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11-18-2009, 12:09 PM
Hi everyone,

Lately, I have been feeling extremely blessed/fortunate. I know that's a strange statement to start with, but it's the truth. I thoroughly enjoy my life. I love my friends, I love my husband, my family, my pets, my apartment, my healthy lifestyle, and myself. I am honestly and truly thankful for every day on this planet.

And it makes me paranoid. I feel like I am just too darn lucky for my own good, and that the universe is going to have to compensate at some point. I see suffering on the news, I hear about it from other people, and because I work with the public, I see it every day. While I enjoy my life, and try to live life to the fullest, I often wonder when the "big equalizer" is going to come.

Am I crazy, or do other people ever feel this way too?

btw, I know that worrying over something that may or may not come (and that I'll never see coming) is pretty pointless... but I feel like if I don't worry, that's when it's gonna hit, lol.

11-18-2009, 02:55 PM
you are not alone. for me, for the first time in my life- everything is lining up into place and things are truly GOOD! I do struggle with anxiety on a regular basis- but this waiting for the bad things to start... it's hard! :) I know I should be enjoying the good while it's here instead of worrying about the imminent bad that's coming... but I just can't stop myself. No real words of wisdom, just wanted you to know you're not alone. :)

11-18-2009, 05:31 PM
I sometimes feel this way too. My life has never been better and I'm happier than I've ever been in my life. I do wonder sometimes if I'm just being set up!;)

But I try to enjoy each day and not worry about the things I can't control. If something is going to happen, it's going to happen whether I worry about it or not.

11-19-2009, 11:58 AM
So strange that you chose right now to post this!! On Tuesday I was having the EXACT SAME THOUGHTS!!!

Right now, my life is exactly where I want/need for it to be--a healthy little boy and a baby on the way. Good husband, secure job with GREAT benefits and pay, and FINALLY getting all my bills paid to the point where I have money left over PLUS saving toward our land/house.

Well, when is the bottom going to fall out? Yep, it scares me, too when things are so good!!

I'm trying to look at it like this, though: maybe all this GOOD stuff now is a reward for all the year I spent struggling trying to get here. Maybe instead of the bottom falling out, I spent all that time laying a FIRM foundation.