100 lb. Club - Ever wonder....
01-10-2003, 01:33 PM
...why we have "fat days?" Those days where you just feel fat. I'm having one of those days & doing everything I can not to give into it. By giving into it, I mean, my brain usually says "well, since you already feel fat, you might as well eat, eat, eat!" And I know I've lost weight, but I just feel like I'm carrying around an extra million pounds right now. Am I the only one?
Also, why in the world is "overeating" for me sooooo much more than for the normal person. My thin friends view overeating as going to the ice cream store & having a cone, or eating 5 cookies instead of one or two. Overeating for me is eating 2 HUGE bowls of ice cream, or eating an entire package of cookies. I wonder what is "wired" differently in me than other people??? Is it all mental? Is some of it genetic? And why can't I be normal?
Anywho, sorry to whine... I'm having one of those days where I just feel like the world & my own mind are out to sabotage my diet. Having a nice little pity party here for myself. I'm hoping that I'll feel better after I work out this afternoon... It's two hours away & I'm really hoping I can avoid eating the chocolate covered macademia nuts my boss put out by my desk for the department to snack on today until then!!! Wish me luck!
OK. I wish you luck. Hmmm. I thought "fat" days were universal among women. I certainly have them. No, you're definitely not the only one. Don't sabatauge! You've come so far! You can do it!!!!!
01-10-2003, 03:30 PM
yes, beating the mindset "well, you already went Off Plan, go ahead, eat more" is hard.
and why can't we stop? i mean, eating a whole bag of chips -- skinny people can't do that!!
it's kinda like in "american sweethearts" when julia roberts is upset and eating TONS of breakfast. that meal looked good to me.
is that bad? :lol:
we're just always going to have to be concious of it. just be glad we're not anorexic or bullemic.
my friend K collapsed the other day at school. the doctors may not have caught the signs yet (they attributed it to overexertion and dehydration), but david and i both agree that she's borderline anorexic. she's 5'10" and weighs under 130. she eats, but only a little, and she is taking 4 aerobics classes at school. eep. i don't know really what to say to her about it though.
ah, i went off on a tanget. oops. i'll just end it by... don't you love having the "thin" days?? where you stayed OP, you feel good, and energized, and you are just so proud of yourself? =) i feel that way so far today. :)
01-10-2003, 03:50 PM
I know exactly what you mean Holly, about having thin days. I'm having one of those today, I feel great and I love feeling like this. I have other days (especially when I am very tired) where I feel terrible, and I don't even want to be at work because I feel so fat. I wonder if I'll always feel like this?
Who can't relate to that!
I think in a lot of ways it's your mind playing tricks and your self conscious sabotaging anf fighting against what you are tying to do.
I think we all need to have something in place to deal with the bad 'fat' days. If we react we eat if we have a plan in place it's easier to deal with those feelings.
Happy "thin" day to us all!!
01-10-2003, 05:03 PM
I do not understand why we are so different from our thin counterparts. I mean, there are these tiny girls in the office that freak out when they eat a doughnut, or a few pieces of chocolate. It's frustrating!!! I mean, I didn't know that eating a whole bag of cookies, a pint of Ben & Jerry's (my long-time boyfriends) and some potato chips is called a BINGE. I thought it was pretty normal. It has to be a brain wiring thing because I KNOW that when I reach my goal weight, I will still dream in food porn dreams and eat a whole pie.
Hang in there ... you CAN make it.
I understand COMPLETELY what you are saying. For me a lot of my 'fat' days and outrageous pig-out days correspond with PMS. YUCK.
As for why some of us are capable of eating so much more than others ... I believe there IS a genetic component to it. I've got the whole nature/nurture thing going on in my house with one adopted and one biological child and what I see sometimes surprises me.
My adopted baby had not had solids before arriving home. Both kids were fed the same as babies and now at 6 and 3 1/2 have completely different eating habits.
Both kids like sweets, but when it comes to 'real' food my 6yo son (adopted) prefers veggies and fruit. For a while cheese and yogurt were the only source of protien he'd eat and I wondered if he'd be a vegetarian.
My younger child (bio daughter) favors meat and starch (but not potatoes). She eats a few veggies and some fruit, but not as much of a variety as her brother.
AND ... sometimes she scares me with how much she can eat (although she's at a healthy weight) I try to limit her to two slices of a large pizza at a meal and tell her if she's still hungry, she can have raw carrots & celery (which we usually serve w/ pizza) or have yogurt or an apple for 'dessert' instead of MORE pizza ... but sometimes I will give in and give her another 1/2 slice and she eat it! She's 3 1/2 !!
Beverages? As a baby my son LOVED his bottle of formula. Not my daughter, by 9 months she prefered solids and I had to 'sneak' formula powder into her food for added nutritional value, she was only drinking two 6 oz bottles a day! And now ... my son likes milk (we buy 1%) my daughter prefers water.
I've always suspected it and now I'm totally convinced ... it's not all psychology ... in some respects we are 'programmed' from birth.
OK ... I've written a novel, I hope I haven't bored you to tears!
01-10-2003, 10:50 PM
I've been having "fat" days myself lately. When I weighed, I was down not up but still "feeling" fat. Don't know what it's all about and I have not really binged but probably have had a few less healthy calories. Feeling somewhat "thinner" today because I started off with a Slimfast this morning and that tends to drain off some water for me if nothing else.
You know that you've lost over 100 pounds and that's quite an achievement. Maybe the brain is in some sort of sabotage rather than adjust mode at the moment. Anyway, hope someone else soon kills the chocolate covered nuts and removes that temptation from your vicinity. That's really cruel.
So remember you're 100 lbs less than you were. And you're an inspiration to all of us. Those "fat" feelings will go (soon, I hope) and mine with them.