my walk this morning with Aiden already still beautiful out here little chillier then yesterday.... now were back home and waiting for his dad to come over and spend the day with us :D were making homemade whole wheat pizza tonight with all the fresh veggies and homemade pizza sauce yumm.... :D just finished making a gigantic salad to go with it... so should be a good night... It turns out he might not be going to his friends tomorrow for a superbowl party and might just come here afterall and watch with us so im pretty excited about that.. Aiden and I will get in our football duds (even tho our team is out we will wear them lol) and have some snacks (healthy of course) maybe some cheese and crackers and veggies and dip and i bought the stuff to make some potato skins for dad....

Just found out my cousin is pregnant again (she had a little boy about 11 months ago), and another cousin of mines son is having triplets with his wife.... and there is a couple other cousins already pregnant and having babies that I knew about so my grandmother is off to Michaels to get wool and were going to start knitting up those blankets for all the babies... (shes more the knitter im more the creative one telling her which colours and patterns to do to mix it up :P)

I got a little bored last night and decided that the tattoo i want to get on my shoulder blade was just to plain so I upgraded it and ill post it on here so everyone can see.... :) but thats about it for me! Happy Saturday everyone!! :D

Let me know if the link works everyone!
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GOOD Morning, all! Wow, you all have been chatty! I don't know how I'm going to catch up. Student teaching is definitely keeping me busy during the week. On the plus side, since I'm gone all day, I'm not snacking all the time like I was before when I was staying at home. I have been packing my lunch and counting calories and I lost 4lbs. last week!! Woohoo! Also, I'm up moving all the time in the classroom. With that being said, I'm finally officially in a 16 pant size! I have 4 pairs of 16s that I can wear comfortably! And I bought my first top from a store that doesn't sell plus-size clothes! It's the biggest size they make, but still it isn't plus size!

Kawaii - CUTE picture! I am horrible with makeup...I have no clue. LOL! Glad you got your bf troubles resolved. :dizzy: That's why we have the chat thread...to talk about other things BESIDES weight loss...there's more to life than losing weight and getting healthy. ;)

Namaste - Good luck finding work!!

Torito - that's CRAZY! I have given blood several times and never have had an experience like that. I would be scared to even try it again if the person besides me had a seizure. I have never even heard of that happening to someone. 11 classes....eeeeek!!!! How many hours is that??

Rie - Woohoo...not long now until you are USA bound! I'm excited for you. I really don't think it will be strange when you see each other. It will be great! :)

Candice - looove the tattoo drawing! Where are you gonna put it? My hubby is supposed to be getting one today of our son's initials. :)

Candice - looove the tattoo drawing! Where are you gonna put it? My hubby is supposed to be getting one today of our son's initials. :)
probably on my right shoulder blade... im running out of places to put them hahaha

Literally just popping in. This weekend is proving to be pretty busy, but I think I'm managing ok with food and stuff.

I'm looking into buying an iPod nano because I CANNOT run without music and my new workout pants don't have a pocket that fits my ipod like my old ones did. I have some money from Christmas so I think it's a pretty good investment if it keeps me exercising!

Just a quick note to kawaii, I AM JEALOUS of your makeup. Haha I had to capitalise it because I am super jealous. All that colour! Also you look cute. As usual. Glad to hear things with the boy are good!!

Heading off now, gotta figure out dinner.

Hey guys,

It's been a real interesting couple of days. Yesterday was spent looking for and filing tons more applications, and I think the grand total came to 15 that dbf and I turned in. As we were leaving one of the malls, we were about to make a right turn on an intersection and got rear-ended by the car behind us. :-/ Thankfully dbf and I were okay and so was the other driver; our cars got beat up a little but we were still able to drive out of the intersection and exchange info. So that was my little brush with death, thankfully we all made it out okay. :)

I got a request for a job interview at another retail shop. I actually think this one is more promising, they literally called me an hour after I had left and scheduled an interview. :) That is probably the fastest interview request I have ever had. So I have another interview on Tuesday and promises of more in the future. Hopefully this cold I've been nursing for the past few days will go away in time.

Candice- I know what you mean! Usually people aren't too bad to me, but I have been in some places where they literally looked at me like I had a disease and it was catching.

Kawaii- We do a lot of walking, stationary biking, and weights. I was once at the point where I could walk six miles at a time and lift a 20lb weight, I so want to be able to do that again! My ultimate goal in this case is to be able to go backpacking again and possibly do a short-track triathalon. Dbf is really small though, he has a little bit of weight on him but not much. And when I was struggling after a two mile walk, he was fine and did another two miles on the bike (to my 1.08). By the way, your makeup case is awesome! :)

Hey guys!

You guys have been so chatty, geezus!

I was up 2lbs at my weigh-in this morning :( Really pissed me off. I still had a 0.6 loss from last week but I hate that I do so well for a few days and then let go for a day or two and my body just goes and forgets all the work I did the rest of the week. **insert hair pulling smiley here**

In my body's defence, I've been pretty lazy this week. Didn't make it to the gym once (not even after my packing my gym bag and bringing it to the office when I woke up too late to workout in the morning.) I went to an izakaya on Friday night and didn't count points, and yesterday I literally sat on the couch all day and watched movies. Even I am judging me right now :lol:

namaste - Good luck with the interview, that was fast! And I'm sorry to hear about the vet school decision. Unbelievable how expensive education is in some places. :(

I'll do some more personals later - if I don't go to the gym now, it's not gonna happen today!

my turn. no personals. actually, everything is not good with the boy. yesterday, he said he wanted to break up with me. at first, he said it was because he wanted to study abroad, and i was older than him and he felt he just didn't see a future for us. then he confessed that he'd met up with his (crazy, manipulative) ex and she had convinced him to take her back. he says he's super confused and doesn't know what to do. they've been together for 4 years and somehow he feels he owes her something because of that. although they weren't really together when i met him, he officially broke up with her because of me. i feel so bad you guys... i dunno what i'm gonna do. the diet is on hold. not that i'm turning to food or anything, i can barely get anything besides coffee down my throat. anyways, just a heads up.

Kawaii - I am so, so, so sorry to hear about the boy :hug: He's on the losing end up this and just know that you'll be ok. Hold your head up high and hang in there, we're all here for you!

kawaii Oh man, I'm so sorry to hear that. I know it can't be easy at all, so just be kind to yourself and hopefully things will work out in a way where you can be happy. I hope you are ok, and we're here for you.

samma how was dinner at the Irish restaurant?

rainbow glad your throat is feeling better! how is the apt hunting going? Any of the new places strike your fancy?

torito eek! That's a pretty overwhelming experience about giving blood. I fainted once after giving blood. Was fighting it so hard because I was in the bathroom at the time (wanted to splash water on my face) and I didn't want to faint on the bathroom floor because of all the germs! :) And one of the nurses there was a super cute guy....so I felt embarrassed fainting in front of him. (I did end up fainting...sort of? out in the main area. but I came-to quickly)

LindsB :carrot: woo! Good to know your eye is better!

namaste it's good that you and your mom got to talk. sounds like things are going better...right? Sorry about school costs. That stinks. My student loans will not be pretty when I'm finished school. Good luck with the interview!

Kawaii no central heat?!?! Can you buy a small space heater? They're wonderful!
Side note: I had no idea you were blonde. For some reason I pictured you as a brunette. :) You're so pretty!!
Ohmygosh. :( I just read your latest post about the guy. I'm so, so sorry. My jaw literally dropped when I read that. I hope you're doing okay. :hugs:

I'm too tired to talk about my weekend. I'll write in the morning. Night everyone!

quiet ballerina: It was great, thanks for asking! I actually wrote about it on page 3, check it out! There's a funny story that goes along with it!

So I just had the joys of having an argument with my mom because she believes that the stuff that I do is "anorexic sounding". And by that, she means the lose it notifications that show up on my facebook whenever I log an exercise or a lose/gain. I also said I wasn't having dinner because my stomach is really upset and I got a huge protein shake at the gym I go to, and they're actually really filling. If I'm hungry later on, I'll eat...just because I'm not hungry right now doesn't mean that I'm not going to eat at all!!! I am SO sick of her not having any support for what I do. Thank goodness for you girls!

kawaii: all I can say is WHAT A TOOL!!! I'm so sorry about that, but it sounds like he's not even worth it. If any guy is going to 180 a girl like that, they're better off gone! Keep your chin up, girlie!

namaste: YAHOO!!! congrats on the interview offer!!

samma: oops! I definitely read the story too! :) I have multiple windows open at once usually, and I think I was writing personals quickly because I was so sleepy.

Hey girlies!

Well, the build up to my holiday isn't going exactly the way I wanted it to! I just had a few lazy days and not exercising. Also my closest friends and my parents all want to go out for meals with me before I go, tonight I just had a few soda's with my friends, Thursday I'll be going to a meal and Friday too! I had no time to work out today, so I'm a bit ARGH about my weight right now! I'm slowly creeping up to 158 lbs again, so I really want to make sure that doesn't happen!!

But besides my weight I'm really excited about America! Time is moving a bit slower now that there's only 4 more days to wait, but I'm sure I'll be on that plane before I know it! England has been getting snow/ice, but I've been keeping my eye on the weather and airport info to make sure I have a good chance of making it! So far so good! Fingers crossed though, I'm usually always delayed! The last time I flew over there I was delayed 6 freakin' hours!!

namaste - Well done on getting your butt in gear as you said! Glad you got things sorted with your Mum. I've seen overweight people work in retail before, I think for the UK not all customers are skinny so if they see someone who's working who looks great in bigger clothing then it will make them feel more at ease with browsing. I know when I was really overweight going into shops and seeing the skinny workers there sort of intimidated me - so good luck!

candice - Education is really important, just to think there are children out there who dream of going to school, it can really put things into perspective! So many new babies in your life!

torito - Thanks, it's nice to know someone else did distance and it worked at the time! I couldn't do this forever, but for now it's not been too bad. It's actually been nice to find my own feet as it were, when we lived together I became overly dependent on him so it's nice to find "me" again =). We've become stronger because of it!

samma - Haha, yeah your boyfriend needs to put a ring on it to quote Beyonce! But in all seriousness, as long as you two are happy that's what counts married or not =). That sucks about your Mum, I hate it when I tell people my goal weight and they're like "OH MY GOD NO, YOU'LL BE A STICK!" It's like...our bodies are different, you can't imagine YOU at that weight and say it's too much! My best friend basically said she got to my goal weight, but she's taller than me so I tried to explain my goal weight is going to be naturally lower. I dunno, it bugs me sometimes when people don't understand! It's best to not discuss weight loss in detail with friends and relatives.

sgregg - So great to see you back with FANTASTIC news!! Way to go you!

rainbow - I hear ya, running without music is just wrong!!

teamcoco - I'll say this: consistency, consistency, consistency. I try and exercise 6 times a week every week. Sometimes I've gone for a few months doing this, and when I have stalls my body just keeps burning - it's actually quite amazing! So yeah, get your fine behind to your gym or doing whatever it is you'll do and the weight will go away for good!

Kawaii - Oh sweety, I'm so so sorry! What a prick! I can't believe he would be manipulated by his ex! If he's that easily persuaded to be with someone else then maybe he's not ready for a new relationship right now? I'm sorry you have to go through, be strong!!

thanks guys... things are... not fun at the moment... there was a lot of crying... and with that (for me) comes big headaches... we're still talking... i begged and pleaded a bunch and it didn't seem to do much and all he would reply was "i don't know what to do" and "don't hate her, i'm the bad guy" and then i finally asked him if he wanted me to give up, cuz i didn't know what to do anymore... he didn't reply, then he mailed me after his job last night, but i was already sleeping, and it went like this "i can not break up with you. please give me more time" :/ so yeah, today i just feel really really out of touch with reality.

it's been good for the diet, i suppose, since i've been barely eating at all. 177lbs this morning. also, i'm having a weird nsv today. i'm wearing this cardigan that i haven't worn in two weeks, and last time i wore it, i'd wear it with just one button closed, below the boobs. i could wear it all buttoned up but it was kinda tight and not super flattering. today it's all buttoned-up and even a bit loose. i'm kinda baffled and confused cuz... can your body really shrink that much in only two weeks?? weird.

ballerina: i do have a space heater... in fact, i have two!! it's just not powerful enough to make things really warm if it's quite cold outside, and the costs in electricity are just ridiculous! thanks for saying i was cute! ^_^ and yes, i am the blondest of blondes! lol.

samma: aww... sucks you don't have the support of your mom... doesn't she know that everyone logs in their exercise and calories now??? well, maybe doing it on fb is a bit much though... and i'm sure not all your friends care about your weight fluctuations, but i'm sure if you explained it to her she'd get off your case a bit?

Rie: hmm... it's really hard to be good on a diet the last couple of days before leaving for a long trip! don't be too hard on yourself, but try to be good!

kawaii: actually, my friends on facebook have been really supportive of it especially since some of them are trying to lose weight too. I put the app sharing option on because it was motivation for me. I don't want to show that I've gained weight, so I'll work my hardest to prevent that. People compliment me on what I do for exercise. I tried explaining it to her, but she doesn't care. What she thinks, sticks. There's no changing that. Even if I explain that all of the clothes I wore last year do not fit anymore and I want to work back to that (which is a size smaller than what I wear right now. I need to tone the heck of me!), she doesn't care. She still thinks I'm starving myself (which is FAR from true)

Rie - I hope you know that these next 4 days will be the longest EVER :lol: How long will you be gone for? Thanks for the exercise advice, I appreciate it. I feel like I'm so prone to a sedentary lifestyle, I have to fight it hard. Even tonight, I came so close to just turning back and going home.

Samma - Can you just block her from receiving those notifications? Sucks that you don't have her support.

Kawaii - I didn't picture you as a blonde either! I'm sorry you're going through all of this right now. It sucks, blows, you name it. Just hang in there, know that this will pass and that anyone that doesn't want to be with you, doesn't deserve to. And yay for looser cardigan!

I'm going to bed now because I am beat. I went to spinning tonight (after much, much self-convincing) and I'm really glad I went. It was a different instructor than I normally see, so it was a nice mix-up. My only complaint is that I was wearing the wrong shorts and they kept riding up :lol: I had an AWESOME food day too.

And I'm off to bed. Zzz....

Hey everyone! These next few days I'm going to repeat myself a lot, I'm so sorry for being a crazy rambling woman! Here's my plan for the week:

Today - Hair cut and work.
Wednesday - Packing, doing odd jobs before I leave, Skyping with a couple of friends.
Thursday - Finishing off the odd jobs/packing, getting a bikini wax (eep!), hanging out with my friend in the evening
Friday - Work. Also Checking flights, visa and weather! Pack hand luggage. Going for a meal with the parents then early night!
Saturday - JOURNEY TIME!

I'm a bad luck travel gremlin, I'm always freakin' delayed. I've been checking the flights leading up to mine, so far everyone has had no delays but I bet you any money mine will be delayed! I hate long distance flying. I've got an 8 hour flight, then a 2 hour flight then a final 4 hour flight. The last flight is going to suck, because I'll be SO CLOSE yet so far! Hopefully I'll be so wiped out I'll be able to sleep? Who knows!

kawaii - Wow, sounds like things are really confusing for you right now. I would communicate with him exactly how you feel - that you are willing to make it work with him but you need him to completely forget his past relationship and move forward with you. Don't let him mess you around for long, it's unfair on you and it's obviously going to put a lot of stress on you too.

coco - My god, you are so right! It's 3 days now, but it feels like AGES away and there's so much I've got to do first! I'll be gone for 3 weeks, but I'll be keeping up to date here since I'm going to try and really focus on staying consistent when I'm over there. I'm even going to write some rules for myself! It won't stop me eating a lot of yummy food, I'm just going to keep up with exercise and make sure I don't binge ALL the time!
I think it's hard to find a routine with exercise to begin with, but once you're in it you just feel wrong not doing exercise! That's how I felt, like I didn't REALLY want to exercise, but now it's so apart of my lifestyle that I feel really guilty when I don't. But well done on making yourself go to spinning! Good for you!

Good morning all,

Things have gone from okay to sucky here. On Sunday I got rear-ended by a driver that neglected to stop when I yielded to oncoming traffic. The car still runs, and I got the driver's information so I think things will be alright. Of course, not the case.

Yesterday evening my mom called to relieve some stress, which basically comprises of her yelling at me for everything she can think of. In this case it was how could I be so dumb to let this guy rear-end me, and why did I not create a bunch of drama about it. Then she goes on to tell me, "Why are you interviewing in retail? Why don't you get a real job?" And tells me pretty much that I'm a huge failure and why don't I just come back home. I refused, and she suggested that I go live in a homeless shelter instead of with my boyfriend.

I wish I could say this was an isolated event, but unfortunately this happens all the time. My mom has told me in no uncertain terms that everything that has happened in her life that's wrong is MY fault, and she thinks its funny when she says stuff like that. :(

And to top it all off, I have a severe respiratory infection (they happen a lot, and get worse when I'm stressed) so I'm going to have to cancel my interview unless I can get into the doctor before the interview time. So yeah, life is a big mess. The one good thing about it is that I've lost weight because I don't want to eat.

//RANT

Anyhoo, I'll do personals later. I will keep you guys abreast of anything that happens with the interview. :)

Hey everybody!!!! Sorry ive been awol for a few days... been so busy with the superbowl and guests and trying to get some student loan stuff worked out and whatnot but im back... not much going on now... went for a walk today and it was a bit chilly out but I tried to hurry up and do the 2.5km quickly.... I stopped at the store to grab some more lettuce for the week and while in the grocery store I look out and its a white out!!! snow everywhere..!!!! but by the time I checked out and got outside it had stopped and there was nothing on the ground!!! :S so freaking weird our weather right now I just cant believe it... but anyways since its a bit chilly outside ive decided were going to stay in for the rest of the day and make homemade chilli and spaghetti sauce to freeze... and i bought some juicy pop containers at the dollar store... gonna make some juice and fruit pops for my son... I think hes finally gonna get a tooth!!! hahaha 6 months later... hes only been teething forever -_-

KawaiiCandie Im so sorry that your having such a hard time with this ... .men can be such dicks sometimes... I cant believe hes putting you through this.... keep your head up sweetheart you deserve so much more then this... and this is just me... but if I was dating a guy for so long and he said he loved me and i loved him and then this happened and he said he needed time to figure things out because an ex snaps her fingers and is back in the picture... hes really not worth wasting your tears or losing the weight over..... if a guy loves you, he shouldnt need to think about ANYTHING!!!! just a thot... your too beautiful of a girl to be sitting home crying over him :hug:

namaste OMG!!! I dont even know where to start!!! Glad your okay from the accident it could have been so much worse :( As for your mom she sounds like a complete downer!! wtf??? if my mom yelled at me for everything like that I wouldnt even answer the phone! :S I can relate however to your mom blaming you for everything... my mom was like that for awhile. blamed me for everything in her life being bad regardless of how much I helped her... including paying some of her bills because she was behind but it was somehow always my fault... I believe I just freaked on her one time and it stopped... dont let her talk to you that way.... maybe cutting her off and not talking for awhile is what she needs to see that your serious and wont be talked to like that anymore... You def dont need the stress if its making you sicker... I hope you get into the doctors to get this cleared up so you dont have to cancel your interview... btw in no way is working in retail NOT A GOOD JOB!!!! A job is a job these days if it pays the bills and your good then its a great job!! Dont let her make you feel less then a person. Keep us posted hun! :hug:

I didn't cancel my interview. I think I did well, I will hear from them on Friday if I got the job.

The insurance company came and got the car and gave me a 2012 Volkswagen Beetle as my substitute. I think I will rent it indefinitely. ;) lol

Even more by the way, sinus infection with severe head cold. The cough is not an RI according to my doc so it's viral... grrrgh... going to crawl under a rock with a bowl of chicken soup and my boyfriend and some good WWE matches. That always makes a sick day better. :)

candice- The more I don't answer the phone, the more she calls. And with about 13 job apps still in play I don't want her tying up my line. :(

Anyway, have a good day all.

quietballerina Apartment hunting is hard. Plenty that takes my fancy, but it seems to be taking everyone else's too!

Riestrella You sound SUPER busy! Hope you're managing it all, I think I would be more stressed than I currently am if I were in your situation!

Kawaii Sorry to hear you're not doing so good. It sounds like he's making the situation harder for you. I hope you get some resolution soon.

namaste Sorry to hear about your mom troubles and also being sick! Your sick plan of soup sounds nice though. I hope you feel better soon and that your interview went well!

~Sorry to anyone I missed, I find it difficult to jump in after a couple of days so I just started on the most recent page.

Looking for an apartment/flat/house/place to live is draining my will to live. Not really, but it is causing me a huge amount of stress and making me feel so tired and hopeless about the whole situation.
Boyfriend and I have now viewed around 7 places (or more) and each time there is either something drastically wrong with it, or there is us PLUS around 20-30 other people looking at the same place. It's so frustrating and I NEED to move out of his parents house as soon as possible, I'm going crazy.

Weight is steady but eating has been kinda crappy...not in terms of terrible overboard calories, but just not good foods. I've been eating drive thru for lunch this week because of having to take most of my break to go and look at places to live...it's frustrating. Tomorrow I should do better though. I'll eat while working and not take a break until I go see this other place.

I keep thinking that something has to give, someone has to pick us over other applicants for something...but it seems so hard when there are so many people!

2 days left in the week and I couldn't be happier - I am feeling pretty exhausted at the moment.

namaste well i hope the interview went well!!! sorry bout being sick :( chicken noodle soup and wrestling sounds great :) take care of yourself

rainbowstripe I completely understand the house hunting stresses... ive been there... a month after I had my son I got in a huge fight with my mother and had literally 2 weeks to leave... finding a place is hard... finding a place on a budget is even harder....lol Hope you find a place soon and a great one at that :) Keep your head up and dont focus on the weight right now... focus on your house hunting... someone will love you guys!

Well as for me... had a wonderful walk this morning about an hr /hr and half the trip to the park for aiden..... however my stresses are mostly due to my maternity leave benefits running out in march and no job to go back to (closed down) and no jobs around here to cover everything (rent, bills etc) so i applied for social assistance for the few months until i can find a suitable job and the woman called today and said theyd only give like $900 to cover rent, groceries, bills etc.... well i dont know how much all you pay for rent/mortgage but around here you cant find a 2 bdrm house or apt for less then $775-$820 doesnt leave much for groceries/ medications/ personal effects (hygiene things etc) i know i sshouldnt be complaining its free money helping me out... just things are going to be extremely tight all around :( oh well nothing i can do about it.... hope everyones having a great day!!! :)

samma: that’s too bad about your mom :( well, if nothing’s gonna change her mind, you best just ignore her as much as you can and focus on what you need to do!

teamcoco: really? do I come across as a brunette? lol. I’ll take it as a compliment! people think brunettes are smarter… haha. thanks… and good on you for going to spinning class!!

Rie: woohoo!! things are happening soon! good luck with everything and hope your flights don’t get delayed. I feel you on the long-distance flying… I can’t sleep on planes, and I have the bladder of an 80y.o. granny… let me tell you how fun those 16-hour flights home for me are :/ sucks that you have so many transfers though :(

Namaste: wow… your mom sounds nice :/ I’m sorry that you had such a crappy day, girl… big hugs from across the globe :hug: I’m glad you could go to the interview! gonna keep my fingers crossed for you ;)

Candice: eheh, same thing happened here the other day. It almost never snows here but started snowing really suddenly… like, it was starting just a little bit when I got on the train, then I was reading my book and didn’t notice much and when I got off everything was white and I was just WTF?!? lol and thanks for your nice words for me… I just wanted to say though, I am definitely not losing weight for him!! in fact, he is pretty much the only guy (in Japan) who has never asked me to lose weight. it’s kind of a thing here where boy feels entitled to tell their gfs to lose weight :/ terrible, right? but yeah, anyways, he doesn’t care. sorry about the no-job thing… but at least you still got a bit of time til march, right? good luck!!

rainbow: wow, looking for a place sounds harsh!! I think I’m pretty lucky with the place I got… also, I just learned that the area I’m moving in is the location for Murakami Hiroki’s new book 1Q84!! I must read it now! lol. I feel you on the crappy food this week… I haven’t eaten too much, I think, but not the best of foods… must get back on track!!

hey guys! so if you’ve noticed I’ve left out all the boy-stuff from the personals, figured it was best to write it once here and not repeat myself… so… things are weird now. let me give you a timeline of what’s happened.
Sunday afternoon: read his email about him wanting to break-up for various stupid reasons.
Sunday night: he mails admitting it’s all cuz of the ex.
Monday: horrible.
Monday night: (while I’m already drugged asleep) he mails saying “I can’t breakup with you. please give me more time)
Tuesday: spends most of the day mailing me random, soulless short messages. tells me he still doesn’t know what to do.
Wednesday: more random short messages. we decide to talk after his job.

and then last night. we skyped after he finished work, around 11:20pm (I mentioned this is a LDR, right?) we talked for about an hour, which was surprising. at first it was kinda awkward, just avoiding the subject, talking about each other’s days… there were a couple of breaches into serious topics, but mostly he just wouldn’t answer anything… and then the conversation turned silly, and it was almost like before all the drama happened, he was smiling and laughing and just seeing that made me so happy. I said “I miss you” very suddenly at one point and he replied right away “miss you too” and I was shocked. and at the end, when we said goodbye. I tentatively blew him a kiss and he made to catch it and threw me one as well. Now I have no idea what’s going on. obviously, he loves me, being with me, I make him laugh and he enjoys my company. he missed me and thinks I’m cute… hum… HELLO!!!!! when are you gonna realize that I’m the one for you, dork?! anyways… I asked him if we could meet over the weekend and he still wasn’t sure so he said he would think about it…

and that’s my drama update… as for the diet. well I’ve been giving myself a lot of leeway…. haven’t exercised since Saturday, and I had a couple of meals out with my best friend (who’s trying to cheer me up). last night I ate omurice (omelet stuffed with rice with fatty sauce on top) and onion rings because I saw them on the menu and had to have them… so I didn’t weigh myself this morning cuz I didn’t wanna get depressed… but since I feel better now, I think I’m gonna work out tonight. wish me luck!!

Hi!!!

It mildly shocks me that I'm back and am worse off then the first time around, but after a lot of massive changes in my life I've decided to give losing all this weight another shot without gaining it back part way!

Anyway, I know my name says law girl but interestingly enough I'm actually on a BREAK from law school because I hated it so much. I'm working in a gym (ironic I know) with kids and love my job more then anything in the world, even if it leaves me little time for my own workouts.

I've managed to get myself up to almost 200 pounds with a goal weight and an entire wardrobe closer to 130. So I'm tired of making excuses (which have gone on my whole life but especially since I moved home after college May 2010) and gained all this weight back and then some.

I will do my best to post in here because I know how much I loved the monthly chats before. But it likely be CA night time since that's the rare time I'm not at work.

Tomorrow is starting a whole knew road for me so give me all your first week pointers and wish me luck!!!

Hi ladies!

Today I'm having my bikini wax before I go on holiday to see my boyfriend in America. I've never had one before...and I'm having it all off! I usually have it all off, but I used this cream but it didn't really work that great. I hate tending to my lady garden, I feel like I have to be a yoga pro to get it all off! So I decided that I would wax it off and be nice and smooth for 2 weeks instead of having to maintain it all the time, I find it grows back super quickly. Sorry for the information overload ;p.

Later on I'm hanging out with my good friend, we're going to get a meal at an Asian restaurant, which was DELICIOUS the last time we went so I'm looking forward to that. I've been lazy/not eating well because of the prep for leaving. I'm going to try my best to get a Pure Cardio Insanity workout done today so I feel a bit better about the meal later!

Tomorrow I'm working 12:15-6:00, then I'm going for another meal at a Mexican with my parents, then I'm going to finish packing and then go to bed for my travels on Saturday. I've been spying on all the flights leading up to Saturday and so far they've been leaving on time...so far. No doubt I'll walk in the building and things will go wrong!

Sorry for the repetitive post, I'm just in travel planning mode right now!
I feel bad because last night I was supposed to Skype with one of my American friends, a few days ago I said "What time are you thinking?" and she never got back to me. She ended up appearing when I went to bed and said "I'm here for the rest of the night." Apart of me feels guilty but the other half just thinks "well if you would have given me a time then I would have made sure I was online." Anyway, I sent her an email saying when I'm in America the time difference wont be as horrific so we should try and Skype then.

I reached 156 yesterday, so that's awesome! Months ago I was hoping to be 150 by the time I got to America, but then life happened and I stalled for a long time. I tried to set my goal for 155, but 156 is close enough! I'm going to try and do my best to keep exercising in America and eat better (around all the junk I'll no doubt have!) so maybe I'll lose weight there too? He lives in a high altitude state where all the athletes go to train because it improves performance, maybe my metabolism will speed up with all the extra work my body needs to do to adapt?! Haha, I can only hope!

RIESTRELLA! Have SO MUCH FUN!
I'm all excited for you.

Waxing sounds so painful, lol. Goodluck with that. Haha.

Be safe and hope to hear how awesome it was!

Rie- I posted this in the weigh in thread, but I'm dying to see before/current pics! I bet your BF is going to be shocked! Safe travels to the US. It sounds like you have a long trip ahead of you.

I was SO sore from New Rules of Lifting for Women the past 2 days! I had to take one day for light cardio and one day completely off. I was back at it this morning. It feels good to lift. I really hope it helps transform my body. My appetite has been completely OUT OF CONTROL since starting....I'm trying to keep a handle on it, but it has been very hard. Just trying to make sure that if I do eat it is as healthy as possible. Lots of fruits.

LawGirl: Welcome back!
Nothing surprised me when it comes to weight… the amount a person can gain in one day, overnight or in an hr…. but good for you for getting back on track. J What did you hate about law school? Do you plan to go back eventually? Lucky girl!!! If I worked in a gym id be there working out with the kids just to get some time in! hahaha but that’s great that your doing something you love. Sounds like a great and achievable goal!!! We look forward to hearing from you no matter what time of day it is!!! J

Riestrella: OUCH!!!! I am too afraid to get a bikini wax done so I continue to try and do it myself haha I say try because like you it grows back quickly and it ridiculous to maintain. Mmm Sounds good enjoy your meal with your friend!! I love Mexican!!! I could live off Mexican food haha perhaps an insanity workout today would be good to work off all those calories ;) Fingers crossed your flight is on time and runs smoothly. Congrats on 156!!!! I hate setting goals for myself because any loss is a win to me but if I don’t set goals I don’t get anywhere lmao and here hoping your body adapts and drops the lbs haha

So not much to report this morning… its absolutely beautiful today outside the sun was shining I was actually sweating… a little nip in the air but just gorgeous… Aiden and I did 3.5km today…slowly increasing our distance everyday/week and still making trips to the park for him for putting up with mamas boring walks everyday lol. Im hoping to get in a cardio workout later as well as the ab sculpt video after I get all my cleaning done around the house….

Purchased a pedometer online a few weeks ago and should be in any day now… kinda excited to start keeping track of that and keeping a daily goal for myself. Lost 1lb since yesterday…. But I didn’t eat very much yesterday (wasn’t in the best of moods) so I only had a bagel with peanut butter and glass of orange juice for breakfast … I believe I had a small bowl of salad for lunch and for dinner I had some whole wheat pasta with a low fat low cal homemade spaghetti sauce I made and had froze… it was delicious… J I don’t know whats in those bagels but it seems like every time I start eating them I start losing the weight lol…. ( I switch from a week of bagels to a week of fibre plus/fibre 1 cereal).

I had a really weird dream last night that I found a lottery ticket on the ground and it was a $45 million winner :0 yea I know right I wish… but regardless I brought the ticket to Toronto got the money came home built a house (yes I have a dream home) and moved in with my son and his father. Set up school funds for my neice and my son. Gave my mother and grandparents 2 million each to pay off debt, homes etc.. promised my teenage brother and his girlfriend that I would buy them a house and set aside university/college money for them if they decided to go (but only if they showed me they could be responsible with money and actually make it on their own for 1 year before I did all that for them and they would still be responsible for paying all their own bills and would still have to work) my younger sister (14) I told her I would put aside money for her schooling/ a home when she got older… and my other sister (23) I told her I would buy her a home. Yes I am a generous person always thinking of others before myself lmao sort of my downfall and greatest quality… and yes my dream was very long… but then when I woke up I knew it wasn’t obvs going to happen and that it was just my mind thinking about other things (not having money) in real life… but hey a girl can dream right? Lol it would have been nice :P

Oh and My friend found this picture on facebook and shared it with me so I thot id share it with you :)
http://i1234.photobucket.com/albums/ff401/Candice1022/scale.jpg

What an awesome pic Candice! Thanks for sharing. I love that.

Rie I am SO excited for you and your trip!!! Write a journal about it or something because we'll all want to hear all about it. (well, maybe not ALL about it ;) hehehe)

My roommate has friends coming in this weekend. I tease her that our apt is a hotel for her friends. :) One should be here now (I'm at work) and the other is arriving Saturday afternoon (with her super-cute dog!!)
I'm sure I'll have fun hanging out with them. But I also have a research paper due Sunday. Booo!

Urk...was going to write more but the baby is fussing. Sigh. Can it be Friday? PLEASE?!?!

Riestrella: Have a wonderful time on your trip!!! Bikini wax? YEEEESH! More power to you, girl!

candice: i LOVE that picture!!! I seriously need to start going by how I feel and how my clothes fit rather than a number, but it's just so hard!!!

Kawaii: whatever you do, do NOT jump back into the relationship! He needs to figure himself down before he drags you back down again. I've witnessed two friends who have had to deal with this (both LDR as well because of school). Over and over again, the guy would break up with the girl, then come back saying that it was a mistake and he missed her, they'd get back together again, and then he would break up again...and the cycle continued. It's not fair for you to be stuck in this situation when he's unsure, and you need to let him know that!!

I have been a starvin' marvin the past two days...No matter what I eat or how much I drink I am still hungry!! So..for the past two days I haven't been eating the best, but I'll be back on program tomorrow. I didn't go to the gym today either because I did squats and lunges yesterday and BOY was I sore!! I had to yell at my students to slow down when going up and down stairs because it hurt so much!! haha

I applied for a job at the school that I'm interning at right now, and I have an interview with them on tuesday!! I also just applied for two other jobs, one is at a pediatric hospital (WHEEEE) and the other is through a pediatric contracting agency. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed!

and on a side note, with my whole mom thing...she's not in weight loss mode at all, and is annoyed when she plans a horrible dinner (like...hash browns, eggs, biscuit, and bacon) and I only eat one egg and a biscuit. And at the same time, she mindlessly eats crap all of the time. For example: she ate a WHOLE BOX of funny bones last night....I saw the box in the trash this morning and nearly had an aneurism. It's just frustrating for me because for the first week I really got my butt into gear she promised to be healthy with me because she wanted to lose 20 lbs, but that just dropped fast. And since I'm still going and she's not, she's now making comments like what she said the other day. You all are right, I get support from my friends and boyfriend...forget what she says. I live in this body, she just made it and brought it into this world...I need to take care of me, myself, and I. :)

kawaii I’m sorry to hear about the boy confusion. It’s annoying when they’re that stupid and can be influenced so easily by other people. I think its ok to give yourself leeway on the diet, just try to exercise when you can and watch portion control. You can do it!

Namaste glad to hear the interview went well, though not so good about the sickness. Hope you feel better

Candice Ive never had to apply for assistance but I hear it’s a pain in the butt and that definitely doesn’t sound like enough to really help anyone out ☹ hope it all works out. That’s a great pic too!

lawgirl welcome back! At least you realized that you weren’t enjoying law than feeling stuck in it, and you were able to find something you love. That’s the most important thing. Coming back here was the first step, you can do it!

riestrella I hope you have a great time! I used to get waxed and it is pretty painful but totally worth it. When I would go to see the bf I didn’t want to have to shave everyday so it saved a lot of time and hassle.

samma I feel you on the mom thing, my mom would get so mad that she’d make a crappy dinner and I didn’t want to eat it so I’d make myself a salad. When she got out of the hospital she said she was gonna start eating better, but that hasn’t happened. She supports me, but by telling me that im getting skinny, not by encouraging working out or eating good. I’m hoping that she’ll see me as a inspiration or whatever and get her butt into gear.

As for me…
I haven’t posted in a while because I’ve been so busy with school, and now my nephew is in the hospital. It’s so rare for me to go to the hospital (besides work), and now I’ve been there every day for the past 3 weeks to visit family. I would like no more family members to go to the hospital so I can focus on school and being healthy. He was diagnosed with kawaski disease, which I had never heard of, but theres non serious symptoms like red swollen lips, and a rash and stuff. But the more serious is the inflammation of the heart artieries. He’s gonna be okay, and hasn’t had any complications but he’ll have to get his heart tested every year now.
It was my other nephews birthday yesterday so I made skeleton cookies, and I managed to not eat one, or even taste the dough.
Oh, and my ex best friend brought my things to school today to give back to me, so I guess we’re officially “broken up”. That doesn’t bother me, but the way she just said “heres your stuff” and walked away pissed me off.
I’ve been doing really well as far as eating and working out, I had to dig out my old jeans because I got ‘diaper jeans’ so bad in the other ones. I’ve managed to make it to my first mini goal so I’m going for a mani/pedi this weeked (and holy crap my feet need it badly lol)

riestrella Have fun in the U.S! I have lived in a high altitude climate and became a workout addict while I was there so maybe it will to your advantage. That's so exciting though that you get to visit your man! As for the bikini wax the first time is not pleasant, and make sure you follow all their tips, feeling kind of swollen after is normal (at least it happened to me) and I've heard it gets easier after time 1 but I didn't have the money to go back and my first time was pretty recent.

samma Your best bet is to set a good example for your mom, show her how much healthy it's making you and how much better you feel. Ignore her complaints and eventually she'll come to you and ask for advice on how she can do this!!

torito I'm sorry you're having lots of negative hospital trips. STAY STRONG.



As for me I succeeded today in eating normal meals and not just inhaling any food I had. Didn't count calories, but at least balanced when I was eating and like I said not eating ANYTHING and everything. Tomorrow will be more of a real start with calories and everything.

:) Going to start blogging about it too!

Hiya all!

TGIF! man, i feel so tired today... it was a looong day!! i managed to work out last night, even though i didn't make the best food choices, but weight is still the same.

Things with the boy are weird. he’s kinda reverted to acting cute and sweet, even though we haven’t really talked about anything serious and he is still “thinking”. I may see him this weekend (on Sunday) but it depends on a bunch of stuff so it may not happen. I guess the crisis has been averted for a while, but we do need to talk. we've been talking on skype for the last two days and i'm really happy to see that he still seems to care about me a lot. so i hope we can overcome this!!


Rie: lol. TMI is fine… I also think it grows back too quick, but I’m super lazy, and waxing doesn’t exist in Japan… good luck with the workout! don’t beat yourself up too much about the dinners out with everyone… it’ll be like that for a while, but once you’re in the States you can get back to normal and focus on your diet again. aww… I hate it when people do that. I have a friend like that. we’ll like plan to meet and I’ll say “what time should we meet?” and then she doesn’t reply for hours and then send me a text saying “kay I’m on the bus now, will be there in 20!” when I haven’t even gotten dressed cuz I was waiting for her answer! so frustrating… don’t feel too bad thought ;) congrats on the loss!!

Candice: congrats on the 1lb loss! it’s probably not the bagels themselves, but just fact that you’re alternating every other week that is making you lose more weight. switching things up is good! haha… I hate dreams like that! when it’s so good and you wake up and realize it’s not true… I wish I could win the lottery!! wouldn’t have to stress so much about everything else, and I could buy a chef and a personal trainer! lol! can’t see your pic though, sorry! :(

Ballerina: it’s Friday here!!! and thank god cuz I iz tired!! >_<

Samma: hum… well thanks for the advice, but I’m definitely not ready for this relationship to end so… I’ll at least give him this one chance. I want to try to talk to him face to face though. I think the munchies have been going around! I’ve had a hard time eating right too… I’m pretty sure it’s cuz I’ve been eating sugar and carbs. my diet doesn’t allowe for sugar and carbs and says that even just eating a little bit of them makes you “hungry” and gives you cravings. I find it’s really true. I hope things get better for you though! as for your mom… well, she is a grown woman, you can’t really force her to lose the weight if she doesn’t want to… just focus on yourself!

torito: thanks! hugs! that sounds like good advice ;) it’s weird, so many people I know have family in the hospital these days… :/ I hope you don’t have to go again either! wow, well done on not eating the cookies! I’m not sure I woulda been able to resist at least licking the spoon! wow, that’s so lame about your ex-bestfriend… :( but at least you’re being mature about it. congrats on reaching your first mini-goal!!

Lawgirl88: I remember you! welcome back!!

Hey everyone! I have been reading your posts, but I hope you understand my life is a bit GO GO GO right now! So once I'm in America, I will most definitely get down to personals. I'll probably wake up at like 5am anyway because of jet lag!!

Anyway - the wax. JESUS TAP DANCING CHRIST THAT HURT! I got it ALL off. The whole thing. And it had been au natural for a LONG time too since no one was going to see it in that time haha. She just went straight to business, didn't tell me how it was going to go (which was good). Some parts of it hurt, some parts of it KILLED! Too much information time, look away if you don't want to know, but she did inside the lips and oh my goose it was bad. She even did my bum area haha!
She also went to town on me, she did the backs of my legs just because apparently, then she did my eyebrows too - I only asked for my lady garden to go! She did it all for £10, which was amazing really, I think because she knew I was going away she wanted me to look good so she just went crazy.

At one point she asked me if I had some ovarian syndrome of some sort (can't remember) because I was so hairy! She pointed out, which I already knew, that around my ears/jaw line I have quite dark hair there. It does look a bit weird but I just live with it really, I've never actually thought it looked terrible but now I'm worried it's so obvious! But then I figure she's a beautician so she's going to be looking for all the hair! So that was weird/a bit inappropriate. But she was nice overall, really understood that it hurt like a b!tch!

Today I'm going to work, going for the mexican then packing up last bits and bobs and SLEEP TIME! So this will be the last post before I go to America! EEEP! I can't believe I'm going TOMORROW! Some of you might even remember me counting down from like 50 days!! I've had this booked 6 months so it's a bit too good to be true that it's finally here, haha.

I emailed him earlier in the week with a link to start downloading Insanity. It takes a while, so I asked him to start it then. Yeah, he only JUST started it like 4 hours ago. MEN! So effing useless sometimes!!

I will speak to you all when I'm State-side ladies!!

kawaii I’m glad things are a little better but I would have this talk sooner rather than later. It’s just going to get harder if he chooses her and it will most likely upset you that he kinda lead you on and was all cute during this time. I know it must be hard on both of you, but I’d also suggest that his ‘thinking’ isn’t a way to keep both of you on the back burner. If she doesn’t work out then he can just go back with you and have everything fine and dandy. I’d just be careful, cuz none of us want to see you get hurt.
And I did want to lick the spoon, so badly! But I was in a big rush and decided that as good as my sugar cookies are, it wasn’t worth what I knew would happen if I tried them.

riestrella ouchies! Well at least she got you all cleaned up. I wonder if it hurt more because it was longer? I was always told to keep it somewhat short (not like recently shaved short..but theres a inch measurement suggestion but I forget what it is) I hated the butt/inner parts I felt so uncomfortable with some lady being all up in there, but I did want it gone. The first time I got it done the lady commented how I must have a high pain tolerance because most people said it really hurt. I was kind of like oh…that’s nice... awkward.
Don’t spent too much time on personals! Enjoy your trip. I’m so happy for you.

I don't really have much going on with me today. It was a loooong day at school, then I went to the gym. I'm beat. But I had a midterm today, and I got 99/100! (it was super easy.. don't give me too much credit) I wanna know what the one that I got wrong was though haha

Torito its not so hard to apply... I did it online in like 20 minutes but then you have to go for an apointment and show like your lifes story, rental agreement bank statements investments resps rsps etc etc..... if you get it they need to see it... but seeing as i was on mat leave the only thing they need from me was rental agreement bank statement and a paper saying when my mat leave runs out no biggie... So so sorry to hear about your nephew, thats so sad .... im glad hes going to be okay tho :) <3 As for your ex bff well her loss then... sounds kinda immature to behave like that...

kawaiicandie haha I know its not the bagels and more the switching it up every week... i do it with lunch and dinner too I switch up from veggies wraps and grilled chicken salad and seems to work a bit.... I know i hate dreams like that too... its not the first one either the week before that i had a dream i won $17 million... perhaps I should buy a lottery ticket this week?? I never know which dreams to trust... they used to freak me out when I was a little younger because everytime I would dream something (usually bad) it happened... I dreamt my little sister was in a car accident and 2 days later she was.... I dreamt my BFF was in a huge fight with his bf and his car broke down and was crying on a couch and the next day he told me that he drove all the way to chatham to see his bf they got in a fight, his bf went mental on his car as he was trying to drive away it broke down and he had to take a cab all the way back to Belle river and went to sleep crying on the couch... :S kinda freaky I know... so ya i never know what to believe anymore when I dream. and I agree with Samma dont jump right back into this relationship with him because if he knows hes got you no matter what and he can keep jumping back and forth he will.... intentionally or not... so just be on guard... and TALK TALK TALK... get everything out in the open thats bothering you... if he cant fix it and be with you then walk away... itll be hard but you cant stay in an unhealthy and unstable relationship. :hug:

riestrella BAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA NO WAIT BAHAHAHAHAHAHA omg you are so brave i could never get it done. lol I dont know if I could even let anyone get that close to down there to get it done.. lmfao I wouldnt worry bout the ear/jaw line its like you said shes prob got hair radar on like a dog or something she can sniff it out... haha Hope you have an amazing trip and and even better time with the bf!!! be sure to post a couple pics of you two when you do personals over there in America!!! :D

As for me not much again going on... yes I lead a boring life -_- haha we went for dinner at my grandmothers.... umm she made meatpie and gravy and mashed potatoes with all sorts of things on the side beets and pork beans and sweet potatoes and cucumbers soaked in vinegar.... i only a small portion of mashed potatoes and like half a slice of meat pie like half the size of theres with some peas and a half a glass of milk.... mostly because i wasnt hungry and the other because i was trying to feed my son at the same time lol... so i didnt go overboard on dinner phew :)

Yesterday I got in an argument with my sons father because well I asked him a simple question where are we going to have Aidens birthday party?? I live in a 1 bedroom apt and he lives in the same... so basically i was asking should we invite less people or look into going to a restaurant.... and he says go to your mums... well I should probably insert this piece of information here (my mother and him do not get along AT ALL... there was huge fight after I had my son and they got into it... a lot of it had to do with her saying a bunch of things to me and he didnt like it and a lot had to do with her telling me i was throwing my life away to chase him ... which I wasnt... I was just moving out because I needed my own place now for me and my son... I moved to windsor because I dont drive and his father lived in windsor and doesnt have a car either... so it would be easier for him to jump a bus rather then jump a bus then hitchike from tecumseh all the way out to the country and not be allowed to stay... ya i was 27 years old and she would not let him stay.. not even if he slept on the couch) but anyways ya they got in a huge fight and he said he would never forgive her for the things she said to me it was disrespectful and ignorant and she basically threatened him and said never to show his face again... me im just an innocent bystander... so because of this he says like i said go to your mums... i was like umm will you not be attending our sons first birthday!?!?! hes like i can come over after your done there, okay now maybe im just being dramatic but doesnt that seem like a really shitty thing to say??/ i mean you basically just said you're going to miss your sons 1st birthday because my mother will be there?? So I say umm no? hes like you need the space right? i said not at the expense of you not coming... like no.. hes like its fine... at this point im getting really pissed off and end up telling him off and say: you know what this is bullsh**.. you both need to grow up and get over it... you can deal with it and ignore each other for 2 hours for your son and her grandson.... but thats your call... both of you can show or dont show i dont ****ing care anymore... Ill figure it out on my own... but if you dont show... this will be the last time i include you in anything.... and he didnt write me back at all until today after work... when i txtd him still mad but said i was going for dinner and that id talk to him tomorrow ( i knew he was going out tonight for a friends bday) hes like illl txt u ltr im like no ill txt you tomorrow.. and he just kept trying to make convo like nothing had happened at all and pretended like i was mad at all... ugh guys sometimes can be so stupid...

so idk is it just me?? am i stupid and dramatic for throwing a fit over this?? cause i think i was being nice... i didnt even say half the things i wanted to say to him... hes a great dad and his other kids he doesnt get to see (live far away and one wont let him) and i know it kills him he says all the time this is his second chance to raise his kid from beginning to end because he didnt get to with the others...thats why this was so shocking to hear come out of his mouth... idk :( Sorry im rambling and probably saying too much but I needed to get it off my chest lol

Hey guys,

Sorry I haven't been in in awhile. I have been on these weird antibiotics for my sinus infection and they have been making me feel completely wonky. Fortunately I am off them (they ran a 5-day course) and today has been a better day than most as of recent. Today my boyfriend and I went to church and then ate lunch, a nice soup and veggies lunch that was still really filling and low in calories. Sad thing is I've been sick for so long (about 2 weeks or so) that I've been used to not eating much, and have been dropping pounds like crazy. I literally went from 215 to almost 209 in a couple of weeks so I am excited but not sure if it will stay off. But I am hoping to start exercising soon.

Will do personals later. The bf just came up from the basement, he was finishing off the wrestling DVD we were watching. Take care!

A story with smiley faces:
:( I've been pretty quiet :sssh: this week.

Going through some boy drama that leaves me dizzy :dizzy: and confused :?:
A guy I'm pretty crazy about :love: .....well, the more I think about it, :idea: the more I realize that he's just stringing me along. Which is no good.
I know I need to say no :nono: to these stupid, :censored: boys that give me a headache :headache: and make me want to burst :bomb: ....but sometimes it's hard to get my head and heart to listen :listen: to each other.

:thanks: Thanks for listening. :)

....ok, the story with smiley faces was harder than I thought. :)
So yeah...boy drama is why I was moping earlier in Jan...and a month later I'm still moping over the guy. Blah. I get so annoyed with myself when all he has to do is send one text telling me he's thinking about me, or one text where he calls me "babe" or "hun"....and my heart skips a beat.

Oh a cheerier note: I think I have a loss this week! I got on the scale tonight, and I'm always heavier at night....so yeah, pretty excited that there might be a loss. :)

...but it's nearly 10. So I should hit the sack. Work tomorrow. Boo. At least next weekend is a 3 day weekend.

Hey everyone! soooo… I just wanna say first hand that y’all are gonna think I’m dumb but….. the bf and I are back, and that big “talk” we were supposed to have didn’t really happen… whenever I tried to bring more “serious” stuff up, he would just go quiet, and I’d be like “are you still thinking about it?” and he’d be like “no” and then not answer :/ anyways. He is too important to me right now to ditch because he’s not giving me answers, so I am willing to forget about it this time. I did say that he better not do it again though… (see my personal to Torito for the exact wording.. lol). So anyways, that’s better, my sanity is better, and I can focus on my diet again starting today. I didn’t weigh in this morning cuz I was pretty “bad” over the weekend, but starting fresh today, with hopefully a workout in the mix for tonight.

oh!! i do have more pretty sh*tty news though (can't believe i forgot!)! apparently what i paid for my apartment, well it was only HALF of the actual payment that i'm supposed to make by tomorrow. i have to pay an extra 2000$ and that's ALL that's left in my bank account, BUT i was saving it for this crazy tax thing that they are gonna charge me with when i leave the city i'm living in now, which is about 2000$ :s it's two months away but i doubt i'll be able to scrounge up more than 1000$ i really dunno what's gonna happen either if i try to leave without paying... hmm... well anyways, it really sucks but there's nothing i can do about it now... gah!

Personals!

Rie: have fun on your trip girl! I lolled at your ladybits story… and this is why I am never ever gonna go get waxed… lol. anyways, you’re probably in the States now, getting lotsa kisses from your boy so ENJOY!!!

Torito: yeah… I saw him this weekend but the talking thing didn’t really happen… I’m pretty sure most people on here are gonna think I’m really dumb but he shuts down when I ask him serious questions about the whole thing, so in the end I was just like “are we good? yes? am I your girlfriend? yes? good. if you do it again, I will punch you in the balls.” so anyways… thanks for your kind advice though, I really appreciate it. and congrats on getting a super high score on your test! go on and gloat (even if it was easy), you ALWAYS deserve to. haha.

eCandice: haha, I wonder if it means something that you dream of winning the lottery so often? I know I have a recurring dream of losing all my teeth (not really a good one) and apparently it means I’m freaking about about a big change in my life or something. lol. who knows? wow, that’s really creepy some of your bad dreams ended up happening though :( I wouldn’t want that… oh, and you are so not stupid! it really sucks about the situation between your son’s father and your mom :( he’s kinda being a d*ck though, acting like his presence at his kid’s party isn’t that big a deal :/ I really don’t know what kind of advice to give you for that except hang in there!

Ballerina: lol your message looks like a Japanese text message! lol. j-people LOVE to pepper texts with emoji! in fact, I once read in a girls’ magazine that if you wanted a boy to like you, you had to put cute emoji in it, otherwise you looked un-cute and uninterested. lol. aww, I’m sorry you’re having boy drama. boy do I know how you feel. I think, just listen to your heart and do what you think is best. it’s easy for other people to judge but they don’t know your situation. congrats on your loss though! and focus on that. boys are stupid!!

Happy (?) Monday everyone! (well...except those in other timezones I suppose....)

Kawaii-Thank you for the kind words. Haha that's too funny about the emoticons! I use them a lot in texting to try and convey if I'm teasing or not...but never to that extent.
If you want to be with the guy, and he makes you happy, then go for it! But he'd better treat you right. :club:
Hopefully you can get that money issue sorted out. Eek.

So....yesterday when I was watching TV I realized that I didn't take a quiz for class. I had it written down as the 12th when it was actually due the 10th. I quickly got online to take it, totally frazzled. I'm SO SO disappointed and mad at myself because I did a horrible job. I didn't even complete the quiz!! I emailed my instructor because that is COMPLETELY not like me. In his class for the past 10 weeks, I've gotten 100% on every single assignment or quiz (except one quiz where I got a 98.2%). So I just don't know what happened. I guess a big part of it was my nerves and that I was distracted....worrying if the quiz would even go through. I'm really hoping that it doesn't affect my grade too much. :(
Have another quiz due tomorrow, and a homework assignment...so hopefully those will go more smoothly. And my final is Thursday. Please send good vibes my way!

Good afternoon all!

It is totally GORGEOUS outside, the snow is falling in massive flakes all over the backyard and I'm watching it from the living room window, where I've taken over my mum-in-law's stomping grounds. Thankfully I don't have to be anywhere else today, but I am hoping my boyfriend gets home soon so I don't have to worry about him traversing the snowy roads.

I have been in and out for a little while since the nasty cold that got me two weeks ago, but I am back in business and even got a little exercise today. I'm hoping tomorrow to put the Zumba or the BL DVD back in my player and really get my heart pumping. After all, I've got these nifty maracas/toning sticks that I haven't used yet and I would really like to build some definition in my arms. :)

I have my first test this Wednesday in my College Algebra class. So far so good, I made a 90 on my last quiz and continue to do well in the homework, which is good because math is NOT my thing at all. Especially matrices, which put the fear of God in me, lol. :) Ooh, and I have yet another interview coming up soon that I hope to knock out of the park. I'm soo tired of rejections and ready to get some positive answers. :D But I digress.

Kawaii- Glad you sorted things out with your boyfriend. :) Hopefully he'll realize that you are awesome and treat you as such. Good luck sorting out the loose ends with the apartment, I hope everything works out.

QB- Awww! :hug: I'm sure your professor will be willing to work something out with you. Just explain what happened and that if the grade is set in stone, that you're willing to do a little extra to earn some extra points. Sorry about the boy problems, hopefully things will turn around for you soon.

Rie- Holy geez. :o I had a rough time with a stylist doing my brows, I couldn't imagine them doing a downtown wax, hehe. :) Well, at least it's over now and you get to see your bf. I hope you have a great trip! :)

hello everyone!

I kind of dropped off the face of the earth this weekend because...I GOT A KITTEN :) His name is Kimba, he's an all white Maine Coon, 12 weeks, and all 2.6 lbs of pure puff. He's too stinking cute! I didn't get to go to the gym this weekend because I was so worried about him. I also have a 4.5 month old cat, who was giving this poor thing **** all weekend. They're finally getting along now. So to make up for the weekend I popped in my Zumba dvd and did 45 minutes. Boy do I miss Zumba! I haven't done it in months!!

namaste: I have the toning sticks too, and they really don't do it for me. But either way it's a lot of fun! Glad to hear you're feeling better! :)

Kawaii: I hope I didn't offend you. I just wanted to share what I've seen a couple times. I hate seeing my friends upset, and the last thing I know you want is to be hurt again. I know you're not ready to be over him, and I think it's good to give him another shot. Just be careful, you know?

Rie: hahahahhahahh!! that's all I have to say about that experience!

Well, I'm off to have dinner and relax. I have a job interview tomorrow :)

quiet I’m sorry you’ve been having boy drama. But I did like your smiley faces story

kawaii No one here thinks you’re dumb! We’re here for you no matter one. I’m glad things did work out with you guys though, and I would definitely hold him to that punishment!! Hahah

quiet I hate forgetting about quizzes! I hope your instructor will understand. And definitely sending good vibes! Good luck on your final I’m sure you’ll do great.

Namaste glad to hear you’re feeling a bit better. Just take it easy as you get back into it. I hate hate hate math. I wish you the best. I heard a ‘joke’ of “math, I’m not your therapist solve your own problems” and I laughed pretty good. Exactly how I feel about math. Good luck on your interview

samma congrats on the new addition!

Not a happy Monday for me. A full day of courses (almost 9 hours of lectures to be exact) and I had my physics midterm today. I spent all Saturday studying since physics usually isn’t my thing and did all the problems again and I’m pretty sure I failed. I almost cried when I walked out of the room, I left one of the long answer questions blank (5 marks) and another one I was stumbling with so I checked my answer and got a totally different answer. I was so upset with myself, and the fact that I had spent so long studying just to f*ck up. I’ll find out my mark tomorrow morning and I’m dreading it. But then I went to the gym and that made me feel a little better, except I hate studying after my long days of school because I don’t get home till after 7pm. But I have another quiz tomorrow, then another midterm on Wednesday so here I sit… tired and trying to convince myself to care about studying.

Update: I found out my mark today. I passed. But only by 1%. Sigh.

namaste Lucky you with the snow! We've barely had any. I was going to try ice skating this winter and the weather has been so weird I didn't get a chance. Oh well. Maybe next winter. Good luck on your test today!!

samma 2 cats? Better you than me! Allergies. :)

torito Thank you!
:( I'm sorry your exam didn't go as well as you wanted.

I got an example of what the final will be like when I took my quiz last night, and I LOVE the way they have it set up. I'm much more confident now that I'll do well on the final. I have to make a 92% or I don't pass the course...so it's a lot of pressure. (I know. The course has ridiculously strict grading.)

I am OVER THE MOON thrilled. My instructor and I talked about it, and because the quiz was nothing like my previous work all semester, he's letting me re-take the quiz. He has to deduct some points since I'm turning it in late, but still....ohmygosh. HUGE relief.

It probably wasn't the best idea because it meant I went to bed really late, but I did a little baking last night! Made blueberry muffins, but added in strawberries and raspberries. They were very hard to get out of the muffin tin...but they're yummy!

Hey ladies! I can finally breathe again. I finished writing up my 10-day lesson plan tonight. The whole thing is about 40 pages long. Anyway, I am back and I promise to get caught up on what's going on with everyone. I haven't been keeping count of my calories the last little while...just stressing with my lesson plan so I don't have any good news to report there. Anyway, I'll be catching up tomorrow! It's good to be back!

Hey everyone! I'm going to have to apologise in advance for the lack of posting/personals recently! I hope you can all understand that it's because I am on holiday, but I am reading up on all your posts to keep updating on your lives =).

My trip to America so far has been great. The first meeting of the bf after 7 months was, in all honesty, weird. It wasn't the magical moment I thought it was going to be, but that didn't mean it was bad. It was just very strange seeing him there. After a day we started to slip back into our usual chemistry, which is what I expected to happen. So things are great, it's amazing being with him again - I'm trying to make the most of it! Time has been going slowly, which is AMAZING since it always goes so fast. I feel like I've been here for 2 weeks but I've not even been here a full week yet.

He really loves my new body! He's been saying how proud he is of me, how much slimmer and healthier I look. I even made him do Insanity with me, and he was DYING! Considering he's in shape it was quite a sight, and I felt so proud of myself that I was doing better than him even after having a 17 hour journey the day before!! He said "Alright, I'll give it to you, that was legit hardcore!" So that made me feel good =).

So far we've been on a walk, to the butterfly pavilion, I watched him go climbing (it was super hot) and we've of course been to a few restaurants/fast food places! We've watched films, played video games - the usual!

I got my new camera which I'm playing with loads. Because of the size of it (it's a DSLR) it's hard to get pictures of the two of us without someone there! But I want to get as many photos and videos as possible, I wanted to make a little movie of all the things we've done to some music just as filming practice (since I want to make films as a career one day!)

Weighing in daily is getting hard, because the scales here are in his parents room and sometimes I feel awkward asking to go and use them. But I got down to 155 lbs which is incredible. I've either remained the same weight or lost a small amount so far, so working out has helped! On Valentines day I didn't work out, so it was my rest day, and yesterday I didn't because I felt a bit sick. Because he lives in Colorado the altitude means I get dehydrated quicker, and I wasn't keeping on top of drinking water! So I had a fail day and now I owe the bf a favour, since I wrote a list of rules for myself and if I fail one I have to be a temporary slave! He said he's going to make it super tedious so it will encourage me to workout! *sigh* I deserve it!

I've been really good with eating so far. I make sure we only eat out once in a day, whether it's for breakfast, lunch or dinner, and not to drink soda in the house/snack. And when I am out I only have one soda too. The food has been DELICIOUS! I had Pho last night, which I felt was really healthy since I got the seafood one! It was tasty.

On Friday the film festival starts and we're going to a few events, Friday morning is "Jiro Dreams of Sushi" which is a documentary on a master sushi chef - so afterwards we're going for sushi at his old work place! I can't wait, I love sushi.
Saturday I've planned a surprise trip for the bf...he loves wolves so I've planned with his parents to take us all to a wolf sanctuary. We've booked the VIP tour, so we get the tour of the sanctuary and then get to actually go in the enclosure and meet the tame wolves! I can't wait! I just hope that his Mum (who can be a bit of a loud mouth) doesn't spill the beans since I don't want him to have any idea where we're going!

I think that's all from me, take care all!

sgregg At least you got your lesson plan taken care of. I'm sure that's a huge relief to finally have it off of your shoulders.

Riestrella Haha good for you for showing him up on Insanity! That's awesome. :) That's a cute idea to do a list of rules you have to follow. Smart too! The wolf sanctuary sounds like such a cool idea! Hopefully his mom will keep the secret.

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Seems like people are pretty quiet on here lately (or I just talk too much) :)

I am SO excited about this weekend because there is a wine & food showcase in my area. I get unlimited tastings of all of the wines on the show floor (about 200 wines.....er, don't worry, I won't be trying them all!), a souvenir tasting glass and I get to go into any exhibits and seminars that I want.

...and of course, a 3 day weekend will be very nice. :) I have some boring stuff around the apt to do, but maybe I can knock most of it out Friday night so I can enjoy the rest of the weekend to relax, work out, and de-stress.

riestrella Im so glad youre having a great time with him!!! thats funny about the insanity.... i think just because a persons fit doesnt mean they could do a workout... i think your used to working out hardcore and you prob dont even notice.. well im sure its hard... but like i said your used to it :)

I like the list of rules as well ;) Good for you for sticking to everything... eating out and all... about the pics... do the good old one handed shot of the two of you... its better then nothing lol The wolf sanctuary sounds amazing i would love to do something like that... once again because of my heritage native american wolves are a big part of that :) well I hope you have fun enjoy the rest of your time!!!

not much going on with me everyone sorry ive been gone for awhile... my little guy has been a handful the past few days he came down with a little bug and was sleeping and pooping non-stop :( so between him crying and all that and trying to get my normal workouts/walks and chores in... ive been exhausted -_- Last time i posted I mentioned about his dad and the whole 1st birthday scenario... well he hasnt even said anything about it... just pretended like it never happened ... so that argument has been post-poned i guess -_- had a crappy valentines since he was called out of town for work on monday for the week he got back today so hopefully well see him tomorrow and this weekend.... got a bunch of shopping done today for Aiden... mostly Easter stuff... they put it out so i figured id get a jump on things and grab it while its there and not picked over.... My mom also got a free room at the casino for the night so were going there in a couple weeks to just have fun, go in the pool have a few drinks/dinner and relax... which is much needed for me since i havent been away from my son in months and months...actually i think ive only been out like 3 times since he was born ....lol... i never get nights out so Im pretty excited... anyways thats pretty much it... have a good night everyone... ill do personals tomorrow

Hello!

This week has been no bueno in the exercise and food department. I've been having headaches (which I never get) and my IBS has been kicking it into high gear :( I'm having a Thai food and movie night with my mom today, and tomorrow will be a new day. For real. It's happening this time. No more goofing off!! I'll be rearranging my room tomorrow, so that'll be a good work out for me along with a long hot date with the gym.

Valentines day was nice for me. My boyfriend got me a dozen red roses and took me to this DELICIOUS Indian restaurant. It was my first time having Indian food, and I am officially a fan! But it was a nice relaxing night :)

Candice: hope the little man is feeling better! There's been so many different bugs going around..it's horrible!

quiet ballerina: yup, 2 cats. :) Food and wine festivals are awesome!! Have a good time!

Rie: hahaha I love the rules list!! I should start something like that because I HATE doing chores! Glad to hear you're having a great time and that's so exciting how proud he is of you :)

sgregg: ugh...lesson plans STINK. My one friend had to do tons of those and unit plans. She was not a happy camper!

torito: Hope the midterms went well for you!! Give yourself a day of relaxation when it's all said and done!

sgregg welcome back! I bet it’s a relief to have the lesson plan done. Sounds like a ton of work

riestrella I’m glad to hear you’re having a great time, and kickin his *** at insanity! Enjoy every second

quiet that sounds like a great weekend. I hope you get de-stressed

Candice a night out sounds like exactly what you need. Must be nice to have the shopping done already as well. Hope he feels better

samma mmm…thai. Have a good date with your mom! Glad to hear you had a good valentines day.
I wish I could get a day of relaxation! I have 8 midterms, (2 of which are after my spring break so I’ll be cramming during that time too), then as soon as this set is over I’ll have 8 more and then it will be finals. I can’t wait for this semester to be overrrrr.

It was a pretty quiet week, I’ve felt ‘stuck’. In school, in weight loss, in life so I’m trying to get outa that mind set. I have a huge midterm on Tuesday that I’m stressed out over because the teacher is crazy and goes soo in depth. Fingers crossed

I have my weigh in tomorrow morning! im nervous this week even though I didnt "cheat" I did eat way to many crackers!
Ill be back to let you all know how I did :) Wish me luck

Helloooo!!! :)

Just a quick check-in!

Rie - Good to hear that you are having a great time!

Torito - School makes me feel "stuck" too...so hang in there...it will be over soon!

samma - I've never had Indian food either. What did you order? And we need a pic of this cute little fur-ball. ;)

QB - I'm glad you got to re-take the quiz. I hate online classes. The last one I took I slacked so badly. Anyway, good luck on your final!

namaste - How did you do on your test?

Samanthia - How was your weigh-in?

sgregg: it was lamb....something. it had coriander, garlic, and ginger in it and it was pretty spicy! It came with naan and rice. The one good thing about spicy food and me, I definitely do not go overboard with eating tons!

And here's Kimba! http://a6.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-ash4/402582_863431823929_38809523_37954107_2117113228_n .jpg

hey everyone, i just wanted to pop in and say that my studies are nearly over, we had exams last week and after 12 horrendous months I can finally call myself a psychologist :) So now i am looking forward to getting back to normal, losing what I regained, recovering psychologically myself from the year! and getting into job hunting lol

Also that kitten is super cute

Aww, Samma, he's a cutey!! And that Indian dish sounds yummy! :)

Icon - Woohoo for studies being over!! I know you are relieved. I have less than 3 months left myself!

holy moly I did not realize how big the picture was!! But thanks :) He's my little fluff ball!

Been off the wagon and slowly starting to get back on it...first by going to the gym. I've been slowly eating better. I'm just trying to go by what my body wants rather than what I enter into my phone app.

Samma, Kimba is adorable!! He can't be more than 2 months old. (Is he named after Kimba the White Lion?) I just adopted my second cat, Arthur, in mid-January. He's seven months old now and had been at the shelter since he was Kimba's own age. Poor baby. I still don't believe no one wanted him until I came along. D:

Iconised Ghost, congratulations on finishing your exams and finally becoming a licensed psychologist! What will you do now?

torito, I can't believe some of your mid-terms are AFTER your Spring Break. Don't professors know how this works?

candice, I know it's been a couple of days, but I hope your son is feeling better.

Quiet Ballerina, how was your Bacchanalian weekend?

Riestrella, have you and the bf been to the wolf sanctuary yet? We have one for big cats near us that I've been meaning to get out to see.


It snowed here yesterday for the first (and probably only) time this year. It was less than an inch and I'm sure it'll all be gone again when I get off work in three and a half hours, but we had one magical evening. Zara and Arthur, my kitty roommates, were entranced. And I got to drive empty roads and do my shopping at an empty grocery store because very few Southerners have confidence in their ability to drive on snow. :lol:

Zara's been sick. She had a little cough, wasn't eating enough and didn't poop until she made a mad poop in her carrier on the way to the emergency vet clinic. The vet wasn't sure what was wrong with her, but she gave me steroids and antibiotics and since then Zara is COMPLETELY improved. We've got another appointment on March 3rd for a follow-up.

I kept kicking myself for not getting pet insurance for her while she was healthy. I know, financially, that it's smarter to open a savings account and set aside the money I would otherwise spend on pet insurance for her and Arthur every month into that account--but what happens if she gets sick again before I've had a chance to build up a substantial balance? I've only had my real adult job for not quite two months, and I lent close to $600 to my boyfriend to pay his rent, buy him groceries, and take his rabbit to the vet when he got sick. (Don't worry, he's not a loser. He's got almost $3k coming to him in outstanding accounts in the next couple of weeks.)

So this is what it's like, being an adult.

I will admit, though, I ate like crap for three days and missed a Spin class while I worried about her. Still lost a pound by yesterday, though. Huh.

bopbot: he's actually 13 weeks old (so 3 months and a week). He was just the tiniest one of the litter. He's gotten longer since I've gotten him though, and he has his healthy kitten check up tonight. He was 2.6lbs when I got him, so let's see how much he's gained! And yes, he's named after Kimba the white lion.

back on track! Just came back from the gym...did an hour of the stairmaster. I did some arms and legs, but no abs. I'm still full from lunch so I figured that would be bad news if I worked on abs.

bopbot :) My Bacchanalian (great word!) weekend was fantastic!

Samma Okay, as much as I'm anti-cat, the little fluff-ball is pretty adorable. :)

It's been a very nice weekend for me. The wine and food festival was mostly wine (and jewelry, oddly enough) but I got some really tasty wines, and some very fun wine glasses! I also got this delicious olive oil that's infused with garlic...I'm going to use it tonight to make a pasta salad.

Aside from that my weekend's been pretty low key, which is what I needed. Glad that it's a short work week too!

....but my tummy is rumbling and I need to get to the grocery if I want to make the pasta salad tonight. :) So I'll pop in for a better update later.

Riestrella, have you and the bf been to the wolf sanctuary yet? We have one for big cats near us that I've been meaning to get out to see.


YES IT WAS AMAZING! Picture!

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Look how big his head is compared to mine!!

Also:
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I'll report more on it later!

Sorry your kitty got sick, and yeah insurance is hit and miss when you can think of better ways to spend your money. We just got a new puppy and I think the parents are considering insurance...because she's going to get sick one of these days. You've just got to really look into it! Adult life does kinda suck that way!

samma super cute!

icon woo congrats!! That must feel amazing

bopbot I know!! Part of me is glad that 2 of them are after, because I’ll need a lot of time to study for them but I thought the point of spring break (called reading break in our school) is to give us a break from reading
I’m sorry to hear about pet sicknesses! And being an adult sometimes really sucks. Pet financials are hard, because on one hand you want to save for it if anything ever happens, but on the other what if that wasn’t enough savings and then pet insurance… It’s hard

riestrella holy the sanctuary looks soo cool! I’m jealous

I had to miss half of school today to go to the opthamologist since I’ve had chronic headaches, luckily my eyes are normal. My doctor said if they persist I’ll get a CT scan but they have been getting a bit better so I don’t think I’m gonna go down that route. I was glad to get my eyes checked though since I never had in the past. But with the eye doc, came the drops (which I sucked at) then my vision was so blurry, and my pupils were so dilated that I had to wear sunglasses inside, and I just didn’t wanna be that girl at the gym so I came home and found a cardio workout video on youtube. It definitely wasn’t as intense as I usually go for cardio, but at least it got my heart rate up a little. And I didn’t feel like a fool for falling down from blurry vision and sunglasses on.

This next post is kind of long, so if it's tl;dr: My cat's sick and I don't know how to pay for it because I've loaned money to friends in the past and no one can/will pay me back.

Ugh. Ugh ugh. So, the dear boyfriend's been stiffed by an employer yet again.

He had a contract in December for a $500 website. It's been finished since the first week of January, but the company refuses to pay up, so the site hasn't launched. That was supposed to be the boyfriend's Christmas money, to buy me and his family gifts.

He had another contract, also beginning in December, for a website for a laser equipment company. They paid $2000 up front and were supposed to pay him another $2000 when the site was complete. It's nearly finished and now the project director wants him to stop work on the site so the manager can "consider his options."

As it stands, he has about $700 to pay this month's rent and bills. He owes me $450 for last month's rent and groceries and another $120 for vet care for his rabbit, who was very sick two weeks ago. He was going to pay me back in full as soon as the laser equipment company paid him for their website, but since it doesn't look like they'll be doing that now, who knows when I'll see that money.

Edit: I haven't had a Christmas gift, or a birthday gift from my birthday in September. I feel crappy being bothered by that, but the longer it is, the more it needles at me. It's stupid. He's the best of boyfriends. He's so wonderful about everything else, supports me in everything I do, makes me healthy dinners all the time, rubs my back when it hurts, takes care of my every emotional need. I feel like a shallow jerk for letting his bad financial situation bother me. But I thought I was done being broke when I landed my new job in December. Instead, I've been barely keeping us both afloat, and now that there's an emergency, I resent every dollar he hasn't paid back.

It normally wouldn't be so bad. I make more than enough to cover my own bills and don't mind helping a friend out every now and again when things get dire. But Zara has a vet appointment for March 3rd, and at this point, I don't think I'm going to have enough money to get the tests and treatment she needs.

I'm trying to collect on debts from old roommates. Between the two of them, my roommates from last year owe me a little over $500. I sent them a Facebook message explaining that Zara was sick and begging that they pay me back whatever they could in the next two weeks. I haven't received a reply from either one, big surprise. Not that I ever expected to see that money again. But I thought they might have an ounce of compassion. Even fifty bucks would have helped.

Anyway, that's my rant. Shoot me if I ever loan money to anyone again. I'm going to try and sell my bass guitar on Craigslist this week. I'd try to sell my scooter, but it isn't running, and I don't have anything else worth selling. Even my computer has three keys that don't work.

Edit: The boyfriend wants to sell some things of his, too. He really is the best, and I am the jerk.

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Quiet Ballerina, your weekend sounds lovely. Hope the pasta salad was delicious!

Riestrella, YOU GOT LICKED IN THE FACE BY A WOLF. And GOSH, girl, do you look good!!

torito, I hope your headaches keep improving. Way to fight through the discomfort of weird eyedrops and get some exercise anyway. Mad respect.

thanks everyone for the comments... yes my son is doing much better now... back up and running... or crawling haha... hes starting to let go of the couch now... getting brave that boy... i have a feeling hes going to start walking soon, then im in trouble :P

Kinda been crappy when it comes to eating and exercising the past few days... just havent had the energy to do it... and the one day I did have a snack (puppy chow) i got a huge migraine because i havent had sugar in so long... (added sugar or sugary sweets) and im not sure i like that.... i think i need to make a change to my diet and allow some sugary sweets but like once a week or something cause obvs eliminating it isnt good either... i dont think ive ever had a migraine that bad in my life. -_-

Kind of excited about the casino this weekend.... my mom also got us free tickets to the buffet which ive heard is absolutely amazing... and ive never been to our casino here in Windsor before meanwhile had the buffet so im going to let that day be my cheat day.... im sure im going to suffer from it... booze and lots of food... :( but oh well... ive jumped back on the wagon today and exercised this morning and went for a walk just before the snow hit (pheww) .... and ive eaten pretty good today so hopefully ill lose a couple lbs or something before i go that way i wont feel so bad when i gain a couple back... lol

personals:
kinda just skimmed through quickly
samma such a cute kitty <3 I miss my pets from home...

bopbot hope your poor Zaras feeling better... really sucks having a pet thats sick... my poor scooter used to have seizures all the time... brought me to tears because I was so helpless

riestrella so frickin jealous of you right now... that wolf sanctuary looks amazing... I would love to get up close with those wolves... glad your having such a great time... and can I be the second person to say that you look great!!!

torito sorry to hear about the headaches.... those can be such a bi***.... yes better to be safe and get everything checked just in case... a friend of mine in high school used to have them so bad she would sit and cry in class... her doctors told her to just monitor everything she did and ate... turns out she went for a cat scan and had something in her brain that was causing them.... can never be too careful....

Riestrella: those pics from the wolf sanctuary are SO cool!! I'm jealous. :)

torito chronic headaches are nothing to play with. :( I hope you figure out what's going on soon!

bopbot I'm so sorry about your cat! :( And what is wrong with those people hiring your boyfriend?! Can he take them to small claims court? Keep bugging those friends/old roommates that owe you money! That's so rude of them. I'd send more messages. And call. And text.
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I'm so so ready for this week to be OVER. Even though Saturday won't be very fun because I have to wake up super early in order to leave my apt around 8....because I'm helping my friend and her hubby move from their apt into a townhouse. I'm thinking about getting a big thing of coffee for everyone (there's 10-12 of us helping move I think) but then I'm kinda like....wait. It's not my stuff. Why should I bring coffee? :-P
I don't know. Maybe I will...I'll call the store and see how much their 'box of coffee' costs. I do plan on getting bottled water and bringing that. I just don't think my friend is going to think about stuff like that....and well, we're people. We're going to get thirsty.

Buuuut.....my roommate is going out of town. So I will have the apt to myself probably Friday night and Saturday/Saturday night!
(Nothing against her. Just want the entire place to myself sometimes. :) )

Urk....will try to post more later. I hear the baby. She's a HORRIBLE napper this week.

Dropping in quickly!

Rie - Those are some awesome pics! :)

Getting back on the wagon Monday. I actually volunteered for the running club at the elem. school so I can do some walking while the kids are doing their running. It will be fun...hopefully. I just want a chance to get some needed exercise in. My weight is at a standstill right now. I just haven't been actively counting my calories like I need to be. But I'm really getting on it this coming Monday. I have to. I feel horrible. I haven't been drinking my water and I just eat a bunch of junk all the time. And I crave it because I've been eating too much of it. But I know I can get over that and move on.

Anyway, I just wanted to pop in real quick and give a little update. I'm sorry for no personals. I just hate that I don't have the time for it right now. :(

FFS I just wrote a nice response to people and then hit refresh and lost it ARGGGGG

sgregg- thanks! What are you studying? It feels like it has taken such an incredibly long time that i can hardly comprehend how long it has taken, even though i went through it!

bopbot- thanks! I'm thinking about spending some time away from patients at the moment. Maybe a very long time O_o I'm hoping that the job search takes at least a month or two and that gives me some time to start thinking rationally about whether i want to go back to that kind of clinical work or not. That sucks about your cat too :( Does your vet have any kind of payment service, so maybe you could pay it weekly or in lump sums?

rie- those pictures are amazing! Wow. I would really like to go and do that some day. I will have to put it on my bucket list

torito- thanks!

Had my last day at work on Friday (yay!) and I am so looking forward to getting back into eating well and exercising and relaxing and recovering. And sleeping! OMG i've missed sleep so much

SO. Weighed in on thursday at 147 lbs. Hooray for screwing up! I took a break from the gym yesterday (time didn't allow it anyway). I went to see Wanderlust with my boyfriend...that movie was absolutely hilarious! I literally was crying at some points because I was laughing so hard! We went out to a restaurant called Iron abbey. I got this portuguese burger which was good, but SO greasy that I actually felt sick from a couple bites. I also had two beers....one was a strawberry flavored one that was incredible!

Today is a fresh start. Im going to the gym soon and I plan on kicking my own butt! If I'm so upset about myself, then I need to stop messing up and just get at it! I'm going to write down all of the reasons why I want to be healthier and post it in my room so I see it every single morning. I know my mom will see it and say something about it, but whatever. I need this mode of motivation since it's the only type I get in the house!

Rie: WOLF!! That's an awesome experience!

Tori: It's always a good time when you get your eyes checked! When I had mine checked I went on a walk with my roommate....who was literally my seeing guide because it hurt to look around even with sunglasses on! haha!

Quiet: enjoy the weekend of solitude! :)

Samma - you can do it! Let me know if you actually put the notes up. I think that's a great idea. I may do something like that too.

Icon - Elementary Ed. Almost finished!! And I'm so excited to be almost done. Graduation is May 12th!

Can you all believe that February is almost gone?! It just goes by way too fast after you grow up. Ha! Back to calorie counting tomorrow. I'm planning on tracking EVERYTHING on myfitnesspal. I don't have time to exercise or I would be tracking that too. I wonder if they have "being a mom, wife, and full-time student teacher" in that thing? ;)

Anyway, our weather has been crazy. We got up to 84 degrees the other day!! 84 degrees is CRAZY in February! I love the warm weather, but it's just weird. This winter has been very mild and I'm scared of the mosquitoes we are going to have this spring and summer because of it.

Ok, I'm rambling now, so I'll try my best to drop in this week! :)

*crickets chirping*

Where is everyone? :)

March is almost here!! Where did February go?! I really need to kick my booty into gear. My little brother is graduating in May and I want to look good in the family pics. lol Okay...I want to be healthy too of course. But come on. An excuse for a cute new SMALLER dress? Yes please! I might go peruse ebay now... :)