lacey marie
04-26-2011, 12:40 AM
My name is Lacey and I am a senior in high-school.
My parents divorced when I was a toddler, but I still remember it all. I've had a very poor relationship with my mother most of my life, and, as my therapist says, my mom's house is a "toxic environment" for me.
I remember having binged on say nearly ten brownies at a party, at the age of maybe eight? But I always hid it...once I entered middle school, I began to feel more pressure to do well in school, and was stressed. Yes, I know, "kids don't get stressed." Well there are different types of stress: the stress to impress and please your parents and peers, and the stress to keep your job and house, and support your family. I have/had the first. I began binging really bad every day after school before everyone else got home. And before I knew it I developed bulimia. I would starve myself, too, once I started seventh grade. I think it was just a way to hide my binging from myself. But it ended right as it began to get really bad. I remember I got down to 129 lbs, not very thin for a sixth grader when all your friends weigh 90 lbs. Ever since seventh grade now, I've been struggling, my weight yo-yoing. Let's be honest, all I can do now is keep it from increasing too dramatically. My closet has everything from a size 2 to a size 10, hoping someday those 4s will fit right. My eating disorder is in the past, and now all I want is to be HEALTHY. Yes, thin would be nice as well, but I would like to be healthy now. My main goal is to become a healthy person, develop healthy eating habits, and along the way, drop a bit of weight. Which, I believe, can be accomplished with the help and support of you guys!!!
So, I have a small frame, so my goal weight is a bit low, however it's fine for my BMI and all. My main concern, however, is that I'll start eating too little and lose my muscle :( So I've gotta be careful, since I usually eat EVERYTHING or NOTHING...one of two extremes, and I need to break this, too.
Other than weight goals, I'll have other goals as well:
1) OVERCOME BINGE EATING!!! This will take the longest, so I'm stopping my list right here and detailing this one goal
a) After school, eat a single serving of a healthy snack
b) drink water at every meal/snack and urge to binge
I've seen some of your guys' posts, and you inspire me tremendously!!!!
KEEP IT UP!!!! :)
BTW I need an e-mail buddy....I'm a pretty mature teenager, I have about 25 lbs of fat (not muscle!) to lose, and my main concern right now is my eating, I exercise a decent amount now, so I'll focus on it more later. I will support you whether you have 5 or 500 pounds to lose :) For me, its about the habits, not the weight. I can also help you sort out your issues, I'd like to by a psychologist since I'm pretty good with psychology ;) So anyways lemme know if you interested!
<3 lacey
My parents divorced when I was a toddler, but I still remember it all. I've had a very poor relationship with my mother most of my life, and, as my therapist says, my mom's house is a "toxic environment" for me.
I remember having binged on say nearly ten brownies at a party, at the age of maybe eight? But I always hid it...once I entered middle school, I began to feel more pressure to do well in school, and was stressed. Yes, I know, "kids don't get stressed." Well there are different types of stress: the stress to impress and please your parents and peers, and the stress to keep your job and house, and support your family. I have/had the first. I began binging really bad every day after school before everyone else got home. And before I knew it I developed bulimia. I would starve myself, too, once I started seventh grade. I think it was just a way to hide my binging from myself. But it ended right as it began to get really bad. I remember I got down to 129 lbs, not very thin for a sixth grader when all your friends weigh 90 lbs. Ever since seventh grade now, I've been struggling, my weight yo-yoing. Let's be honest, all I can do now is keep it from increasing too dramatically. My closet has everything from a size 2 to a size 10, hoping someday those 4s will fit right. My eating disorder is in the past, and now all I want is to be HEALTHY. Yes, thin would be nice as well, but I would like to be healthy now. My main goal is to become a healthy person, develop healthy eating habits, and along the way, drop a bit of weight. Which, I believe, can be accomplished with the help and support of you guys!!!
So, I have a small frame, so my goal weight is a bit low, however it's fine for my BMI and all. My main concern, however, is that I'll start eating too little and lose my muscle :( So I've gotta be careful, since I usually eat EVERYTHING or NOTHING...one of two extremes, and I need to break this, too.
Other than weight goals, I'll have other goals as well:
1) OVERCOME BINGE EATING!!! This will take the longest, so I'm stopping my list right here and detailing this one goal
a) After school, eat a single serving of a healthy snack
b) drink water at every meal/snack and urge to binge
I've seen some of your guys' posts, and you inspire me tremendously!!!!
KEEP IT UP!!!! :)
BTW I need an e-mail buddy....I'm a pretty mature teenager, I have about 25 lbs of fat (not muscle!) to lose, and my main concern right now is my eating, I exercise a decent amount now, so I'll focus on it more later. I will support you whether you have 5 or 500 pounds to lose :) For me, its about the habits, not the weight. I can also help you sort out your issues, I'd like to by a psychologist since I'm pretty good with psychology ;) So anyways lemme know if you interested!
<3 lacey