Body and Life
Well, I grew up with the SAD diet. I recently visited my parents after not seeing them for a year - no fruits or veggies that weren't canned! When I was quite young I was already 230 lbs.
I've morphed into the opposite, lean foods, loving veggies and experimenting with whole grain vegan recipes. I also love exercising and movement now. This behavioral change has allowed me to maintain around 168.
But, I'm still feeling trapped in my body a bit. While I see the marvelous things it can do and appreciate it for good health, I still see and feel and extra 20-30 lbs that are weighing me down.
I have a strong intuition that my boyfriend will propose to me next year. I notice I am sabotaging the relationship a bit to ward off the proposal - and I can honestly say it is not him. He is a doll and the best man I've ever known in my entire life. It is the weight - I don't want to take wedding pictures or be the center of attention.
Sounds silly. Gees. I wish I wasn't that shallow! Anyway, I'm calorie counting for the second time (it has worked in the past, to get me down to 168.... then I stopped for some reason, but still didn't gain back, just stopped losing).
I want to go for the gold this time - I will be 30 soon.... I will be applying to new firms in Germany to work in... I want, for once, to feel that my body reflects me more than it does now.
So, I'm really excited to be here and thanks for having me!
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