Weight loss supposed to be on my list of New Year's resolutions for 2012... I did join this site in Decemberto give it a whirl, but ultimately I found myself just saying "meh" to New Year's Resolutions at all when Jan 1 hit and I came down with the blasted flu! I was holed up in bed for an entire week of vacation and was subsequently diagnosed with bronchitis, which I'm still fighting but am mostly better. Needless to say though, the idea of weight loss got put on the back burner..
Then yesterday, two weeks into the new year, I received an email from a friend with the pictures from our New Year's Eve celebration. I rarely have photos taken of me that aren't very carefully taken -by me- and thus are acceptable photos in my mind.. but in the bulk of photos, mostly of our dogs, I saw a picture taken of me without my knowledge.
I was basically horrified. I guess all this time taking "carefully staged" self-photos and avoiding any long looks in the mirror has had me fooled all this time.
Because physically right now? I'm basically awful.
And it is just so disheartening.
I turn 30 in a matter of weeks. This is not the way I wanna be for the rest of my life.
So today, still horrified from yesterday's self-discovery, I ran out with my husband and we brought home an elliptical... after which I promptly realized just how out of shape I am.
The elliptical was highly necessary in a number of ways.. the first being I have an anxiety disorder that makes it difficult to make public appearances, especially at an establishment like a gym. The second is that I'm a Muslim gal, and unless I join one of the few all-ladies gym, I'm pretty much banished to exercising in a headscarf and long sleeves. Nooo thanks
It was a very expensive impulse buy and I'm lucky to have a supportive husband who, even though we don't' have a ton of money, would be on board with that purchase. Phew.
Aaanyway.. so now I'm here, maybe it will help me with motivation and staying on track.. I'm not entirely sure what will help yet, but perhaps this will be one of those things that definitely helps.
So.. Hi
The short bio: I'm a Canadian gal.. happily married.. full time job.. almost 30.. not too many hobbies but I'm thinking I may need some to keep back the boredom from eating less, eek.
An overnight realization..
