Not many food steps but it's all related, of I can achieve some small steps in my general life too, it all accumulates.
Basically, I feel like I'm standing on the edge of the pit of depression, having finally managed to hand over hand haul my way out. I've got my back to it, I'm looking in the right direction but any minute now I could slither back. So I'm working on the tiny steps away.
Today:
1. Eat an unadulterated banana for breakfast.
2. Do a routine hoover of sitting room.
3. Get out the sweet-smelling wood polish and do the sitting room furniture.
4. Wash all the dishes.
5. Clean the second half of the kitchen.
6. Change all the dog bedding
7. Contact the c/warden to make sure she's made arrangements for Saturday's concert.
8. Walk into the city and buy supplies for said concert and for mother's weekend visit.
9. Check bedding for said visit.
10. Try to get the heart-med dog out today.
11. Visit Lads' and Girls' Brigades and sort out Nativity Play.
12. Attend a chapter meeting (clergy, not ****'s angels) - Really don't want to give up my evening for that but it's kind of compulsory.
Wow! I think you should feel pretty proud of yourself for all those "little" steps. I have to say those would be big steps for me, when I am feeling demotivated. WTG!
That's a great list! A woman I know keeps a journal and every day lists something she's done that day to be proud of; no matter how badly she thinks the day has been, there is always *something* to feel good about. Your list reminds me of that... and that I keep telling myself I'm going to do it too!
Rosinante -- I so enjoy your posts because I believe I feel just like you much of the time. Being productive makes me happy, and I suspect it does you also. Your list is really long, though. Don't set yourself up for failure. I'm rooting for you, best wishes.
11/12 - still not got the heart med dog out but not bad.
Tomorrow's list
1. Eat porridge for breakfast.
2. Routine hoover the sitting room.
3. Do all the washing up before I go out.
4. Clean the kitchen sink.
5. Say Morning Prayer in church.
6. Put out choir chairs in church ready for concert.
7. Replace the last of the acky dog bedding.
8. Make mince recipe ready for evening meal.
9. Collect mother from York.
10. Take her to discount soft furnishings outlet.
11. Food shopping.
12. Clean downstairs bathroom.
Sheesh girl, I increased my to-do list from 2 items to 3 (and still avoiding the filing). Thanks for the inspiration.
I have realized that part of my funk was dreading the idea of going away with friends for a long weekend at the end of the month. I'm a person who prefers my own company and has to work at being sociable. Every weekend this couple invites me to spend time with them and I can only manage to spend the day with them about every 3 weeks. I know they are often hurt that I don't want to hang out with them all the time so I had said yes to the big trip idea. But I really think this is what was pushing me into a major black mood. So I e-mailed them my regrets today and am already feeling better.
I guess it sort of proves the idea of pushing moods down with food. Now that I'm not doing that I really had to confront a pretty unpleasant aspect of my personality.
caryesings, I totally understand that feeling.The concert tomorrow night is sitting over me like a big, black cloud. Partly because I have a little reponsibility for the organizing of it, partly because it's a social event in the evening when I'd just rather stay home and do not very much.
There are times when I really do need lists of these tiny things, because the big things feel so far beyond me. I'll hope to build up, once I get the idea of doing anything at all firmly established. The filing - well, maybe next week!
I know how you feel. When I was young I was so enthusiastic about going out and meeting new people and having new experiences. I always wanted to know what was over the next hill. Now I only go out three times a week to go swimming and the rest of the time I'm like a recluse. I don't know what happened to that person. She's gone. The only thing I can work up any enthusiasm about is if the scale is down. That is the story of my whole life: waiting and on hold until I lose weight. THEN my life will start. But I don't feel depressed. Just kind of in neutral.
Wow, sounds like you are very motivated. I think you have a great idea... making reasonable to-do lists and completing the tasks is a great way to show yourself you can do anything you put your mind to. It gives you a sense of accomplishment.
11/12 - still not got the heart med dog out but not bad.
Tomorrow's list
1. Eat porridge for breakfast.
2. Routine hoover the sitting room.
3. Do all the washing up before I go out.
4. Clean the kitchen sink.
5. Say Morning Prayer in church.
6. Put out choir chairs in church ready for concert.
7. Replace the last of the acky dog bedding.
8. Make mince recipe ready for evening meal.
9. Collect mother from York.
10. Take her to discount soft furnishings outlet.
11. Food shopping.
12. Clean downstairs bathroom.
woohoo, managed them all! (Just couldn't get into the site to record it! )
Saturday Steps 1. Wash up as I go.
2. Print service sheet covers at home.
3. Print service sheet insides at church.
4. Move furniture for choir.
5. Invent tasty lunch for mother.
6. Clean half dog yard.
7. Write sermon.
8. Write children's talk.
9. Make and laminate posters.
10. Clean the other half of the dog yard.
Your industriousness is contagious. I'm still avoiding the filing but not only did the laundry, I ironed and that's a chore I always avoid.
And I can report the couple I'm now not going away with at the end of the month is not mad about me cancelling even if they don't quite understand why. But we did have a pretty good online exchange that I haven't been able to say to their faces. Really hard to explain that it's an effort for me to spend time with them without sounding hurtful, but putting it into writing let me go into specific detail that I just haven't been able to say in person whenever I've attempted to broach the subject.
Today's little steps
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