[readyfreddy]

Hi All -

My (condensed) story: I grew up with food issues and body issues. My weight has bounced between 125-165 for my adult life. I cannot remember a time when I've been HAPPY with my body. I've done Atkins, nutrasystem, diet pills, calorie restriction etc, basically tried everything. I go through periods of being extremely good and then extremely bad. And now, for about the past 6 months I've just given up on this endless tug of war that is food and my weight and I managed to gain about 20 lbs (on top of the 10 I had already gained). I am close to my all time high at 162.5. I am overweight by 12.5 lbs according to the BMI chart (aka if I weigh 150 I am no longer overweight). My goal weight is 130 (right smack dab in the middle of the healthy BMI range for my height).

I just need to stay accountable and am hoping I can post here as my journey continues. My goal is to reach goal weight and then to maintain within 2-3 lbs of that weight, and to limit my binge episodes.

Thanks for listening!

[melissakd]

This is a great place to start. I was so happy to find this board a couple of months ago and I ready here every day. It is very, very helpful.

If you haven't already, go check out some of the success stories. They will get ya motivated for sure!

[readyfreddy]

Thanks Melissa! I was just reading joyful's blog.

[readyfreddy]

Ugh today is really tough but I am hanging in there, tracking all my food and activity on Fitday. I am hungry! I think these first few days will be hard as my stomach shrinks. Going to the store for some low calorie snacks tonight.

[readyfreddy]

WI: 161.0 (loss of 1.5 lbs)

Yesterday was pretty hard. I was HUNGRY. I know it will take a few days for my stomach to shrink down. It was nice to see the scale movement (even though I know it is likely water weight) to keep me inspired.

Today's plan:

Bfast
1 C. lf milk with espresso and teasp. sugar
Jimmy Dean D-light breakfast sandwich with egg white, canadian bacon, and whole wheat muffin

lunch
tilapia, broccoli and arugula salad with ranch.

snack
oatmeal and banana

dinner ??

desset - skinny cow truffle bar (100)

Fitday says that I will be at 834 cal. without dinner. I am going to a friends house so I am going to aim to eat 3-400 calories of whatever it is.

[Emme]

Hi Ready! Good luck with your weight loss journey. These journeys aren't always fun, but they are worth it in every aspect possible.

[readyfreddy]

Thanks!

[joyfulloser]

Subscribed!

You'll knock out them pounds by summer...hang in there and all the best!

[readyfreddy]

Thanks Joyful! My goal is Aug 6th which means an aggressive 2 lbs per week but I am okay as long as I make progress!

[readyfreddy]

WI: 160.5 (loss of .5 lb since yesterday)

Food:

bfast coffee with a splash of half and half, 3 eggs

lunch - nf yogurt with 2 bananas sliced in

snack - jimmy dean dlight breakfast sandwich

dinner - big salad with chicken and glass of wine

About 1200 cals per fitday

[readyfreddy]

Ugh - a bit depressed. Just got back the pro photos that were taken of me in a triathlon this past weekend. I look HORRIBLE.

I do not look like a 27 year old, in shape person.

I don't even look like an in shape person with a bulge here or there.

I look like an overweight person. There is no part of me that does not look overweight. My hips are huge.

I'm embarrassed that my BF was there and saw me looking like this although I know logically that he must know that I am fat.

Ugh. And what I really want is to have a nice big MEAL to make myself feel better but I know I'll only make myself feel worse.

How did I get 30 lbs over a weight that while I am comfortable at, I am still not THIN?

Urgh.

[joyfulloser]

Sorry your having a rough day. I know how you feel. I woke up to find that I had let myself go to the tune of 60 extra pounds!

Try to use your frustration as determination and remind yourself that "heck, good thing I woke up at 30 lbs instead of 60!" Use those emotions as motivation to "get back what you lost". Also realize that it only takes 2 1/2 to 3 months to drop 30lbs. In a few months you could be at goal and all will be forgiven.

I know it's hard to see the goal line from the start line, but as someone who has made that journey, I can ASSURE you, your not that far away...consistency is key! Feel better soon.

[readyfreddy]

Thanks Joy.

On a positive note I went away this fri-sun with a bunch of friends. It was my worst enemy. Eating, drinking galore!

BUT i managed to stay on plan(ish) and not gain!

Here's to having a really good rest of the week....

today:

coffee with half and half, d-light bfast sandwich

yogurt, brussell sprouts

dinner ??

[readyfreddy]

Fell off the wagon yesterday!!! back on today.

bfast - coffee with cream, d-light egg white sandwhich

lunch yogurt blackberries, brussell sprouts

dinner - miso soup, tuna sashimi and brown rice, seaweed salad

[readyfreddy]

Forgot to add that I am exercising more this week!

40 hour power walk this am

45 min walk jogs weds and thurs and

a 10 K on sunday! (Bay to breakers which is SO fun!)

Even though I didnt gain weight this weekend - the crap food certainly triggered the cravings. Back to being healthy!