Hi lovely ladies of maintenance
My situation is unusual, but I think you guys have plenty of experience with body image issues, so I'm putting it out there.
A little bio on me: I'm 21, a fulltime student majoring in history and working part-time at a bakery/cafe. When in high school, I developed anorexia and spent most of my senior year at home or in the hospital. My lowest weight at this time was about 73 lbs (I'm 5'1"). After I got out of the hospital, I fluctuated, but usually maintained about 85 lbs., give or take. Everyone started telling me how great and healthy I looked...but the thing was, I was still underweight, and my doctors wanted me to gain 15 lbs or so. I'm around87-89 now, which is still underweight by BMI standards. And though I'm small-boned and could probably be healthy at under 100, I feel like everyone is used to me this way and thinks I look normal, and if I gain to a healthy weight I'll look "chubby". Part of this is just my eating disorder talking, but I do have a real fear of people wondering "Why did she gain weight? She already looked fine."
I know y'all are not ED experts or anything, but I know many of you have dealt with the "what will people think" issue and might have some chickie words of wisdom.