You know what's interesting is that I've never been really sensitive about my weight, but I've never been open about it either. It's been the source of a lot of pain in my life, but I've always been more comfortable with just pretending the problem wasn't there. Now that I'm going through this and tackling it as a journalist, it's helping me be more honest with myself about why I'm overweight and how I deal with it.
Now that I've written these articles, I also feel accountable. All of my friends and family know what I'm going through, as well as hundreds of complete strangers. I've gotten comments and e-mails from people in my position, and people who have been thinking about the surgery. I've gotten support from so many people that I now feel like if I fail at this, I'm not just letting myself down. And while it's a lot of pressure, it's also an amazing incentive.
Although frankly, I really wish someone would puree a slice of pizza for me now.