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Rosinante
06-16-2011, 04:19 AM
.... and waving shyly at the same time. Heck, the number of times I've said this year, "Hello, I'm back (again)!" is annoying me, never mind anyone else.

My depression has been killer this year, I'm usually fine when spring hits.
My job - not sure about long term future - not that I'm getting fired, just don't know if I'm in the right place.
My dogs, my dear old doggies. One of the four had got really frail mentally but was still quite physically fit, so we kept on and on; until I finally had to have her put to sleep about 10 days ago. This compounded by having had to have put one of the others to sleep just 2 days earlier, his was a sudden collapse. What a heartbreak, the house is very quiet.

Anyway, the depression's been lifting; not so much because I'm not in canine intensive care mode but because I've had so many things I've Had to sort out, and activity always makes me better.

I had some great feedback work-wise, and have been invited to an event at Westminster Abbey next month. My little black dress ain't so little any more, so I'm telling myself I'm going to commit to a month. Sure, it needs to be about 10 months + permanent maintenance, I know that; but that's overwhelming at the moment. A month. Even I can manage a month.

London! I haven't been in nearly 40 years! (Except to catch planes and trains)


VickieLou
06-16-2011, 12:25 PM
Rosinante sounds like you could use a :hug:. Sorry to hear about your 2 dogs. Happy to hear your depression is better. Good Luck on your weight loss. Don't feel bad I keep having to re-start too. I've been under alot of stress lately.

Enjoy your trip to London!

JamiSue3916
06-16-2011, 12:33 PM
:hug: So incredibly sorry to hear that so many things are piling up on you at the moment. I truly hope the fog does lift soon and you find the commitment to refocus on your goals and dreams. I wish you the best of luck!

(And remember...we'll ALWAYS be here for you! No matter how many times you have to restart.)


Lovely
06-16-2011, 12:57 PM
:hug:

Sandi
06-16-2011, 02:16 PM
:hug:

Gale02
06-16-2011, 02:29 PM
Rosi - I've been thinking about you lately. I'm glad you're back, and I'm so sorry to hear about your furry family members. :( :hug:

DixC Chix
06-16-2011, 04:07 PM
Rosinante!! Hi and happy to hear from you!! I'm glad you have come back to share with us. So sorry to hear of your companions' passing on. :hug:

calluna
06-16-2011, 05:18 PM
Rosinanate, it's always good to see you; I'm not always diligent about 3FC posting these days either.

Don't worry! We still love you. Cherish your other pooches whilst mourning those that passed, and make sure you take care of yourself too. :hug:

ShyHeather
06-16-2011, 08:40 PM
Awww, I'm sorry to hear about the loss of your two dogs. Dogs, cats, whatever animal you become attached to really does become a part of your family, and they leave just this void once they're gone. I miss my dogs someday's, and though it's been years it makes me tear up a little when a good memory surfaces. :hug::hug:

As for the weight, you know....think of it as a mini vacation, and now you're getting back to work. The fact that you are willing to continue, and to fight to loose the weight is fantastic! I wish you the best of luck.

envelope
06-16-2011, 10:51 PM
Welcome back Rosi!

Rosinante
06-17-2011, 03:35 AM
Thanks for the kind words, ladies.

Yesterday I was 100% compliant. woohoo.
I will do it again today.

Nola Celeste
06-17-2011, 01:40 PM
Welcome back, and congratulations on a day of full sticktoitiveness!

I am so sorry to hear about your beloved dogs. It's by far the toughest thing about having pets--they don't have human lifespans. I greatly admire your resolve to be here and working on keeping yourself healthy despite heartbreak and a rough time with depression. You have some serious steel in your backbone, and I know it's going to result in a healthier you. :hug:

caryesings
06-17-2011, 02:41 PM
So glad to see you. The beau noticed that I wasn't checking in on 3FC as much anymore and I told him it was because folks like you were MIA. So glad to catch up with where you are in life's journey. Guess I'll have to log on more regularly again and get back in the groove myself. I'm quite sure my ticker is wrong, haven't the nerve to go weigh in on my "official" scale.

starbrite
06-17-2011, 02:51 PM
Rosi glad you are back. So sorry to hear about your furry family members- it's always hard. We are all here for you, always, like you have been for us :hug:

Rosinante
06-18-2011, 06:04 AM
Thanks, everyone.
Had another compliant day yesterday. That's two.

theox
06-18-2011, 08:24 PM
:hug:

Sorry to hear about your dogs. That can be rough. But it's great that you've recommitted to working on your weight, and to have the Westminster Abbey event to look forward to!

Rosinante
06-19-2011, 03:43 AM
Thankyou.

Day 3 successfully accomplished.

I need to work on my walking for exercise a bit more. However, I've had a head cold for 10 days, with hayfever on top, so I'm a bit breathless, and am struggling with more than 40 minutes, to be honest. However, I'm making sure I'm eating healthy stuff, not just a reduced calorie budget, so I'm trying to make myself as healthy as possible.

I've booked my coach ticket - a return for the incredible 15.50 - and I've booked my room - for considerably more. Someone asked my yesterday if it was very expensive: if they'd asked me that a week ago, I'd have said yes; after a week of acquainting myself with London prices, then no, it's quite reasonable. Now just planning my schedule and clothes. I love this part.

Rosinante
06-20-2011, 03:58 AM
Survived the weekend.
Saturday was compliant.
Sunday, I made this wonderful meat loaf, truly delicious but so more-ish it went in the bin. Not pleased that I couldn't control myself and just put it in the fridge but at least I didn't eat it.

Still got this hijjus cold and hay fever and breathlessness. I'm seeing my doc. next Monday.

Nola Celeste
06-20-2011, 06:20 AM
Hey, we both had a meat loaf Sunday! Mine was more-ish too, so I sent it home with folks. :D

Sorry to hear about your cold; there are things more miserable than a summer cold, but not very many. Here's hoping it leaves you alone soon so you can enjoy the longer days and get a bit of exercise without feeling breathless (ugh, I hate that feeling too).

Congratulations on your compliance! :cheer:

VickieLou
06-20-2011, 12:23 PM
:bravo: On being compliant and dumping the meatloaf! I have a weakness for meatloaf too!

Enjoy your trip to London. Have you ever been to the wax museum? I forgot how to spell the name of it.

carter
06-20-2011, 12:34 PM
Nice to see you Rosinante. So sorry about the dogs! Your posts are always funny and insightful, it will be nice to have you back here.

I've been spotty here myself of late; my twice-a-year work deadline is upon me which puts me into maintenance mode and makes me generally less pushy and sanctimonious - so, less posting on forums. :D But I know I can pick it up again when I'm ready because I've done it before - and so have you! Your great successes last year were an inspiration to many, not to mention the humor and grace with which you navigated the choppy waters of weight loss. Believe in yourself - you can do it again.

MablesGirl
06-21-2011, 09:51 AM
Hi - I'm so sorry about your dogs. It is not easy to lose a loved one. I hope you are feeling better soon.

diyana
06-21-2011, 03:31 PM
I'm so very sorry to hear about the loss of your dogs. :hug: Losing a loved one/family member is so difficult. As for the exercise...I have exercise-induced asthma...so I understand your breathless feeling. Just do the best you can. Good for you for making healthy choices, including chucking the remaining meatloaf, rather than have the temptation there. I've had to do that before with pizza.

How cool to be invited to an event at Westminster Abbey! I hope you have a fabulous time in London!

We all go through rough patches, grief, stress, etc. And sometimes our healthy goals fall by the wayside. But I totally applaud you for getting back here and most importantly getting back to making healthy choices and realistic goals...whether it's one month or even one day at a time. We can get through this...together.

Angie
06-21-2011, 10:17 PM
Congratulations on a successful day 2!

I'm sorry to hear about your dogs and your struggles with depression. :hug:

Rosinante
06-23-2011, 12:12 PM
Thankyou, everyone, for your kind words. :)

I'm keeping going, and am 6/14 down, so fairly happy with that.

On Tuesday the 2 remaining dogs and I went up to the burial ground to scatter forget-me-not seeds on the dogs' graves. We got hassled by a flock of sheep! I didn't know sheep could growl but in Yorkshire, they certainly can!

Somehow, as soon as we got back, the world went ping! and I catapulted out of that black hole. Still sad about the pups, still miss them like mad - but suddenly dieting makes sense again. I think the word is 'closure'..... :wink:

Got my coach booked (bus, not trainer) for London, and my hotel, which has links to Iowa - any Iowans around? Now planning my clothes and to-do's. This bit is fun.

Today I'm so hungry I could eat the 2 remaining dogs but hanging on..... and on....

Hope all's well with all.
:)

diyana
06-23-2011, 01:57 PM
I'm so glad you're out of the black hole. Having been there more times than I can count, I know how liberating it is to have closure and be able to see the world and goals more clearly. Too funny about the growling sheep...I had no idea they could do that either. LOL Big hugs to you. :hug: :hug:

Rosinante
06-23-2011, 02:52 PM
Michelle, I love your tag line, great advice!

diyana
06-23-2011, 03:16 PM
Awww, thanks Rosinante! :hug:

caryesings
06-23-2011, 03:38 PM
Maybe the growling sheep scared the black creature off your back...

theox
06-23-2011, 06:06 PM
Glad you're feeling better, Rosinante! I lived in Iowa for a while. It's a nice state, although the winters can be a bit ridiculous.