Hi all, im new here & this is my first post. Im still trying 2 get tha hang of these forums!
Anywayz, im posting because im having a really difficult time with binge eating. This is the first time ive ever spoken about this. Its hard because i feel i hav noone to turn too.
It seems i can NEVER feel full. Ive come 2 accept that i have an eating disorder of some kind but im still unsure as 2 what exactly it is.
For the past 3-4 years ive had a real problem with food. Im 19 btw. I used 2 weigh about 58kg b4 all this started (im in australia, dont know lbs) then i lost alot of weight due to drugs (please dont judge that) & got down to 42kg which was my lowest weight. Some ppl thought i was nearing anorexia & i guess i was.
Then for about 2 yrs i continued to do drugs & that kept my weight down so on the outside i was happy but on the inside it was killing me. So then i decided to quit all drugs because it was really messing wit my head but thats when all the weight piled back on & i got even heavier. Now i weigh about 65kg & am having real emotional problems trying to deal with this.
For the past 6 months ive been in a depressed state which im now slowly coming out of. I feel i cant talk to anyone about this but im hoping some of you out there can give me some advice or support.
My eating got out of control for about 3 months & im just now gaining control back. But i dont know what else to do. Why cant i ever feel full? Even if i binge i still feel as though i could eat more. It really hurts me inside to think that im never going to lose this weight. I dont know how to stop the compulsion. I just want to be able to gain control of my life once more. I havent been out with my friends in ages. I cant even remember the last time. I just feel so fat & none of my clothes fit me anymore.
If anyone wants to email me & maybe start an email-buddy thing then that would be great. My email is
[email protected]. I could really do with some support right now.
Thanx.