300+ Club - 300+ Weekly Thread #1233

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Hello, new week!

Sorry for the MIA-ness this weekend. I'll be by in the a.m. Well, if I get any sleep that is.

Morning everyone! I wrote a big long post last night and the computer monsters ate it. I am really struggling at the moment with anxiety/OCD because they are changing my meds and right now I am getting off the old ones. I am restless with anxious energy. I slept about 4 hours last night. Also ended up snacking a bit last night. Frustrated and just feeling down and anxious.

How is everyone else?

Morning ladies...

Well..my weight is totally up, but I'm STILL on TOM, so I'm thinking that a portion of it is the bloat and water retention. I usually gain about 4-8 pounds during that time, then I start to shed it the week I'm over it. I feel like I've gained weight though, but I'm not going to step on the scale until this next weekend. I figure focus on the exercise and meal balance, that is enough of my focus.

Waking up this morning...a bit restless myself. Gotta get to the store and buy veggies veggies veggies...going to plan my meals for this week in just a bit. Gotta work on this and that, an annoying meeting on Weds coming up...oy.

I hope everyone is well! :D *HUGS*

Pinkflamino: I have never been on that craft site..but it is book marked and ready for me eyes later on! Sorry your OCD/anxiety is getting the best of you right now ;(

Jacquie: My TOM is heading right for me! I can tell!! Probably just as I go back to work! What a great thing to look forward to NOT!!

AS for me: I have been 2 days without percosets!! YEAH!! I am sooo glad! I am taking tylenol though..and that is because of my neck pains. I am a stomach sleeper and since I have not been able to sleep on my stomach, I have to sleep on my back..hence neck cramps.

I put on a bra yeesterday and went to get groceries and to joanns. At first it was a little sore..but got better.

I go to the endocrinologist today for follow up. See if she has to adjust my meds again or not.

Today..going to work on making halloween decorations. We are going to have a little party here ..lets hope its cool enough for a fire!

Hello ladies! Hope everyone's week is off to a great start! I'm at school kiiling some time before my next class. Gotta a big midterm to take but pretty confident with the material. What I'm really nervous about is, of course, weigh-in at the Y today! lol. I've slacked this week. Well, mainly the past 4 days. Very little exercise. My food choices have been good in general, but I had two nights this week where I consumed too much food, too late in the evening. So, even though it was HEALTHY food, that worries me. I need some fresh motivation this week. I really wanted to push myself and I did not. Hopefully the scale is forgiving.*fingers crossed* I'll report in later!

I'm going to a Zumba class at the Y tonight! They just started it this week... VERY excited about that... Maybe that will be my fresh motivation. :D

Good Morning ladies...well as you can see by my ticker i gained about 5 lbs last week :( from not doing enough exercise and making poor food choices but today is a fresh start for me..i got on the scale and weighed myself and that is what is on the ticker and since im starting fresh today i am changing my weigh-in days from fridays to mondays and today i got in a 45 circuit training workout and im back on track with my eating..had a good time last week with company that came in from out of town and last weekend going out of town but now the company is gone and i wont be going out of town again for another 2 months so it is time for me to concentrate on losing weight and finding a job!

So, even though i am up 5 lbs i am happy today because i had a great workout this morning and im back on track!

have a great day ladies
Heather

Hi! Hooray new week, I need you!

kayleystar - thanks, look forward to when you schedule thins out

hi nooch!

PinkFlamingo - sorry bout the anxiety/OCD, my DH is going through a bad patch of same thing and I know its hard

Jacquie668 - hang in there, I'm doing the TOM weight gain thing myself and its frustrating for us scale obsessers

azcyn - I hope that means 2 days serious pain free too! I like to try sleeping with a body pillow, you might give it a try! good luck with Dr's

HippieMama - good luck on your midterm! have fun in Zumba

hbieber2006 - I'm with you, but last week is gone - clean slate - so I know we will both do better this week! We are both glad to be back on track and we both are really reaching for our end of year goals, We can do it!!!

Jacquie - Good on you for the veggies! What are your favourites? I love peppers!

Cyn - I am glad the pain is better. And Halloween party sounds fun!

Hippiemama - My Y offers zumba too, but I have been too nervous to go to any of the classes! I'm self-conscious and I also have a tendency to faint when I push myself too hard. It would be embarrassing if I passed out in the middle of the class! Let me know how it goes!

heather - Maybe some of the weight is water weight? It seems rather excessive to gain that much in one week! xoxo sorry to hear about the gain, I know that hurts!!!

lost - Sorry to hear about your DH! Anxiety is a *****.


Well, I am very very disappointed in myself today. I am usually a good student, but one assignment worth 30% of my grade is now 4 days late (I am losing 5% a day). I was supposed to go to school this morning to hand it in, but I ended up sleeping until 1. I just ignored it when my alarm went off. So now it is another day late. I also missed all my classes today after promising my friend/minister I would make a fresh start this week and go to all my classes. I feel really guilty and my anxiety is through the roof. Disappointed in myself, because today was going to be a fresh start. I keep telling myself ***take responsibility, not blame*** and trying to look at a way to fix this instead of condemning myself.

I also have not been doing very well food-wise. I have not had a good day since last week. I have barely been out of the house (I am borderline agoraphobic). VERY VERY anxious and disappointed in myself.

I want to cry and scream and eat an entire carton of ice cream.

PinkFlamingo, I am so very sorry - I remember at time, a few years ago when I went through that........ if you give in and let it take control it will escalate, first I wouldn't leave house, then I wouldn't leave my room - eventually I ended up staying in my closet for almost 2 weeks, just hiding in there..... life is hard, but what's out here is better...... we're hear to listen to you

PinkFlamingo ~ I know how tough it can be to keep motivated through school! I had a really horrible semester last Spring and I am working hard to turn it around now.Keep remembering that pot o' gold at the end of the rainbow! :)

Weighed in today and I am down another 3 lbs. I was pretty happy with that considering my slacking off the last half of the week... REALLY want to work hard this week and maybe get my total up towards 25lb. (19 total now for me) And I can officially say goodbye to 300+ lbs. forever! (If all goes well) Bummed bc my babysitter for tonight (Zumba) and her girls have the flu. Not sure if I'm going to be able to find a replacement. :( I'm working on it though.... I'm ready to shake my arse. lol. :D

I have been dealing with the Canadian tax people and a bank today. I so need some chocolate right now. I just hope I gave them a bigger headache than they have given me.

Hello ladies! Sorry I've been MIA. Been busy. I've read up on everyone, but I don't have time for personals this evening. I'll be back in the swing of things tomorrow, though! :)

Today marked day 15 of the 30 Day Shred; halfway there! :)

Also, I officially made my first mini goal of 350 lbs. That's -30 lbs, and it's also the weight that I originally started at when I joined this site. So now, I've lost the additional weight that I gained when I went off track. I still have a long way to go, but it made me so thrilled. And it hit it exactly, as my scale weighed in at 350.0 :) My next mini goal is to lose 20 more pounds, to make a nice -50.

Kayley - great job!

WTG Kayley!! That's awesome!!

So, I LOVED Zumba. The room was PACKED... probably because it was the first night for it.... I'm sure it'll thin out somewhat. It was really fun! I didn't have time to be overly self-conscious about shakin' my booty in front of a bunch of people because you have to watch the instructor non-stop to keep up with and learn the steps. lol. It was definitely my favorite of the classes I've taken, and the one where I didn't check the clock and was even a little disappointed when it was over. It should help me step up my workout schedule and burn some more fat.

Also, made fajitas so spicy tonight my nose ran while I ate them. (I'm into that) AND they were ridiculously healthy. :D Off to relax and get a good night's sleep tonight.... something else I need to work on....

:hug:Hippymomma, how do you make your fajitas? I've used kits before but I know the salsas & white tortilas are not good for weight loss. WTG on the class, what sort of dancing is it, a bit like salsa ?xxxxxx
Pink, WOW, not just me who does that then? ;)Just take a breath, get your essay (or finish it) put some make-up on (if you wear it) or perfume or a 'lucky' scarf, jewellery (whatever makes you feel GOOD) then go. The longer you leave it the worse it gets, I know from experience!!!! :hug:Seize the day! once you get back moving it will seem so much better, anyone asks say you've had a bug/virus, see if your tutors can 'let you off' the marks lost-do they know you have your illness? I'm sure if they're aware of it (even better if you have documentary eveidence to prove it) they will give you leeway. Good luck!!! Please let us know how you're doing:hug: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Annie, I hope you're getting support, hugs & any meds you need,:hug: I'm thinking of you a lot, as I'm sure people on here are too.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Catherine how's being a car owner going?xxxxxxxx
Nooch, great to 'see' you again.xxxxxxxxxx
Emilymay, how was the first day/2 days at work? Hope you enjoyed it & helped lots of people.:hug:xxxxxxxxxx
Went to the Dr yesterday, I've got sciatica (sp??) gotta have physio, but if it helps I'm all for it, he was also worried about my stress levels (sons being disabled, Dad ill...etc...) . Now I'll be seeing a counsellor too. Hubby took me to a local craft shop & I picked up some stuff to make my own cards (something I've been wanting to do for AGES) & he also paid for me to go on a card-making morning at the shop on Wednesday, I'm quite excited by it!! The shop itself is FULL of 'stuff' some of it looks WAY too nice to put on cards, little charms which I'd make into earrings or bracelets instead, lol..Steve looked worried (he saw pound signs & thought I'd bankrupt us!!) but I promised to not buy more stuff ...yet...lol!!!
I'm behaving food-wise but not much exercise as TOM is still here.
xxxxxxxsharon:hug:

Kayley - Fantastic! I think you deserve some kind of reward for all your hard work! Think of something nice you can do for yourself!

Hippiemama - Awesome! Maybe I will try Zumba too... not sure if I could keep up though!

voodoo - Cardmaking sounds awesome! What kind of cards are you going to make? Crafts are good to help with stress.


I had a terrible night. I woke up at 2 am and crammed my face full of all kinds of crap. I am up 2 lbs. :( I feel like giving up. You work hard for weeks and it's all blown on one night of eating crap. I KNEW weighing myself was a BAD idea.

I see the psychiatrist today. I am going to see if I can get her to write me a note for my late assignments and also to see if she will give me some anti-anxiety meds, at least temporarily.

Have a good day everyone. I want to go back to bed and cry, but I am going to force myself to go to class. :hug:

Kayley: CONGRATS on reaching your goal!!!

Catherine: tax people suck lol. Hubby and I got audited from 2001..just got the bill the other day for $530.00. I am sorry..but if they didnt catch it in 2001, they should not be allowed to bill us in 2009. Just my opinion!

Voodoo: Card making is so much fun! I signed up for a group that sends cards to our soldiers over seas so they can use them to write home to their loved ones! I am currently working on Christmas ones because thy need to be post marked my Nov 1st. I also make my own birthday cards..Christmas cards and everyone is so much happier to see those then store bought! Post some pics when you get them done.

Pinkflamingo: DOn't be too hard on yourself..honestly..sometimes we need to eat crap! lol

As for me: Today I go to the surgeons to get my stitches out. The Diarhea has subsided a little bit. Last night we watched the Broncos football game. It is funny to hear hubby talk like he knows anything about football. LOL He will watch Broncos football..but me and my oldest can watch game after game after game of whomever. :)

I will be working on more Christmas cards today for the group I belong to. I think I am going to try to have a "card party" at my house before Valentines day. They say that is a really big holiday they need cards for.

My niece and nephew will be over today. This outta be fun lol. I have to make sure I have juice and bubbles LOL

Have a great day all

Kayley good job girl, It seems like it's taking me forever to loose that one and a half pound i need to hit twenty pounds lost. I'll get there,

Lost sorry to hear about your DH. I have panic attacks and anxiety as well prayers go out to you .

to everyone else, keep up the great work and am proud of you, sorry I haven't been around much just been busy and dealing with an issue. Take care all.

Hello all...i had a great workout today for 1.5 hrs doing my xtreme fit mat workout and my eating has been excellent for the past 2 days and i have no intentions of stepping on the scale until monday morning and i am hoping to have a big weight loss and hoping that some of that 5 lb gain last week was partially water weight gain so just wanted to come on here and give a quick update.

talk to you ladies later
have a great day
Heather

Sharon - I'm loving the van. I keep wanting to pick people up at bus stops though. I haven't had a wreck yet, so that's a good thing too. It's nice to go shopping and not have to worry about how to get something home.

Cyn-We've been in a government Bermuda triangle. They have a type of IRA here that is just for the disabled called an RDSP. To encourage people to start them (especially for their disabled kids), the government is going to do matching funds for the first so many years. Anyway, We've been fighting with the Canadian IRS every year after tax time because they make us fill out forms proving we are married. They just can't seem to accept it or something. So when we applied at the bank (BMO) for the savings thing, his went through, but mine got bounced because the agency (HRDC) overseeing the program didn't talk to Revenue or got the wrong information from them as to whether I had a disability tax credit certificate to be eligible for the RDSP. So I had to scream at HRDC to talk to RC. When they finally got their stuff settled, HRDC told me to call BMO to have them resubmit my application. BMO said they would Oct. 1. Didn't happen. Now BMO says they can't because their computer won't let them re-submit. We have now appealed to the BMO Ombudsman for help, and our Member of Parliament. If it isn't fix soon, I will loose $8000. Ticked doesn't even begin to describe it.

Sharon ~ I kind of make them differently every time depending on what I have. My cupboards are bare so this is what I did last night...

Used 3 corn tortillas. I always go with these, they're much better for you than flour. I heat them in a nonstick pan until a little browned on both sides.

I sauteed some sliced red, green, and yellow bell peppers in a skillet with just a little non-stick spray. I added 1/4 cup of the good, fresh salsa you can get in the cooler at the grocery store. A little cumin, cayenne, chili powder, garlic, jalapeno sauce (mild kind, just for flavor) and cooked until the peppers were not so crunchy. Then, I added some cold, pre-cooked shrimp for the last couple of minutes. I ended up tearing up the tortillas and putting it all together in a bowl because it's easier to eat. Normally I'd have onions in there and maybe some beans or whole grain rice. And I'd definitely top it off with a TBSP of light sour cream. But, it was pretty good for using what's left in my kitchen. lol.

Watching The Biggest Loser. I'm so into it this year. (For obvious reasons. lol) Anyone else?

Day 16 of the Shred is finished. 14 to go! :)

Yesterday, my boyfriend took me out to lunch at Olive Garden...talk about big time temptation! But I got the unlimited soup, salad, and breadsticks. Didn't eat any of the breadsticks (empty calories), had two big plates of salad with light dressing, and a bowl of Minestrone soup (surprisingly low in calories!) I saved some calories, because I did let myself have two bites of my boyfriend's cheesecake. And you know, I don't feel bad about it, because I allotted those calories, and I wanted some, so I knew that if I didn't, I would binge later. :)

Christmas kind of came early for me as well. My boyfriend & I went to Best Buy, and he picked me up the iPod Touch & 500 gb external hard drive that I'd been wanting! I was so surprised. Love it! The touch is so great. I've got my Sparkpeople app., and it's soooo handy. :)

Andrea - I've heard such great things about Zumba! Glad you enjoyed it. :) I downloaded two different Zumba workouts about a month ago, and when I finish with my 30 days of the Shred, I think I'll try it out. :) I've been a big fan of The Biggest Loser for about 4 years now. Love that show! I even tried out for it back in June for the next season, but didn't get chosen, obviously.

Pink - Feeling better today? *hugs*

Tracy - It's always those last couple of pounds. You're almost there, so keep it up! :)

I started Yoga, yeah me! could only do 5 minutes, and I was awful and I think things are stuck where I am not sure they should go, but yeah me!

Hi everyone,

Still struggling. I just ate half a bag of chips. I need to get RIGHT BACK ON IT tomorrow, right???

I saw the psychiatrist and she is starting me on Zoloft. She also gave me some klonopin/clonazepam/rivotril for anxiety. So right now I am feeling much better, just a little sleepy! Feel like I have undone all my weight loss though in the past couple of days :(

Lostbutstilltrying - Keep at it! Yoga is wonderful, and sooo relaxing!

Pink - I hope that you are able to get back on track today; get rid of all the junk food in your house! *hugs*

*tosses her scale out of the house* I swear to all that is holy moly...I'm going to kill it.

So, I did step on the scale, despite being banned (yeah okay I'm banned now) and my friggin' weight this morning is 272 and I sort of blink and go "BS!" lol. My boyfriend is convinced I've gained muscle, he has noticed me flexing my arms a bit and said they look more shapely. I also think I ended my TOM yesterday, but still I have made some poor choices over the past month and a half, emotional eating again, and here I am. I don't know if it is weight gain or still water. I have been rather bloated lately, but the thing is it bugs me that it is that high right now. So, even though I'm hopeful it will go down I have to admit I'm making some major mistakes with food intake. I'm also a bit depressed, which is why I've been a bit quiet the past two days. I really miss my Mom right now and I always miss her during the holidays, but this year I really really need her and well...knowing she has passed on in the way that she did just makes me feel down. So, with all of that...weight gain.

Going to try a few things and weigh-in on Sunday. I do think I'm not eating enough then I overeat at dinner (a very old habit). It is hard as like right now I'm not hungry, yet I'm forcing myself to eat or I don't have time later and I'm not eating enough, especially for a raw food vegan. I just need like a zillion mini meals a day. I get full easily. It is really frustrating and now I'm seeing that the happiest I am is when I'm just eating veggies and things. When I start adding in those cooked foods...well that is when it goes downhill. I seem to be unable to manage that as of yet, but I think part of my problem CARBS and FATS. So, having the rest of October clean with little fat is essential I think.

Bah...frustrating. My clothes don't feel tighter, but would they with a few pounds up? Or is this not real weight? Is the exercising and soreness and everything adding poundage? LOL .... That is what I'm asking myself, but the thing is it makes you wish you had some robot that can look at you and tell you what is going on. Like "yes you've gotten FATTER" lol...I would love that. ;)

Haha Update:...boyfriend has physically banned me from the scale. He says until I get my "head straight" and then he said "understand." lol.... The 'understand' part means business lol. Okay...tantrum is over, I'll work on my little depression and I'll refocus....hey at least I'm like actually doing the exercise part for once. :P :D And with WEIGHTS! lol...well 3 pound weights and my little dinky wrist weights. I'm giving myself a pep talk... can you tell?

So so so many things affect the scale. We have to remember that as a tool to measure fat loss, it is a poor tool indeed!!!! Our bodies are mostly water, so any fluctuations there affect the number on the scale. But we don't know when we watch the scale go up or down why it's doing that. Fat? Muscle? Water?? Who knows!

So, use it as one of your tools. Measuring is another good tool. As is how your clothes fit.

But the scale is :devil: and do not let it get the best of you!!!

So so so many things affect the scale. We have to remember that as a tool to measure fat loss, it is a poor tool indeed!!!! Our bodies are mostly water, so any fluctuations there affect the number on the scale. But we don't know when we watch the scale go up or down why it's doing that. Fat? Muscle? Water?? Who knows!

So, use it as one of your tools. Measuring is another good tool. As is how your clothes fit.

But the scale is :devil: and do not let it get the best of you!!!

Totally what I need to hear! I think I am letting it get the best of me and I think continuing to refocus my energies into something much more positive is essential for my own peace of mind as well as just living. I am most happy when I am just LIVING lol. It is funny how I say that then fixate on certain things! I still have a lot of learning to accomplish.

I mean even those fancy scales don't get you the information you really need...for now I'm going to refocus into positive energies. :D :hug:

And it is the :devil: especially when it disagrees with me. lol

Jacquie: I don't own a scale..I really want to get one..but will be afraid that I will obcess over it..lol...maybe once I get more serious about loosing.

Hippiemama: Your making me hungry lol. I need to try a good fahita recipie

Catherine: sorry about the tax troubles..ugh! That is alot of friggin money to loose.

Lost: I tried Yoga a few years back..I didnt get far. My biggest fear was breaking a hip lol

As for me: my uncle went to the ER yesterday. He was watching TV and next thing ya know he couldnt breathe and thought he was having a heartattack! The ER doesnt think it is his heart. They kept him over night for observation. Hubby and I went up and seen him. It is funny...he is my one uncle that complains about everything from the world to the caps on toothpaste! He always says he cant wait for God to call him home...BUT when he thought he was having a heart attack yesterday..he was scared. I told him..take it from me..if you complain about how bad life is...LIFE will show you!

Today we are getting all the decorations for our halloween/birthday bash.

Surgeon appt went great yesterday. He said my diarhea should get better and that I can add my fiber back in.

Ok, so I need to stop worrying about making the leap right back into the deep end and instead wade my way back out there from the shore. Step one, start coming back here every day and posting even if all I do is wave. How hard can that be? :)

So :wave:

I made decent choices at lunch (soup and salad) and just need to pick up some groceries on the way home. I had meant to do a big shopping run on Sunday, but my car died on me and I didn't get a chance. I should be able to go tomorrow night though and get myself stocked up with good stuff. One of my problems recently has been not doing enough prep with shopping and then not having anything good to eat in the house. I then either don't eat (not a good choice because it leads to bad choices later) or not such great choices to start with.

:wave: back at you Nancy

Hugs to you Nancy! Glad you are back in the deep end with us.

Luv,
Ratkity

Cyn - Sometimes I love the scale and I say that when I don't weigh myself a lot, other times it ticks me off as Heather said, it is a tool but not a very good one. I fully admit that there are times I do obsess, but before I go too deeply (heck at the beginning of my journey I was VERY obsessive lol) I usually throw some sort of stomping feet tantrum, like today, and then refocus lol. So, I threw my little "hmph" and am in MUCH better spirits about it lol. Vent = refocus lol. I need to remember that when I get stressed! The scale I have is Weight Watchers, glass, it is actually really nice. :D

Nancy - Welcome back! :D :D :D

Heather - Ty for your comments...made me recenter myself a bit. :D

***
Well I'm in better spirits this evening. Had my meeting today, threw on makeup, got all dressed up, threw on my hose and heels and went for it. It went well...I can actually walk better in my shoes now lol. I remember when I got them they would make my feet turn red if I stood too long. I also was heavier then, so I think I just fit into them better and I can actually walk better in them, so that is nice. :D I'm not sure I can wear them every day, or would, but it is nice to know I can wear some friggin' heels every once in awhile and they aren't even a high heel either. Kind of in between.

I did do my walk today, brisk short walk, but I had a certain amount of time to fit it in and made myself get up for it. :P Unfortunately my stupid BC pills are making me ill (started a new pack) and it hit me hard today, so I'm hoping that tomorrow I can get my walk in before I take them. No worries though, I totally expect the nausea and know what to do. Going to do two laps around, 60 minutes, with a tiny bit of jogging. Whoop Whoop! :D

I hope everyone is well. *HUGS*

Jacquie -- Glad to help. I think we all let the scale get to us more than we should sometimes!!

Nancy -- Good to see you back! Sounds like you've identified the next issue for you to get a handle on. When I get off track, I have to baby-step to get things back under control!

WELCOME BACK NANCY!!!

I have soooooooooooooooo missed ya!!!

Hi everyone!

Well... my weight is up 3 lbs. Oops. No choice but to get right back on it though, right?
I have about a week's worth of smart for life cookies. Not the most nutritious and they taste like ****, but I think I am going to do it for a week just so I can get back to where I was.

The psychiatrist gave me klonopin which is really helping with the anxiety, but I think I might need a higher dose. She said I probably won't feel 'okay' until at least Christmas :( She is starting me on Zoloft soon as well. She did say it doesb't cause anywhere near the weight gain that Risperdal does though. *sigh*

I can do this right?

I see my friend/mentor tomorrow, and hopefully she will give me a pep talk. My mom was back from Florida tonight and I met her for dinner, and she was playing off my anxiety. My pastor invited me over for Christmas dinner, and my mom sai she would probably forget. And also that she said she would come to my graduation, and my mom said she probably wouldn't come to the convocation because it's too long, which kind of made me feel sad because I really hoped she would be there. I wanted my grandpa to be there in the audience, but he passed away a few months ago, so it would be lovely to hav e S there supporting me.

*sigh*

She said she would definitely come back for my grad but not sure if she meant the convocation or just to take me out for supper or something.

The things I obsess about...

Please guys promise me I can get back on track. I am feeling helpless and hopeless about everything in my life right now.

You can ABSOLUTELY do this!! Just think one day (or even one meal) at a time!!! Think about all the reasons you want and need it, and how all the little changes add up!!

Pink - I have often been within that feeling and you know we ALL struggle. I definitely struggle. I'm not one of those people who can report losing 100+ pounds in a year. Nope. I'm one of those people who struggled, working on their issues and then as I did that the weight would come off. However, that also meant I have moments or time periods where I do things that are counter productive or hurtful to myself. Like emotionally eating, which I still do, but not as much as I used to. I also have found that it isn't comforting enough, yet I still do it at times. I always stall or gain when I do that and the thing is I never question that I WILL lose my weight, it is a matter of WHEN.

Heather is right, you can do this and taking one day at a time or even one meal as she says is a good idea. Not only is it positive, but you won't get overwhelmed. When I'm in my most positive moments I'm just living...I don't fixate on the scale, I don't fixate on my weight, I just eat and live and grow. When I start to get negative, that is when I struggle and then I have to take the time to work that through. It isn't wasted time either...it is valuable time that I work on myself from within and then I can refocus. Hopefully that makes sense...

You can totally do this. *HUGS*

Nancy HI!!!! SO good to 'see' you, did the thread asking where you were spur you into coming back? You have been missed so much, I've often wondered where you were & what you were up to.xxxxxxxxxx
I lost 1lb, not sad, not happy, a loss is better then a gain, feeling okay,. I'm sure that the HRT is helping me feel more energetic.
Pink hope you are feeling a bit better now, boy the amount of times I've fallen off the diet waggon. You CAN do it!!!! You'd better do it or I may have to send my boys 'round!!!!!! LOL they would wear you out so you're too tired to eat, lolxxxxxxx
xxxxxsharon

PINK: you can do this..but try and take small steps. When I started trying to loose that is what i did. I am sort of an all or nothing person, and that would lead me to getting mad if I didnt do it "all". Then after comming here and gettting to know these ladies, I decided to take things in small steps. So I started with smaller things like..only 1 soda at work..instead of 2. I started bringing my lunch to work and only eating out once a week. I think sometimes we want to jump in with both feet and have the all or nothing attitude. We didnt get this heavy overnight..it took time...we didnt eat healthy all our lives then one day start eating crap! It took time..years for some of us.

So start with the small..embrace those goals..don't worry about the up and down scale! You can do it!!

Good morning ladies...today is a good day! I just finished my 55 min extreme fit workout and i feel great..my husband told me last night that every week he is seeing changes in me...and last but not least the scale this morning says that i have lost 2.5 lbs of the 5 lbs that i gained last week ( i think some of that was water weight from TOM cause it showed up this week) and i still have 4 days before i weight in cause mondays are my new weigh-in day and i would really like to lose another 2.5 lbs but we will see what happens i will be happy as long as i lose something this week!

Well, gotta run talk to you girls later
Heather

Finished Day 18 of the Shred! :) I'm really proud of myself for keeping up with it! I've even gotten my Mom into it, and she's been doing it the last 10 days with me. We weighed her and I got her a meal/calorie plan, and she's going to try losing the weight with me. She has a lot less to lose (she weighs 222, and wants to get to 130), but it'll be nice to have that support system there with me working out with me, etc. And apparently, I'd make a good drill sergeant. Haha. She said that, at least. We haven't been following the actual 30 day shred DVD, but I have the entire workout memorized, and we just do it exactly as it is on the DVD, but with me instructing, so that's interesting. But we add in a few extra minutes of cardio, to bump it from 27 mins to 30 mins. :)

I found out I'll be doing TWO Internship locations this semester! My first one starts on Wednesday, at the Prosecutor's Office. I'm excited, but nervous.

Nancy - Can I just say how THRILLED I am that you're back?! ;) No one is here to judge, but I know how hard it can be to admit that we've fallen off track, etc. I lost that 75 lbs, and then gained it all back...PLUS 30 lbs. In only a year, I gained 105 lbs. I was ashamed, and felt horrendous. But I finally made the choice to own up to it, and just get right back to it. I've lost that 30 that I'd gained, so now to tackle the rest!

Hey there chicks :D

kayleystar: I have a question for you! It's a little embarrassing, hope you don't mind. I have tried three times to do the 30 day shred. Each time I pop in the dvd and in a few minutes just shut the thing off. Here is why: My errmm "girls" will not stay in place!! Also, I have an apron below my middle from having kids and it will not stay in place either. I get this flapping sound when I jump and honestly, I know it will eventually go away, but it just makes me feel silly and I end up half laughing and feeling stupid because I sound like a bird trying to get off the ground and take flight! :lol: I have tried wearing a bra too small for me to harness the girls. Any ideas on what I can do.. particular sports bras or workout pants that can help me out here? I really want to do that thing, but unless I am completely alone (which I never am), at this point I just can't do it.

Any tips? All tips are appreciated. :yes:

hey girls...just wanted to pop on here and tell you guys about my NSV today...

its not a big deal but then again it is...i had to buy some underwear today at the store in a smaller size cause the ones im wearing are starting to slide down my belly while working out or walking and that just drives me nuts so im really excited!!! ( i know im lame :) )

Ok, so wave number two :wave::wave:

Again, I am so touched people missed me. :)

Yesterday and so far today have been really good. I stopped at the store on my way home from work and got all good choices - chicken, salad fixings and some frozen veggies and I am all set for a couple of days.

Hi guys! I have been sleeping for the past couple of days. The anti-anxiety meds have totally wiped me out. I still have a bunch of work that is late.

My mom is making me anxious, she's so critical about me being involved in church stuff. I'm studying for ministry and she hates religion. She keeps discouraging me from doing the things that make me feel better and it makes me incredibly anxious.

pink: sorry that your having such a rough time (HUGS)

Nancy: yes you are missed silly. What have you been up to?

hb: congrats on the smaller panties!!! That happened to me a few months back..nothing worse then saggin undies lol

Kayley: that is great that your mom is loosing with you. I now live near my aunt who wants to loose weight too as soon as these stitches are gone..its on lol. ( SHE IS SORT OF A DRILL SGT TOO LOL)

As for me: I found out my brother is joining us for our halloween/birthday bash. My hubby is in law enforcement..and lets just say my brother has been in trouble before so he doesnt care for "those people" so he made a big stink about staying up in his room cause he didnt want to hang with hubbys buddies. Now I guess he has changed his tune. I am sure my sister said something to him about being a wining a** baby lol. Either way..I am partying lol

Today for dinner I am meeting the girls from work for dinner. It is one of their birthdays. We are going to olive garden. I will have the soup and salad..and yes a few breadsticks lol

Day 19 finished. :D Not much else going on my way. Just been super busy with school and whatnot. Weigh in is tomorrow, looking forward to it. Mom's going to weigh in as well, and see if she's lost anything. We just weighed her 3 days ago, so maybe not a whole lot, but anything is better than nothing. :)

HotWings - Well, I don't have much in the boobage department, despite being fat...lol. So it really hasn't been a huge problem for me. The first time I did it, the bouncing did hurt quite a bit, so I doubled up on the sports bras, and now I'm good. Again, I only have a C/D cup. The lower apron bit, I honestly have no idea how you could deter that from happening. I have it as well, but it seems to be 'hard' if that makes sense, instead of a flabby apron, like it used to be. Maybe try some lower support garments? I'm sorry I can't be much more of a help. :( But I hope you find something that works for you, becuase it is such a great workout!

Heather hb - I had to do the same thing about 3 weeks ago. Progress is progress! :)

For everyone having trouble, just remember baby steps. You can't change everything at once. It takes 6 weeks to 6 months to change a bad habit or add a new good habit.

TGIF!!! :wave::wave::wave:

I did come back because of the post. There are two people here who got in touch with me on my Livejournal and let me know about the post.

I haven't been up to all that much recently. I broke up with my boyfriend in August after a little over a year. It was my choice. I just didn't think we ended up being compatible in a couple of really important areas. I am at the same job, which is stable and still have the same apartment. I got two cute little cats because I figure if I am single and over 35 I ought to start the transformation into crazy cat lady. :D

Hi guys, How are you all tonight? I am feeling ill from medication withdrawal. I am alternating between sitting here shivering and napping in my bed with the dogs. I have no appetite. I have probably had about 800 calories at the most today, bt I should probably force myself to eat something. I emailed some personal trainers, and none of them have gotten back to me. I guess none of them want to work with a morbidly obese chick. Sometimes the world frustrates me so badly. I still don't feel well enough to do any homwork, but I have emailed my profs and got nice responses back from 3 of them --- the 4th one is the one I m worried about because I have had a run-in with his TA in another class.

IT's friday night, and sometimes I wish I was out partying. I am cold and shivering and want to stay comfortable, but sometimes I miss getting all gussied up and going out. I don't remember when the last time I put on lipstick was.

Hopefully will feel better tomorrow, because I really need to get these stupid bloody assignments done. Pot luck at church tomorrow, but not sure I really feel p to it.

What stores do you guys want to shop at when you get down to your GW? I am starting to daydream and look at clothes. I really really want a Betsey Johnson graduation dress, if I ever get that low. xoxo

I am pretty proud of me, we went to dinner out, I had a couple bites of my favorite molten cake and passed the plate to someone else - and I've been binge free today, ... I hope it means I can get it back under control one day at a time

Just checking in here before I head out shopping & out to lunch (going to this awesome salad bar we love).

Anyhow, I lost 3 lbs this week, bringing me down to 347; 17 lbs until my second goal. Yay! And my Mom lost 3 lbs as well. :) She was pretty ecstatic. Hehe.

Have a wonderful Saturday, everyone! I may or may not be around later, as it's my boyfriend's 25th Birthday today! :)

Hi all...just a quick drive by...i did my extreme fit workout today for 1 hr and 40 mins and i feel great and getting ready cause my g/f is coming over tonight to visit so im having a pretty good day and then i found out when i came online from yahoo that debbie stabenow is going to the senate next week to work on getting another unemployment extension for michigan which is really needed we are one of the highest states for unemployment we are at 15.3% and i am unfortunately one of those people out of work and i hope she can get the extension cause mine is coming to an end soon and if it does and there isnt another extension or i dont find a job ( i have been looking for one realllly hard) then some things may happen that i dont want to happen when it runs out ( long story) but anyway so keeping my fingers crossed that the senate will put it thru!

talk to you later girlz
have a great saturday
Heather

Quick post...

Well I'm happy to report my weight has FINALLY started to go down and thank GOODNESS. I did step on the scale for the biggest loser thread, did my weigh-in today and now I'm hovering between 265-268. I think I'm still a bit bloated and things, but not as bad. I swear I have like two weeks where I'm normal. I'm on my new pack of BC pills and thank goodness I'm past the first week in two days as they make me tired and sick. I have been exercising, finally, but only did 5 days this week as I was too nauseated the other day. I'm lacking some energy, trying to find a way around that. I really think it is the pills. Once the next week starts I'll be leveled off I think and fine. Just happy to be leveling off now...

Hope everyone is well. :D *HUGS*

Congrats on the weight loss ladies and *HUGS* to those who are struggling or bloated like I was lol. *HUGS*

Hey chicks :D

Congrats to all those that have lost weight this week! :cheer: :cheer:

hbieber: I have been following the unemployment reports - I know it is terribly rough in Michigan right now. :( I hope you find work soon - it is really hard to make ends meet on unemployment - we were where you are about 6 months ago!

NotTheCheat: :lol: I thought I would be a crazy cat lady, too! I didn't meet my husband until I was 34.

kayleystar: Thank you so much for responding to my questions! Yesterday I bought what I think should be a good sports bra and some support underwear in a size smaller than what I think I needed.. hopefully that will keep everything in place. Now I just need to get my courage up to pop in that DVD again. :lol:

I am down a total of 4 pounds this week! But, sadly, it's unlikely that I will meet my Halloween mini goal in my signature. I would have to lose 7 pounds in the next week. I am going to try and get as close as possible, though! :yes:

Ok, i took a new picture tonight and i put on a green shirt so that you would be able to tell if there is a difference tonight and if you compare the pictures side by side ( the one wear i am wearing a black top is a couple months ago and the green top one was just taken a few minutes ago) i can really tell a difference in my stomach area..yeah! I had a bad week last week and gained 5 lbs and as of this morning i have lost 4 lbs but my official weigh-in isnt until monday morning..so look at the pictures and tell me what you think ok? thanks!

hbieber2006 I can definitely see it in your stomach as well, it goes to a solid round area further in - more shaping, also smaller on the bottom part of the stomach as well. Congratulations! you can do it, keep going!

Plus, I don't know if you noticed, but you used to be slightly wider than the brown door behind you and now you just fit in it - a definite change!

OMG you are right lostbutstilltrying i didnt notice that about the brown door..im feeling sooo good thank you! for pointing that out to me i didnt even notice that when i was looking at it..that is a great achievement too!

thank you!
Heather

^^ You are more trim. You can tell in your upper body, I believe you are apple shaped? :) :D

You know personally, I don't think I really "see" my changes when I look at myself or photos. I know they are there, but it is hard for us to see ourselves like other people do!

thank you ladies...when i first took those pictures last night i didnt see a difference but then when i put them side by side i could see the stomach and now this morning when lostbutstilltrying pointed out the brown door then i could really see it so thank you very much ladies for your compliments!

hb: you look great..you can see a difference for sure.

as for me: HORMONES running high here. I cried alot yesterday. UGH! TOM is comming. Atleast NOW I know what the crying is about. We went and played cards at my aunts last night. I didnt take my brother..didnt even say a word to him about going. I decided..we meaning my sons and hubby were going to go. Well my sis called asked where I was cause my brother didnt know. SO I told her and I guess she called him back and told him. He was a little pissy cause I didnt ask him if he wanted to go. UGH! Now he doesnt know if he is going to the halloween party. I am about to cancel the whole thing and just go up North lol. Living with people is hard..I am trying to make it work. Atleast til November of next year. That is when my brothers criminal record can be squashed and he can find a place to live. Funny how we dont find about anything major..just all the little things.

Today is football..yeah! I think we are going to my sisters to watch it. We shall see if my brother goes or if he is just gonna be a numbnut!

Heyyy hello to you all...I maintained this week, which is ok with me :) I am happy if I either maintain or lose as that’s me headed in the right direction...

Had a sweet NSV today tho! I found a bag with uk size 24 (think that is US 22 u will know better than me!) that I have had for years, there were 2 really nice tops I wanted to get in and a pair of jeans I've not worn for 5 years..anyway at my biggest I was a UK s28 and recently went into a s26, however I got in the tops and the jeans and honestly I was stunned!!!

It feels sooo good and I really can see the ‘light’ weight wise and feel that losing this 35 pounds, altho still obviously a long way to go, I just feel so much better about myself nowadays. Living is easier and doing my job as a nurse so much easier. So it feels so so so good.
Any of you struggling, I would say keep going, because for me getting 35 pounds off has made such a huge huge difference to me, you don't need to lose a hundred to feel better, really u don't.

Annie – Hope you are doing ok, how did the rehab go? Have u found out any more news?

ACyn - So glad yr surgery went ok and u seem to have bounced back really well. Sorry about family stress...can’t live with em, can’t live without em methinks! X

HBieber2006 – well done on your weight loss and agree u can see it on the pics, keep going and keep taking the pics as it comes off :)

Kayleystar – well done on yr internships, I hope they are really interesting for you...you are really working hard and I’m sure it will all pay off in the future well done also on yr weight loss, reaching that 30 pound off goal, and roping yr ma in as well can only help :) Well done for all your hard work and efforts in yr life, you are an inspirational young woman :)

Hotwings – for flappy boobs and tummy I would just say the tightest underwear u can manage and still breathe will lead to less flapping about which can be distracting to say the least lol!! I really really hate that sound and i always tend to wear support type underwear to keep my saggy tum in check! X

Nancy – great to see u back :) really pleased I did miss u. The cats sound lovely, sorry yr relationship didn’t work out for u permanently , but who knows what life will bring u!! Sorry u have gained some weight, it is such a bind when that happens, but think we have all been there, and how u deal with the setbacks is the key to long term weight management, so good to see u back on board.

Jacquie – well done on the scales dipping and showing a lower weight, yr b/control pills really mess u about don’t they? I was the same, but had a total hysterectomy at 32, so no more of that for me thank goodness...but it is a pain. Keep on doing what yr doing, as its working ;)

Catherine – exciting news about the transport/car situation, brilliant well done! Must feel good to have wheels again!!

Sharon – Hiya! Well done on the pound off!! Glad the hrt is making u feel better too and hubby spoiling u in the card shop, how nice :) xx My first week at work was great, I think I am going to love district nursing! Its great, loads to learn too x

Hippiemama – well done on yr weight loss and exercise, sounds like u are doing really well, and the healthy cooking sounds yum!

Pinkflamingo – I feel for you with yr various anxiety issues, it really is not nice feeling like that. You are the best person to fight your way out of this if you can find the belief in yourself and start tackling issues one by one and making a small amount of progress every day in different areas of your life, you will be amazed at how your life can change to something you could never have imagined. The key is small achievable steps. Believe in yourself and get yr mind as straight as u can and move forward. Positive Mental Attitude can be cultivated from within. Good luck x

Well that’s me for now, we are on hols this week, so visiting grandparents tomorrow for the day and midweek we are off to Alton Towers, a big theme park with Halloween themed rides etc, we are staying overnight in the hotel, which has been very expensive – but should be FUN!! :)

Be good, believe in yourselves xxxx

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