100 lb. Club - Just taking a bit of a break




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lazylioness
12-23-2010, 02:51 PM
This whole week, I have been bad. Seriously, not in the grand scheme of things but comparatively speaking.

I was a bit scared to get on the scale. This morning I got on and I was still down .2 lbs. :carrot:

I decided that with all of the other stress going on in my life right now, that stressing over the chocolate and pumpkin bread in my office is a stress I do not need.

Mostly just posting to stay accountable to myself. Monday is back on track Phase I and sugar detox HAHA


seagirl
12-23-2010, 02:53 PM
So are you taking a break from the stress by accepting it and choosing good behaviors anyway? Or taking a break from being good to your body by eating junk?

lazylioness
12-23-2010, 03:26 PM
I am taking a break from the stress of counting, weighing and stressing about wanting the chocolate but not having it. I am choosing decent behaviors. I cannot say good but it is not a "free for all". Breakfast, dinner and home is still absolutely on track, work, meh that is a different story, but it is easier to go with the flow these last three days than to fight it.

Best decision for a lifetime, probably not. Best decision for the moment, yeah.


DixC Chix
12-23-2010, 03:44 PM
Lioness~

What I get from your posts for maybe the last couple weeks is that you are trying to stay honest with yourself and 'fessing up about the indulgences you have chosen to make at this oh-so-tempting time of year.

I too feel more stressed out because I have to exercise will power more often and for longer periods of time. I feel like it is running low and I can't find the way to recharge it. I decided that I would skip the store bought crap that people bring in, skip the not so special treats that are brought in every other week and just indulge in only the extra special homemade traditional dishes. That worked for a while but I find it very difficult to calculate any kind of calorie/WW points. *throws up hands*

You couldn't be all the "bad" if you are still staying pretty stable on the scale.

Group hug? :grouphug:

I CANNOT WAIT FOR Monday to have a normal food and schedule back.

lazylioness
12-23-2010, 03:50 PM
yeah DixC, I am TOTALLY trying to stay honest with myself, and part of that it knowing when I just have to let go and go with the flow.

Normally, there is not an issue with staying away from the "treats" that people bring in my office. And they do ALL the time. Just with the added stress of the holidays, financial situation at home, work stress and everything else that has made these last three months a whole bunch of suck, I have to pick and choose. This is something that I can "control" at least with some level of satisfaction. We have out of town guests (my parents) starting tonight, and my mom has already said, and I quote "you are going to have to go off your plan at least once while I am there because I am bringing you something to eat". Um ok. yeah, going with the flow at the moment is just what I have to do. heh.

On a fairly unrelated topic, I am in the middle of a complete and total meltdown. LOL. For whatever reason nothing is clear and there is no defined path for me, yet I feel like everything is rushed and hurried. Bunch of SUCK!

Shmead
12-23-2010, 03:56 PM
One suggestion: keep something of your routine. One ritual. If you are a daily weigher, keep doing that. Or keep up your exercise. Something. Letting it all go, even for a few days, makes it that much harder to come back.

DixC Chix
12-23-2010, 04:01 PM
OMG...out of town guests...and its the parents to boot!! Total and complete sympathy for you. :hug::hug: (Ugh, mother guilt is the worst)

I gotta say that the "whole bunch of SUCK" is a perfect description and it makes me laugh inside. If you don't mind I'm gonna steal that phrase for the next three days.

lazylioness
12-23-2010, 04:28 PM
Schmead-yes, I am a daily weigher, and I have kept that up, to keep me totally accountable. I am also a huge water drinker so I have kept that, and like I said, everything at home is totally on plan.

DixC-yeah mother guilt. Born again Southern Baptist, used to be married to an Italian Catholic, mother guilt! LOL. Seriously. But in the next breath, she is all about how I totally need to cook "on SB plan because her and my dad are doing it too" Lose/Lose so I give up! HAHA. Feel free to use the phrase, I used it with my boss last week when he wrote me up for a FACEBOOK post that I made AT HOME, on my OWN TIME, from my OWN COMPUTER, about my OWN BUSINESS. yeah. whole BUNCH of suck!

Gale02
12-23-2010, 04:41 PM
One suggestion: keep something of your routine. One ritual. If you are a daily weigher, keep doing that. Or keep up your exercise. Something. Letting it all go, even for a few days, makes it that much harder to come back.

I agree with Shmead! I've not been making the best choices the last couple of weeks, but I am absolutely making myself step on that scale every single day (even when I drink wine the night before and KNOW it's going to be up!) and drink my water. So far, I've maintained. Not ideal, but not what I usually do during the holidays for sure.

Keeping those little habits up mean you're not completely off the wagon. At least, that's what it means for me! :)

Gale02
12-23-2010, 04:44 PM
I used it with my boss last week when he wrote me up for a FACEBOOK post that I made AT HOME, on my OWN TIME, from my OWN COMPUTER, about my OWN BUSINESS. yeah. whole BUNCH of suck!

That is a whole bunch of suck! But, it could be worse. My husband works for a company that requires him to hold a top-level DOE security clearance and one of the guys he worked with got FIRED for something he posted on MySpace. They deemed him a security risk and he can never hold a clearance again.

That's a good reason not to be FB friends with people you work with. ;)

DixC Chix
12-23-2010, 04:53 PM
Seriously. But in the next breath, she is all about how I totally need to cook "on SB plan because her and my dad are doing it too" Lose/Lose so I give up! HAHA.

When I told my mother I had lost 50#, she said "Well, its a start" and in the next breath she told me she had shipped a big box of cookies to me. *sigh*

Gale02
12-23-2010, 04:54 PM
When I told my mother I had lost 50#, she said "Well, its a start" and in the next breath she told me she had shipped a big box of cookies to me. *sigh*


It's a start?!?! Wow, your mother makes my family look like the Brady Bunch. :( I'm sorry she said that to you... 50 lbs is way more than a start, it's FANTASTIC!! You keep up the good work!!

lazylioness
12-23-2010, 05:38 PM
yeah seriously, I cannot wait to lose 50#!

My mom says "I did not lose the weight, I know where it is. In the cookies I am bringing for Christmas" seriously WTF.

This is my absolute FAVORITE "momism" though----"you know, looking back at pictures of you through the years, I always thought you were fat, but really you were not. You should get down to that weight again" Um thanks I think?

Now mind you, I was HUGE (or what I thought of as huge at the time) when I delivered my eldest daughter. I was a whole whoppin 175 and I had gained 40lbs with her. Yeah, the ENTIRE time I was pregnant, I heard "are you going to eat that?" "are you sure that you need that?"

Ugh mothers. I swear part of the reason I am doing this is to shut her up once and for all. Of course I know that it will not happen because this is how it is going to go tonight. "wow, you HAVE lost weight, fantastic! Why did you color your hair that red color?"

Shmead
12-23-2010, 05:50 PM
Here's my related Grandmother story: She was bragging that my cousin's new wife is "under 100 pounds, just a tiny thing", and never mentioned that she also just got a job as a professor at MIT. Priorities, priorities!

lazylioness
12-23-2010, 05:52 PM
HAHA isn't it funny how people prioritize things. Seriously, like being tiny is the only thing that matters. It is no wonder we all have issues. Sometimes I am surprised that we do not have MORE issues.

DixC Chix
12-23-2010, 06:12 PM
I am LMAO. Seriously!

The things relatives say and do...if its not sabotage, its a backhanded complement.

I love the sentances that end in 'for a girl your size' (i.e., That dress would look good on a girl your size or You move pretty quick for a girl your size).

PinkHoodie
12-23-2010, 06:35 PM
I am right there with you all, except I have gained. :( I am starting to realize I have a problem. But I have decided I have to cut myself some slack. Sunday will start Phase 1/detox for me, and I'm telling myself now since I indulged in Christmas, I will not be indulging in New Year's except for one glass of sparkling cider with DH (tradition). I have to get back on track, I'm hoping that I can concentrate the next year on making things a habit, that is my goal so NEXT Christmas I will not fly off the handle like this Christmas....I don't understand why Christmas has to be about spending money and giving people crap to eat...LOL. I just really don't! :P

lazylioness
12-23-2010, 06:44 PM
I hear ya Pink. I was doing really well, until everything else fell apart. And then sure enough I went right back to food as the way of making myself feel better. It of course did not work, but by the time I had realized what was going on, I could not reign it in completely, so I just had to minimize the damage.

I keep saying this every single year, but I mean it this one. I am doing a "homemade" Christmas next year. Seriously and for real. I usually have a slight issue with the Holidays, but this year is just horrible.

PinkHoodie
12-23-2010, 06:53 PM
I'm the same way with food Lazy...it is horrible to be an emotional eater. I heard recently that eating is a way to stop yourself from feeling an emotion, and how true is that?
My issue this year is that I have been trying to have a baby for over 6 years, and finally got pregnant this year only to miscarry at 9 week 6 days. It has just sent me into a depression. I am surprised I have even been as successful as I have been this year. But my due date was January 29th, so its just there in the back of my mind ALL the time...plus Christmas is just depressing dealing with infertility over all. Don't worry, I'm not still depressed, I have good days and bad, but I feel the depression cloud lifting which is good. :)
Anyways, just wanted to air that out there. LOL. But I do understand...

lazylioness
12-23-2010, 07:12 PM
It is totally true Pink.

I grew up in a not very nice environment, and feeling was just not an option. As I have gotten older, I have recognized when I eat my feelings. I thought that I had it under control, but obviously not.

I am sorry that you have had such trouble with getting pregnant :( I cannot even begin to understand that, since I never had that issue. However my sister went through a similar situation, and she ended up with two beautiful daughters (age 13 and 10 now) She did it with one bad cystic ovary. So hang in there, it will happen and when it does, it will be totally the absolutely right time and you will have a beautiful healthy baby to go with the beautiful healthy new you. *hugs*