Honey, I felt that way about seventy pounds ago. And now, at a very high weight, I am just now picking up those pieces. I think we all have distorted veiws of ourselves now and again. We're always thinking we're worse looking or better looking than we actually are, and in both cases it can be really depressing. Good thing about it is, we can change our weights! It might be very hard right now, but you aren't carrying around permanent boulders of weight. I am willing to bet that all the judement we percieve we get from others because of our weights come from our own judgement of ourselves because we already think we aren't good enough. We sure are though! Just do your best to try and do what makes you happy, and if that means that working out and doing your best on a diet is what will make you happy in the end, even if there is a little pain up front, it's totally worth it. Even if you've fallen off the wagon, your past is not who you are not definied by your past mishaps. Actually, mishaps are part of the journey. But, you will overcome them. You can do whatever you wish, because where there is a will there is a way. *hugs*
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