[chellerann]

Hi, I feel kind of stupid writing all of this down, but I really want to fix it. This seems like as good of a place as any to start.

My mom invited me to her work Christmas party last night, and I was there for about an hour and began having a panic attack. My feelings about myself and my weight are what started it. There was like a running commentary in my mind " I'm the fattest person here" "Everyone can see my fat belly" "I'm ugly" "I'm not good enough to be here" " My clothes are ugly"...things like that.

This isn't the first time it's happened, but its by far the worst. I don't want to be one of those people who stay in the house because they can't leave.

I'm not a shy person, have served in the US Navy, been a teacher, and am generally a happy fun person. I want to be myself again.

Please...is anybody else going through this?

[Chubby Momma]

chellerann don't feel stupid. It's ok to let your feelings out. Hopefully it makes you feel better knowing that you're not alone. I understand how you feel, I often find myself feeling the same way. I suffer from anxiety attacks everyday, but I always talk myself down. I know it's hard but you need to keep reminding yourself that YOU ARE BEATUIFUL!!! It doesn't matter what you are wearing or the size of your clothes, it's really what's on the inside that counts.