I was going to ask the same thing -- how old are you?
Because while I'm 35 now, you sound a lot like me at 25 ish when I got the PCOS dx and I was grieving. I'd always wanted to be a Mom and I felt robbed. Like it was one thing for me to choose not to have children, and it was another thing not to even get to make the choice!
(And I had my daughter at 28, so don't get TOO stuck there. Grieve, but know PCOS dx is not the end of the world. Never lose hope!)
I was also changing from college/gf/getting married/apartment to grad/wife/work/house place and its disorienting feelings. My school friends were doing their own shifts and it took me a while to make new friends.
I have a hard time with the PCOS emotional heebie jeebies. I always have stress/anxiety prone vibes and I can tell when I've been fretting even underneath my own awareness because my neck eczema flares up. It's ugly but it's like a warning sign thermometer for my stress. Nothing or just barely noticeable -- excellent! Starting to get scaly? Uh oh... find the stress cause! Angry and red -- too late! Beep! Beep! Beep!
While def better now than back then, my other emotions flare up easily. I'm logical so I don't like being at the mercy of my emotions. For now I view them like weather -- just let it pass and run its course. Then I can get back to the regularly scheduled program that is me. I used to get really frustrated and angry/stress about not being in control of my own emotions and there would go the eczema. I've learned to ride it rather than fight the waves. I also learned to chart against my cycles so I knew when bad times were for certain things.
But I did find it bizarre -- watching cat food commercial and bursting into tears going "Awwww... such a cute kitty!" followed right afterward with "Dang, what's with me? I don't even like cats -- I'm allergic!" or "Wheee! I love life so much! Rainbows make me cry they are so lovely!" followed by "Dude, what's with me? Yeah, life is grand but seriously? RAINBOWS?"
Being on BCP helps me feel more stable on that front but I remember thinking I must be going crazy. I wasn't -- I was just dealing with a lot, including the PCOS dx.
It helps to remember when I get this way now (and it does lessen) -- LOOK! Whatever it is right now, will pass. It's just today's article in the newspaper but the name of the paper is still ASTROPHE! I'm still me! And whatever this stupid crying jag is about will be on the front page for a bit and then it will shuffle on out.
Earlier this year my Endoc told me that PCOS could start to kick out some psychiatric symptoms and I just looked at her like "Lady, tell me something i don't ALREADY know? And BTW, you doc people could have told me this earlier so I wouldn't have wasted all that time wondering if I was crazy."
But doc have to learn too.
I'd just got done picking a a major fight with my DH and being all gloomy/sad/divorce! and it turned out my meds were way off for thyropid and I was way deficient on b12 and D and magnesium. Go fig!
I apologized to him for behaving like a nut but I told him as I get older and get more into this chronic condition, he has to learn to tell when I'm on the wacky train and go "Hon, you are on they wacky train. Make a lab appt!" because I'm too stuck on the train to see it myself yet.
BTW -- you might check out soulcysters area for mental related stuff to PCOS too.
http://www.soulcysters.net/forumdisp...nxiety-Bipolar
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